What kind of bad thoughts can Mr. Xiao have?

Chapter 46 Chapter 45
"go away!"

Meng Keshu didn't fall into this Zhuyeqing's trap, kicked his shoulders away and curled up on the bed hugging the pillow, keeping a distance from him warily.

"Okay, take it easy, little moon."

Li Kong retracted under the bed with his hands behind his back, and only rested his head on the edge of the bed, as if he was watching a poisonous bamboo snake waiting to attack, spitting out a letter hissing.

She can't see through him all the time, she just senses the danger instinctively, so she doesn't want to let him approach.Their experience is too far apart, she can't guess his thoughts, and she can't trust him.

It's just that the weaker and more docile creatures will always have more precise intuition than predators.

This is probably the only sympathy given to her by the tilted balance of the heavens, so that she can always find the person who is destined to be entangled with her for the rest of her life as soon as possible in every situation that makes her feel uneasy.

It's okay if you want to explain it rationally, Li Kong is a lunatic, even if she escapes to the ends of the earth, unless she becomes another person's canary, she will never escape Sijun Xuanyu's grasp.

Even after his hard-earned conscience was worn away by the long wait, what awaited her might be a fate worse than life.

It's just that her compromise is based on another reason, which may sound ridiculous to outsiders: she feels that in his heart, even if there is only a little bit, he loves her.

Just like in her heart, even when she hated him the most, hated him the most, and pitied him the most, there was still a little love hidden in her heart, only for him.

She is this kind of person, this kind of kind to stupid, nostalgic to paranoid person.As long as it is something she has identified, the feelings she has identified, no matter how unrecognizable the situation is in the end, she will not erase that little bit of goodness from her heart.

Some people's growth is like constantly shedding their shells, constantly changing their past selves, constantly denying them, and constantly growing a new self.

But there are also people who are like bamboo joints. Even if it seems that there is no shadow of the past at first glance, if you gently separate the soil under her feet, you can still see her never-changing obsession.

They are actually so similar.It's just that the person he falls in love with will be regarded as a god by him, and he will worship and entangle him all his life.And the person she fell in love with, as long as he still has a little old appearance, then she will love him.

She is his bright moon, and she is also the emerald bamboo that he pulls into the mortal world, entangles her up, and lives and dies together.

In his soul, there is a dark bamboo forest that only she can see, and because he is no longer needy, he pulls out the bamboo roots, follows her shadow, and turns into a green bamboo leaf that sees blood and seals his throat.

"I want to know about your past."

She put forward her request frankly, because her instinct told her that he would definitely answer well.

"Before I was imprisoned by you, I only saw you once, at the Banshan Pavilion." The yearning and memories that could not be hidden appeared between her eyebrows, which made him fascinated.

For him, that was already a time like a lifetime ago, and it seems strange and inappropriate for him to mention it now.

But in her gentle and gentle voice, he was like a pet lazily leaning against her bed after being calmed down from his constant rage, his eyes were no longer hostile, and he had regained the state of mind at that moment.

"I just know that you are a lunatic, and it's not easy to hear your truth. I can tell you all the thoughts I have ever had, and then you tell me your story, is it fair?"

She lay down with her pillow in her arms, and talked to him well, just like talking to a ferocious beast that might explode and hurt people at any time:
"You have to be good, okay?"

"Why do you want to hear my story? I wasn't born like this, so my past, you must feel...dirty."

But this atmosphere was so beautiful, so good that he couldn't bear to pierce her expectations with any selfishness.

"Li Kong, your name sounds nice."

She didn't answer directly, but every word and every sentence of her made him dare not interrupt, wishing that every word and every sentence could be engraved in his mind.

The scene he had been looking forward to just happened in front of his eyes. She neither complained nor hated. The two of them could talk peacefully, and neither of them planned to escape.

"It doesn't sound good... your name sounds the best."

He subconsciously denied her praise, and felt that this was too ignorant, so he hurriedly added that it was also his sincere words.

"It sounds good, you still named me indiscriminately?"

She didn't know how vivid the glance she gave her was. This short meeting allowed him to see the most vivid little moon all the time. He unconsciously rubbed in her direction, like a cold-blooded creature instinctively Move closer to heat source.

"No, I didn't name it randomly..."

There was a flash of disappointment on his expression.

"I just think your family is not good, they just want to marry you to Yan Weiguang... Neither the surname 'Meng' nor the word 'Ke' belong to you, only 'Shu' does.

I've asked, your name comes from 'Wangshu', so you are my little moon...... I'm sorry, I don't seem to have asked you if you like it, if you don't want to, I won't call you that. "

Meng Keshu regained the anger he had just seen when he was submissive, as if the two had reached a symbiotic agreement of strength and weakness, when one side showed weakness, the other would push forward.

The ground was still cold, and Li Kong had already started to tremble slightly.She sat up suddenly, kicked off her embroidered shoes, shrank into the bed and patted the seat next to her:
"It's cold on the ground, come up."

"No."

He shook his head, lowered his eyes and pointed to the dirt on his body:
"I'm dirty and I'll stain your bed. And it's not appropriate."

"Can't you just take off your coat?"

Meng Keshu thinks about this kind of thing very openly:

"There is nothing inappropriate. Although you are annoying, you will not take advantage of others."

Besides, he never really did anything to her three years ago, so what is there to worry about now?

Sijun Xuanyu's official robes were either black or white, and Li Kong sat cross-legged at the end of the bed in white, obviously keeping the distance within a range that made her feel comfortable.

"If...you were once such a gentleman, maybe we wouldn't have come to this point."

She looked up at him.

"You can call me whatever you want, but you know so much about me, why do you force me? You know that I hate that the most."

"I..." He wanted to explain something.

"Listen to me. I always feel that the answer to what a person will look like can be found in the person's life trajectory.

I hate my father for being ungrateful and ungrateful for making me and my mother miserable, so once I identify someone, I won't change it.

I said your name sounds nice, and I really mean it.

When I saw you in the Banshan Pavilion that year, I thought, he was so handsome, and he played the piano so well, if there is a chance to see you again, maybe...

It's a pity that my father and elder brother decided to marry me to Marquis Dingyuan. At that time, I almost went crazy, but I thought, I don't even know your name. People don't know anyone.

Later, something happened in the family. Although I probably knew that my father and brother had sinned deeply, I still felt that there was nothing unforgivable in the family.I didn't expect that I would meet you in Nanlin Mansion. "

Li Kong tentatively laid his pillow on her lap, she just cast her eyes for a moment, and then continued to talk, he hooked the corners of his mouth with joy, not only for her admitted love for him, but also for her permission.

"I just found out that your name is Li Kong. At that time, I thought, it turns out that the name of the person I'm thinking of is so nice, even if we have no fate, it is God's mercy to see you again."

She shook her head to herself, as if she was lamenting the innocence that she still foolishly held until that day.

"I know what's next..."

He didn't want to hear her comment on the evil things he did to her in such a careless tone as if narrating other people's stories, and he didn't want her to recall the half a year, and break up the feelings towards him that had been gathered with great difficulty. indulge.

She pampered him because of her previous heartbeat, and forgave his crimes.But he wondered if she would easily take back that tenderness.

Because when she loved him the most, he didn't even have any perception, but when he could respond to her, he chose to imprison and plunder.

"Yes, you know. So it's up to you, tell me who you really are, and why you are who you are now."

"I have a family too."

Li Kong turned over and stopped looking into her eyes, and murmured to the ceiling.

"My father is a bamboo craftsman. Bamboo craftsman, do you know? It's the kind of craftsman who uses moso bamboo to make utensils."

He seemed to have been waiting for such an opportunity to confide, firmly grasping to clean up his past in one go.

"He is very powerful. When I was a child, I often watched him make those fine and expensive furniture in the main room. He can send me to school with this skill. Do you think he is very good?"

"Great."

She hooked his fingers to lend him some strength.

"correct."

He sighed, turned around and wrapped her hand in his palm, smiled wryly and continued.

"But my mother thinks he is stupid, because Shuxiu is almost half of my family's income, and I may not pass the exam. It's a pity my father's craftsmanship."

"and after?"

She moved closer, because his voice was getting softer, as if to open the prologue of all his tragedies.

"Later, when my father went into the mountains to pick bamboo, he encountered a ferocious beast... There were not many bones left."

He took a few deep breaths, Meng Keshu accidentally raised his other hand and touched his face, he looked at her without blinking, then leaned over and grabbed her hand and pressed it to his heart, like peeling Like winter bamboo shoots without a layer of shell, there is no calculation at all.

"My mother told me that she would take me out of this place and never come back again. But when we arrived in Fucheng, she told me to wait for her to buy food at the street corner, and then never came back.

I didn't realize until after dark that she didn't want me anymore.

At that time, I didn't feel sad yet, you know, the big principles in the book couldn't teach me how to live, but it made me develop a whole body of stinky problems.

I didn't even want to beg for food, and almost starved to death on the street.When I woke up again, I was already in the brothel.

Originally, the host raised me as a child prostitute. After all, even if I don’t know anything about my face, I can still satisfy the requirements of those guests.

But she found that I had studied and still had a bit of useless arrogance, so she found someone to teach me talents, and told me that as long as I study hard, I can not serve others with sex, but just be a nobleman.

I believed it, again.

In fact, she clearly... thinks that I am a rare commodity, so I will definitely be able to sell it for a higher price.I really thought that I supported myself by playing the piano, and I didn't feel sorry for the books my father gave me to read.

Then, you should have guessed it too.I ran into Yan Weiguang.

Little Moon... I don't want to, I never want to. "

Li Kong grabbed her hand and covered his eyes, Meng Keshu's palm was hot and humid, and he was crying.

"It hurts, it hurts so much every time, but I have nothing left, I dare not die, I'm afraid I will be thrown into the garden covered in maggots.

I can't escape either, because I am a complete scumbag, he let me appear at his banquet, let me meet the previous guests, I thought they were my confidantes, and would save me from leaving.

But you know, they didn't want to save me at all, they even tore my clothes, saying they want to see if I can still be upright now! "

His voice stopped abruptly here, breathing heavily like a fish out of water, as if completely defeated by memories, and seemed to use inhalation to cover up his grief.

"Alright, Li Kong."

She lowered her body and pillowed on his lap, completely encircling him in front of her and completely surrounded by him.

The room was quiet, he never let go of her hand, and she had no intention of taking it back.

Until he stopped crying, and when he opened his eyes to look at her, he saw that she also burst into tears.

"it's already over."

"Has it all passed?"

"It's all over, all."

Princess Jiarou's mansion.

Wei Huaien's birthday gift was originally a difficult thing for Xiao Qi.

He doesn't have much private property, except for the two years of patrolling the northern border, he has always had the necessary salary drawn from various Xuanyu officials, and all the rest of his income has been incorporated into the income of the princess mansion.

It can be said that anything he wants to give to Wei Huai'en, either needs to be withdrawn from the private treasury of the Princess Mansion, or it will be recorded in the register when he enters the mansion, and sent to Wei Huai'en via Shui Jing Daily Daily.

Strictly speaking, there is no distinction between public and private, so that Wei Huai'en never knew whether those things were sent by Xiao Qi through the motorcade back to Beijing, or Xiao Qi thought those things were good, so he went to the Princess Mansion to buy them from the public account for her.

Xiao Qi did it on purpose.

However, although this kind of indiscriminate relationship with her could satisfy him a lot, he encountered difficulties when thinking about how to prepare for surprises.

Because he wants to buy expensive things, Wei Huai'en can completely think that it is her money, which shows that he is not sincere enough or serious enough.

Other exquisite but worthless things, in his opinion, are not worthy of Wei Huai'en, who has been piled up by him with gold and jade.

Although he knew that Wei Huai'en would not care about these things with him, it was because he cared too much about her that he was worried about gains and losses, and no matter how he planned it, it was wrong.

Before returning to Beijing, he had been planning for this matter, and it wasn't until he had a deep conversation with Qing Yun, the servant next to Princess Jiafu, that he confirmed what gift he wanted to give her the most.

A closer relationship, is it enough?

　Li Kong, you are really good
　　Xiao Qi plans to branch out tomorrow
　　Of course I have a battle to fight with the review lol
　　Ticket comments help Xiao Qi
　　
　
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