What kind of bad thoughts can Mr. Xiao have?

Chapter 45 Chapter 44
Mingzhou,
The story of falling in love at first sight is absolutely impossible to be as beautiful as it is told in the storybook. This is the truth that Meng Keshu had vaguely perceived, and the truth that he has personally practiced after experiencing this experience of skinning and tearing apart.

But she has always known that she is not a free and easy person, she can't learn to be the willful freedom of those knights in the rivers and lakes, and she can't deny her feelings.

In this world, some people are hard-hearted, some are cynical, some are aloof, and some are obsessed with obsession.

There must always be someone who is the softest and kindest part of all living beings in order to maintain each individual.

It may be said that they are naturally accustomed to dedication, or that they are obsessed with ignorance, but everyone who has fetters with them has to admit that they are the most gentle water in the world.

Mother kept herself in self-denial all her life, but she still couldn't escape being neglected by her father, so that she became disheartened and depressed.The father pretends to be a gentleman, but in fact he secretly hooks up with Marquis Dingyuan, bringing disaster to the family.

The elder brother is not enterprising and does a lot of evil.The stepmother and the sisters are in the same boat, talking honey and swords.In fact, there was absolutely no one in that family worthy of Meng Keshu's nostalgia, not to mention that they were all to blame.

She lived in Mingzhou for three years before she realized what kind of cocoon she lived in. She couldn't see the suffering in the world, and she couldn't hear the crying of the people.

Even though she didn't want to admit it, the fact is that Li Kong pulled her out of a desperate life that was doomed to be filthy.

She should have married Marquis Ding Yuan to consolidate the powerful alliance, and she should have died in that completely unbearable dirty backyard.

But what did she do wrong in her life to end up in such a field?
She is indeed like a bright moon, she will never have the heart to blame anyone, including Li Kong.

Li Kong never left her life, nor gave up on her surveillance, she knew it all.But she couldn't understand why he was so persistent, even though her life was like a stagnant water, it was like this every day without any change.

Why hasn't he lost interest in himself?

Si Jun of Yizi Camp shouldn't have such leisurely thoughts on her.

But she knows why.

Although absurd, the momentary heartbeat in the Banshan Pavilion is real.

There may be more than one time, more than one person in the world.But those endings that can last forever are just because two people love themselves too much and are unwilling to let go of the self-confidence they believed at that moment.

That's why Meng Keshu lost her composure when she saw the piano score, because she couldn't accept that Li Kong never forgot that day from the beginning to the end.He is forcing her to face up to their beginning, he is asking her:

"What if we start over?"

If she wasn't the lady in the boudoir who was assigned her destiny.

If he wasn't a backyard boy who had his self-esteem crushed.

The sound of the piano is Lingling, only playing the sound of the heart.

If you have fallen in love with my soul from the very beginning, if I have only you as my bosom friend.Then why can't we be together?
"Little Moon, do you want to see me?"

Li Kong pushed open the door of her room and stood cautiously at the door.Meng Keshu's thoughts returned, and he met his eyes.

"You've changed a lot."

Her voice was also extremely calm, and the two fell silent like this, but their eyes never separated.

His description was a bit embarrassing, perhaps because he hurriedly finished what he was doing and rushed over as soon as he got the news from the guards.A few strands of hair fell out of the crown, and the stubble on the chin was not clean.

She looked over carefully, and even vaguely saw the mud marks on his temples.

He must have fallen in the snow, and the black riding clothes were wet with dark stains and stained with the mud under the snow.

Li Kong stood there helplessly, not knowing how to answer to make her feel comfortable, to let her allow him to stay here and talk to her.

He wasn't even sure if that "little moon" would annoy her, or should it be better to call Miss Meng?
He didn't prepare at all, he had already given up hope on those few sheet music, but he didn't expect that she would suddenly want to see him today.

"I……"

"you……"

The two opened their mouths at the same time, and then closed their mouths in embarrassment.

"What does Master Li want to say?"

She got up from the chair, poured a cup of hot tea and put it on the table closer to him, then retreated back and sat on the couch, her tone was still flat, which made Li Kong feel hesitant.

"I want to say..."

He wanted to talk too much, he wanted to ask her why she wanted to see him, was she still willing to give him a chance, and wanted to ask her if she was doing well, even though the guards sent him briefings every day.

But he was like a fool who was suddenly landed on the tip of his nose by a butterfly, not knowing how to avoid disturbing her wings.

"You can call me Li Kong, you don't have to call me Sir..."

His voice dropped, and his haggard face became even more dull with the exhaustion of running around.

Meng Keshu took all these changes into his eyes, and felt that he was extremely strange for a moment.

He couldn't see the pure piano player in the pavilion, he couldn't see the high-spirited Si Jun who appeared in Nanlin, and he couldn't see the mean and vicious villain who locked her in the house.

His whole body was fragile and careful, as if she was a mean hostess who didn't allow visitors to walk around and dirty her ground.

Is this one of his tricks to make her let her guard down?
She habitually thinks of the worst of him, but if he still wants to use that trick and coercion, why let her go for three years?
"Li Kong."

Not knowing where the discomfort of seeing him like this came from, she agreed to his plea for address.

"Have some tea, it's cold outside."

He glanced at her quickly, the rekindled light in his eyes seemed to be that young man again.Li Kong stretched out his hand to clink the cups, but seeing the dirt on his palm, he withdrew his hand again.

He cared too much about the eyes of the other party, and was too worried about making the other party dissatisfied. He was so clumsy that he made Meng Keshu angry.

She thought that if she took the initiative to see him, he would have the illusion that his heart had softened, and would make her face a proud Li Kong, and he would say triumphantly:
"Look, you can't leave me."

Like any canary owner who releases a bird out of the cage and laughs at a canary that returns home, consider today's meeting a victory.

She had prepared everything for the worst situation, thinking of one set of words after another, thinking about how to make him have a peaceful talk with her, but he just appeared in front of her like this ?
She didn't know that she was like a god to him, and his soul was divided into two, one was a fanatical believer who clamored to imprison her by his side, and the other was a martyr who was extremely humble just to glimpse her holy light.

Two strands of consciousness are vying for control of this body, each with its own ideas to face her.

So he was out of his mind, submissive, thinking that any word or action of her would be magnified countless times in front of his ears, making him unable to calm his chaotic heart.

She took his hand.

The two petals of the soul suddenly died and were silent. He was as clever as a puppet, moving with her movements, leaving only a pair of clear eyes and his own thoughts, tightly locking her face.

Sweat, blood, and soil were mixed in the lines in his hands. These hands have played the piano and held the sword, but they are so embarrassing.

She kept silent, took him to wash and dry his hands, pushed him to sit on the side of the couch, then took out the medicine box, sprinkled a layer of powder on the scratch, and wrapped it with a white cloth.

The knuckles after washing were like carved works of art, she nodded in satisfaction and stopped holding his hand.

He turned his wrist, as if he had finally regained control of his body, he held her hand tightly with unbreakable strength, and looked up at her:
"Little Moon, you forgive me, don't you?"

The fiery gaze was about to devour her, but she finally found the feeling of confronting the evil spirit.How could he change? The shrinking just now was really an illusion to trick her into letting go of her guard.

"Why, Master Li thinks that I've finally had enough fun and wants to lock me up for you to bully?"

She didn't try to pull out her hand needlessly, but just looked at him sarcastically, mocking him mercilessly, and mocking her former self.

Li Kong let go of her as if being scalded, You put his hands behind his back too much, and apologized with panicked eyes:
"No, no, why do you think of me so much, I said that I will give you freedom, and I will never lock you up again..."

"Then you really set me free!"

Finally, at the moment when his disguise was pierced, Meng Keshu yelled out all his grievances.

"Don't think I don't know! There is no eyeliner you use to spy on me in this Mingzhou city. In the past three years, I have lived under your nose for a moment!
You say this is giving me freedom?You fart!

Li Kong, you are sick, you never want to let me go, am I right! "

Li Kong put his hands behind his back tightly, and his clenched fists also scratched the wound through the white cloth, but he didn't say a word under Meng Keshu's scolding, he just squeezed his lips tightly and looked at her lips. Open and close.

Said it sounded insignificant to him, but to her it was already extremely vulgar scolding.

It was a gesture with his hands behind his back, and he accepted that he was a sinner.

One by one, she needs to clearly explain all the changes he brought to her.

"Yes, I agree with everything you said."

When she had had enough of scolding, he leaned over and knelt down in front of her, and when she backed away in panic, he approached on knees until she fell on the bed, and he leaned in front of her lap, pressing his head on her lap.

It turns out that accepting one's own despicableness and indecentness is much more comfortable than supporting one's domineering and arrogance.

"I'm guilty, I never for a moment didn't regret what I did to you.

But little moon, if you want to scold me, beat me, or even ask me to pay with my life, it's okay for Li Kong to die. "

His hands were still behind his back to let her know that he didn't mean to offend, but he looked at her and kissed her knee lightly through the fabric.

"But you are still willing to see me, I admit that I am watching you, I admit all my evil thoughts. But even if you know, you still want to see me, why, little moon.

I monitor you because even if I am unbearable, even if you hate me and hate me, I can't help but love you, what about you? "

He brushed her legs up like a poisonous snake, half-pressing her on the bed.

"Why are you willing to let me come to see you knowing that I am such a sinner?"

　Meng Keshu: Dirty and shameless
　　Li Kong (dead fish eyes): Yes, so what
　　then shameless

　　
　
(End of this chapter)