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Chapter 74 Why am I so mean?

Jinyue went out on the ninth day after lying down for eight days, it was a spring morning.

The abdomen is still hurting. Although Jinyue also knows that abortion and induced labor will hurt her vitality and she will be confinement, but now she has no energy, she wants to go outside for a walk.

Before getting up, she thought of "cautious and subtle", so she looked at it, but unexpectedly found that her points had already reached 670 points, especially the second function "Experiencing Tribulations", which increased by 500 points.

Jinyue sighed, the price of 500 points was too high.

Everything came back to life, and the bare mountains seemed to be dotted with a few drops of green, and the ice on the small river gradually shattered under the beating of spring, turning into various shapes.

Jinyue feels weak all over, and feels dizzy when walking. Her husband has worked hard these days. In order to take care of Jinyue's emotions, he has been busy inside and outside without complaining.Su Shen has also worked hard. In order to let her mother rest more, she does not go outside to play every day, and takes care of her younger sister seriously.

Although she hurts, she regrets, she can't get out.But the relatives in front of her are more worthy of her cherishment.

Winter goes to spring, year after year, what exactly does time bring to her?Coming to such a place in a daze, she thought she could live a good life with her ability, but all the process and results showed her incompetence.

She really overestimated herself.

She is just a loser in life, a complete loser, a failure in the college entrance examination, a failure in life, and all kinds of failures.

In her previous life, she always thought that her parents did not understand her, and that her mother hurt her self-esteem.

But now she knows that a person with a strong heart has no fear of harm from others. The so-called self-esteem is just an excuse for the weak, and the weak can always find various reasons for themselves.

It was she who ruined her own life, and she was responsible for everything.

God originally gave her a chance to live again, but she was still so ignorant, so cowardly and incompetent.

Before she knew it, she had already walked to the edge of the new yard, and the rough shape of the new yard could already be seen.

Su Laoer was riding on a long bench doing woodwork, when he saw Jinyue, he stopped.

"Why are you here? Your complexion is still so bad. You need to rest more."

"I'm just waiting to be flustered and want to come and have a look."

"Okay, come here, I'll show you something." Second Su took out a piece of paper from the side, walked to Jinyue, pointed to the pattern on it and said to her.

"This is the sketch I drew for our new yard. You see, here is the main house, here is Shen'er and Wei'er's room, this is the kitchen, and here, I am going to build a garden where you can grow your favorite flowers .what do you think?"

Jinyue didn't answer.

Second Su raised his head and saw that Jinyue was already in tears.

"What’s wrong with you?"

Jinyue just shook her head, her poor child...

In the future blueprint, when everything is developing in the best direction, her children cannot participate in it.

The pain is really indescribable.

Of course Su's second child also knew what Jinyue was thinking, not only Jinyue was uncomfortable, but he was also uncomfortable.

Since the Lantern Festival, this nightmare has been with him, his unborn son, the son he misses so much.

In the middle of the night, he always opened his big eyes and his mind went blank. He had never done anything bad in his life, and he really couldn't figure out why God would punish him in such a cruel way.

But Jinyue is already so sad, the family has been shrouded in melancholy, he has to be strong, he has to put all his strength and emotions into the busyness, it seems that only in this way can he forget all this.

Jinyue stayed in the new yard for a while, and the workers yelled. Jinyue felt bored and unable to cope with their jokes, so she went for a walk by the river.

The village she came to by accident has been so deserted as if it hadn't been populated for several years. People are busy all year round but they can only get enough food and clothing. Is this kind of life what she really wants?

She became a mother without knowing any parenting knowledge, and her child's education depends entirely on her feelings. Is this kind of parent-child relationship her ideal?
There are also various relationships between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, sister-in-law, husband and wife, and neighbors, all of which give her a headache.

She really wanted to know how Mrs. Su and Mrs. Zhang managed to cope with so many relationships. Maybe being good at communication is really a natural skill.

Thinking as she walked, she reached the intersection of the river leading to the village before she knew it. Jinyue guessed that Su Wei might wake up, so she walked back along the path.

As soon as he got to the house, he heard Mrs. Zhang crying and cursing and Boss Su roaring.

In the past few years, it was the first time that Jinyue heard Boss Su questioning Mrs. Zhang so loudly.

"Say, tell me, what did you do?"

"What can I do? Your red mouth and white teeth will listen to your goblin nonsense, what kind of ecstasy soup did she give you?"

"Crack, crack." As if something hit her body, Mrs. Zhang began to scream.

Jinyue went back to her room and looked at Su Wei, she was still awake.

Even though it was a couple fighting, and even Mrs. Su didn't intend to persuade the fight, but she thought about it and went to Mrs. Zhang's house.

Mrs. Zhang sat on the ground with disheveled hair and cried bitterly, Boss Su was holding a pole with red eyes, and there were Su Mi trembling and Su Mao crying loudly on the kang.

Who is this family, are they all so violent?
"What are you doing, stop quickly." Jinyue went to grab the pole from Boss Su's hand.

"It's none of your business here. If I don't teach this bitch a lesson today, she can kill and set fire next time."

"His second aunt, listen, this is the good man I'm looking for, don't worry about it, let him beat me to death today, if you want to beat me, you bastard." Zhang burst into tears.

"I'll let you scold, let you scold enough." After crossing Jinyue, Boss Su swung the pole off his hand again.

"Stop hitting, just talk if you have something to say." Jinyue pulled Boss Su away vigorously, and went to help Mrs. Zhang.

Boss Su threw down his shoulder pole, snorted and went out.

Jinyue helped Mrs. Zhang up to sit on the edge of the kang, and took a towel for her to wipe her face.

Although she hated Mrs. Zhang, she even felt that the child in her stomach was cursed by her.

But seeing her bruised and swollen face, she still couldn't harden her heart to care about these things.

Mrs. Zhang was still crying, and Jinyue sat on the edge of the kang.

"His second aunt, I can see that you are the only one who treats me the best in this family. The other people are wolf-hearted. Don't look at how nice they are to you. Whenever something happens, they will run away like a mouse." No trace, it's all fake, it's all fake, it's all his mother's hypocrisy."

"What happened, why did he do it again?"

"When I said it, I felt full of humiliation. It was the old third family who wanted to kill me, but the man I married had no brains. On the contrary, he trusted others. The dog bit him, saying that I killed the seed in her stomach."

"Ah? What happened to his third aunt?"

"Sudden miscarriage this morning."

"What's the matter?"

"My stomach didn't live up to my expectations, and I couldn't sit still, but she said that I poisoned her."

"Then why would she say that?"

"I was so unlucky that I took two persimmons for her last night. I was kind, but now she insists that I did something wrong, saying that I poisoned the persimmons. It's really a dog biting Lu Dongbin. How can I be so cheap?" ?”

(End of this chapter)