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Chapter 73 It's Spring, But It's Still Winter
I don't know when it became so cold, the fireworks are dazzling, and the explosion in the air is annoying. The trees on both sides are like ghosts and ghosts, showing various invisible appearances, which makes people frightened.

Jinyue's body cast a long shadow under the light of the fireworks, but there was more than one shadow, besides Su Laoer and Su Laosan, there were several other "work clothes".

Although Jinyue's legs were weak and her whole body was cold, she tried her best to calm herself down and pretended to be able to bear everything.

That was the longest road Jinyue had traveled in her life, and every step she took was like stepping on cotton.

The town is celebrating the Lantern Festival, the same fireworks and lion dance, the same gongs and drums, the same crowds, the same laughter, but all of this is meaningless to Jinyue.

Su Laoer has been comforting Jinyue, but Jinyue knows that his heart is no better than hers.

Jinyue had never been to the small health center in the town, and she never even thought that one day she would come to this place.

The lights in the courtyard were bright, and doctors in white coats hurried past from time to time. Under their guidance, Jinyue entered the second floor, and saw a stretcher being carried out from the corner room. When she passed by, she saw it. It was a young woman with a sallow face and tears streaming down her cheeks.

Maybe she's just like her.

Under the instructions, Jinyue walked into that hell.

"There's another one, I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight." The young female nurse on duty yawned, and was about to call the doctor, "You wait for a while."

Looking at the cold bed and the cold machine, Jinyue's heart, which she thought she was ready for, began to tremble again, very violently, as if she might jump out at any time.

This is where new life is born and where new life ends.

As a child she had wondered if there was a place that was both heaven and hell, and then laughed at her own contradictions, but now she understood that such places do exist.

The female doctor came over soon. Although she was wearing a mask, it could be inferred from the swollen eyes and the wrinkles around the eyes that she was a more than 40-year-old middle-aged man.

She looked alive, but as soon as she opened her mouth, she turned into a cold machine. She ordered Jinyue to take off her pants and lie down.

Jinyue is still twitching, she is already impatient.

"Hurry up, you people just don't realize it, you have to ask for trouble."

Jinyue's tears began to flow down again, and she couldn't help asking herself why she became such a person.

She was lying on the cold narrow hospital bed, her eyes closed and tears running down the sides of her eyes.

"Why are you crying? It's just a minor operation. You people just don't read and don't understand." The female doctor is doing disinfection work, "Why do you have so many babies? Children are debts owed by their parents in the previous life, and they are also debt collectors when they are born, alas. "

"Sister Zhang, why are you sighing, your son is so promising, I heard that he is going abroad." The female nurse was handing things to the side.

"What's the point? I had the opportunity to go abroad for further study, but I somehow hooked up with a girl from the health school, and turned down the place. Thinking of this, my chest feels tight."

Jinyue only felt something cold enter her body, and she shivered all over.

"Relax, you are not noisy. Some women are lying on the bed and still struggling."

Doctor Zhang continued to work impatiently.

The female nurse continued: "Let me tell you, children and grandchildren have their own blessings, so it doesn't mean that they can't make achievements in our country. Now that the reform and opening up are in progress, talents like your son will definitely be reused."

Doctor Zhang smiled wryly, but did not speak.

It was also the first time that Jinyue began to think about the relationship between parents and children.I have to say that many people who have children probably have the idea of ​​raising children to prevent old age, or they just think that they should have children when they are old.

But how many people really regard children as independent lives, and communicate and get along with them with respect and harmony?
The operation was really fast, and before Jinyue could figure it out, Doctor Zhang said it was over.

Jinyue was carried back on a stretcher by Su Laoer and Su Laosan. She has never opened her eyes since she got on the operating bed. The eyes are really a cruel organ, it allows her to see the darkness of the world.

It was early in the morning after going back, everything had died down, the year was over, in her pain and despair.

The new year is just here, it seems like it’s already the beginning of spring, everything has already faced the world with a new attitude, but in her heart it’s still a cold winter, a very cold winter, she can’t feel any hope .

Jinyue lay on the kang without eating for three days, she sighed and shed tears every day.

When she went to the operating table, cold instruments were poured into her body, and the scene of her child being strangled was played back in front of her eyes one after another. She seemed to hear the cry of the baby.

She was very sleepy, tired, and in pain. She really wanted to just sleep like this and never wake up, but every time she closed her eyes, she heard the child crying for help.

During that time, apart from cooking, Jinyue lay on the kang almost all the time, and what she did most was shed tears.

During this period, Mrs. Su came to visit Jinyue for the first time, holding a bowl of porridge.

She sighed and said, "Don't ruin your body, everything is fate, and you can't help yourself."

Jinyue burst into tears.

Life is life.

She didn't believe in fate before, she felt that fate was in her own hands, but now, she believed it.

"You are still young, and you have plenty of opportunities. After this period of turmoil passes, it will not be too late to regenerate."

Mrs. Su's rare comforting words really warmed Jinyue's heart a lot. She nodded desperately, as if nodding could shake the tears back to her eyes.

Although Mrs. Zhang had a ligation operation a while ago, she seemed to be recovering well and her complexion was rosy. On the fourth day after Jinyue's operation, she also came to visit, together with Mrs. Li.

Li Shi is also four months pregnant, but because of her thin body, her stomach is not obvious.

They sat on Jinyue's kang.

Mrs. Zhang held Jinyue's cold hand, wiped away a few tears that she didn't know if she was genuinely sympathetic or forced out, felt sorry for Jinyue, and cursed.

But Jinyue didn't seem to hear a word, but she heard a lot of Li Shi's words.

Mrs. Li said: "Second sister-in-law, don't think too much about it, this time it's on a large scale, and no one will be spared."

"Fortunately, you are young, and the harm to your body is also small. You don't know that my natal neighbor's child is more than eight months old. That's terrible..."

"These people are ruthless killers who don't care about human feelings, alas."

"We live in a bad age, who can be blamed."

Jinyue lay quietly, looking at the dark roof.

Jinyue only comforts herself with the fact that her fate with this child is too shallow, it seems that thinking like this will make her feel less guilty.

If she didn't look for a prescription foolishly, then there wouldn't be this little life in her stomach, so she wouldn't be tortured like this, or if she had resolutely killed it last time, everything wouldn't be like it is now It made her miserable and desperate.

She is so desperate, she would rather all this is a dream.

Everything is life, it is life.

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