covet her

Chapter 190 is not like that
Even if she has seen many families who live happily after marriage and see them in love, she can't help but suspect that it's fake, and can't help but wonder when their relationship will disappear and when their marriage will break down.

She never expected love, and never believed in love.

So what?

So what if I like it.

Those are things that are too far away from her.

Lin Shixi lowered her head and thought, her personality is not suitable for dating, nor for entering into a family. She should keep a distance from everyone, neither close nor alienated.

One lives and one dies.

The fingers holding the black fountain pen gradually tightened, and the slender finger bones turned slightly pale. Lin Shixi's eyes under his thick black eyelashes gradually dimmed, and he stared at the diary in front of him without blinking.

This diary has been used for several years, and I write a little every now and then. The paper that I wrote on before has begun to turn yellow, because it has been used for a long time, and the edges of the paper are still a little frizzy.

What she was staring at was a diary written a long time ago.

【You always say you like me, my face, my eyes, and my personality, but no one likes the real me.

I am not what I usually show. I have no sense of security, no sense of morality, selfishness and lack of love, and I often fall into negative emotions.

I hate myself more than anyone.

Every time I see people who are as warm as the sun, I will fall into deep inferiority complex and despair. They are human beings, and I am just an empty shell.

All the likes wasted on me are not worth it.

I am not like that.

I'm not. 】

This was written during the summer vacation after the high school entrance examination.

A boy in the class confessed to her at a class reunion. Lin Shixi asked him what he liked about him.

Lin Shixi listened carefully, and then seriously rejected him.

The boy lost his mind and asked her why she refused.

Lin Shixi said at the time: "Because you only like the leaves I bloom."

When you like someone, you can't just like her beautiful leaves, but also like her roots deep in the soil.

But how many people in this world can do this?

Lin Shixi was also afraid that what Shen Wang liked was the side she deliberately showed, not the whole of her, she didn't want to see Shen Wang disappointed.

She would rather Shen Zhu not like her than to let him down on her.

……

It rained again at night, one spring rain and one warm one. After several consecutive spring rains, the temperature in Jiangzhou slowly rose.

With the arrival of April, this year's spring tour will start as scheduled.

The content of the annual tour is the same. It is nothing more than visiting other places, appreciating my country's landscape culture, customs and customs, and increasing the sense of national cultural identity.

During the half-week study tour, you have to complete the group cooperation project with your companions. After the study tour is over, there will be a report meeting in the department to show the learning results of the group.

This year's tour is still planned by the student union, but the content is different, from "visit" to "experience". The location is voted by the students, and it is set at Sanfoshan.

At 07:30 in the morning, the bus departed from the north gate of the school in an orderly manner on time.

As a member of the Propaganda Department, Jiang Linlin took the initiative to take on the heavy responsibility of publicity. Standing at the front of the bus with a loudspeaker in her hand, she shouted impassionedly: "The hotel we booked is located at the entrance of the Sanfo Mountain Scenic Area. The owner is A Taoist priest from Guangfu Temple on the mountain, who is good at subduing demons and catching ghosts, students with weak yang energy and easy to recruit unclean things are blessed, the shop owner can help you catch ghosts and exorcise evil spirits for free."

"..."

After a few slogans, the car was completely silent.

The entire busload of students fell silent, those who chatted stopped, those who played games stopped, and they all began to think about the boss's job.

Shen Wang always felt that there was something wrong with this propaganda slogan. He was from the Propaganda Department of the Student Union, but this time Lin Shixi didn't ask him to write the manuscript, she wrote it herself, but now it sounds like he wrote it. Where are those good.

Shen Wang looked sideways at Lin Shixi with a strange expression: "Is this a regular hotel?"

"Of course." Lin Shixi said, "Sponsored by Meng Yifan, the stay is free."

"Free?" Shen Wang always feels that free things are not so reliable, especially the shop owner is a Taoist priest.

"Yes." Lin Shixi nodded, "The boss's only request is that we set aside half an hour every night to watch him perform the art of subduing demons and catching ghosts."

Shen Li: "?"

How come the more you listen, the more outrageous it becomes?
Lin Shixi arranged the work again: "By the way, when you arrive at your destination, after you get off the bus, go and tell the students in other classes. Remember to cheer the boss up when he performs. It's great to shout a few more times."

Shen Wan: "..."

Is this really reliable? ? ?
After some bumps, more than 20 buses finally arrived at their destination. Many students were pale when they got off the bus—this was caused by motion sickness. After getting off, they hugged a tree and began to vomit.

The time was a bit rushed, and Lin Shixi didn't leave much buffer time for everyone. After putting away the luggage in the hotel, he asked the squad leaders to start counting the number of people, and the whole team went to a village on the mountainside.

This is the final destination.

As the large troops walked to the village, the Propaganda Department held a loudspeaker and talked about the itinerary: "The theme of this trip is to experience life, which is subdivided into four activities: weeding, cattle herding, poverty alleviation, village Pick up the garbage first, choose any of the four. The group can form a team freely, no class limit, a group of six, after forming a team, first report to the monitor, and then the monitor will report to the sports department of the student union."

When the students heard about these events, which they had hardly heard of, their faces turned green.

Someone raised his hand and asked, "Well, let me ask, what does poverty alleviation mean?"

Jiang Linlin explained: "It is to follow the cadres of the poverty alleviation team to the grassroots to participate in the research."

"..."

Well, it can be regarded as contributing to the country's fight against poverty.

"What about weeding?"

"Helping the villagers to clean up the weeds in the fields, to put it bluntly, is doing farm work."

"..."

Well, experiencing the hardships of the farmer's uncle is conducive to developing a good habit of not wasting food.

"Then what is cattle herding?"

"There's nothing to explain, it's literally cattle herding."

"..."

Okay, I get it, it's the cowherd baby, very down-to-earth.

It doesn't matter, I finally have a chance to relax, just do the work, it's better than staying in the classroom every day and constantly brushing up questions, the students comforted themselves like this.

(End of this chapter)