departure tomorrow

Chapter 70

"My hair is disheveled and there are many scars. I don't recognize my words, but I smile and my belly grows bigger and bigger. I think that the people I see and myself are deliberately fools. I finally feel scared and sad because of what I believe. God always says that singing is much better."

Su Nan opened her eyes in a daze, the phone was vibrating with a song playing, she took the phone, it was the alarm, she actually used my favorite song as the alarm, but it's only four o'clock?

What's wrong with her getting up so early?

"Humans, why did you deliberately choose me impartially?"

Su Nan was thinking that the phone rang again, what kind of alarm was this again, when she saw it, it was a phone call, the idiot's boyfriend?This is Zhu Hao, right?When did you change your ringtone to this.

"Crooked." Su Nan picked up the phone.

"Little pig is up and exercising." Zhu Hao's lazy voice was obviously just getting up.

Su Nan frowned, no, I have to find out what she did first, "I'm sorry, Zhu Hao, I have something to do today, so I won't go to exercise, let's talk about it next time."

"Ah, that"

Su Nan hung up the phone before hearing what Zhu Hao said.

The phone kept ringing after that.

Su Nan looked at the time first, it's already June [-]th? ? ? ?
Su Nan remembered that the day she was discharged from the hospital was May [-]th.

That said, it's been a month?
But she just felt like it was going down.
Su Nan got out of bed and came to the desk. What is the meaning of the calendar hanging on the wall, so many forks and circles?

There is also a thick book under the calendar. When I opened it, it turned out that it contained all the events and consumption records that happened from May [-]th to yesterday, as well as the highlights highlighted by colored pens, as well as the people I met. Character analysis, as well as daily perception and reflection.

Isn't this woman tired of living?
Su Nan put down the notebook and planned to read it carefully one last time.

I was even more shocked when I opened the closet. The colors of spring, summer, autumn and winter were arranged carefully from light to dark. There were labels on the hangers. When I picked them up, I saw what occasions and who would wear them.

My God, she is really fine.

Su Nan sat on the bed and looked at the closet and fell into deep thought. Why can there be such a big gap between the same human beings? Is it really my own problem?
Su Nan sighed, opened WeChat to check the chat history, but it was empty, this woman deleted all the chat history?
Su Nan sighed helplessly, what should I do next, it is impossible to say that I lost my memory, and then just lost a month of memory?This looks like nonsense, and there is no surprise.
Yes, surprise!
What's the surprise?
Su Nan looked at the corner of the table, isn't it too painful to knock down?No no no.

Su Nan looked at the large box of medicine neatly placed on the table, or should he swallow the medicine?
But if you accidentally didn't grasp the amount well, you would die.

No no no.

correct!Check it out on Baidu.

"How. Amnesia."

"First, malnutrition. But malnutrition is long-term, no, no, change it. Second, it may be due to cerebrovascular disease. I don't have it. No, no, change it. Third, there may be some other diseases, such as I don’t have Parkinson’s, epilepsy, etc. I don’t have any of these. It’s a disease caused by severe brain trauma. Who kicked me? Isn’t there something wrong with it?” Su Nan turned off her phone in despair, and suddenly saw the thick thick book.

"Hey, just look at it. Although it's not complete, who can remember what happened every day?" Su Nan opened the notebook and began to study.

May [-]

The goal is to reduce social tidy up the room to lose weight: start with walking

It's really troublesome to have a boyfriend, tell him that I have something to do all day and still chatter endlessly

It's really troublesome to have friends, you have to reply to messages from time to time, otherwise the other party will get emotional, and you have to come out to play with her, help her digest negative emotions, and listen to her troubles and fun.

Poor man, everything is so sad.

Su Nan smiled helplessly, what is it all about? Why does she hate socializing so much and ask Zhu Hao to call to accompany her to exercise?Could it be that he fell in love with him?

Su Nan suddenly became jealous of herself.

Su Nan flipped through the back, there were so many words every day, it seemed that she gradually cut off all her social interactions, only getting up at four o'clock in the morning and walking and jogging with Zhu Hao at six o'clock in the evening, even if she was connected, she didn't talk Whatever, it's Zhu Hao's talk, and she will answer a few words.Then every day, I would return some necessary news, and there would be no other contact with diplomacy. I would just lock myself in the room, read a book, exercise and tidy up the skin care in the room, and occasionally go out for a walk with Xu Linlin and Wang Lihui. Sticking to the notebook, and complaining about the movie, it seems that she is serious about watching it, it is true, and the places to eat are expensive and unpalatable, so why eat?It's really completely different from Su Nan's life these days.

Ah, after looking at the marks on the notebook, I finally understand why I changed it back today, because I will go to Hangzhou for a review tomorrow.

I looked at her character analysis again, it was really accurate, it was clear what character she didn't like and what she liked.

Su Nan studied for a long time and finally finished reading it.

Wow, this person is really, if she is really me, she must be living a particularly good life, so self-disciplined, and knows what she wants and what is unnecessary.

Su Nan sighed, there is really a gap.

Looking at the marks on the book, it turns out that the cross on the calendar means that the goal has not been completed today, and the circle means that the goal has been completed.

Su Nan combed through the contents of the notebook, and probably understood it.

Eating is also very strict, a proper fat-reducing meal.

When I go out, I don’t drink milk tea, I drink tea and oatmeal at most, my God.

There is not much contact with people this month, and most of them are alone time.

Su Nan turned on her phone, why did the number of WeChat users decrease?Who did she delete?Su Nan had a bad premonition, and hurriedly opened QQ, and sure enough, there was no contact.

What is she trying to do?

"Reduce unnecessary things." Su Mu suddenly appeared.

"Then tell me why you deleted all my QQ people?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"Those people who have hurt you, or stood by, and those who have hurt you indirectly, especially those who have failed you, why do you still keep their contact information? It is even more ridiculous to put these people After deleting, your QQ is actually empty? Don't you think it's ridiculous?" Su Mu looked at Su Nan coldly.

"Then why didn't you finish deleting your WeChat for me?" Su Nan looked at Su Mu.

"Those unnecessary people have been deleted." Su Mu shrugged.

Su Nan looked at the contacts on WeChat, and indeed, most of them were relatives.

"Then why did you delete the Weishang in my WeChat, and there are netizens." Su Nan looked at Su Mu.

"What contact will these people have in the future?" Su Mu looked at Su Nan coldly.

Su Nan had nothing to say.

"But one thing to say, that Zhu Hao is really good to you. I didn't lose my temper with him like that or say I want to break up with you. I wanted to let him mention it. Think about it." Su Mu looked at Su Nan, "Treasure."

"What's wrong with you?" Su Nan looked at Su Mu worriedly.

"It's nothing. I just don't reply to messages or answer calls." Su Mu raised his hand, "But don't worry, I'm still human. In the future, this buddy is really too persistent, so it's still, anyway." Su Mu Mu looked at Su Nan, "But there is something to do with it, you'd better think about it."

"Who?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"You will know in the future." Su Mu looked at Su Nan, "Okay, I'm leaving."

Su Nan looked at the deserted room again and sighed, feeling very tired, not knowing why.

Su Nan picked up the phone and looked at it. There was no WeChat message just now, and suddenly all the messages popped up. Su Nan was a little self-doubting. Didn’t there be no news records just now?

Looking through the previous chat records, there was really nothing there, they were just talking to each other, and then Su Mu replied yes.

Looking at the new message, it was from Zhu Hao.

"Can you tell me something?"

"What happened in the last month?"

"Did I make you angry?"

"Can you tell me?"

"Reply to me when you're free, okay?"

"Is it too much pressure to lose weight recently? It's okay, just be happy, don't force it."

Su Nan looked at the long list of messages and suddenly felt a little sad.

But why can't tell.

Su Nan sighed, and clicked to video chat with Zhu Hao.

Just picked up the call.

The opposite side is foggy, as if sitting on the playground.

"Why are you sitting on the playground early in the morning? You're still wearing short sleeves. You'll catch a cold later." Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao worriedly.

Zhu Hao seemed to hit the spot when he heard Su Nan's words. Suddenly his nose turned red and tears came down, whining but still didn't say a word.

"What's the matter?" Su Nan was a little flustered seeing Zhu Hao crying, this was not the first time she saw Zhu Hao crying.

"Then can you tell me what happened this month? Is it because I didn't send you in the day I went back?" Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan aggrievedly.

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao, who was holding his head, a little distressed and a little bit guilty.

"No, I'm sorry Zhu Hao, this month is my problem, not yours." Su Nan apologized to Zhu Hao.

"Then can you tell me what's wrong?" Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan with tears in his eyes.

"Maybe it's because I can't face myself. It's really bad. I just thought that I must change and change, so I don't care about other things. I'm a little crazy." Su Nan really didn't know what to say, so he had to Make it up.

"It turned out to be like this. I thought you didn't like me anymore. You must tell me about things in the future, okay? Let's solve it together. If you really have any dissatisfaction with me, you can fight or whatever. You must tell me, okay? I have been worried all day this month, and I asked people around me, and they all said that you must not like it anymore." Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan pitifully.

"Okay, okay, don't cry, boy, don't cry, someone will laugh at you later." Su Nan didn't know what to say.

"It's okay, I've been ashamed and cried before." Zhu Hao didn't dare to look at Su Nan.

"Then come pick me up tomorrow, okay?" Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao.

"Okay, you send me the shift, and I promise to be there on time!" Zhu Hao wiped away his tears.

"Okay, I'll send you a message later, don't cry, go back to the dormitory, I'll catch a cold later." Su Nan urged.

"Okay, see you tomorrow." Zhu Hao beckoned and hung up the video.

Su Nan looked at the chat records of other people, and they were all normal, because although they are usually friends, they seldom contact each other.

"Nannan, it's time for breakfast." Mom called as she opened the door.

Su Nan looked back at the time, it was seven o'clock, and nodded, "I'll come later."

I pulled out the weighing scale from under the bed and looked at it. I didn't lose weight, but I didn't get fat anyway, and I didn't look swollen anymore.

No matter, let's eat first.

Let this month pass, anyway, it's your own life, take your time.

Su Nan opened the curtains, and the dark room was instantly filled with sunlight, and the breeze came in through the screen window. This summer, under the blue sky, Su Nan's new life has just begun.

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(End of this chapter)