departure tomorrow

Chapter 69
"Hey, Mom, we are not in the same car." Su Nan pushed the luggage and walked forward, looking at the phone and telling the mother beside her.

"It's okay, I'll just stand by your side later." Mom tilted her head and looked at the position "Look, you sit in the aisle, and I'll just stand by your side, or change places with the person next to you, Maybe there's no one around you."

"Okay." Su Nan sighed and couldn't say anything.

After getting on the high-speed rail, Su Nan began to look for a seat. Although it was not a weekend or a holiday, it was still crowded with people. Su Nan struggled to find his seat in the aisle.

It happened that there was a table with a row of people facing each other. Except for Su Nan's seat, which was empty, the other seats were already full. There was an old couple sitting opposite, and a stylishly dressed older sister sat next door.

Su Nan said hello and sat down immediately, her mother was standing beside her, and the area was very crowded with pedestrians walking around.As time passed, the high-speed rail has been started, and people have found their places, and it has become quiet, with only occasional chatter.

"Mom, why don't you sit in your own seat, it's tiring to stand for more than two hours." Su Nan looked up at her mother who was watching her.

"It's okay." Mom ignored what Su Nan said.

Su Nan was also helpless, because she felt that there were eyes looking this way from time to time.

Su Nan took out the Bluetooth headset and put it on, turned on NetEase Cloud and turned it to the loudest, and started to daze.

"Hello ma'am, please wear a mask."

Su Nan looked up, and it turned out that her mother had pulled down the mask.

"Okay, okay." Mom immediately put on the mask.

"Ma'am, please return to your seat and don't stand in the aisle." The flight attendant said softly.

"I have a ticket. It's in the next car. My daughter is sitting here. I just want to stand beside her." Mom quickly explained.

The flight attendant thought for a while, "I suggest you go back to your seat."

"Okay, okay." Mom also compromised.

"Then get out of the car and wait for me outside." Mother lowered her head and asked Su Nan.

Su Nan nodded.

Then mother left with the flight attendant.

For some reason, Su Nan breathed a sigh of relief when her mother left.

"Ahead to Zhuji Station"

Suddenly, the people on the opposite side and the side stood up and chatted.

It turned out to be acquainted.
Su Nan got up and asked the older sister to come out, it should be her stop.

Su Nan sat on the seat, and many different people came up.

The seats opposite and next to it were vacant until the drive.

Su Nan sat by the window, it would be great if someone gave way at the next stop.

Su Nan propped her chin and looked out of the window, while Tai Yi's weight of [-] catties was playing in the earphones in a loop.

Taiyi is one of Su Nan's favorite singers besides Wang Yuan.

Inexplicably, listening to his songs resonates very much.

"What are you looking at so engrossed in?"

Su Nan was taken aback by the sudden protruding head.

Looking back, it turned out to be a hero.

Su Nan took off the earphones and turned off the song.

"Why are you so scary?" Su Nan's heart is still pounding.

"Who said, isn't there another one here?" The hero slowly looked towards Su Nan.

Su Nan broke into a cold sweat from the hero, and turned her head slowly, "Oh, I'll go."

Su Nan patted his heart, and Su Mu was sitting opposite.

"What are you doing?"

Su Mu glanced at Su Nan, obviously not wanting to talk to her.

"She formed Sati?" Su Nan looked at the hero helplessly.

"Suddenly spoke a dialect, and I couldn't understand it." The hero looked at Su Nan suspiciously.

"Pretend, you just pretend." Su Nan didn't believe in heroes.

"Okay, okay, how do I know what she is doing?"

"Then why do you two suddenly appear?" Su Nan looked at Su Mu who was about to get out.

"If you ask her, she has something to do." The hero looked at Su Mu who was on the opposite side.

"Tell me what you want to do?" Su Nan looked at Su Mu who was opposite.

"Do you remember what you promised me?" Su Mu suddenly lay down on the table and looked at Su Nan.

"What?" Su Nan didn't respond for a while.

"I'm very kind. I'll pay you back when I'm tired from playing." Su Mu looked at Su Nan with a smile.

Su Nan looked horrified, but still didn't understand.

"Goodbye." Su Mu suddenly sneered.

Just as Su Nan was about to say something, her head became dizzy for a while, and suddenly her eyes went dark.

"What's going on here?"

Su Nan looked at the all-too-familiar white mist, but this time it was clearer than before. It was in a sea, a sea that could stand.

Su Nan looked at the hero in front of him blankly.

"I can't help you with this, you promised her yourself." The hero said helplessly.

"What did you promise?" Su Nan didn't react at all.

"Listen well, you, in the past, promised her that you could be replaced by her." The hero looked at Su Nan, "Do you understand?"

"Ah, I remembered. Wasn't that a long time ago? I thought she forgot, but why is it at this time? I just wanted to try to live a good life." Su Nan was depressed.

"Who made you have a problem with your brain?" The hero stretched helplessly.

"Then can I go out and have a look like her?" Su Nan asked.

"Unless she wants you to go out, but I don't think it's possible." The hero nodded.

"Then why did you just appear in front of my eyes?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"Listen well, we can only show up because you want us to show up." The hero explained seriously.

"Didn't it mean that if it is replaced, it will disappear?" Su Nan still didn't understand.

"Because she hasn't thought it through yet, she just wants to go out and have fun as you with another personality, you know, if you agreed at the beginning, it means that she can become you at any time, and whether you will disappear or not She decides, but she exists because of you, so the most understandable truth is that you decide whether you disappear or exist, and her disappearance and existence are also decided by you. If one day you really get well, Once it becomes normal, everything else including her and I will disappear, so the final decision is up to you, you know? Do you understand?" Daxia explained eloquently.

"Why do you know so much?" Su Nan obviously didn't understand the point.

"Anyway, the subject of me is also decomposed by you here. I make it clear that you understand it, but you don't want to understand it. Forget it, let's do it. Anyway, the meaning is, in fact, the current her is yourself, but you hide it. The self in the dark, because some external blows released her, and because she was done venting, but she didn't want to face such a self, so she chose to hide this memory, which is equivalent to saying, in fact, what you see now The scene and I are also imagined by yourself, you divided yourself into two themes, that's what it means." The hero looked at Su Nan seriously.

"But I don't think so." Su Nan understood, but still didn't understand.

"Your real thoughts, your subconscious, you're sure you don't know, but this is you. No matter who she is, it's you." The hero looked at Su Nan, "You can't escape anymore, Su Nan."

"But." Su Nan wanted to say something, but suddenly the scene in front of him began to change.

"Find yourself, and then it's up to you to kill her or save her." A hero's voice sounded from his mouth.

Su Nan rubbed his eyes vigorously, and suddenly he came to a dark place, with only a glimmer of light far, far ahead.

"come."

Su Nan's own voice suddenly sounded in his ears, and goosebumps arose instantly.

"Come on, go ahead."

Su Nan had no choice but to walk forward slowly, walking towards the bright light, but no matter how she walked, she seemed to be standing still, and the light seemed to be getting weaker and weaker. Su Nan felt more and more tired, and sat slumped On the ground, she couldn't even walk a step. She had never tried so hard to lose weight.

"Are you cutting your wrist?" "Why don't you die?" "Hey black pig is here?" "Hey girl!" "Why are you so ugly?" "Are you embarrassed to live?"" You don't even look in the mirror." "It stinks, man." "It's cheap." "It's all your own fault!" "Why only you?" "Why are you dumber than a pig?" "She's a thief !" "It's useless!" "What are you doing alive?" "It's so hypocritical." "What a disgusting girl." "A slut describes you, right?" "She actually committed suicide." "You really It’s easy to lie.” “What’s the big deal?” “It’s good to be open.” “What’s so unhappy about it.” “So fragile.” “It’s really rubbish.” “Ugly and stinky fat!” .
Suddenly, more and more voices from all directions came to Su Nan. Su Nan hugged herself and shivered, all those bad memories came out.

The sound was getting closer, Su Nan hugged herself tighter and tighter, listening to these familiar voices, there was no sadness or anger at all, it was already numb, Su Nan patted her face and stood up and turned towards the light again Running, getting closer and closer, the sound is getting smaller and smaller.

This is?

A glowing door.

Su Nan pushed open the door, and suddenly felt like she was falling infinitely. Is this going to die?Su Nan closed her eyes and waited for the judgment of fate.

Suddenly, cicadas sounded in my ears, and the feeling of falling was gone, instead there was a cool feeling.

Su Nan opened her eyes, this?

Is this your own room?

Su Nan wanted to admit it but dared not.

In the past, the floor of the room was covered with clothes, but now the room is neat and clean, with many more decorations and a faint fragrance.

won't it? ?

Su Nan picked up the mirror on the cabinet, she was still herself, but she felt that she had changed a lot, her rash was gone, and she was not so swollen, although she was still fat, it might be because the hormone medicine had not been stopped .

This is this.

Su Nan suddenly wanted her to replace her infinitely.

"I've played enough. Life is really boring. It's not fun and it's so difficult. Forget it. I'm merciful. I won't trade anymore. You can play until you grow old." Su Mu sat on the table and looked at Su Nan.

"Okay, goodbye." Su Mu smiled and disappeared.

Did she just smile?
Su Nan still didn't react, but was suddenly so sleepy, fell asleep on the bed without the quilt covered.

"Go there, go there" still muttering words.

Su Nan slept very peacefully, but she didn't know that there were still a lot of bad things waiting for her tomorrow.

(End of this chapter)