departure tomorrow

Chapter 4 Then start again

"You seldom surf the Internet and cut your wrists? How about following the mainstream of online mourning?"

"What's your grievance? You don't have to worry about anything at such a young age."

"Why don't you die when you live in such pain?"

"You just don't want to study? Are you so hypocritical?"

"See if you're disgusting yourself."

"It's not like this!" Su Nan woke up suddenly, and had a nightmare again...it was that day again.
Su Nan picked up the phone and looked. It was only [-]:[-] in the afternoon, and the nurse would start waking everyone up at [-]:[-].

Taking out a few pieces of paper to wipe off the cold sweat on my face, I sat up, I didn't intend to sleep at first, I just wanted to squat for a while, there was still treatment in the afternoon, I didn't expect to fall asleep in a daze, and even had a nightmare.
Looking around, everyone is still sleeping, the dark room is faintly lit, the snoring of the uncle next door is loud, and there are occasional whistles outside, and the crowd is making noise. These noisy sounds make Su Nan I was very restless.

Is it because of that nightmare...

Su Nan got out of bed softly, feeling that she couldn't sleep anymore, and planned to go to the window in the corridor to get some fresh air.

Carefully pushing the door open and then closing it, Su Nan breathed a sigh of relief the moment he let go of the doorknob.

Looking up and wanting to walk over, I saw a person standing motionless by the window.

This is?Zhu Hao?Now everyone is sleeping, what is he doing there?Won't.
Su Nan walked over and poked Zhu Hao lightly. Zhu Hao turned his head and was a little surprised to see Su Nan, and asked in a low voice, "Why did you come out?"

"I just woke up and wanted to come out to blow some air." Su Nan responded softly, "Then why don't you sleep?"

Zhu Hao shrugged helplessly, "Listen to this snoring, can I sleep?"

Su Nan smiled, yes, even she couldn't stand the snoring, let alone Zhu Hao was in that room.Su Nan stood next to Zhu Hao and looked down. Below were all patients sitting on chairs basking in the sun.

"The weather is so nice." Zhu Hao suddenly sighed, "There are so many people who are sick."

Su Nan looked up at Zhu Hao, now he is not as enthusiastic as he was during the day, giving people a happy and lively feeling, but now Zhu Hao gives people a calm to a little sad feeling.

Now he is the real Zhu Hao.

"Which family doesn't have a patient?" Su Nan said, "Every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite."

"Su Nan." Zhu Hao suddenly called Su Nan's name.

This is the first time he called Su Nan by his full name.

"What's wrong?" Su Nan was a little surprised.

"Do you know why I am often hospitalized?" Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan.

"I've heard a little bit about it." It was what Jiang Ziwen told her, but she didn't know the details.

"Because of my parents." Zhu Hao lowered his head suddenly, "I know they love me very much, but their way is wrong." Zhu Hao turned his head and looked at Su Nan, "My disease can be understood as genetic to a certain extent. "

Su Nan looked into Zhu Hao's eyes, inexplicably feeling sorry for him now.

"My mother also suffers from this disease, and what's even more funny is that they met in this kind of hospital." Zhu Hao sighed, "Where did such things as depression come from in those days...all of them were locked up in mental hospitals The kind that was tied up. My dad tied my mother with his own hands, and he actually fell in love with my mother during the hospitalization." Zhu Hao smiled, "It's funny, it's pretty bloody."

Su Nan didn't expect that Zhu Hao would tell him this, and he didn't react immediately, and didn't know what to say.

Seeing that Su Nan didn't speak, Zhu Hao paused and said, "I've always felt quite optimistic, but suddenly one day, I couldn't feel happy anymore. Everything was powerless to me, and I collapsed. Then I My parents realized something was wrong and sent me here." Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan's disbelief and realized that he might have said too much, "Don't take it to heart, and don't feel any burden. Tell me, just pretend nothing happened. For me, everything before was a dark feeling, and I don’t know why, and I can’t get rid of those bad emotions.”

Su Nan looked at the different Zhu Hao in front of him and comforted him, "It's okay, I've come here just to get better, so from now on, we'll start all over again."

Zhu Hao smiled, "Yes, yes, if everything is as you said, just start over."

Su Nan doesn't quite understand "What's so difficult about starting over, just start over. Everything you don't want to start over is because you don't let yourself go."

Although Su Nan said so, she also knew that it was difficult to start again. If it was really that easy to start again, she would not be standing here.

Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan who had a serious face in front of him and didn't want to hit her, so he patted Su Nan's head with a smile, "Then start over."

Seeing Zhu Hao smile, Su Nan felt a little relieved.

Zhu Hao turned his head and looked at the people downstairs basking in the sun and asked Su Nan, "Do you want to go down? The afternoon project will start at [-]:[-]." Zhu Hao raised his wrist and looked at his watch, "There is still an hour."

"Isn't it forbidden to walk around?" Su Nan was a little puzzled.

"People live well or die." Zhu Hao smiled, "Let's go and see the sun."

"Let's go down and walk." Su Nan looked up at Zhu Hao and smiled.

"Let's go." Zhu Hao pulled Su Nan up and walked towards the elevator.

"Hey, what are you doing?" The nurse looked at Su Nan and Zhu Hao and shouted.

"Sweep your face and let us go for a walk." Zhu Hao actually acted like a baby to the nurse, which made Su Nan a little unbelievable.

"No! Don't act like a spoiled child to me, and spoil the new patient. The ward rounds will be done later, please go back An An." The nurse pushed Su Nan and Zhu Hao back to the ward while talking.

"Okay, today's escape plan failed, let's talk about it next time." Zhu Hao said helplessly.

"Hahahahahaha I can't tell you, just go back and stay." Su Nan laughed.

"Okay, okay, fifth sister, you can go back first, I'll call you over later!" Zhu Hao shouted as he returned to the room.

fifth sister?fifth sister?It's just a new nickname that came out suddenly, don't care about it like him.

Su Nan went back to the room and sat on the bed. She didn't know whether it was because of the nightmare or what Zhu Hao said. Suddenly, she felt a lot of negative emotions coming up, and she couldn't stop them. Then, it's sad.

"What's the matter?" Jiang Ziwen poked his head over and asked Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at Jiang Ziwen's way of caring about her just after waking up and before opening his eyes, which made her a little dumbfounded.

"It's okay to wake up earlier." Su Nan forced a smile.

"Okay." Jiang Ziwen patted his face and continued to fall asleep.

"Get up, get up! Don't sleep anymore!" The nurse came in and opened the curtains and shouted.

The moment the curtains were pulled open, the dazzling sunlight came in from the outside and hit the ground.Su Nan suddenly felt that the sun had shone into her heart a little bit, and she suddenly became enlightened.

She understood what to do next, and Su Nan sat and watched the nurse call everyone to get up, and then watched her go to the next ward and get out of bed and go out immediately after yelling to leave.

"Congratulations! Hao. Come out for a while." After shouting, he regretted it, because many people in the ward gathered around the old man to watch the game of chess.

Didn't you wake up just now?

What did you miss?
Zhu Hao was a little surprised, "Here we come." Zhu Hao ran over and looked at Su Nan, "Why are you embarrassed? Everyone likes to find the old man to play chess, and our ward is always busy. Go out and talk." Zhu Hao pulled Su Nan out.

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao and said, "I have a small idea, let's go to that tower to play at night! Before dusk! Let's go to see dusk!" Su Nan danced and said to Zhu Hao.

"Go for ice cream, grilled squid, and fried chicken."

"This is a big city, a famous city, it should be fun."

Zhu Hao looked at the excited little girl in front of him and raised the corner of his mouth, "Okay."

Seeing that Zhu Hao agreed, Su Nan smiled even happier, "Then I'll go back first... remember to come and find me later."

Zhu Hao grabbed Su Nan who was about to leave, "Where are you going?"

"Go back to the ward." Su Nan was a little confused why Zhu Hao asked her this.

"Do you feel that you are a little excited?" Zhu Hao was a little worried, "If I remember correctly, you are bipolar?"

Su Nan didn't know why the current state seemed to be a little excited, the whole person was sweating, trembling, and stared blankly at Zhu Hao.

"You show me your hand." Zhu Hao stretched out Su Nan's hand and looked at Su Nan who was shaking all the time, frowning. "Come with me to find a doctor."

Su Nan didn't dare to speak, so she silently followed Zhu Hao forward.

doctor's office.

"Doctor Mao, she seems to be a little excited, something is wrong." Zhu Hao said to the doctor as soon as he entered the door, "The whole person is in a state of excitement, shaking hands and sweating all the time."

How does he know I'm sweating?Oh, just now he took my hand to see if it was shaking... Is this considered holding hands...

Bah. Why are you thinking about this Su Nan at this time? Su Nan is a little more serious, okay?
"Ah, what's the matter?" Dr. Mao turned to ask Su Nan beside Zhu Hao.

"I'm just a little excited, sweating, and stuttering a little... shaking very much." Su Nan suddenly said something awkward.

"Is there some reason or the side effects of the medicine?" Dr. Mao asked again.

It's impossible to say that because I want Zhu Hao to go out with me, how embarrassing it is...

"It's nothing. I'm so excited that I want to cry for no reason." At this moment, Su Nan wanted to burrow into a hole and disappear, because she really wanted to cry for no reason.

"Understood, I'm underage. I'm only seventeen years old. I can't take many medicines. Let's do this first... You go to the nurse to get the medicine and take the medicine first. Wait and see how it goes." The doctor looked at the computer The list on the paper kept typing.

"Okay, thank you, Dr. Mao." After thanking Zhu Hao, he took Su Nan to the nurse's desk.

"The medicine for the twenty-five beds," Zhu Hao said to the nurse.

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao who was running around for him, feeling a little indescribable in his heart, this was the first time he felt his presence in someone else's place.

"Okay, hey, Su Nan, right? I'll give you the medicine. If you still don't feel well, tell me." The nurse sister gently poured the medicine into Su Nan's hand, "Then give me the wrist to sweep it."

"Okay." Su Nan nodded obediently.

"Let's go, we're going to biofeedback after taking the medicine." Zhu Hao took Su Nan's hand and walked to the ward.

"What's the matter? Why did you add medicine?" Jiang Ziwen looked at Su Nan holding the medicine in his hand and asked.

"She's on her own. She suddenly became emotional. Fortunately, I found out and brought her there." Zhu Hao said while pouring water for Su Nan.

Su Nan took the water and took the medicine and looked at Zhu Hao.

"What's the matter, don't let me talk about it. In the future, if you feel that your emotions are not right, go to the doctor to find out!" Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan and said seriously, "I came to the hospital to see a doctor, and I have problems to solve."

Knowing that she was wrong, Su Nan muttered softly, "I know..."

Jiang Ziwen looked at Su Nan and Zhu Hao, "Tsk tsk tsk, it's so nice of us to treat Su Nan warmly! Isn't it?"

Zhu Hao interrupted Jiang Ziwen, "You can be free every day." Then he said to Su Nan, "Let's go, it's time for biofeedback treatment." After speaking, he pulled Su Nan up and walked out.

Su Nan looked at the hand held by Zhu Hao, he seemed to take her with him and pull her when he left naturally, which even gave Su Nan the illusion that they had known each other for a long time.

Forget it, just let nature take its course, for Su Nan, she cherishes such a rare presence.

Biofeedback room.

After Zhu Hao sat down, Su Nan followed Zhu Hao and sat down naturally.

"Neng, this corner is facing upwards. The thing that clips the ear must be clipped on the left ear. It's the same as wearing a helmet. Look after it. Next time, I will do it myself." Zhu Hao said to Su Nan. Said aside.

"Why? Are you not going to do treatment with me in the future?" Su Nan was inexplicably nervous.

After hearing this, Zhu Hao suddenly stopped what he was doing, smiled and continued, "I can't do it for you every time. You always have to learn, and it's not difficult."

Zhu Hao started to toss his own after finishing Su Nan's.

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao's busy appearance, and she knew in her heart that Zhu Hao had no obligation to help her, so now, she cherishes every second she spends with Zhu Hao.It's ridiculous to say that two days ago, Su Nan didn't even know the existence of Zhu Hao, but now
"Okay, everyone close your eyes and start the treatment." The nurse said to everyone gently.

It might be because Zhu Hao was by his side, or it might be because he didn't sleep well at noon. Su Nan started to feel sleepy when the treatment started.I can only hear the inhalation and exhalation in my ears, and then I fell asleep...

It took only half an hour for the treatment. Su Nan actually fell asleep and dreamed. In the dream, there was a person holding Su Nan's hand and walking forward. Su Nan followed obediently, with an inexplicable sense of security. I really believe that even though I can’t see a road ahead, I still believe in it and keep walking. The surroundings are so white that I can’t see anything clearly. I don’t know how long I’ve been walking, and suddenly someone around me is calling me "" Su Nan." "Su Nan."

"Su Nan!"

"Oh my god!" Su Nan woke up suddenly

"I'm convinced of you, just sleep from the beginning to the end, if you don't wake up, you'll be awesome." Zhu Hao praised, and pulled Su Nan up, "Let's go, there will be group activities after three o'clock."

Su Nan was pulled up in a daze, "Oh... let's go. Go"

(End of this chapter)