departure tomorrow

Chapter 39
"Really...so tired..."

"The weather...it's getting warmer..." Su Nan raised her head and felt the sun shining on her face. It's been a long time since the last time she felt warm...

Su Nan sighed and raised her hands to block the sun, closed her eyes, and thought back to the past few years, she obviously did nothing, but lived like a ridiculous fool...

For Su Nan, the way to solve the problem is to avoid the problem...

But I don't know why, these days I don't know why those pictures keep appearing in front of her, she has obviously escaped far...why is she still unwilling to let her go...

Mom and Dad are still quarreling and fighting because of little things...Dad picked up the stapler and threw it at her because he lost in a card game...Grandpa would chase grandma and fight...Every day at home, there is a lot of chaos...And She... because her parents are often away, she is fostered in someone else's house, and she will cry every time she goes home, just because... she is going home... Su Nan is in the dark, this time, she looks at the trembling Her as a child.This is what Su Nan can't face the most, that, no matter how she changes, she won't be an excellent self... She just can't do things that others can easily do... She is obviously good at things... Now It's that she can't even lift the pen... It's as if her existence is a mistake... It will never get better... That cowardly and cowardly self that even loathes her.The self who can't decide anything by himself, the self who can't even protect himself well...

But... why...

Su Nan opened her eyes, she didn't know when she started, she even forgot how to cry, put down her hands, looked at all kinds of people, who knows, what is hidden under the smiling face...

She doesn't believe in anyone, she doesn't want to get close to anyone, she is extremely afraid of the light, but she is extremely eager for the light...

Just such a person...

Who would want to be close to such an unhappy person?

Everyone will avoid garbage.

Su Nan trimmed her hair, looked at her hands, alas, the hair is almost gone, forget it, it is almost over, let everything end in this city.

"The end is very simple." The hero sat next to Su Nan at some point, "But what is the meaning of your hard work to come to this world?"

Su Nan turned to look at the hero under the sun, still dressed in white, smiling all over his face, "Who is easy?" The hero looked at Su Nan with a smile, and then smiled and ran towards them "It's sunny today."

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao who was running from a distance, then looked at the hero who had disappeared beside him, and smiled, yes, today's sunshine is so good, why should you care about those bad things, the end is It's very simple, it's not easy to continue.

"Crooked, what are you thinking about!" Zhu Hao patted Su Nan on the shoulder fiercely, "Here, I bought crucian carp cakes for you."

"Thank you, well, it's still warm." Su Nan patted the seat next to him, "Sit down."

"Have you thought about what you will do in the future?" Zhu Hao asked Su Nan while biting a crucian carp cake.

Su Nan blew on the cake and thought about it, then shook his head and said, "Why do you want to do things in the future?"

"That's right, it's all good now." Zhu Hao smiled and touched Su Nan's head. "The sun is so good today, let's bask in the sun. After a while, we will start hiding from the sun when the weather gets hot."

"Yeah... Even if it is light, it will be disgusted if it is too strong." Su Nan suddenly said with emotion.

Zhu Hao was speechless all of a sudden, "Sister...it's my fault...I shouldn't have said such a thing..."

"Hahahahahahahahahaha, okay, eat, eat, eat, I won't talk..."

"How about we go to the movies later?"

"What's the matter? You don't go for treatment anymore?"

"Escape!"

"roll."

"okay……"

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao who was smiling and didn't know why her mood became better for no reason.

"Yo, what's so fun about it?"

A thin and small figure suddenly stood in front of them.

Zhu Hao raised his head, "Yo yo, rare customer!"

Su Nan also raised her head to look at the source of the voice, and laughed, "Hey, it's not Miss Jiang who we left without saying goodbye!"

Jiang Ziwen took advantage of the opportunity and sat down beside Su Nan, putting his arm around Su Nan's shoulders, "I ran out to play again, I just went to the ward to see you, but the nurse told me that you had gone out, I thought I would never see you again Woolen cloth."

Su Nan took Jiang Ziwen's hand away in disgust, "Say, what are you here for?"

"I haven't seen you in just a few days, so that's it? I still miss you!" Jiang Ziwen hugged Su Nan sadly.

"Can the two women stop being so disgusting?" Zhu Hao said disgustedly at the side.

Su Nan pushed Jiang Ziwen away, "What's so hot in the middle?"

"Oh oh, I almost forgot, the crucian carp cakes brought all the way for you guys! Eat while it's hot!" Jiang Ziwen took out two crucian carp cakes from the bag, which were still steaming, and it looked like they had just been baked.

Su Nan and Zhu Hao looked helplessly at the crucian carp cake in Jiang Ziwen's hand, they couldn't say they just ate it...

"Then...that...you got it, eat it...ha!" Su Nan stuffed the crucian carp cake back into Jiang Ziwen's bag, "I... Zhu Hao and I are allergic to crucian carp cake!"

Jiang Ziwen looked at the bag of crucian carp cakes that Su Nan and the others had just finished eating next to Zhu Hao with disbelief, "Really?"

"Give it to me!" Jiang Ziwen stuffed the crucian carp cake into the hands of Su Nan and Zhu Hao. "Don't waste your heart!"

Jiang Ziwen hugged Su Nan, and said to Zhu Hao, "Crooked, Su Nan, let me borrow it first, you go back first."

Zhu Hao bit the crucian carp cake angrily, "Oh, then you will remember to send Su Nan back later, I'll go back first."

Jiang Ziwen patted his chest and promised, "Okay, okay, it will be delivered safely, you can go."

Zhu Hao took the crucian carp cake in Su Nan's hand, "I'll eat too much later, let's talk, I'll go first."

Jiang Ziwen looked at Zhu Haoyuan's back and patted Su Nan on the back with a smile, "This young man is not bad!"

"Pull it down, stop talking nonsense, let go of your fart." Su Nan pushed Jiang Ziwen in disgust.

"I'm just here to check you up. How are you doing? How are you?" Jiang Ziwen patted Su Nan's head.

"That's it, it's nothing." Su Nan sighed, "I don't know when it will be a head. When it gets better, it feels like there is nothing wrong. When it gets worse, it can only be said that it is painful."

Su Nan suddenly held Jiang Ziwen's hand, "Hey, how are you doing when you get home?"

"It's okay. I found some things to do, and I'm in good condition. I plan to go back to work." Jiang Ziwen also tightly covered Su Nan's hand.

"It's in good condition, isn't it very good, try not to come back." Su Nan looked at Jiang Ziwen with a smile, "This is not a good place."

"That's right, so, after you go out, don't come back." Jiang Ziwen looked at Su Nan with a little distress. "You are still so young, you are the author of your own life, and the initiative is in your own hands."

Su Nan smiled, "You're not old, why are you talking like people in their [-]s and [-]s."

"That's how I'm going to tell you, oh, anyway, let's live the present first!" Jiang Ziwen slumped on the wooden chair, "Look, the weather is so good today, let's have a sunbathing first!"

Su Nan didn't care anymore, just like Jiang Ziwen, she slumped back and didn't care about anything.

"Innocent blue." Su Nan looked at the sky and sighed suddenly.

"Then live well, watch every day, see enough." Jiang Ziwen turned to look at Su Nan.

"Why can't I watch it while lying in the tomb, the tomb is still lively, there are a lot of people, I watch it every day." Su Nan snorted back.

"You are all ashes, you still have to watch the sky, what are you thinking, it's pitch black, what can you see." Jiang Ziwen laughed at Su Nan.

"Hey, you know how to hate me, be careful that I will hit you in your dreams at night!" Su Nan was not to be outdone.

"You have to fight me first." Jiang Ziwen shook his head helplessly, "You should live well first."

"Do you know?" Su Nan turned to look at Jiang Ziwen.

Jiang Ziwen turned his head and looked at Su Nan, "What?"

"My mother's evaluation of me."

"Be good, your mother is talking to us, ah, my daughter has been very good since she was a child and so on. What's the matter?" Jiang Ziwen looked at Su Nan a little puzzled.

"Yeah...I'm very obedient..." Su Nan turned her head and looked at the sky dully, "What's your definition of obedient?"

"Well, be obedient, be quiet, don't make trouble, that's what you are. Why did you mention this all of a sudden?" Jiang Ziwen sat up and looked at Su Nan, "You are a little strange."

Su Nan smiled and shook her head, "I'm just a little curious without it."

"Curiosity?" Jiang Ziwen put his head in front of Su Nan.

"Hey, pervert, don't get so close to me."

Su Nan pushed Jiang Ziwen's face away at once.

"Concerned about you, what's the matter, and you're still disgusted?" Jiang Ziwen stuck out his tongue.

Jiang Ziwen looked at the fewer and fewer people in the hospital, and looked at his phone, "It's almost time."

Jiang Ziwen got up and pulled Su Nan to hug her and patted Su Nan on the back lightly, "Thank you for your hard work."

"Okay, let's take you back."

Su Nan was a little overwhelmed by Jiang Ziwen's series of operations.

"Leave it to me." Zhu Hao came out of nowhere.

"Oh, no, where did you come from?" Jiang Ziwen looked around suspiciously.

"Don't worry, let's go, let's go, I'll take her away." Zhu Hao took Su Nan's hand and walked forward, ignoring Jiang Ziwen beside him.

"Hey, what are you two talking about?" Zhu Hao asked curiously.

"It's nothing." Su Nan didn't bother to talk to him.

"Way, you two have no conscience! See you next time!" Jiang Ziwen shouted from behind.

Zhu Hao waved Su Nan into the inpatient building.

Su Nan thought about what Jiang Ziwen and Zhu Hao said today, and it always felt like two people colluding, but no matter whether they were colluding or not, the words are not rough, after all, living in the present, Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao who was smiling innocently, alas, it's all good now.

(End of this chapter)