departure tomorrow

Chapter 27 Su Nan's Fantasy Man
"Su Nan Su Nan!"

After coming out of the office, Su Nan kept walking quickly. In fact, she knew everything about the situation, but it was different from the doctor's mouth...

It seems to be back to those days
"You are so good at drawing, why don't you express yourself?"

"Isn't it good to speak Chinese? Write me a composition."

"Looking so ugly, yet so confident? Did Liang Jingru give it to you?"

"You are so ugly, you are like a black quagmire!"

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Su Nan locked herself in the toilet and cried loudly, knowing that she was sick again.

"It's okay, we are all here." The familiar and gentle voice sounded.

Su Nan looked up, and sure enough, her hallucination reappeared.

"I want to go home." Su Nan cried, and the phantom just squatted on the ground to accompany Su Nan.

"Go home? Okay, then let's go home, okay? Don't cry, you will become very ugly." The hero said to Su Nan gently.

Su Nan lowered her head to calm down.

"Dong dong dong dong" Zhu Hao knocked on the door before us, "Let's talk about it when we come out."

"Okay, don't worry the people who worry about you"

Su Nan thought about it, and raised his head to see that "he" was no longer there. Su Nan calmed down and opened the door, "I'm fine."

"Don't be like this all the time, it will scare us." Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan worriedly.

Pulling up the sleeves of Su Nan's clothes again, and turning Su Nan around again, he finally took a breath.

"It will scare you..." Su Nan walked away dully and pushed everyone outside the door.

"Su Nan! I'm right outside the door! Call me if you have anything to do!" Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan didn't want to pay attention to anyone, so she turned her head and closed the curtain.

"You're going to drive yourself crazy." That he appeared in the corner again.

"The hero, what do you think we should do?" Su Nan sat on the bed feeling sad, "I'm sick again, what do you think the hero should do?"

The hero stood under the sun and looked at Su Nan with a smile. It was so clean that this person did not exist. It was spotless.

"What should I do?" Su Nan wanted to cry, but she was caught off guard.

The hero is still standing under the sun with a clean smile, Su Nan looks up at him, a pure white T-shirt with jeans, so clean...

So clean that Su Nan is [-]% sure that he does not exist.

"What do you think I should do?" Su Nan choked up and looked at the hero.

"Just be yourself." The magnetic voice made Su Nan calm down.

"Come on, Su Nan." This was the first time Su Nan heard words of encouragement from the hero other than plain words.

"But I'm terrible, hero." Su Nan was suddenly very depressed, feeling that she was the most useless person in the world.

"You are very good, Su Nan." The hero still stood under the sun smiling and said to the depressed Su Nan, "You don't have to be so depressed, you are very good, and you don't have to be irritable, you are very good."

Su Nan looked up at the hero aggrieved, "Then why have you never appeared in my situation before?"

"Because you don't need me to show up." The hero still looked at Su Nan with a smile.

"See you next time." The hero smiled at Su Nan.

"Hey!" Su Nan still had something to say.

"Su Nan, are you really okay? I see you've been talking to yourself." Zhu Hao pushed the door open and came in.

Su Nan knew why the hero said goodbye.

"He treats you very well..." The voices of heroes rang in my ears. "He's very worried about you."

"Of course I know..." Su Nan responded softly.

"What did you say?" Zhu Hao raised his head.

"No, no, isn't there still treatment, hurry up and go to treatment." Su Nan pushed Zhu Hao out. "

Zhu Hao couldn't react a bit, "But don't you want to go too?"

"I'll go by myself later!" Su Nan shut Zhu Hao out again.

"This way it will be sad." The hero reappeared at some point.

The hero seemed to know what Su Nan was thinking, "I am you, and you are me."

Su Nan didn't understand.

"If you need me, I will be there. If you don't need me, I will disappear."

Su Nan suddenly felt that the existence of heroes was a bit sad, and he couldn't control his own destiny at all, but Su Nan didn't know how to control his thoughts
In the past, when Su Nan's emotions were particularly extreme, the hero would appear, a perfect existence in Su Nan's imagination, [-] meters, clean and sunny, a clean existence so clean that even gods would respect three points.

It just gives people a kind of cleanliness......

Su Nan doesn't know why he exists, but it must be because of her longing for life, clean, clean.
"Su Nan, be happy." The hero looked down at Su Nan.

This is what Su Nan often says to herself
"Be happy..."

But it's so hard...

Since when did heroes exist? In the beginning, it was voices.

There are always hallucinations.

But very warm.

"It's okay, let's go home"

"You are already great"

"You're not fat at all"

"You are excellent Su Nan"

"You can't jump, you still have a home"

"Cutting your wrists is something bad kids do"

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Slowly, the auditory hallucinations turned into hallucinations.

A perfect big boy began to appear in Su Nan's life, occasionally, but every time he appeared so timely.

But when it appeared for the first time, Su Nan was taken aback. His nerves were so tight that day that he felt like he was going to explode. Suddenly he turned his head and looked at the hero. Su Nan, who was alone at home, first thought that he was a thief. , patted his hands indiscriminately, but found that he couldn't shoot, it should have started from that day, and a very special hero was born like this.

If possible, Su Nan hopes that heroes will always exist, like a normal person, not a need that Su Nan needs.

She hopes that heroes will always be heroes, not a hero that Su Nan needs to exist.

"What would you do if I disappeared?" Su Nan recalled the white dream.

"Disappear together." The hero said calmly, "You mean that dream?"

Su Nan looked surprised, "How do you know?"

"We are all you." The hero explained seriously.

"We are yours. If you don't want us to exist, we don't exist. If you want us to be replaced, we can also replace you. We are you, and you are me. Our thoughts are common, but you resist those memories. So you don't have our memory. You forced yourself to imagine us, so you won't be particularly surprised when you see us for the first time. There must be surprises, but they won't be special, because we are what you imagined, It may be someone who has regrets, or it may be something else." The hero explained to Su Nan.

The hero looks at himself, "At the beginning you said you didn't know him at all, it means that the boyfriend in your mind is like me, appearance, personality, lifestyle, etc., are the perfect ones in your mind."

"Then if I don't want to exist, I just disappear in this world, then the three of us will disappear together, right?" Su Nan sorted out the relationship.

"Yes, you are the totality, and we are all your scattered individuals. Our individuality may change with your own body or thoughts, increase or even disappear, but when the master disappears, we will definitely disappear." Hero thought Liao thought, "At the beginning we didn't have any consciousness, it was equivalent to a robot, we didn't know anything, but it may have been a long time, looking at your life, I can feel a lot of your feelings, and even the consciousness of others , For example, Zhu Hao is really kind to you, and he also inexplicably hopes that you can be good. This is what I can feel. Whoever treats you badly, we can also feel it immediately and issue a warning. But Zhu Hao is 100% true to you."

Su Nan was a little stunned, and was interrupted by the sudden words of the hero, "This...is not the same thing."

"Anyway, my whole body tells me that I hope you are happy and live happily and hopefully. This comes from the depths of your own heart. Let me tell you, Zhu Hao hopes to make you happy. I can feel that Get rid of strong emotions and leave the rest to yourself.”

Su Nan looked at the hero, "Thank you."

The hero doesn't understand why Su Nan should thank him, "You should thank yourself. All the words in my heart come from the depths of your own heart. It's just that you don't want to face it and hide it. Some things, You think about it."

After a pause, he said, "But, thank you, Su Nan, for letting me see the world. Well, think about the rest, I'm leaving."

Su Nan looked at the hero who was gradually disappearing, and tears flowed down again.
"Thank you, hero, for giving me the warmth that no one else can give me."

In fact, Su Nan knows the truth... Hey, the hero is really.
How should I put it, the existence of Su Nan and Daxia is a bit like redeeming each other, one looks longing for the world, and the other looks eager to be protected, and the two of them just happen to become complementary relationships, thus forming a hero and Su Nan.

But what about Su Nan and the man in the dream?It's also because Su Nan wants a perfect existence to replace her life, so it's a character that appeared, right?

Su Nan sat paralyzed on the ground, whether it was a hero or a dreamer, they all existed because of Su Nan, so Su Nan would be responsible for them.

But now that Su Nan is sick, her mind, emotion and body are out of her control. There are a lot of medicines every day, and Su Nan has no idea what she is doing every day.Just take medicine every day
Sometimes, when her brain is out of control, Su Nan will want to hurt herself, and when she is irritable, she will want to hurt others, and then torture herself to look like a ghost...

Sometimes Su Nan would feel that she was doing things like white lotus or green tea, but her body's instinctive reaction told her to do so.

Hero, let's just exist properly, and I will show you the world.

Meng'er, as long as I have done everything and explained everything, I will agree to all your requests, including replacing your life.

(End of this chapter)