After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 807 801. She hates losing, whether it's losing to adults or to this society.

"Like it."

"like it all?"

"like it all."

"At this moment?"

"At this moment."

"Whether it's ayaneru or praying sauce?"

"And Miss Hidaka."

She was silent for a long time, and finally covered her head: "I really can't figure out what Totsuka-kun is thinking, how can someone tell the girl he likes that he still likes other people, isn't that just talking about getting along with you?" Is it okay to date anyone?"

"I think liking is a little bit different than wanting to be in a relationship.

Everyone likes kind and gentle people, but generally speaking, people who want to associate with are only those who are gentle to themselves.

Is it strange to have the thought of 'wanting to monopolize this person's tenderness'? "

"Totsuka-kun knows this kind of thing, so he should be able to understand that this kind of feeling is the same for girls.

However, Totsuka-kun didn't reserve his tenderness to only one person, did he? "

"Miss Hidaka, let me correct a mistake in your words."

"Words like gentleness can't be used on people like me."

She stopped talking for a moment, I think she should agree with me.

"It seems to be. It seems that Totsuka-kun's positioning of himself is quite accurate."

See it.

Before you know it, it's time for the sun to go down, and the golden-red glow falls on the children's facilities not far away, and the rusty swing chains are filled with a red-hot color, as if you will be scalded by high temperature after touching .

The sun is slowly sinking, which means that today's "date" is coming to an end. We sat on the benches in the park, and none of us stood up.

"Hey, Totsuka-kun."

"Ok?"

"Why did Totsuka-kun become a person with two feet? You obviously have a better choice... If you just choose Ayaneru or Ki-chan, you will undoubtedly be much happier than you are now."

She is right.

I often think like this, if I can get along with any girl for a long time without letting my eyes look at other seiyuu, I will definitely be happier than now, and I will not end up in such a pitiful situation.

"Perhaps, the gap in my heart cannot be filled by just one person."

I thought these words would not be recognized, it sounded like she was just looking for a reason for cheating, but Miss Hidaka's voice was very steady.

"Totsuka-kun seems to be lonely all the time. Is it really so uncomfortable? Is this society so difficult for Totsuka-kun to integrate into?"

I leaned weakly on the bench and looked up at the golden sky: "It's hard, a person like me...is the same everywhere."

At this moment, many things are floating in my mind, what will I do in the future, after I get married with Caiyin, how long will I live in such a hidden life.

Frightened every day and every night, it is hard to imagine how desperate Lisha and Caiyin will be when they know the truth.

Is this the life I'm looking forward to?

Obviously not, but I have no means of breaking free.

During this process, I gradually gave up thinking, and just blindly pursued short-term pleasure.

Recently, I feel more and more that only when I am with Yousha can I feel truly relaxed.

But that is just relaxation, not happiness.

Because Yousha won't accuse me, no matter who I do, no matter what excessive things I do, only she will accompany me to degenerate.

Simply, together with Yousha, let's escape to the forest where no one can find them.

... just kidding.

I can't give up on anyone, whether it's Caiyin or Lisha, I want them to be happy from the bottom of my heart.

But what I'm doing now runs counter to my original intention.

Already, nothing is clear.

"I want to escape, I want to leave everything behind, give up everything I have, and go to a place where no one can find me."

It's not me who said that.

Her voice was very gentle, like the protagonist of a drama reading aloud, as if a light was shining on her, it was so gorgeous that I couldn't open my eyes.

"I also have one thing I want to correct Totsuka-kun."

"All ears."

"I'm not good at socializing, but I just want to protect myself in this materialistic society. I don't have the excellent ability of Totsuka-kun, so I can only rely on myself to build a little bit of interpersonal relationship around me, and try my best to make everyone like me. good boy."

"Totsuka-kun just said that he envied me."

"I'm envious of Totsuka-kun, if I can have the impressive talent of Totsuka-kun, I might be endowed with the courage to resist.

When I was a student, there would always be people like that in the class, always huddled in the corner, classmates who seemed to have no friends, and couldn't even name each other.

That kind of person is the most likely to be bullied, and Totsuka-kun is now like that classmate huddled in a corner.

But no one will bully you at school, do you know why? "

I waited wordlessly for her next words.

"Because I have talent."

"........."

"Talented people will be jealous, envied, and bullied."

"But when this talent reveals too amazing energy, the most powerful bullies will become your friends, and in turn bully those who try to bully you."

"If Totsuka-kun is just an unknown new voice actor who can't sing or write, how can he cheat like this and then come to hook up with a female voice actor with no talent like me?"

Her examples are wonderful and complicated, but I understand them.

At first I thought she was a harmless and innocent girl, but later I thought she was a weird girl who thought she was smart and thought other people were fools.

Now, I just see an ordinary girl desperately trying to protect herself with a disguise.

I am not the only one who is afraid of this world.

I know a little about Ms. Hidaka’s experience as an artist. She participated in TV drama filming in the first grade of elementary school, and debuted as a voice actress in junior high school. Perhaps at that time, she had already experienced the cruelty of this society.

"Miss Hidaka, you don't look like the type to be bullied at all."

"Because I pretend to be very good, I know exactly what kind of character will be liked."

"Isn't it good to be yourself? I think Miss Hidaka is equally charming now."

"Although it sounds frivolous, thank you for your compliment."

She laughed for some reason, but I don't think it was my compliment.

"If I had talent like Totsuka-kun, maybe I'd be a guy who hooks up with male voice actors, hahahaha."

Well, this sentence is a joke, I can hear it.

After a long time, I heard the girl sigh slightly.

"I'm a person... I want to be excellent no matter what I do, and I want to be praised by my mother.

I hate losing.

Whether it is losing to adults or losing to this society. "

(End of this chapter)