Why it never ends

In the dead of night, everyone said goodbye to each other and stood up.

Not long after Hesta returned home, she realized that she had left her mobile phone in the living room. She went out in the dark and suddenly found Ding Yuqing still sitting at the dining table in the living room.

In the dim living room, Hesta walked to Ding Yuqing's side and asked, "Don't you want to sleep?"

"Can't sleep," Ding Yuqing raised her head, "Would you like to go downstairs for a walk?"

"Now?"

"Now."

"……Walk."

The two of them got up at the same time to put on their coats and took the elevator downstairs.

"Have you had a boring time tonight?" Ding Yuqing said with a smile, "You have fallen asleep."

"It's a bit too difficult for me to understand your daily chat. My hearing obviously needs to be improved..." Hesta replied, "What did you talk about at night?"

"Just some family matters," Ding Yuqing said softly, "some... trivial things."

"Really?" Hesta glanced in the direction of Ding Yuqing, "I feel like you are in a good mood now?"

"No, but I do feel like the stone in my heart has been relieved..."

Hesta was slightly relieved - she really shouldn't have taken Yuqing to participate in the poetry club's activities last night. Perhaps, the so-called stratosphere does not need to be established among peers...

Maybe Ding Yuqing has already built his own stratosphere around him?

"...It just feels like," Ding Yuqing looked at the white light on the top of the elevator, "some people wear chains on themselves, but they can still bring freedom to others."

Hesta thought for a while, "You mean Ding Xueyang?"

The elevator door opened, and Ding Yuqing walked out first, then turned around and said, "Shall we go to the night market to find something to eat?"

"Okay." Hesta nodded, "Anything is fine."

……

"I just received a message from Ding Jiali. He said that my father will be discharged from the hospital and go home tomorrow afternoon. Let us prepare."

"what?"

The night market was noisy with people coming and going. Ding Yuqing raised her voice and said what she just said again.

Hesta was a little surprised, "So fast?"

"Ordinarily, we should observe him for a while, but my father said that all the doctors and nurses in the hospital are working against him, and he can't stay for a day, so..." Ding Yuqing shrugged, "Anyway, just observe at home. If it doesn't work, just call him." Ambulance."

The two stopped in front of a small shop selling brown sugar glutinous rice cakes. Hesta bought one portion first, and then two more. She handed a stick to Ding Yuqing, who shook her head, "This one is too hot."

"Okay," Hesta chewed, "I quite like the atmosphere at home tonight, but when your dad is here, you two never seem to chat like this."

"He would interrupt...and some things were not easy to talk about in person."

"You all hate him?" "...No." Ding Yuqing said softly.

"Then why did Ms. Xu marry him in the first place? Was she forced by her family?"

"Ha, it's really not the case!" A helpless smile appeared on Ding Yuqing's face, "I asked my mother this question. She and my father were indeed introduced to each other by their family, but it was indeed her who nodded - you absolutely I can’t guess what the opportunity was.”

"...What is it?"

"At first, she didn't plan to continue with my dad because she felt that he was not good at words and too shy, which was not her type. After meeting for the first time, my mom told the family to reject the candidate, saying she didn't like it, but I My father was very persistent - he fell in love with my mother at first sight and was very satisfied. He insisted on making an appointment again, but my mother couldn't get over the family's wishes, so she agreed."

Hesta frowned, "Then what? What method did your father use?"

"...No," Ding Yuqing took a breath, "The second time we met, my mother made it clear as soon as we met. Dad originally wanted to invite her to dinner again, but my mother refused to go. The two of us just went We took a walk by the river and agreed that today would be the last time we see each other, and we would never disturb each other again."

"uh-huh."

"After the walk, my dad insisted on sending her home. My mom is a very soft-hearted person. She had already rejected her once and was embarrassed to refuse her again. The two of them didn't say anything along the way. When they got there, she and my dad After saying goodbye, she walked into the community by herself, walking, walking, walking... Before turning, she turned back and glanced across the road, and found that my dad was still standing on the street opposite the entrance of the community... …looking at her.”

Ding Yuqing paused.

"...Then, she suddenly felt that everything was different."

"What's different?" Hesta asked.

"I asked the same question," Ding Yuqing said softly, "She said, I can't say, it's just a strange feeling... From that day on, she started to pay attention to my dad's news - just hearing this beginning is actually... Pretty good, a standard romance story——"

"Wait a minute, I don't understand," Hestad was still confused. "Your mother turned around and saw your father still on the other side of the road. Why is everything different?"

"...If I have to say it," Ding Yuqing narrowed her eyes, "Maybe there was a little bit of love at that moment, right?"

"why?"

"Why... there is no reason. What's the reason? A young man was suddenly caught and penetrated. What's the reason?" Ding Yuqing raised her head, "Have you never felt this way?"

Hesta's pace gradually slowed down.

"...What does it feel like?"

"For example, when facing a certain person, I suddenly have many inexplicable intuitions and inexplicable worries... It's okay when he doesn't show up, but as soon as he shows up, all the logic of action is deflected towards this person, and rationality is no longer the same. It works, you can only keep enduring... Sometimes this impulse will suddenly subside, and when you look back, you can't figure out what exactly moved you in the first place, but sometimes it will also provoke a response from the other party, and then these Things will leave a mark on you... When I first had a crush on my deskmate in junior high school, I knew how powerful it was, and there was no reason to explain it."

Ding Yuqing glanced at Hesta inadvertently, and suddenly her eyes widened, "...are you thinking of someone?"

Hesta came to her senses, "Huh?"

"When I said those words just now, were you thinking of someone!"

"……No."

"You lied. You were clearly thinking about someone or something." Ding Yuqing smiled like a busybody, "Who was it? When did it happen?"

"Not at all," Hesta replied in a low voice.

"Ha, if you don't want to tell me, I won't ask." Ding Yuqing retracted her gaze, "But if you want to say anything at any time, you can always come to me... It's too difficult to keep these secrets alone."