Why it never ends

She thought about a conversation she had with Ava one day last year. At that time, Ava once said that there is a huge gap between "how a person actually lives" and "how a person should live". If someone gives up what ordinary people actually do for what she should do... then she will Instead of preserving itself, it is destroying itself.

It was also during that conversation that Ava solemnly told her that people must be wary of what they do behind the scenes and strive to be a righteous friend from beginning to end.

Righteous friends...

Hesta leaned back in her chair.

Ava, what do you mean by "justice"?

Before Hestad could think deeply, there was a very light knock on the door from outside.

"simple?"

Hesta opened the door and saw Ding Yuqing's concerned eyes.

"Are you ok?"

"I am very well."

Ding Yuqing looked at the lamp and desk that were lit behind Hesta, "Did something happen to you today?"

"Nothing." Hesta looked back at his desk, "Oh, I'm going to participate in club activities tonight, and I have some information to check."

"in a hurry?"

"Yes," Hesta replied, "but the investigation has been completed."

Ding Yuqing nodded, "That's good, I won't disturb your rest -"

"Wait a minute," Seeing Ding Yuqing about to exit, Hesta suddenly remembered another thing, "Are you free every Monday or Friday night? Between eight and nine o'clock."

"There should be?" Ding Yuqing thought for a while, "What's wrong."

"This Friday or next Monday night, you can go to a club activity with me," Hesta said softly. "I think that place is very suitable for relieving stress. You should like it."

Ding Yuqing was a little surprised, "Okay, which club is it?"

"A poetry club." Hesta whispered, "By the way, don't mention this to Ding Jiali."

Ding Yuqing lowered her head and smiled, "...I won't tell him!"

……

On Wednesday, Hestad changed into his only jacket with a stand-up collar.

Judging from the silhouette alone, this dress is very similar to the autumn uniform of the base, but it lacks the AHgAs logo. Considering that today's meeting with Yu Xuekun would be recorded in the form of a video, she carefully arranged her appearance, hoping that she would look more like her former self in the camera.

At a quarter past one in the afternoon, she pushed open the door of Yu Xuekun's consulting room and found that Yu Xuekun was setting up video equipment. The furnishings of the entire consulting room had not changed much, but the atmosphere was almost completely different - the shutters that were originally half-open and half-closed were now completely open. The interior light becomes brighter. All the desk lamps with warm orange light in the past were extinguished, and only the ceiling lamp above the two of them still shone bright white light.

Just a change in lighting quickly removed the entire consulting room from its original warm and relaxing temperament.

Yu Xuekun also changed into her uniform today. She rarely wore hair gel and combed back all her bangs in front of her forehead, exposing her entire smooth forehead. Hearing the sound, Yu Xuekun turned around and reached out to Hesta in a friendly manner, "You are here, Ms. Hesta."

Hesta shook hands with the other person equally friendly, as if they were not familiar with each other at all. She wanted to joke: In fact, you didn't have to remind me repeatedly that the meeting at the end of each month was different from before. As long as a person is in a normal mind, she can easily detect the huge difference between the two.

"Here we come." Hesta pointed to the video equipment that Yu Xuekun was adjusting, "Do you need help?"

"No need." Yu Xuekun handed over a radio, "Pin this on your collar... Oh, do you need help?"

Hesta took the radio and quickly completed the operation with one hand.

"Not bad," Yu Xuekun sat down in his seat, "It seems that you have adapted to life without the bionic arm."

"It's hard to say how adaptable it is," Hesta sat down on the chair opposite Yu Xuekun. At this time, she discovered that the comfortable single cloth sofa in the room had also been removed and replaced by a very businesslike leather sofa. Chair, "...if possible, I still hope that the base can provide me with one as soon as possible, just a low-standard one."

Yu Xuekun responded and wrote on the paper with a pen, "Okay, I will convey it to you... But as you know, all the workstations in the 14th District are very busy at the moment——"

"Understood," Hesta replied, "This is not a high priority request."

"Thank you." Yu Xuekun raised his head with a smile, "Then let's get started?"

"Ah."

"Please briefly describe your life in a livable place during this period," Yu Xuekun said softly, "How do you feel?"

"Overall, it was full of challenges, but I also received help and understanding from many people during the process, so it went quite smoothly... I'm still learning, and there are so many things I need to learn."

"What kind of challenges are they specifically? Can you give some examples?"

"The pace of life here is very different from what I was used to," Hesta said softly. "Daily life in a livable place is basically far away from all battles. Everyone regards this tranquility and safety as a normal background. This is a natural social atmosphere... This makes me feel a little uncomfortable occasionally. But to a certain extent, it just proves that the work carried out by AHgAs in various regions is effective, which often makes me unable to help but express my gratitude to me in my heart. Salute to my colleagues.”

"This is normal. Many mercury needles are not used to everything here when they first enter a habitable place... all this takes time," Yu Xuekun smiled slightly, "If you ask yourself to give yourself a score between one and ten Score, evaluate your own possibility of living in a livable place for a long time, what score would you give yourself?”

Hesta frowned slightly, "Will you live for a long time?"

"Correct."

"I have no plans yet."

Yu Xuekun had been making simple notes on the paper. When she heard this answer, she stopped writing and raised her eyes again, casting a deep glance at Hesta, "Are you still eager to return to the battlefield?"

"Not necessarily a battlefield," Hestad replied, "but I do have the desire to get back into combat order as soon as possible."

Yu Xuekun's expression became a little complicated, and she carefully considered the next question to Hestad - she was a little unsure whether Hestad understood the meaning that she had conveyed many times before: to get it in the evaluation The key to getting a high score is to try your best to show that you are fully adaptable to life in a livable place...

"You mean," Yu Xuekun said softly, "compared to the present, the past life makes you miss it more?"

"Rather than missing the past life, it's better to say that I feel confused in the process of re-anchoring my own values," Hesta looked at her. "Life in a livable land is not all sweet. It is indeed safer here. But people here are still exposed to all kinds of pain.”