Why am I the Villainous

"Guardian spirit?"

Sen Thider looked at the fluffy furball with suspicion in her eyes...

"Of course,"'Who will target a mere child of a great household like you?,my job is very easy!'

"So,What's your name?"Thider asked it... 'That's more important!'

"This," the furball averted its gaze.... "How ...How about you give one to me!?"

"Don't have a name,huh?"

"It's not like that!"

"Ohh,it's true then..."

"Heyyy,!"

"Then,how about 'puma'?"

"What's up with the animal name!"

"....." Why are you looking down on animals?!Aren't you a cat yourself?!

"Furball"

"Are you saying that this lord is fat!?"

"Fluffy"

"No,no,Can't you give me a powerful name?"

"Mighty?"

"Nooo!"

After a round or two of Guessing,Thider came up with a name...

"Love!"

"Nooooo"

"Philia "

"What?" The furball's ears twitched."What did you say?"

" Philia,deep friendship..."

"Ok! Philia it is!" The spirit seemed very pleased with its name..

"By the way,are you a boy kitty or a girl kitty?"

"Huh!You fared giving me a name without even knowing that?!"

Thider scratched her head...

"I don't mind either way,'Philia ' is a good name.."

"....."Fluffy....er...Philia placed its front paw on its forehead and sighed..

"I am a male.... no... spirits don't have genders ,idiot!... but I prefer being a male cat... "

"Ohhhh,copy that!"

....

Thider called Philia's name again and again as they strolled along the hall,looking at the familiar pictures....

"Enough with that.. Let's get to the main point"Philia snapped after being called a thousand times with no particular reasons...

Alas,what happened to the little aloof and quiet ,serious,sensible girl...?Did someone switch her when I was not looking?Must be it!

"Philia?"

"Why are you calling me again!?"

"No,why are you spacing out like that?" Thider asked it while waving before it's face....

#cough# "I was going tell you about that... "It looked at Thider .

"Your vessel is dying out there..."

"...." What?

Thider frozed for a while . The hall room became darker as all the little sounds of bells and birds became silent .....

"See for yourself "Philia made a watery screen with a spell and a girl with a red skin appeared ... It was Thider.She was sweating a lot and her fingernails had turned black. Blood 'flowed' from her nose and mouth. Zin and Yin were anxiously running around,doing erands for the physician,while Pa Pa Sen was standing there ,waiting with a pale face...Agh,who told father that I was sick?!Must be that Gin fellow! I'm gonna spank that person!No,that's not the point here...

I am dying? Thider glared at the kitten before her.

"What happened? I went blind when I was awake.. and now I'm dying? Why?"

She felt uneasy... She told herself to wake up... but that didn't do any good...

"Blood curse poison... the amount in your system was enough to affect your soul but it only took your vision.. .. so,I was rather surprised

. The poison was activated by the energy waves from the bracelet and the lighting... " Philia looked at her pale face.

"Don't worry,at most you will lose your life... and go through another cycle of life and death...

Your soul won't be affected.. .."

"At most ,I'll just lose my life!?"

Thider stared at the kitten.

"What do you take a life for? And that's my life!"

The wind around her suddenly became havoc as she raised her voice.

"My life,which I painstakingly tried to saved and almost succeed,is just a life that can be reincarnated into another cycle ,leaving everything I earned with great effort just like that!?"

"Don't raise your voice like that !

Damn,why are you so dramatic?"

Philia looked at the surrounding which has turned into a place full of priceless herbs and spirit stones ...

I did not intend to let you end your life like that of course...

"You can take these and cure yourself." It said as it watched a humming bee landed on a level four honeysuckle flower.

"You do know the recipe ,no?"

Thider looked at the colourful garden around her and felt a familier present but she could not guess what it was.

"Thanks," She told Philia."Why are you helping me,by the way?I've been curing myself since two years ago..But...some of the poison is still there.... "

"Stupid as always.... If you die,I might have to sleep for who knows how many years? I just woke up. Don't feel like sleeping yet!"

"Oh ,well... Thanks anyway... "

Thider said as she looked for the necessary herbs.

...

The air around here is rich with the scents of herbs and medicine.

The warm evening breeze carried with it,the sounds of bells from the distance...and those of the birds.

Under the evening sky, one girl and one cat were busy making pills and talking .

"And I was thinking about how to deal with that situation when I realised that I was actually the villainous.,and then here we are...

I'm blind and may be my vessel will need a long time to recuperate..."

"Can't be help, but you 'll be able to see again after five or so years.... "

"Five or so years..." Thider looked up at the sky . The moon has started to shine already.... Countless stars were twinkling above her head... She then looked at the pills in her hand .

"So,I am to eat a pill once I return to my body,huh?"She played with the pills."For Blood curse poison,is it?"

"And why can't I eat it now? "

"Your soul don't have that poison."Philia asked as it licked its paws.

"Oh,before you go,cultivate your soul for a while...The air has abundant spiritual powers under the moon light... You should practice some techniques regarding vision and sensing.After all, You will be blind for who knows how long ...."

"Right,Should I take this as an advice?"Thider smiled at her little guardian spirit. It's becoming more and more pleasing to the eyes... just look at that fluffy tail and those twitching ears!

"What's up with that look in your eyes?" I'm having goosebumps here!

" Ah,you look so cute!I'm in love!"

"Huh!?"

.....

Pa Pa Sen read the informations written in the documents and slammed them on the table with a bang!

"Call the second and third mistresses here !"

After a while ,

"My lord,what is it?" The second mistress asked after they greeted him.

"How will you explain this!?"

Pa Pa Sen threw the papers at the astonished women.They had never seen him like this before...

"This,..." The second mistress stuttered after she saw the document....

-The cause of young miss condition is Blood curse poison.The poison had been in her body since born...-

-Will lose her cultivation and worse,disable for life-

-Ann Su Pan and Ann Su Nan 's maids confessed.. ..-

"My lord,This is not the truth..."

"Oh,tell me about it... "

"My lord ,no, I was framed!"

"... In your next life!"

Then with a white glint from a sword,

"Ahhhhhhhhh"

Two lives vanished from the world.

"Master,"

"Clean up...."Pa Pa Sen threw the sword and went out of the study room.He looked up at the full moon and sighed.

"Wei,what should I do? What can I do?"

....

"When will our miss wake up,will she be fine?" Zin put a wet towel on Thider's forehead and sighed.

Yin patted her friend's shoulder.

"Zin,you should rest,It's been six days,Miss will be angry if she knows."

"Who cares!?"

"Oh,I care though...." Thider said right after that.

"Miss!" Zin and Yin both cried.

"Miss ,do you need something? Water?Zin,get some water!"

"Miss ,how do you feel ? Is there anything that feels bad..? Shall we call the physocian?!" "Miss,Master killed those devils that kill Madem Sen!"

"Miss....."

"Hold on,please.. one at a time,ladies. One at a time.!"

'Damn ,something's wrong with my tone....' Thider could more or less 'see' her surroundings.

But things need some time to stable,after all.

Thider could 'see' things more clearly after a while of intense

concentration...

She looked into the eyes of her best friends and smiled.

"Am I not awake now? Why are you worrying about!?"

.....

When Pa Pa Sen was imformed that Thider was awake,he came running ,asking a lot of questions and calling a physician.... and even giving her a lot of herbs and things that she liked....

Thider happily accepted her presents from her father and others....,whole giving them her thanks with a smile that startled them greatly...

"Because ,Miss don't show her emotions most of the time..."

Zin told her quite cheerfully while feeding her a grape ....

"And you certainly didn't show such a pure and genuine smile...."

'So,how was I smiling before?!'

"Ahh,Miss finally look like a normal nine year old child... Seeing this brings tears to my eyes!" Zin said emotionally...While dabbing the corners of her eyes with her long sleeve.

"Save them..."

'Just what do you take me for!'

But,it seem that they did not notice.... Thank goodness for my skills..I can go out often after this...

"Miss,...your eyes...."Yin whispered after a long while ,observing her miss for a few days ,she noticed something about her miss.

First,she would look into anyone's eyes whenever she talk to them..

Second,She would smile gratefully at people who did good deeds for her and there will always be a smile on her face which used to be

cold and expressionless.

Third, She would not notice things beyond a certain distance unlike before....

And she seemed sad sometimes when there's no one around her vicinity.....

Of course,those can be for some other reasons too....

'Crap'

"What about them?"Thider asked her while 'looking ' into her eyes,with a puzzled expression.

But Yin was not convinced.. ..

"Miss,how many fingers am I showing?"

"Yin,what are you talking about?" Zin asked her friend,bewildered at her sudden question.

"Miss,answer me please..."

"It's two..."

"What colour is that flower over there?"

"..."

"Miss,"Yin's voice was some what shaky..

"Yin,Are you thinking that miss is"

"It's white"

"Eh?"The two turned to stare at her.

"It's white,Yin,why are you asking me that? Do you think that I am blind?"

"Ay,I just tired ...after all... those things about the mistresses suffocated me..."

"Ohh,"

The matter was not brought up again .

But Thider knew that They were not convinced.. ..

'Sorry,Zin,Yin... ' Thider tightened her grip on the jade cup.' I won't admit this thing . I will never tell you about it'

....

A girl in a dull white dress looked at the three chattering happily beside the Camilla flowers.. from the lotus lake's stone bridge....

Sen Ye Aye gazed at her third sister ,her eyes were red with tears.

"Why?" She clenched her fists .Her nails embedded into her palms . Blood dripped onto the stone bridge. "Why?"

'This was not her sister's fault either... in fact she was the victim... So why? Why is my heart feels pain and hatred.?'

"Fourth miss?" Are you not going to meet third miss?

Ye Aye averted her eyes.. "No,"she said.. looking back.."Not today..,I don't feel so good. "

She turned and walked to the opposite direction.

"Let's go back"

'My heart ache... ,Third sister ,what should I do?.....'

....

Thider turned her head to look .

"Miss,what's wrong?"

Thider turned back...

"Nothing ,"I guess..

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