Offer your allegiance to Chaos!

Ashe opened her eyes and saw the pale ceiling.

But the memory lingers on the owl's feathers.

Where am I...?

"He's awake!"

The nurse's yelling sounded through the glass wall, followed by the footsteps of the attending doctor. Ansel pushed the door in, checked the data on the instrument again and again, shone a light on Ashe's pupils, and asked him questions repeatedly to make sure his mind was clear. .

"Basically awake, you can notify Director Kelsey and Dr. Hemer." Ansel nodded to the nurse.

During this period, Ashe was at her mercy, but her brain was still in confusion.

After Ansel also went out, he gradually understood the current situation.

So... isn't it a hallucination?After all, Hemer came to rescue him?

More memories surfaced in his mind, he thought of Hemer's panic after he pushed the door in, carried him all the way to the medical department, until the last anxious look in his eyes before he fell into a coma - if it was all hallucinations, then this The hallucinations are too realistic.

More importantly, when things like emotions leave the situation at the time and become memories, it is easy to discern the absurdity in them.

Coupled with the treatment of the disease and a night's rest, the body returns to normal, the secretion of hormones is suppressed, and the mood is weakened.

However, like low background noise, a certain sense of depression still filled Ashe's mind.

The darkness that has been deposited for 29 years has not disappeared.

Ashe shook her head, distracting herself from the oppression.

If it is not an illusion, then is the Book of Slaanesh really stripped away?

Ashe closed her eyes, and tried again to summon the Book of Slaanesh from her mind.

Unexpectedly, this time, there was no response like last night.

The Book of Slaanesh appeared.

But what made Ashe's heart tense was that the golden book cover was wrapped in black mud, and the pattern of the title turned gray.

what is that?

Ashe's thought tentacles cautiously stretched out, touching the corners of the book wrapped in black mud, trying to turn the pages.

But the moment the two came into contact, a tsunami-like sense of despair overwhelmed Ashe's heart, making his state of mind instantly return to the agony of dying last night.

!!!

Ashe separated like an electric shock, and the sense of despair disappeared.

This—could it be—

An ominous premonition came to mind, but before Ashe could make further analysis, an envelope suddenly floated out from behind the Book of Slaanesh.

The inscription on it is "Amy".

Ashe's heart trembled, and the tentacles of her thinking stretched out again. The moment she touched the envelope, a huge amount of information flooded into her mind.

——Respectfully, my lord brother.

——When my brother read this letter, I should have fallen into a deep sleep, but don't worry too much, this is self-preservation hibernation.The negative emotions that my brother received from his previous life (probably strengthened twice by the Balrog and the man behind the scenes) are too huge. If he accepts all of them, he will definitely choose to commit suicide again, so I tried my best to block most of them. At the cost of his temporary deep sleep, his brother can at least guarantee his life safety.

——However, even in deep sleep, most of these negative emotions are far beyond my range of acceptance. I thought everything was irreparable, but unexpectedly, it was probably left behind by "they" One, the Book of Slaanesh took the initiative to restrain those redundant negative emotions, which led to the scene that my brother saw now. The black mud wrapped in the Book of Slaanesh was the embodiment of my brother's negative emotions.

——Same as my hibernation, the seal of the Book of Slaanesh is also temporary. According to my original estimate, the specific time is as little as half a month, as long as half a year, but it is also left behind by "them", Before the Book of Slaanesh was sealed, it also conveyed to me another solution.

——The very simple principle of positive and negative energy hedging, using positive emotions to offset negative emotions, seems to be able to greatly speed up my awakening and the unsealing of the Book of Slaanesh. Although I don’t know how good the specific effect will be, it is "His They" suggestion, and the brother who has lost the power of the Book of Slaanesh has only this way to choose, let's try it first.

——All of this is obviously a trap set by the Balrog and the man behind the scenes. That little bitch is still hiding in our garden, and I failed to expel her, brother, the situation has reached the most dangerous situation now, I hope you will be safe Be careful, notify Ms. Sicily immediately and let her rush to the Dragon Gate. Now, only she can protect you.

——Okay, time is running out, so let’s stop here, brother, I believe, we will meet again.

—Your sister, Amy.

The content of the letter has ended here, and the amount of information is not small. Ashe is still chewing slowly, but something more unexpected happened.

From behind the Book of Slaanesh, another envelope unexpectedly floated.

Ashe picked it up with the tentacles of her mind in bewilderment, but the information that flooded into his mind startled him.

[Don't let the Sicilian lady come to Longmen! ! ! 】

Amy’s letter is the embodiment of mental fluctuations, there is no difference in tone, handwriting and punctuation, but if you want to use a metaphor, the second letter fluctuates violently, just like a victim before dying. With his fingers dipped in blood, he anxiously and scribbled down the murderer's name, with three big exclamation marks at the end!

what happened?

There should be only a short period of time between the first letter and the second letter. What did Amy discover during this period?So desperate to write this sentence "on the dying day"?

No, wait, no.

Faced with a huge sense of crisis, Ashe's mind finally forcibly broke free from the silt of the past, suddenly became calm, and soon discovered the biggest logical problem-the problem on the major premise.

——Why did he conclude that these two letters were left by Amy?

The black hand behind the scenes appeared, the Balrog invaded, the despair of the previous life was revived, the book of Slaanesh was sealed... all the current situations showed that he had fallen into the most dangerous situation in his life, from body to mind, he was defenseless to the enemy target.

In this situation, the enemy may not be able to directly tamper with his consciousness, but is it difficult to leave one or two forged letters in his soul?

Therefore, there should be the following four situations.

1. Both letters belong to Amy. This is the most intuitive inference. After leaving the first letter, she may have discovered a new layout from the Balrog in the garden, such as attracting Lady Sicily to the Dragon Gate Catch them all in one go, so remind Ashe quickly before she falls asleep.

2. The first letter is from Amy, and the second letter is from the enemy. After Amy fell into a deep sleep, Balrog found the first letter. She has no ability to tamper with the fluctuation of the mind, so she can only forge it and make up a new one.

3. The first letter is from the enemy, and the second letter is from Amy. Amy was beaten back by the Balrog at the beginning, and she was unable to write letters slowly. The first letter was to confuse Ashe and attract Sicily The lady came to the trap of Longmen, Amy finally regained the advantage at the last moment, reluctantly left a second letter to warn Aixi.

4. Both letters belong to the enemy... This possibility is somewhat complicated to explain. Logically speaking, it is not necessary for the enemy to contradict himself to cause Ashe’s suspicion, but it is also possible to make Ashe fall into strategic self-doubt. Not daring to make a decision, or making the most conservative decision, is the enemy's goal.

These four scenarios are all possible, but with Ashe's current information, it is impossible to estimate the probability of the four, and we can only treat them as 25%.

So, what measures should he take?

In the spiritual world, Ashe thought for a long time, and finally chose a more compromise solution, which is to temporarily give up contacting Ms. Sicily and rush to Longmen, but adopt the plan of "using positive emotions to hedge against negative emotions".

——The biggest reason why he made this choice is that the four possibilities all have one thing in common, that is, the point of difference lies in Ms. Sicily. At the moment, Ms. Sicily is the biggest decisive factor. If she is out, Ashe will be out. If she breaks, Ashe will break.

This kind of trump card, at least until the market, the information is relatively complete, before considering playing.

However, as a long-term process, the hedging plan is not so finalized, it can be tried, and if there is a problem, it can be made up or discarded.

After determining the strategy, it is a new problem.

The so-called positive and negative emotion hedging plan, what is the negative emotion he faces?What kind of positive emotions need to be hedged?Where do positive emotions come from?

These questions seem easy to answer.

The greatest sense of despair that led to Ashe's suicide in her previous life was nothing more than "loneliness", and the positive emotions corresponding to loneliness are "love, intimacy and belonging", love, family affection, friendship, and even a sense of collective honor and family and country Feelings can reduce a person's loneliness to a large extent.

Not to mention the source, there are only a few people who are close to him in Terra, Amy fell asleep, Ms. Sicily and the teacher were excluded, and Lapland and Texas who were in Syracuse were also eliminated. Leiya has a dark history and can't play with fire. The only things left to consider are Angel as a friend and Hemer as a family member.

Especially Homer.

Family affection... Belonging to home?

Ashe lay on the hospital bed, rubbing between her brows tiredly.

The moment the answer surfaced, those words of Ifrit reappeared in his mind.

"From God to Man".

"Have a heart".

"Know how to love".

These words are like prophecies, corresponding to his current choices, making him feel that his struggle is just a puppet show, and no matter what he does, it is impossible to break free from the strings of the mastermind behind the scenes.

But he had no choice.

Probably, this is a conspiracy, right?

Ashe smiled wryly.

He has no choice.

Not only because of Amy's deep sleep and the seal of the Book of Slaanesh.

More because...

He looked around.

Pure white ward.

Ceilings, floors, walls, doors, sheets.

Everything is white.

Just like that day, the wind cut the white sea of ​​pages.

The teenager curled up in the bed.

"Hemer...why hasn't he come yet?"

He muttered to himself.

——Everyone is fine, please don't leave me here alone.

Chapter 52 Rain

Here comes Homer.

Her white coat was crumpled, her eyes were bloodshot, and she looked as haggard as a different person.

As soon as she entered the door, she rushed to Ashe's bed and squeezed his hand so hard that it almost hurt him:

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, it's all my fault, I shouldn't have left you at home alone..."

"No, you don't have to be like this—" Ashburn choked back his words, but seeing that Hemo looked more like a patient than him, he was shocked, and could only comfort her dryly.

"At nine o'clock last night, Ifrit's heart rate suddenly fluctuated abnormally. The medical department was busy until midnight and did not find out the problem. Hemo was always on the front line. After you fell, she ran back and forth, almost exhausted. gone."

Kelsey said abruptly: "From my personal point of view, since you have a physical problem, you should tell her in advance, blindly concealing it, and harming others and yourself."

"Doctor Kelsey..."

Amiya smiled wryly and gently tugged on Kelsey's sleeve. The doctor coughed lightly: "The preliminary examination results are rather strange. You don't suffer from any disease, but your organs are weaker than normal, and your immunity is so low. It was so jaw-dropping, so I got a severe high fever after suffering some wind and cold... Now the fever has subsided, but the attending doctor does not recommend you to leave the ICU, a flu may kill you."

After a pause, the doctor said: "This is completely inconsistent with the physical examination report when you entered the job. If I remember correctly, the physical examination report at that time showed that all your physical indicators belonged to the absolute top grades among your peers, and there was no Any medical history, operator Ashe, I don't think you made that report by hiding the entire medical department through some kind of deception, but something has changed recently... Would you like to provide some information, So that we can proceed to the next step of treatment?"

Ashe was silent.

Kelsey raised an eyebrow.

"Understood, let's give you some time to think about it first, and we won't bother you for now." Before Kelsey could taunt, the doctor hurriedly pulled Amiya's sleeve and walked out, and Amiya also Quickly grabbed Kelsey's sleeve, Kelsey snorted coldly, and the three of them left the ICU in a weird gesture of holding hands.

After they left, the air in the ICU became silent, only the beeping sound of the electrocardiogram echoed.

Hemer's hand no longer exerted force, but it still did not leave Ashe's hand. Instead of holding it tightly, he rubbed it over and over again, transferring heat to the cold skin.

"Can't I even say that?"

After a long silence, Hemer said softly, she stared at Ashe closely, the bloodshot side of her golden eyes was like ripples in the lake water falling into the fallen leaves.

"..."

Ash said nothing.

A brief silence.

"Okay, let's not mention this for now." Hemer smiled reluctantly, and took a fruit basket: "Eat something first, you haven't eaten since yesterday, the doctor said, it's best now It’s better to eat some liquid food and fruit first, I don’t know when you will wake up, I didn’t dare to boil the porridge because I was afraid it would be cold, I will cook it later, you should eat some fruit first.”

Ashe raised her hand, but was pressed down by Hemo. She smiled, picked up a banana, peeled it, and fed it to him, then peeled a pear and an apple, cut them into pieces, and handed them to her mouth .

For nearly 10 minutes, Ai Xi slowly ate the fruit, feeling the sweetness of sugar bursting on the tip of her tongue, and her stomach, which was so hungry that she forgot the feeling of hunger, became full again, like an illusion, her limbs and veins became a little more warmth.

But amidst this warmth, the sense of loneliness lingering in the air has not dissipated.

He looked at Homer.

There are thousands of words in the mouth, but it is difficult to say a word.

While peeling the fruit, Hemer kept looking at him without blinking or moving away for a moment, and she never lowered her head even when the blade touched her fingertips lightly.

Of course Ashe knew why Hemer looked at him like that.

Because she was afraid, she was terrified, she was terrified, one of her children was just lying unconscious on the hospital bed, and the other child was sent to the intensive care unit, she couldn't bear the same blow anymore, and she desperately wanted to get rid of him. Knowing the truth from her mouth, even if she can do nothing, at least she doesn't have to bear the torture of "unknown".

What kind of pain is this?