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With a strange smile in her mouth, she murmured: "Hee hee hee... the red house... the red house... I am the black widow... the black widow... no, I am the clown... I am the reborn clown ...Who the hell am I?"

"Hee hee hee... I'm a black widow, I'm not a clown... I'm not a black widow... I'm a clown..."

"Hee hee hee... The red house... Where is the red house? What is the red house?"

"Hee hee hee...what the hell am I?"

"..."

The weird laughter coupled with the intermittent murmur was like the screaming of a devil in hell. It was extremely weird and harsh, and it didn't sound like a human being could make.

It was an indescribable, intangible, indescribable, indescribable chaos and fear.

Natasha raised her head abruptly, staring at the agents in the room with her red eyes. She was in an extremely crazy state, and roared hysterically, "Who the hell am I?"

"Who am I?"

"Who am I?"

Facing Black Widow's eyes full of chaos and madness, Nick Fury's back broke out in a layer of cold sweat, but he didn't choose to escape and retreat, he chose to directly look at Black Widow, like a person without any emotion He asked in a cold voice: "Natalia Arianovna Romanova, you are a spy trained by the Red House, you are a cold and ruthless weapon, in order to graduate smoothly, in order to To be able to survive, on that day, you killed all your companions with your own hands, and you killed all your friends with your own hands! On that day, you chose to become a black widow!"

"But now you have a second chance to choose whether to kill us with your own hands and turn from a black widow to a clown, or get rid of the shadow of the clown and become Natasha, a senior agent of S.H.I.E.L.D.!"

"You have already carried a blood debt that cannot be repaid, do you want to bear another one?"

Nick Fury asked with a cold face, while putting his right hand into his trouser pocket, and clenched the loaded pistol in his trouser pocket. It was a pistol that could fire and shoot bullets at any time.His finger was already on the trigger, and the muzzle of the gun was aimed at the Black Widow. As long as she made any rash move, the bullet would burst out of the muzzle and hit her in the head.

Nick Fury absolutely does not allow a little danger to arise, and this danger itself comes from S.H.I.E.L.D. itself. This is a big joke, it is an incomparably great shame, and this is absolutely intolerable to him.

Listening to Nick Fury's cold and ruthless words like a knife, Natasha only felt a stabbing pain in her heart, her head felt like a burst of pain, and bloody faces appeared in her mind.

Some faces are smiling, some are sad, some are fearful, some are angry, some are panic, some are hatred, some are relief... She was very familiar with every face, and she knew every face. Natasha stared blankly at those faces, and great sadness swept her whole heart like a tsunami.

Unknowingly, a lot of tears welled up in her eyes, and she wanted to make a crying sound, but it was stuck in her throat and couldn't come out, she was so sad that she lost her voice.

Tears ran down his cheeks, and he didn't even notice it when he reached his lips.

The beautiful makeup was also stained by tears, forming an extremely chaotic oil paint. The lipstick on the lips spread to both sides, and the bright red blood-like color spread to the roots of the ears bit by bit, looking like a big smiley face.

Natasha finally made a sound, but the sound was not crying, but a strange laughter. She whispered in despair: "Jie Jie...the kindest Ellie...hehe...the most beautiful Bella, the most temperamental Sarah, the cutest Lilia, the coldest Irene, the most angry Sanna, the most annoying Kelly, the most timid Jessie... the unloved Lan Ni..."

Then, countless whispers sounded in her ears in an instant.

"Natasha, my best friend, kill me! Ellie, I really don't blame you. I'm very happy to die by your hands. It's better than dying by someone else's hands. You must live , you want to get out of this hell, really want to see the outside world... Will it be as cold outside as it is here? Is it the same for kids as old as us outside? Live with my share and help me Just look at those views..."

This is the kindest Ellie.

"Woooooh, Natasha, please, let me go! I'm not threatening you at all, am I? Please, Jessie really doesn't want to die..."

This is the most timid Jessie.

"Natasha, we have competed together many times, you must be the one who died this time, and I, Sanna, will be the last one to survive!"

This is Sanna who is most easily angered.

"Natasha, you will spend the rest of your life in pain! Your whole life will be unloved like mine! I, Lanny, will be waiting for you in hell!"

This is Lani, who is unloved.

"Natasha, it's really cold here, colder than Irene's body, we are good friends, but I have dragged you down, we don't have a single grain of food. And I was injured in the last battle, My body really can't stand it anymore... Only one person can survive in this ice field, so, Natasha, please eat me... You must survive..."

This is the cold Irene.

"..."

"..."

"Natalia Arianovna Romanova, congratulations on your return alive, you have become the best spy in the Red House, and you will be awarded the title of Black Widow!"

This is the ruthless general.

Natasha knelt on the ground in great pain, hugged her head with both hands and slammed it on the ground, her forehead was flushed red, she cried out loudly: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm really sorry... Natasha Tasha didn't mean it...Natasha really didn't mean it...she didn't want to kill you..."

Seeing this, Nick Fury couldn't help heaving a long sigh, and finally succeeded, it was stable, this time it was stable.

The current state of the black widow has become somewhat normal, and she will definitely get better, and she will definitely wake up.

She will definitely wake up, wake up before the fireworks of the clown bloom.

The time of S.H.I.E.L.D. is really running out, only 52 minutes and 47 seconds left.

Nick Fury, who has an insight into the weaknesses of human nature, is very aware of the weaknesses of the Black Widow itself. The weakness of the Black Widow is her name, which is the red house.

Her past was buried there, it was the biggest scar in her heart, it was a wound she would never dare to face, it was a wound she would never dare to take the initiative to tear.

That red house was the place she feared the most...the place she admired the most...

Every successful senior agent will be a patient who has been seriously injured. They all have serious mental illness...they all have a past that they can never face...they all have stories that cannot be told...

The best way to defeat a fear is to replace it with a deeper fear.

The best way to establish worship is to create a new deity for her.

During the process of self-hypnosis, the black widow feared clowns and worshiped clowns. She broke her rules little by little, and gradually lost herself...

She has gone crazy, really gone crazy, and she no longer knows who she is, but she still retains the most primitive fear in her heart, which is the hell called the Red House, and the name she bears...

Nick Fury deserves to be the well-known King of Secret Service Agents. With his insight into the weaknesses of human nature, he found the best solution after only thinking for a moment.

This is the best way, but it is also the most violent way, using fear to attack fear, awakening the past that Black Widow has been unwilling to face, awakening the most primitive fear in her heart.

Use this most primitive fear to break the darkness and shadow brought by the clown.

This is why Nick Fury finally chose the Black Widow for this hypnosis?

It is because the Black Widow itself has enough potential to become a clown, and there are enough primitive fears to escape the fear of the clown...

Chapter 59 Fireworks bloom at the place of victory (please read more! Please collect!)

Inside the S.H.I.E.L.D. office.

Looking at the state of Black Widow at this time, Hawkeye, Coulson, and Hill all turned to look at Nick Fury, their eyes full of worry and anger.

The worry is whether the Black Widow will completely collapse after hearing those words, and the anger is that Nick Fury's method is too indifferent and too hot, and does not consider the safety of the Black Widow at all!

Nick Fury lit his pipe, took a deep puff, and exhaled a puff of thick smoke. The smoke slowly drifted upwards, covering his expression. He snorted coldly and said slowly: "Hmph, you use that kind of anger Looking at me, do you think that I, Nick Fury, are too indifferent and too cruel? Even so, you have to admit that my method is already the fastest and most efficient method. Are you really Want to see the fireworks of the clown tomorrow?

"I don't regret my own indifference and cruelty at all, because these two characters are always guarding the safety of people on this planet! Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. must be ready to sacrifice at any time. What we are facing is The first batch of dangers, if we don’t resist the first batch of dangers, should we let those ordinary people resist?”

"Including me, including you, the top and bottom of S.H.I.E.L.D. must be prepared to sacrifice at any time, and of course this includes Natasha! The look in your eyes just now made me feel a piercing sadness, please be sure You must firmly remember the mission you are carrying... I don't want to have a next time, if there is a next time, please take the initiative to get out of S.H.I.E.L.D.!"

Nick Fury paused, let out a long sigh, and said softly, "And we really don't have much time, now we only have 10, 30 minutes and [-] seconds left!"

After Hill, Hawkeye, and Coulson heard this, the faces of the three of them brushed the floor together, and their expressions suddenly became extremely serious. The worry and anger in their eyes disappeared, and only solemnity remained. .

The four people in the office all stared at Natasha in unison. This was the last hope.

Outside the door, Skye, who was holding a computer, was even more anxious, feeling very uneasy. It took her 10 minutes to decipher the clown's IP address, but she could only wait outside, anxious.

No way, Natasha said that she couldn't have a little light, she needed darkness.

Skye held the computer and waited quietly for about three hours.

In the office, craziest laughter suddenly came out, and the lights were turned on, followed by the conversation between Hawkeye, Coulson, Deputy Director Hill, Director Nick and Natasha.

At this moment, even through a door, Skye could feel the extremely dignified atmosphere inside, as well as Natasha's extremely crazy and extremely painful state.

……

10 minute later.

Natasha finally woke up and broke free from the clown's shadow. She looked at Nick Fury, a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she spoke intermittently, incomparably weird and complicated words: "The clown...love...freedom...it I swear...to break this rule...fireworks...bloom at...victory..."

"Dynasty...will...fall down...hell will come out...more demons...Satan will...sow death...chaos and fear...will come..."

"Only...you can...survive..."

After all, Natasha passed out directly.

Seeing this, Hill hurriedly ran to Natasha's side, checked it carefully, and let out a long breath, finally letting go of his hanging heart.

She waved her fist fiercely, and said with a smile: "It's okay, Natasha is just in a coma, she's under too much mental pressure, we'll leave the rest to us, let her have a good sleep! "

Hawkeye nodded fiercely, his eyes were extremely fierce, and he said coldly: "I must kill the devil, the clown!"

Coulson took a deep breath, glanced at his watch, his eyes were full of worry, and said nervously: "We have 47 minutes left, we need to quickly decipher the information Natasha just said... the best time is It will be deciphered within 7 minutes, because we still have at least half an hour for personnel transfer..."

Hearing this, Nick Fury took a puff of his pipe and shouted, "Skye, I think you have found the IP address of the clown. Deputy Director Hill, hurry up and go to the technical department with Skye, and study it carefully. Find the warehouse in the video."

"I will give you 10 minutes and allow you to use the Sky Eye system to observe. After 10 minutes, I will get the result, the accurate result."

Hearing this, Hill nodded, and hurriedly ran out the door, glanced at Skye, and rushed to the technical department. Skye was holding the computer, and while she was analyzing the hiding place of the clown's IP address, Followed closely behind Hill.

Nick Fury coughed lightly, and continued: "Colson, please sort out the important landmarks in New York, the more complete the better. There must be important information in Natasha's words... There must be a clown in this information tomorrow. Where the attack was..."

Coulson nodded. He was outstanding in his memory, and he knew the landmarks of New York City clearly. He took out the paper and pen from his arms and began to write silently.

Then Nick Fury turned his head to look at Hawkeye, paused, and said: "Patton, you take Natasha to the medical room, you don't want to participate in this operation, you are very angry now, your Disturbed, as an agent, you must keep calm at all times..."

"And we need a live clown, a danger never seen before, we need to study him..."

"Don't bargain with me, this is an order!"

Hawkeye heard the words, frowned, and clenched his fists angrily. His fingernails dug into his palm, and blood flowed out. He gritted his teeth fiercely, lowered his head, and said, "Okay, Director!" .”

Then he picked up the black widow who was lying on the ground, and rushed to the medical room.

After Nick Fury took a deep breath from his pipe, he let out a long sigh, sat on the table with a sullen face, took out a tube of reagent from his arms, and stabbed it viciously in his heart. The blue liquid slowly pushed into the body.

Seeing this, Coulson was stunned for a moment, then frowned, and said worriedly: "Director, you are using a drug that has not been developed by the Science Department. This is still a semi-finished product, it is too dangerous..."

Nick Fury endured the pain, gritted his teeth, and said, "Colson, it's okay, this potion is not that dangerous. I have an ominous premonition that what Black Widow said just now was not said by herself. It was the clown who asked her to relay..."

"I'm getting more and more confused now, what the hell is the clown? Is it a person, or a will, or a totem..."

"If the clown really reported it himself, then we really overestimated ourselves this time, it is not a danger that ordinary people can resist..."

Chapter 60 Baptism and Resurrection Day (please read more! Please collect!)

After injecting the blue potion, Nick Fury felt a huge pain in his heart. The pain was like being stabbed by a sharp knife, and his face was also bruised. Huge pain swept through Nick Fury's body, and his clothes were soaked in an instant.

This blue potion is not an ordinary potion, but a semi-finished product just developed by the Science Department of S.H.I.E.L.D.

Inside S.H.I.E.L.D., there is a treasured corpse of a Cree, which was used in the "Tahiti" project.

The "Tahiti" project officially began in 2009, with the goal of creating a drug that could save a badly injured Avenger, which can only be used when the Avenger is dead.

Since Nick Fury thought Coulson was just as important, the drug was used on Coulson when he was killed by Loki after the Helicarrier attack.

It is now 2008, Iron Man has not yet been born, and the plan to form the Avengers is still hidden in the heart of the black marinated egg. The blue potion he is using now is the predecessor of the "Tahiti" project.

The main component of the blue potion is the gene of the Cree. It is a potion researched by the Science Department of SHIELD by extracting the genetic tissue in the body of the Cree. Its main ability is to improve the regeneration ability of human beings.

Of course, this potion can not only improve the regenerative ability of human beings, but it can also temporarily stimulate the potential of the human body, stimulate the brain, and make people enter a strange state. In this state, higher and broader thinking can be carried out. The reason why Rui had to inject medicine.

As for side effects?

Nick Fury said he didn't care about this, as long as the side effect couldn't kill him directly, then TMD wouldn't be called a side effect.

Nick Fury closed his eyes and began to think. He must not waste any time. In this extremely dangerous situation, every second must be snatched. This is a race against death. !

Thinking from this higher, larger and broader perspective, Nick Fury reorganized what the Black Widow said.

"The clown loves freedom, and he vows to break the rules. Fireworks bloom at the place of victory. The dynasty will fall, and more demons will come out of hell. Satan will sow death. Chaos and fear will come. Only the face painted Oil paint is the only way to survive.”

The two words freedom and victory can retrieve the Statue of Liberty and Victory...

Fireworks, but this fireworks, will it be the kind of fireworks in the video?

Or are there other fireworks...

What does dynasty mean?Is it America's ruling class?Is it the capitalists and the aristocrats and the big politicians in the White House?

More demons coming out of hell?This hell should refer to Hell's Kitchen. The warehouse where the clown hides is in Hell's Kitchen. The devil should refer to the clown's admirers. Does it mean that there will be more clown admirers in Hell's Kitchen?

Satan sows death?Does it mean that the clown is about to set off fireworks in New York and kill people like crazy?

Chaos and fear are well understood.

But the last sentence, only by painting your face with oil paint can you survive!

What does this mean?

How should this sentence be understood?