The Sweetest Thing In the World

Xu Mai did not give a response after all, and walked out of the ward in silence. Min Yue followed her and followed her off the elevator to the parking lot. Her mental state was very bad, so Min Yue drove instead of her and sat in the driver's seat.

The rain was still falling, Min Yue started the car, turned on the wipers, did not turn on the radio, did not play music, the car was very quiet, only the sound of rain.

Holding the note in her palm, Min Yue was hesitant. She wanted to know Xu Mai's true past so that she could find the right point to comfort her, but she also felt that this kind of candid way would be too cruel.

Today is her birthday and also the anniversary of her mother's death. On such a sensitive day, if you say a wrong word or do a wrong thing, it is likely to cause great harm to her.

Min Yue didn't dare to mention it. In the end, Xu Mai set up the navigation by himself and said, "Let's go."

Min Yue glanced at the electronic screen and unfolded the folded note. The destination of the car navigator was the same as that written by Xu Boyu. Xu Mai knew where the cemetery was, but he had never been there for various reasons.

Min Yue can fully understand, who can face such a heavy blow?

The car drove for a long time in the rain, came to a mountain in the suburbs, and drove into the cemetery along the winding mountain road.

It was raining heavily, the sky was gloomy, and the pines and cypresses on both sides of the road were solemn and solemn. In the world made of lead gray cement, there is no singing of birds, no fragrance of flowers, only rows of neat dark tombstones standing silently and forever.

Xu Mai got off the car, and the big dark blue umbrella slowly unfolded. Min Yue stepped on the heels in the rain and walked under the umbrella. The light was blocked by the umbrella, and the dark sky became even darker.

The location written by Xu Boyu is still higher up and needs to be walked up. The two of them climbed the stairs and walked side by side in silence. The atmosphere was as solemn as the rain, so dense that it couldn't be melted away.

The rain-soaked road was a bit slippery, and when she lifted her foot up the steps, her stiletto heels were not firmly planted, Min Yue's figure wobbled, and was held by Xu Mai.

"I'll support you." Xu Mai said.

The handle of the umbrella moved to his right hand, and Xu Mai's left arm went around her back, holding her in his arms. Putting her hands on her shoulders, it didn't take much effort, but her posture was very stable, as if no matter how hard the wind and rain were, it could not be shaken.

Standing in her arms is extremely reassuring. Min Yue turned her head and looked over quietly, the damp wind blowing from the green branches and leaves of the pine tree raised Xu Mai's hair hanging from her ears. She stared fixedly at the road slanting downwards, her eyes were light and a little lonely.

"My mother is a patient with tetralogy of Fallot." Xu Mai said quietly, "After studying medicine, my grandmother hid her childhood examination report, but I found it."

Min Yue looked at her quietly without making a sound.

Xu Mai stared ahead, accustomed to heartache, he was able to control the sadness quietly, like a bystander, calmly telling about the past.

"She and grandpa almost never mentioned my parents in front of me. I just vaguely know that both of them and grandma passed away."

"Every Chinese New Year, there will always be a stranger at home. My grandmother asked me to call him 'Grandpa', but when I wanted to get close to him, I would be told, 'Don't go there, Grandpa will be sad'."

"When I was young, I didn't understand why he didn't like me. Later, I figured it out and understood from various rumors. It turns out...all the bad luck is caused by me."

"They all died because of me."

Xu Mai stopped, stood on the steps, looked over the top of Min Yue's head, and looked towards the row of tombstones diagonally above. Inside, lay her mother, father and grandmother who were separated from each other forever.

Xu Mai let go of his hand, looked away, and stayed where he was. Min Yue tentatively asked, "Master, won't you come with me?"

Xu Mai said, "I'm not qualified to see them."

Min Yue understands that she is usually stronger, and also understands her retreat at the moment—she cannot forgive herself.

"Then master is waiting for me here, and I will come when I go."

"Um."

Min Yue couldn't bear to force it, so she took out a folding umbrella from her satchel, opened it, and walked into the torrential rain. Continue to go up two floors, turn left, go forward for 100 meters, and stop.

This is a double-cavity tomb, where Xu Mai's parents are buried. Next to it, Xu Mai's grandmother was placed in another double-cavity tomb, and the vacant place was reserved for him by Xu Boyu.

Putting three bouquets of white chrysanthemums in front of the tomb, Min Yue squatted down, closed her eyes lightly, lowered her head, clasped her hands together, and put them between her eyebrows.

Master is fine, please rest assured that I will always be by her side, accompany her, take care of her, and stay with her.

Min Yue stood up, bowed deeply, then turned around, looking at Xu Mai in the distance, her heart suddenly trembled.

Cangshan is silent, and the sea of ​​clouds is surging. She was dressed in black, holding a dark blue umbrella, standing in the continuous rain between the sky and the earth. Her long hair like splashed ink fluttered in the wind, and half of her body was wetted by the slanting heavy rain, but she didn't realize it, and stood silently among the desolate tombstones on the mountain.

The downpour blurred the vision, and her dark figure was like a freehand stroke in a splash-ink landscape painting. After being soaked in water, it became lighter and lighter, as if it was about to disappear from the painting and from this world.

Min Yue panicked, ignoring the rainstorm and the stiletto shoes on her feet, she ran with all her strength, and rushed towards her, as if she would be unable to catch her ethereal shadow if she was slower for a second.

My own birth was a mistake, bad luck, the beginning of all mistakes.

Surrounded by the wind and rain from all directions, placed in the tomb of Wang Yang, facing death, Xu Mai couldn't help but feel dazed, if he had never been in this world, everything would be different, they don't have to lie here, everyone can get happiness .

So...why should I live?

The bitter wind and rain engulfed her, engulfing her cold heart, sinking into a deeper and darker place.

"Master!"

Anxious calls, piercing the wailing of the wind and the cry of the rain, came down from the top of the mountain.

Xu Mai looked up, and in the dim vision, there was a bright color running towards her.

The pink one is her flying skirt. The light yellow one is the umbrella in her hand. She raised her hand and let go, and the broken flower umbrella was like a fluttering hibiscus, blowing away with the wind.

"Master!"

A small cluster of fire, like a bamboo, crashed into her arms. The scorching light shone on her, warmed her, and lit a firefly in the dark night.

"Master, you still have me!" She grabbed Xu Mai's arm and called out, "I'm here, Master..."

She looked up, her wet hair stuck to her face, and the rain rolled down the arc of her jaw. The eyes are as clean as washed by water, clear and clear, reflecting overflowing love and concern.

Xu Mai looked at it for a long time, then came back to his senses: "You're wet."

"It's okay, my body is hot, and I can dry it out soon." Min Yue stretched his arms around Xu Mai's neck, pulled her down, and let her lean on his shoulders. "Wet clothes will dry, and the rainy sky will clear up. It will pass, Master. I will always be by your side, with you, until the weather clears."

The girl in his arms is like a small stove, which continuously transmits heat to her through the thin fabric. The frozen heart melted away bit by bit, boom, boom, it started beating again slowly and quickly.

The girl covered her ears with her hands, isolating the sound of the rain outside, and could only hear her soft voice:

"Master is not alone, I am here to help you share your sorrow."

"Don't be overwhelmed, I'll lead you across, okay?"

Xu Mai held the umbrella with his right hand, and gently hugged the girl with his left hand: "Okay."

With his chin resting on the girl's shoulder, through her wet hair, Xu Mai looked towards the tombstone far behind, closed his eyes, and tightened his embrace.

My birth was a mistake, but the world is fine with a girl I love.

Worried that Min Yue would catch a cold, the two didn't stay long, and quickly went down the mountain to return to the city, where they got a room at a hotel near the People's Hospital.

Min Yue took a hot bath first, followed by Xu Mai. When she came out of the bathroom, Min Yue was already lying on the bed, patting the soft pillow to claim credit: "Master, come quickly, I have warmed the bed!"

The corners of his lips rose slightly, Xu Mai walked over and lifted a corner of the quilt, lay down, and hugged her tightly.

Thinking of the Mid-Autumn Festival last year, she brought too many mooncakes, and was mistaken by the guards for a small vendor selling mooncakes, stopped her from entering, and squatted in front of the main entrance of the No. 1 attached courtyard, calling herself pitifully, begging herself to pick them she.

At that time, I looked at her, and inexplicably thought of the cartoon photo on Weibo of "asking for a baby, I can warm the bed", and joked about picking her up to go home. Unexpectedly, she actually lived in her own home and warmed up the bed conscientiously.

When occupational exposure occurs, I tell her that I will be with you for the rest of my life. But today, instead of her comforting herself, I will always be by your side.

Her girl has been growing up, well-behaved and sensible, kind and warm, giving her endless love, hope and courage.

Xu Mai turned over to face her, and kissed her between the eyebrows. Thank you for walking into my life, the polar regions of black and white have color and temperature because of you.

Grief is a very energy-consuming thing, Xu Mai was very tired and fell asleep after a while. But Min Yue couldn't fall asleep, listening to the steady breathing of the person next to her pillow, thinking about her thoughts quietly.

Tetralogy of Fallot is an extremely complex congenital heart disease. The pathology mainly includes pulmonary valve stenosis, ventricular septal defect, aortic overriding and right ventricular hypertrophy. 90% of patients will die young and live less than ten years old.

But it is not without treatment. Radical surgery or palliative surgery can be performed on newborns, and many patients can return to normal life after surgery. If the left and right pulmonary arteries are well developed, the patient can even participate in general physical activity.

Xu Mai's mother should be one tenth of that lucky one. The accident during childbirth may be due to heart disease during pregnancy. But Xu Boyu's status in the field of cardiovascular surgery is close to that of a god. It is impossible for him not to have anticipated the risk of pregnancy. Why didn't he stop it?

Xu Mai's father and grandmother passed away, and what disease was the reason? She didn't explain it in detail, maybe she didn't know it herself, grandma was afraid that she would think too much, so she kept it a secret.

However, regardless of the real reason, Xu Mai stubbornly took all the faults on himself. This won't work, Min Yue thought, she must ask for clarification tomorrow.

The next morning, Min Yue got up early, called Xu Mai up after washing, and urged her to accompany Xu Boyu to have breakfast with him.

When Xu Mai heard her say that, his expression became unnatural. Min Yue dragged her out, bought a meal for three at the breakfast shop, held it hot in her hand, and walked quickly to the hospital.

In the ward, with the help of the nurse, Xu Boyu finished brushing his teeth, sat in a wheelchair, wiped his face meticulously, and was about to be pushed downstairs to the garden to relax and eat in the cafeteria.

It rained all day and all night, and finally stopped in the early morning. In summer, the sun rises early, just after eight o'clock, and the scorching sun scorches the earth and dries up the rain on the surface. The water vapor is transpiring, the air is humid, and the flowers and plants are washed thoroughly. Open the window and take a deep breath, which is refreshing.

The door of the ward was pushed open suddenly, and someone shouted sweetly from behind: "Good morning, grandpa!"

Xu Boyu turned around, saw that it was Min Yue, and responded with a smile: "It's early for you too."

Min Yue's figure flickered, and another figure appeared behind him. He exchanged a glance with him, and quickly looked away to the side. Xu Boyu's smile froze, he coughed in embarrassment, and tried to speak naturally: "Xu Mai is here too."

Xu Mai stared at the peeling paint in the corner, without saying a word, but Min Yue grabbed his hand and shook him to urge him, he paused for a moment, and finally hummed uncomfortably.

Min Yue continued to shake, winking and hinting: "What else?"

Xu Mai touched his nose, put his hand in front of his mouth, and subtly added: "Morning."

Xu Boyu raised his eyebrows, then lowered them immediately, tried his best to restrain his facial expression, pretended to be calm, and changed the subject: "Have you eaten yet?"

"No, I want to eat with grandpa. We bought a lot." Min Yue stepped forward to push the wheelchair affectionately, pushed Xu Boyu to the table in the corner, and beckoned Xu Mai to come and set the dishes.

The male nurse was a young man who had just started working. He didn't know Xu Boyu's family affairs. He watched this scene and asked with a smile, "Professor Xu, you have two granddaughters? You are so lucky."

"No." He pointed to Min Yue and introduced, "This is my grandson's wife."

The nurse was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed: "Professor Xu's house is very fashionable, so I won't bother you when you are reunited. Let's go first, and call me if necessary."

"it is good."

After the other party left, Min Yue held her red face in both hands, because she was shy for a long time because of the phrase "granddaughter-in-law", and she didn't eat well.

After that, Xu Mai tidied up the table to throw out the trash, and then went to the doctor in charge to learn about the follow-up treatment plan. Xu Boyu took out a bank card and handed it to Min Yue, who took it with a question mark floating on his head.

Xu Boyu said: "The bride price."

Min Yue was taken aback for a moment, then realized that he was giving money to himself. Hastily returned: "Grandpa, I can't take it, it's your savings."

Xu Boyu didn't raise his hand, and looked at her majesticly: "I didn't know you were dating in advance, and I didn't go to see your parents. I was already rude. Both of you are girls, so it's hard to say which one should give the bride price, but I Since I called you granddaughter-in-law, I should show my sincerity. This is an ancient etiquette, so don’t mess it up, so keep it.”

Min Yue had no way to refute what she said. Xu Boyu has taught in colleges and universities for many years, and is also a teacher of many clinicians. He is not angry and pretentious. When he stares at you, he has a sense of a teacher in charge.

Min Yue was used to being a good student, so she was cowardly and obediently stuffed the bank card into her satchel.

Xu Boyu was satisfied, and smiled a little: "The password is Xu Mai's birthday."

Mentioning this, Min Yue thought about the business, squatted down, put his hands on the armrests of the wheelchair, and asked eagerly: "Grandpa, can I ask a question? It might bring up your sadness."

"You want to ask how Xu Mai's parents died?" Xu Boyu saw through it at a glance.

"Hmm..." Min Yue added cautiously, "And grandma..."

Xu Boyu lowered his eyelids sadly, after a while, he sighed, patted the back of her hand, and said, "Push me out for a walk."