The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed

96 – Power

I suddenly remembered our first meeting.

The person who filled my heart with emotion the moment I first met him.

The person who destroyed all my promises and plans and made me sway with my emotions.

Even though I knew it was a predestined ruin, I felt happy seeing Ellie.

And that….

It was still the same.

As if urging me without an answer, the eyes of obsidian stare at me. I stupidly removed my lips and put them back together again.

As I was looking into Ellie’s eyes, I suddenly felt uncomfortable. It was a feeling that I thought was strange at the time.

I didn’t know about Ross, and I had no memory.

I just questioned the feelings I had buried.

Why me?

Feeling joy and longing for Ellie….

Did I feel sadness and guilt?

I thought it was the guilt of her shady plot to get Ellie into her trouble.

But why is there sadness?

“Looking at the lack of an answer… I guess Ross still likes me?”

A sarcastic smile formed on Ellie’s lips. Ellie, who was quick to notice that I still had feelings for her, could tell just by observing her expression.

“I like me, because I like Roel oppa. So, are you going out with a girl named Luna instead?”

“No, that’s not it.”

I answered immediately. His feelings for Luna were completely sincere. It had nothing to do with Ellie.

“Really? Are you sure?”

Ellie asked sarcastically, furrowing her eyebrows.

“You still can’t take your eyes off me like this?”

Ellie’s hand touched my chest. As she flinched in surprise, a winner’s smile appeared on Ellie’s face.

My feelings for Ellie were like instinct to me. Like an appetite that suddenly comes to mind to eat something sweet, the possessive desire to make it my own boils.

“Right. I still have feelings for you.”

I didn’t try to fool Ellie any more. The quick-witted Ellie will spot my lies.

She was afraid of the warmth she felt from Ellie’s hand on her chest. I’m afraid I’ll swallow the other warmth inside of me. Afraid of it, she pushed her hand away.

You can hear the cheers of the crowd beyond the window. It was the timing as if he was praising my actions.

The names of Ilia and Roel were often heard in the shouts. By now, the sophomore year senior match would be unfolding outside.

I closed my eyes for a moment and leaned back in my chair.

Calls are heard, the ground reverberates.

Ellie’s gaze at me.

Pushing them away, I thought of Luna, who must have cheered me on with her crew somewhere.

I would have cheered her up as I lifted her still uncomfortable left hand to help her sore her throat.

With that alone, the shaking disappeared.

As if it never happened, my old instincts, which were no different from my habits, were easily suppressed by new emotions. The broken promise in my heart takes its place again.

[ Indomitable Courage is activated. ]

When I opened my eyes, I smiled unconsciously at the message I saw. You have to be so careful I thought that I could seriously deal with Ellie.

A calm feeling. Even when he turned his head and looked into Ellie’s eyes, there was no agitation.

“Ross, let’s go back to the old days. Don’t hurt others with our emotions, just like you like me like before. That’s right.”

I looked at Ellie in silence for a while as she smiled happily. As she pushed away her feelings for Ellie, she wondered what questions lingered in her mind.

Why did I feel sad for you?

“I want to ask you something about the past.”

“Yeah, ask me anything.”

“Did I ever confess?”

At my words, Ellie lowered her head a little. Wiggling her hand on her thigh, she replied in a calm voice.

“Yes, there have been several times.”

Ellie’s answer brings to her mind several possibilities that might answer her question. Asked one of them.

“Did she say no because of her feelings for her brother?”

“Uh… ?”

As Ellie is frozen as it is, she looks at me without moving. Ellie’s frozen lips parted as she seemed to organize her thoughts for a moment.

“It’s not like that. I had no intention of dating anyone before, and you were a good friend…. I was afraid that our old friendship would end.”

I immediately asked Ellie, who was making excuses.

“Then why did you say let’s go back to the old days? You like your brother now.”

At my words, Ellie bit her lip. Did she realize the error in her words? She didn’t want to make any point, so I hoped she did.

“Yes, I like Roel. But your plan worked so I was turned down. Now that you know why, you need to get it right. No way… Don’t you want to help me?”

I shook my head at Ellie’s anxious voice.

“No, of course I will help things go well with Roel.”

As the original flow was, Roel and Ellie had to become lovers.

“As expected, Ross is nice.”

As she looked at Ellie with a pretty smile, I was able to find the answer to her question.

The reason why I want to go back to my old relationship even though I know my feelings and like Roel.

It was because Ross was nice to Ellie.

Even if you reject your sincerity, even if your heart is used. Ross was nice to Ellie.

Even if she doesn’t like herself, even if she never looks back.

Ross looked at Ellie.

Like a match girl lighting a match in search of warmth with her frozen hands, what the lump of inferiority that was shunned by everyone could get close to….

Because it was only Ellie.

One question has been resolved, and the interlocking question has been resolved as well.

Ross’s sorrow was not because he liked the older brother of the woman he loved, whom he felt inferior to.

It was because he realized that Ellie had treated him comfortably by saying that he was kind for a long time.

But when that warmth looks at you, like a girl who found happiness in a small match.

She felt sad that she felt happy just by that.

I wiped my face once with a sigh. Now that the question was answered, it was time to address the problem.

“The only emotion left in you is guilt.”

“Uh… ?”

Ellie asked in a confused voice if she didn’t understand her context. I said in a low voice.

“It’s just guilt for my mistakes. Luna is not your substitute, she cannot be.”

Ellie’s expression cracked. Ellie lowered her head in shock, and her body trembled slightly.

“Yes, I see…” . Ross has lost her memory and has changed so much. Really… strange.”

“Sad memories you told me to forget, sad relationships… Because it was you.”

Ellie raised her head and looked at me. Her quivering gaze did not catch her course, and she swayed to and fro. It seemed sympathetic, but I only added words to convey my sincerity.

“If you and Roel become lovers, I want to forget you. For each other.”

I wonder if Sunflower, who was only looking at himself, was shocked that he turned his head to a different place.

Ellie was silent for a while and thought about something with her head down.

But her waiting room was not surrounded by silence. On the contrary, the loud cheering of the crowd outside made my ears hurt.

It looks like the winner has been decided. I can hear the gamblers’ sighs of regret.

As she smiled bitterly, Ellie got up from her chair. Then she leaned over and hugged me.

I had an indomitable will at that sudden action, but I felt like my whole body was stiff.

“Ross, can you do me a favor to make things work out with Roel?”

It was a sweet voice. It reminded me that it was this kind of voice when he asked me for a favor one day. Covered by her shoulder, I don’t know what expression Ellie is making.

I wondered if Ross in the past was used like this every time. I rejected Ellie’s scent and warmth, and asked with her wry smile.

“What is it?”

Ellie released her arms from her embrace. But she still held her face close with her upper body leaning.

She came close enough to breathe, and Ellie gave me a beautiful smile as she whispered to me.

“What do you think caused us to be like this?”

Are you trying to get revenge for what happened a little while ago? Ellie asked a question out of context.

“They must have used each other’s feelings.”

“Yeah, but that wasn’t a big deal for us.”

I frowned at Ellie’s words. Are you serious?

It wasn’t a big deal to deceive and hurt each other.

As if he had read my expression, Ellie replied sarcastically.

“You knew from the beginning. That we have different minds.”

Yes, so Ross suggested to Ellie. She tells him to use herself to get closer to Roel.

How did Dunros feel when he told his crush to use his mind as usual?

I couldn’t easily guess.

“Even so, you couldn’t give up on me. You always liked me… You only looked at me Even after being turned away from me, you lingered around me as if you never did!”

I felt Ellie’s breath hot. There was light water in Obsidian’s eyes. As if pouring out her surging emotions, Ellie grabbed my shoulder and yelled.

“I trusted you! Like always, you’ll love me again! Even if there is no memory, the heart will remain the same! It will come back to me soon!!!”

Ellie’s hand tapped my chest. I waited for Ellie to finish speaking without any response.

Tears ran down my cheeks. I just watched it.

“This is all… It’s because of that year. If only you hadn’t lost your memory… We will be the same as before.”

There was deep emotion in Ellie’s gaze and her voice.

Ellie’s finger touched my lips. Gently brushing her lips, Ellie whispered as she met her bite and her young gaze.

“So kill Bella for me.”

I couldn’t even imagine what kind of expression I was making when I heard those words. However, Ellie just looked at me and smiled softly and added her words.

As always, the words that moved Ross.

“You are nice.”