The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed

40 – Looking back

Rosalyn moved the fainting Ross to the ward with Ilia. Miss Joy, who is in charge of the ward, said that it was often caused by overexertion during prom, and gave Ross a simple anti-fatigue pill.

While Miss Joey was taking care of other students who passed out from drunkenness. Rosalyn used her magic to examine Ross’s body.

Rosalind, who confirmed that all of Ross’ physical abilities had rapidly declined and was in a weakened state, blamed herself for it, thinking that it was the result of enduring her harsh interrogation.

“I should have trusted you….”

She fell for Bella’s words and Rosalyn felt a great guilt that she hadn’t told Roel the truth. She even watched her Ross pass out in front of her, and Rosalyn couldn’t hold back her tears.

When Rosalynn apologized to Ross in her heart. Before she passed out, Ilya went to find Ellie, whom Ross was looking for, and finally returned to the ward with Ellie.

Why did she suddenly come to the ward? Ellie, who came in pajamas, asked Ross in a perplexed voice on the bed, sweating.

“Oh, what happened?”

“Ah, I suddenly collapsed…. Miss Joy said it was because she was tired.”

At Rosalyn’s answer, Ellie immediately sat down on the chair next to the bed. She took a towel from the bedside drawer and wiped the sweat from her face.

“I will be by your side. Thanks for letting me know.”

At Ellie’s words, Rosalyn took one look at Ross on the bed and left the ward with Ilya as if running away from her guilt.

***

I felt extremely tired. It felt like she was forced to sleep all day.

Feeling a sore neck and a headache, she slowly opened her eyes. I heard someone’s voice.

“Ross, are you awake?”

Let’s realize that the owner of that voice is Ellie. It felt like her headache was disappearing.

“Ellie… ?”

Looking out the window, it seems like a lot of time has passed, not even the moonlight was visible.

Raise her halfway and turn her attention to Ellie, who is sitting on the chair next to her bed. I could tell from Ellie’s tired-looking face on her face that she had been by my side all night.

“Ross.”

I felt strangely uneasy at Ellie’s voice, which seemed to be pickled with deep emotions, rather than her usual bright voice.

“Why… ?”

Through the light of the small lamp next to the bed, Ellie’s face looked very serious.

“Because we are friends…. You can’t lie to each other. Yes… ?”

As if she would cry at any moment, Ellie’s last words were a bit dry.

In a different atmosphere than usual, I remembered that the restriction had been activated before I lost consciousness.

Could Ellie have noticed that I possessed Ross’s body?

Swallowing dry saliva from tension, I nodded her head with difficulty. Ellie let out a deep sigh.

“There is something I want to confirm with you…. Before that, there is something I want to ask you first.”

“Something… ?”

At her question, Ellie wiggled her fingers on her lap.

“Senior Bella came to visit me before. She said she wanted to hear more about what happened in Destin. When she said that she gave a separate reward, I praised you a lot. I really don’t know what would have happened if it wasn’t for you.”

I wonder if there is magic in the voice. I could feel the vivid emotions in Ella’s voice.

“But when I suddenly heard that you were taken to the interrogation room for endangering us and collaborating with the warlock…. I thought it was crazy….”

Ellie’s voice was different from before, as if recalling her feelings at that time, and with a moist voice that seemed to be wet with emotions, tears were welling up in her eyes as if they were about to spill at any moment.

“My, the you I know would never be like that. So she thought there must be some misunderstanding.”

It’s not just empty words, Ellie truly believed in me completely. She could feel it in the gaze she looked at, even though she didn’t speak.

“So when I heard that it was a misunderstanding that you were taken to the interrogation room. How happy i was… You have no idea how relieved I was.”

As if suppressing her rising emotions, Ellie’s breathing felt hot. Seeing Ellie staring at me with a watery gaze, I could only listen with her mouth shut.

“I was a little disappointed that the reason I wrote the petition all night was because of my misunderstanding…. Rather, I was really grateful that you weren’t hurt…. If it’s for you, I can write a petition for years….”

It was a voice that gradually became less emotional, but my ears did not miss Ellie’s voice.

I knew through Bella that Ellie had written the petition for me. All the wads of paper I brought to the interrogation room were petitions Ellie wrote for me.

After she got out of the interrogation room, the next day she met Ellie, who was tired of writing her petition, but she had stayed up all night. I didn’t show any condescension to the fact that I wasn’t taken to the interrogation room, I just smiled happily.

Ellie wiggled her outstretched fingers and cautiously reached out her hand to me. I turned her hand over to show her palm, and Ellie grabbed my hand.

“Ross, please… Will you tell me the truth?”

Seeing Ellie worrying about her, I felt a pain in her heart. Is this sorry or guilt? No distinction was made.

It was difficult for her to maintain her reason because of the existence of emotions that she could clearly feel when she was by Eli’s side. Even though I have indomitable courage.

“Yes…. I will tell you the truth.”

Let’s answer like that with anxiety and worry. Ellie asked, putting strength in her hand that held hers.

“I lost my memory… ?”

When Ellie’s sudden question gave me a slightly embarrassed look, she asked again.

“Amnesia is right… ?”

At Ellie’s careful question, I finally regained her reason and wondered why Ellie was saying such out of context, and came to an idea.

Could she possibly believe that she lost her memory because of being interrogated?

If I was right, the restrictions could have been activated because of the ambiguous condition of Ellie’s faith.

Because Ellie believes I have amnesia.

Even if it was a misunderstanding, Ellie’s ambiguous condition of trust was not a question of authenticity.

“Yes, I lost most of my memory.”

As she lowered her eyes at her guilt for cheating on Ellie, she burst into tears as Ellie put her face in the hand she was holding onto.

“Why, why did you cheat… To tell the truth, to tell the truth, I… Uh, I would have helped you somehow….”

Ellie’s face was a mess with her tears and snot when she raised her head, but I could feel the feeling of joy filling up in a corner of her heart at the fact that she cried for me.

When I felt disgusted with myself for that fact, the feeling of fatigue and pressure that weighed down my whole body disappeared in an instant, and comfort came.

[Restriction has been lifted.]

The message in front of her eyes really made me realize that Ellie mistook me for her amnesia.

When I’m thinking in my head whether I should be happy about this because I think there’s no way that talking about the past will get in the way of us.

Ellie, who had been crying and venting her emotions for a long time, looked at me with her swollen eyes and sniffed her nose.

“So, was it Bella’s job to spread rumors that it was a misunderstanding?”

I suddenly became curious about Ellie’s anger as if it were her own work.

What do you think of me?

You who know my feelings, use my feelings to meet Roel, and trust me completely.

How on earth am I supposed to treat myself?

With that question in mind, she answered Ellie’s words.

“That’s what I asked of Bella. So that her brother is not harmed separately.”

“How stupid is that! You were unfairly taken to the interrogation room, but is your brother important?”

I let out a sigh when I saw Ellie shedding tears again in anger.

The inferiority complex that had always been in my heart exploded without warning.

“Your hyung is more important than me.”

It was an unbelievable voice that came out of my mouth. Ellie, who had been weeping at the voice full of negative emotions, looked at me with her mouth open with a dumbfounded expression.

“Bang, what did you just say… ?”

Even though she regretted Ellie’s shocked expression, it was probably because of the words she had once said. The dam of stagnant emotions burst.

“Knowing that I like you, you used me to approach your brother. It was you who used my feelings, Ellie.”

As if she forgot to breathe at my words, Ellie shuddered and gave her a fearful look.

“If I hadn’t been Roel’s younger brother…. We wouldn’t even be friends.”

At my words, Ellie lowered her eyes and couldn’t stop her tears. He felt a deep regret later and tried to apologize to Ellie. Ellie pulled her hand away from her and wiped away her tears.

“You really don’t remember, Ross….”

I felt like my heart was breaking when I saw Ellie say that with a smile full of sadness.

“Sorry… I mean….”

“Right, I was using you to get close with Roel.”

Ellie said in a cracked voice.

“I won’t do that anymore, I was really mean to you right now. Sorry….”

I shook my head at Ellie’s apology and tried to hold on to it. Ellie looked at me and forced a smile while twitching her lips, unable to say anything as if her throat was blocked by her tongue.

“What is more important than the past is the present…. We lost our precious memories…. Now you have made new good friends, and I am glad that you have a good relationship with your brother.”

Ellie’s voice was so sweet that it touched the feelings hidden deep in my heart.

“Ross, I will always be by your side. So….”

Is Ellie not controlled by her emotions? As if in her spasm, she lifted her trembling hand and stroked my hair with difficulty. Like a parent comforting a grumbling child….

“Forget all the sad memories and sad relationships. I hope you start a new life at the academy.”

As expected, it seems clear that Ellie’s voice has magical powers. If it wasn’t for that, there’s no way my vision would be blurred by such desperate emotions.

Belatedly, a terrible regret came. She was Ellie who always believed in me…. Why does she become emotional in front of Ellie?

“No matter what you are, I will consider you a friend for life…. Good night, Ross.”

Through my blurred vision, I saw Ellie in her pajamas struggling to get out of the ward.

She bit her lips at the sight of her back, trying to suppress her self-indulgent emotions, and pressed her fists against her eyelids with her strength.