The Former Villainess Who Went Back in Time, She Doesn’t Fix Her Bad Personality but Avoids the Exec

Chapter 81: Their changes, their individual feelings

I had prepared myself for this to eventually happen, but in reality, the trembling of my body from the shock was beyond what I had imagined.

I fell in love with Julian-sama, not just based on his appearances, but every aspect of him. Therefore, the damage done was immeasurable and my heart screams out, not wanting to be disliked by him.

But fate must be like this. Everything is cause and effect.

“…You heard it from Princess Chai, didn’t you.”

I gently closed my eyes and put my hand on my heart. Taking a deep breath, I opened my eyes again.

“Everything is true, Julian-sama.”

Ah, this is the end of everything. I will be despised by him, and in exchange, she will be loved by him.

If possible, I wish I didn’t know. Julian-sama, who smiled at me, wanted us to continue living happily together forever.

But that wouldn’t change anything. A heartless person who acts upon their own desires and doesn’t even hesitate to take away other people’s lives without understanding others. The unfortunate Duke’s daughter, Aliseteen Quatra, who truly wasn’t loved by anyone.

I will never go back to my past self.

The presence of my important loved ones gave me precious treasures that shine brightly in my heart. They taught me that humans cannot live alone.

Even if it means losing Julian-sama, I can no longer commit shameful actions. I don’t want to.

“…Alise.”

“She is justice, and I am the evil one, Julian-sama.”

When I think about when those grey eyes will twist in disgust, I want to look away immediately.

But I didn’t avert my gaze. I raised my chin firmly, not wanting to lose to the brilliance of the shining sun.

“Do you not want to hear what I heard from her?”

“Surely, it is all the truth.”

“Even though it might be convenient for her to tell it that way?”

Julian-sama’s expression as he faced me was so sad. My heart, which I had prepared to be hated, groaned with pain. I don’t want to make him sad. I just want Julian-sama to be happy.

“Even if that were the case, I won’t give any explanation (defend myself). It was something that I should have said, not her.”

“Alise, I…”

“I may still be a bad person because I was afraid of being disliked by Julian-sama.”

Knowing what Julian-sama expects of me, I cannot do it.

Something whispers in my ear, “If it’s Julian-sama now, he might trust you more than Princess Chai,” but I frantically shake my head in my mind and resist myself.

Then I shift my gaze to the girl behind Julian-sama.

“Princess Chai, I never intended to compete with you.”

“…Don’t even joke about it.”

Her voice was so low that it sounded like she was crawling on the ground. It’s hard to believe that it’s coming from her moist lips.

“You think you can just be reborn as a good person all on your own? You, the worst and lowest criminal who tried to kill me, but now trying to act like a saint? It makes me sick.”

“Princess Chai, I…”

“Shut up!”

Princess Chai strained her voice as she glared at me with resentment. Sanna and the Princess’s guards, who had appeared worried and had been watching from a distance, reacted with a twitch.

She was completely unaware of her surroundings, staring only at me with a deep hatred that made me feel like she wanted to kill me.

“Stop it… stop blaming everything on me… it’s not all my fault. Because of you, that person…”

“Princess Chai.”

“…I will never forgive you. Never.”

The atmosphere in front of me was like she was about to stab and kill me any time now, even though it should have been a completely different person from before.

In those brown eyes, twisted with disgust, I could see a momentary flicker where the old me seemed to be crying, or was it just my imagination?