The Engagement Was Broken Off at the Wedding Hall

46 – 3-9. Godyangnam is sweet?

I met a monster, not a person.

When life becomes increasingly impoverished and the leash becomes tighter.

By chance, I was able to seize the chance given from heaven and escape from the arms of the poisonous snake.

“[…It must have been very difficult.]”

A word that popped out without even realizing it.

Maybe, just maybe, I sympathize.

‘Me too…’

Because it was like that.

Because that’s what happened to men.

Violence that occurred at home.

Normal days that I almost accepted so naturally, but are not natural at all.

If I had to set up thorns myself to protect myself from him,

The man in front of me was abandoned as worthless after trying hard to accept him.

‘…Maybe’

I wonder if I ended up like that too.

If you just tried to accept it, thinking it was ‘ordinary’.

I am like this man, like a stay-at-home mom.

No matter where or how we look at it, do we live in an ‘abnormal situation’ by recognizing it as ‘normal’?

“[…….!]”

A trembling body.

I got goosebumps.

And

“[…Are you okay now?]”

“[Yes?]”

One question that naturally comes to mind.

“[Meeting a woman… So, um… I just started hating women…]”

“[Ah…]”

Yu nodded quietly.

Because I did the same.

Because I was disappointed by men, because I experienced pain from men.

That’s why I started avoiding men after that.

So, the man in front of me was probably like that too. Yu responds to that quiet ’empathy’.

“[…Rather than disgust, it was closer to giving up.]”

Because I don’t even have the strength left to hate something.

“[…………..]”

A word I blurted out as if nothing had happened.

But something inside was so deep and dark that it was difficult to describe in words.

It must have hurt.

It must have been painful and difficult.

How difficult and painful would it have been if you ended up being betrayed?

As her emotions gradually rose, she unconsciously clenched her fists, and Yu calmed her mood with a cool smile.

“[But…It’s okay now. It’s all in the past.]”

“[…………..]”

No.

It can’t be okay.

Is there anyone in this world who would be okay with something like that?

A fierce feeling of resistance rising from below in the heart. Just as the words were about to come out of her mouth.

“[Above all──because I knew that not everyone was like that.]”

“[……What]”

Yu smiled.

A flawless, very pure and pleasing smile.

Not a trace of hatred or anger is visible.

The smile of a boy who seemed to have grown up being loved.

“[She met a woman. She was a woman who was very different from that woman and whom he felt he could truly marry.]”

“[…………..]”

Lina listened quietly.

I concentrated and assimilated.

“[He approached me even when I refused]”

“[Comforting me when I was having a hard time]”

“[Shine the light when you are lost]”

“[…And.]”

Someday

The person who taught me how to cry out loud, even though I had forgotten how to cry.

‘….Good.’

I remember it without even realizing it.

If such a person exists, if such a person really exists.

“[Rina. This is what I think.]”

Yu speaks to himself who is vaguely delusional.

“[Only humans can heal wounds received from humans.]”

“[…..!]”

Our eyes met.

Straight, unwavering eyes.

Beyond the unclouded eyes that are only looking at you.

“[…I will pray that one day, someone will appear who can heal Lina’s wounds.]”

“[………….]”

‘Me’ was reflected.

A person called ‘me’ was reflected.

I had a hunch at the same time.

‘A person who looks at me as ‘me’.’

My image clearly reflected in transparent eyes.

───Excited.

“[Hee…?!]”

The heart sound is abnormal.

It is particularly strong and resonates loudly.

The feeling of humidity rising throughout the body as the face gradually becomes hotter.

It feels strangely tickling and pleasant, so, this is, uh, au…?!

“[? Are you okay?]”

“[Hie…?!]”

Sleep.

Don’t come too close suddenly!

“[…Is it okay to do this to other women when you already have a girl you like?!]”

“[Huh? Pfft, phahahaha!]”

“[…Why are you laughing all of a sudden? What’s so funny!]”

“[No. Just, what should I say….]”

Yu let out a few more laughs and then she quietly turned her head out of her window.

“[…I liked it, but I thought I would probably hate it.]”

“[Yes…?]”

What does that mean?

Words that I don’t understand.

The man shrugged his shoulders and answered.

“[This means it was just a one-night stand. Now… We’re just friends.]”

“[…………]”

If it’s just a one-night stand…

‘…Huh?’

It’s strange.

It’s clear that it’s just a one night stand.

In reality, it’s just a garbage declaration.

“[Are you feeling a little better?]”

“[No? You’re really angry?]”

“[For something like that…]”

“[…….Keueunnng…]”

Now

I don’t know myself either.

After that, I gave him a guide around the area and ate, played, and walked around before returning home.

“Are you a little late today?”

“Don’t worry.”

I just went into the bathroom.

I turned on the cold water and washed my face like crazy.

“…………”

It’s not enough.

I completely soaked his head in the shower.

“……”

I even took a shower.

It was so cold that my whole body was shaking and my teeth were chattering, and I felt like I was going to tremble.

And yet

─My heart is pounding, my heart is pounding

“Ha…”

A heart that beats crazy fast and

“You look like a dog, really.”

Ear lobes so red that they are hot.

“I don’t like it….”

Something.

I felt like I wasn’t myself.

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Around that time, in the case of Kim Ji-yeon.

“……………………….”

I went to the club.

She came into this place again, knowing full well what would happen to her.

‘…Crazy b*tch.’

Why did I come again when I clearly knew what happened to the men?

At first, I gritted my teeth, complained, and got angry, but somehow I found myself coming back again and again.

Wounds are, in a sense, like traces.

A trace that can never be erased. Pain and suffering. But there was definitely unforgettable pleasure within it.

It’s almost like torture, a pleasure that makes you feel like you’re about to die.

Thus, it becomes angry and resentful, but the body, which already knows the pleasure, asks itself for that pleasure again.

Even if you don’t want to go

Even if you don’t want to do it

Nevertheless, I go

Nevertheless, I do it.

‘I don’t like it…..’

Something.

A feeling that something is going wrong.

I don’t know where it went wrong, but I feel like it’s gone so wrong that I can’t turn it back.

My reason was screaming that I had to get out of this place even now, but more than that, my instincts didn’t want to leave this place.

If it was obvious, it was natural.

Because the instinct is to chase pleasure.

“…Haaa.”

I felt it myself.

Something was twisted inside him.

I hate men. I hate it so much.

But I can’t forget that embrace.

At first, I promised myself that I would never make a mistake again, but

In the end, you console yourself, come up with strange excuses, and voluntarily return to this terrible quagmire.

“[One drink?]”

“…………”

An unknown man approached me holding a bottle of alcohol.

When I hold out a glass of alcohol, he pours alcohol on it.

‘…It doesn’t taste good.’

It was cheap alcohol.

It seemed like the taste was showing that it had now fallen this much.

“[What are you doing here alone?]”

“[….Just sit there.]”

The man continued to move his tongue.

To create a gap from me. The intention to do something to me was transparent enough to be foolish.

‘At least men in the past had manners.’

Now, a cheap person who has no manners and just gives cheap clothes and cheap alcohol is being caught.

This is a situation where you can’t even laugh.

“[Huhu…Hu…..]”

“[Yes…You look better when you smile!]”

But there is a person who feels a little bit of ‘joy’ from such a man.

I find it absurd that I feel ‘joy’ from such low-quality, low-class trash that I wouldn’t even be able to talk to if I were to go out into society.

And above all

“[Look at the ceiling over there. It doesn’t look like the night sky.]”

“[Ah…Yeah.]”

A man trying to drug my drink.

I know for sure. It seems obvious.

And there is me who does not stop it.

‘…It’s finally turned around.’

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I don’t know.

I don’t know anything anymore.

I just wanted to lose my mind, drink that glass of wine, and then go boom.

“[Now then, for our happy days!]”

“[…..hehehe.]”

We clinked our glasses together.

And without hesitation, I drank my glass――just as I was about to drink it.

“[Don’t drink it. That man drugged your drink.]”

“[? What are you doing now, bastard?]”

“[…..?]”

A man came up and grabbed my hand.

“[This woman’s drink was drugged, right? I saw it all from the side.]”

“[No, what is this crazy guy saying now!]”

“[If not, try drinking it yourself.]”

“[….You dog-like bastard.]”

“[Ah…..]”

The man clicks his tongue and leaves.

As I stare blankly at that, the man next to me puts his drink away and says.

“[Be careful. There’s a lot of trash like that here.]”

“[…………]”

Trash.

Yes. It’s trash.

I know at least that that guy is trash.

“[Give it to me.]”

“[Yes…?]”

I did it knowingly.

“[I’m going to drink it.]”

“[No…You said you were on drugs?]”

I did it knowingly.

So there was no place to retreat anymore.

“[Wait…Uh, uhuh…?!]”

“[───Paha….]”

I tipped my glass.

A cold feeling passing through the throat.

A burning sensation in the stomach.

At the same time, something like gas started to rise—ah, it’s coming.

“[Haaa….♡]”

“[…………]”

That feels good.

Something good is coming.

‘But no.’

This is not enough.

So….

“[You…You came because you wanted to be with me, right?]”

“[………………………..]”

“[Good…♡ I want to do it too~~♡]”

“[…….Haaa.]”

I hugged him tightly.

Then the man hugs me.

I closed my eyes as my vision gradually became blurry.

Really──what will happen to me?

The day when I was embraced by a man with both resignation and giving up, as well as unprecedented expectations.

“….Are you a eunuch?”

The man didn’t even touch me with a finger.