The Difference Is Like Between a Dog and a Cow

50 – Heading to the Capital (4)

“Sergeant Bell!”

Frightened to notice and react to the change, Bell Mayer hurriedly disappeared into the alley, covering his mouth with both hands.

I wasn’t the only one baffled by the sudden outburst.

“…… !!”

“Lou, Lumia!”

“Platoon commander! I have to follow you!!”

Hold on for a few seconds.

The two of us immediately followed Bell Meyer. In the back of the alley she turned right into, she was struggling to vomit her stomach.

“Uweek—!! Kuck, ugh…… Suck…….”

“Gwa, are you okay?”

I went up to Belle and patted her on the back cautiously.

Why do I suddenly vomit?

Did you do it too?

No, that wasn’t it. Bell Meyer didn’t eat anything today. All that was forced out immediately was thin liquid.

“Coke! Coke, uh…… Coke!!”

Belle let out a painful cough as she pressed against the wall.

Her Spirit The moment I tried to grab her, her Belle’s body sat down on her floor like a doll’s thread snapping.

“Bell!”

I quickly grabbed hold of her body and managed to get her up. Bell Meyer had already lost her consciousness. If she hadn’t been close she would have hit her head on the floor.

“Platoon commander… ….”

Rumia Bluet said in a worried voice. I don’t know exactly what happened, but it seemed like she couldn’t go get the clothes.

The first thing to do is to take Bell back to the dorm.

“Will you carry Sergeant Bell on my back?”

“Oh, I see!”

Rumia came over and put Belle’s limp body on my back.

Since she was completely unconscious, it would be a big deal if her center of gravity leaned backwards, so I grabbed her legs tightly with both hands and fixed them.

“Keugh…… !!”

“Platoon commander!! Are you okay!? My, shall I carry it?”

“No…… ! It’s okay!!”

Because I also have a weak body, my legs trembled every time I took a step.

Since her back broke while trying to save Rumia last time, she had been building up her stamina in her spare time, so it wasn’t to the point of falling out while walking.

‘I can’t do that this time either.’

It’s also a shame that Rumia couldn’t see properly when her back was cut. If she was still conscious, she would have looked at her pathetically.

Even now, Lumia was thinking that the reason I was hurt at the time was because she was injured during the battle.

She won well, though, and there was nothing more foolish to believe than breaking her back while trying to get a man stuck in the ground.

Even if I told the truth, they would interpret it as a funny masochistic gag.

When I managed to return to the lodging, the manager of the annex, who was serving customers in the lobby, exclaimed in amazement.

“No!? Hey, how did this happen?”

“We don’t know either. I was going fine and suddenly passed out……. Do you have anywhere to lie down?”

“Now, here! Come here!”

The manager calmly led me to a sofa on one side of the lobby. It was wide enough to accommodate one person.

“Ron, call the doctor right away. Luna and Ayla bring pillows and blankets!”

As I struggled to move the bell onto the sofa, the janitor gave orders to his servants.

As if there was a manual for dealing with this kind of situation, the servants dispersed in perfect order as soon as an order was given.

While giving instructions, the caretaker approached Belle and made a rough check of her condition.

“You are breathing normally, and you don’t seem to have any major problems.”

“I’m glad.”

I was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief. Her immediate fire is string-shaped, so I double-checked her consciousness.

“Bell, Sergeant Bell Meyer! Can you come to your senses?”

“Ugh, ugh…” ….”

“Sergeant Bell, open your eyes!”

As I wrapped my hand around her, the closed eyelids trembled and the hidden red eyes began to appear.

“Cow…… Leader…… Sir?”

“Are you okay?”

“Here, is…… ?”

She turned her head with difficulty. She must have gotten a glass of water from the maid before she knew it, and Rumia stood her bell up for a moment and fed her water.

“Drink.”

“Ugh… ….”

Bell calmly drinks water.

I thought it was a precursor to the verge of a runaway magical power, but luckily it didn’t seem to be that far.

“By the way, where is this place? Something familiar…….”

“This is an accommodation.”

“Accommodation…… ? Isn’t this our accommodation? It doesn’t look like this…….”

A distinct sense of incongruity.

The moment I saw Bell Meyer looking around with a puzzled expression, I knew something was wrong.

Dissociative amnesia.

The forgotten traits of Bell Meyer were manifested.

***

The doctor’s opinion was that it was a neurogenic syncope caused by sudden stress. It turned out that there was no major health problem, so the doctor went back without taking any action.

“Then I will go to the clothing store.”

“Yes, please.”

Since the schedule of having to meet the king must go ahead as it is, Rumia decided to go alone for the wedding dress she hadn’t received yet.

I decided to stay at the inn and watch Bell Meyer’s condition.

There was no danger of runaway magic, but I always had to prepare for the worst.

“Bell.”

Smart. As I carefully knocked on the door, I heard a voice from inside.

“It’s okay to come in.”

Upon entering Belle’s room, she was sitting astride her bed in her comfortable nightgown.

Bell Meyer is looking at the parrot with her legs pulled into her bosom. It was a really weak figure, quite different from the image of her that I had seen in the base so far.

“How far have your memories come back?”

“Roughly? I don’t think that many memories have gone away. It’s just that I can’t remember the time we left, hehehe.”

Bell Meyer spoke in a more lively voice. She tried her best to smile as if she was okay, but she felt it unfiltered, and she stabbed her chest even more.

“She forgot for a moment that she had dissociative amnesia,” She said. Sorry.”

“You don’t need to apologize, Platoon Commander. It was the first symptom I experienced after becoming a platoon commander.”

Bell Meyer added bitterly.

“I thought I was fine for a while…… Today is worse than expected. It’s been quite a while since I even lost consciousness.”

“Sometimes…… Is it work?”

She replied with a nod of her head.

“I don’t know how many memories disappear after they’ve already disappeared. In the past, that was so painful, but after coming to the 3rd generation, no one paid attention to me, so it was nice. No one asks if I don’t remember.”

“Sergeant Bell… ….”

“I’m used to it now. Instead, I’m sorry that the platoon commander must have been very surprised instead of me.”

I couldn’t properly respond to her apology. I am the one who should apologize.

“… ….”

A heavy silence came without fail.

There was not much I could do at the point of recurrence of dissociative amnesia, a disease that could never be easily overcome.

And maybe what the doctor said was “Sudden stress-induced nervous syncope.”

Because Bell Meyer, who was obviously fine, started to vomit immediately after witnessing the strigoi being escorted.

No matter what the circumstances, I had a hunch that there might be a point of contact between Bell Mayer and the group.

It must have something to do with the background of Bell Mayer’s transition from being a noble lady to being a low-level magic sergeant in the outskirts.

But I couldn’t ask directly.

Like Rumia’s ‘that incident’, there was a very high possibility that Bell Meyer’s trauma would be stimulated.

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What if I say the wrong thing and make things worse?

“I’m really fine. At this level, it doesn’t even go into the serious axis.”

“If it is a severe axis, how severe is it?”

“Um, to the point where you forgot my name and where I came from? No matter what happened in the past, there were times when years disappeared all at once.”

What the hell is the reason for not ordering a person like this to be discharged?

The more I listen, the less I understand.

Bell Meyer’s condition was much more serious than I thought. I thought it was dissociative amnesia, so I thought it was just a one-time loss of information, but it wasn’t that much.

“…… Sergeant Bell, this isn’t it. Even now, a global request—”

“No, Platoon Commander. I like it here. Rather…… I want to delay my discharge as much as possible.”

Bell Meyer’s calm voice pierced my consciousness.

“The only thing that can confirm my identity now is the military. Even if I lose my memory, I feel relieved when I see the military uniform on the other side of the room.”

What stood in his red eyes was the emptiness that had given up on everything. And I also had a keen sense of what Bell Meyer was talking about.

My past, which I hated terribly, but at the same time loved terribly. A faded battle suit. Mekehan gunpowder, bloody smell.

I was also a specter who was obsessed with the status of a soldier.

“I understand. I’m too…… You said something presumptuous.”

“This is the reason why I said I would bring a parrot. I’m afraid I’ll lose my memory in a foreign country. It’s a parrot I’ve had since childhood. Even if you lose all your memories, you can get them back through the story you told the parrot.”

I turned and looked at the yellow parrot in the cage. He sat quietly on a perch, grooming his hair.

Perhaps that parrot serves as a trigger for her to regain her memories.

“Well, now I understand a little bit. Why am I here and what should I do?”

“Is that so?”

“Sure. In order to meet the King tomorrow, I need to get a good night’s sleep.”

“Absolute stability is important.”

“…… Then, will the platoon commander stay by your side?”

Bell Meyer said, slightly averting her gaze.

Even though he was saying that he was completely fine now, he already thought that he couldn’t completely shake off his anxiety.

I silently pulled a chair from the room and sat down beside Belle’s bed.

“Just watching over me until I fall asleep, it’s not difficult.”

“Yes…… Contrary to what you look like, you are stupidly kind.”

Bell Meyer fidgeting and burrowing into the futon. I leaned back in her chair, watching her.

“See you tomorrow, Platoon Commander.”

“That’s right.”

When she tossed and turned a little after that, she fell asleep soundly.

“Platoon commander…… ? I am here.”

“Shh.”

It was at this point that Rumia had just returned to her quarters.