72 – ego (4)

Now that I think about it, I made a really big mistake. That is such a huge mistake.

When Faust’s thoughts disappeared, I really thought it was over, but it wasn’t.

I thought I could move my body as I wanted and speak as I wanted, but after 16 years I got so used to it that I forgot the words and actions of a human being. Where in the world is this absurd case?

What’s even more troubling is… I’m feeling comfortable with this.

If you deliberately try to do something vulgar, you will be so anxious and awkward that you will go crazy. I feel like my body can’t keep up with my head.

But this is not very important.

What’s the big problem when you just have to follow Faust’s words and actions that you’re already familiar with?

‘…Fuck.’

I thought that Faust’s will, which remained, was tying me up, but it wasn’t.

Faust’s will was to assist and help me.

Specifically, your own body.

Dismissed

The mana condensed to create magic instantly turned into sparks and was scattered.

This magic is not some kind of difficult magic or newly developed magic.

It’s a detection magic that I used very easily as if it was natural until a while ago, a few hours ago.

There was no sign of anything in the magical mansion.

Of course, nothing happened to the children in the mansion.

It was just because the real Faust’s consciousness had disappeared, and the magic that could have been used with that consciousness assisted, such as detection magic, had become useless.

sigh

“…tsk.”

Flames rise above my palms and burn as I intended.

Looking at this, it doesn’t mean that you can’t use magic all of a sudden. Simple magic can be used very smoothly without any problems.

So if you look at the situation I’m in right now… Yes, it can be seen that the mods, addons, and macros that I was using well in the game suddenly disappeared.

Even if there are no mods, add-ons, or macros, it doesn’t interfere with playing the game at all, but doesn’t it make it extremely inconvenient? It’s just like that.

‘It will turn.’

Unlike before, when you could cast magic without much effort like pressing the skill button, you had to create a magic formula individually and designate the mana path, which was very annoying.

Of course, if you want to use magic, you can of course use it, but you still enjoy the convenience of clicking a button, and then suddenly you can’t enjoy it, so the feeling of deprivation is no joke.

The casting time has increased too much, and there are many things to worry about.

Faust’s words and actions are the same anyway, but I should have told him to stay and not just disappear.

One day you’ll get used to it and be able to use magic as quickly as before… Ugh, I’ll have to practice whenever I can.

……….

Less well

“…”

“I really enjoyed the meal.”

The next morning, as always, I was about to leave after feeding the kids, but something seems strange to them.

Lucia and Iris, whose eyes are wide open as if they hadn’t slept properly, are trembling and can’t even make eye contact with me properly, and what should I say about the other three… Yes, it was as if they saw a cat in a box while walking on a rainy day. He looks at me with pitiful eyes.

what is this.

“Lucia.”

“Huh, hick?! B, yes…”

I tried to ask Lucia what the hell had happened, but Lucia answered in surprise at my call.

Not just surprised. I feel a strange sense of distance.

what…?

this hurts a bit

“What happened?”

“…no, uh.”

Just looking at it is an outright lie.

He desperately avoids my gaze and stutters, who would think that nothing happened after seeing this?

Her voice vibrates like that of a goat, her shoulders tremble, and fear oozes from every movement.

But since it seems like you don’t want to talk about it, you shouldn’t bother asking.

“Hmm…”

“I-I wasn’t there… Miss Faust.”

Iris also had a similar situation to Lucia.

Looking at the condition of Iris with the token engraved on Iris, unlike Lucia, she is a little less anxious, but she still feels anxious.

No, shouldn’t this be seen as more like regret and nervousness rather than anxiety…?

Anyway, what happened to the kids last night seems to be an unmistakable fact.

No, what the hell happened?

“There… Faust.”

At that moment, Celestine’s cautious voice pierced the trembling hall.

It’s cautious, but it’s not because it’s scary, it’s like a stray dog trembling with anxiety, being careful not to be surprised.

It even feels strangely benevolent. It’s like a nun taking care of the poor.

“What’s going on?”

“Would you like to receive my prayers?”

“…?”

what are you talking about

Are you praying to me, the devil? It’s more strange than casting recovery magic on the undead.

“Ah, ah… what should I say? Yes, it was just my whim. If you don’t like it, don’t take it too seriously.”

When I look at Celestine with a curious look, Celestine tries to reassure me by urgently continuing her words as if making an excuse.

It makes no sense.

reassure me? Celestine, who suffers from anger control disorder when she sees demons and goes mad trying to purify herself?

I was so strong that I was forced to control my anger, but even so, he never treated me so kindly.

Of course, he looked for an opportunity to purify me at every opportunity, but this was the first time he treated me kindly like he did just now.

The saintess, who was just a selective lunatic, let alone a saintess, really seems to be living up to her name.

“…Well, that’s it.”

Lastly, when I move my gaze to Lena and Arn, a sense of fear that is hard to speak comes over me.

The two elves, who only trembled while looking at me, are now looking at me with sad eyes, as if they had never done that before. It’s hard to believe that it’s the same person as yesterday… the same elf.

At this point, it’s hard to say anything more.

For 16 years, I have only received feelings of fear, but to suddenly receive such feelings of pity is so awkward and strange that I can’t control my mind properly.

“Oh, Dad…”

“Why?”

“Daddy… is he right?”

…?

what is this again

At that moment, Lucia, who had been trembling ever since, finally opened her mouth, and when she wanted to say something, she said something stupid.

Normally, I would have seen this and thought it was a joke, but now Lucia is not like that at all.

It’s so sincere, and it’s like looking at a castle built with cards that are about to collapse if you touch it even a little wrong.

…No way, guys, did you see me talking to Faust yesterday?

If that’s not the case, I can’t explain why it’s doing this… Write, I guess that’s right.

“Ahhhhh…”

When I didn’t say anything, Lucia widened her eyes, then grabbed her chest and groaned in pain.

Oops.

I can roughly guess what you are thinking. He must have thought that he had hit the mark, and that I was speechless.

ㅡ Fluffy.

“Hick…!?”

When I urgently stroked Lucia’s head to reassure her, the trembling Lucia stopped with a short, surprised sound.

When Faust’s will dominated the whole body, it was possible to put a hand on the head, but it was impossible to stroke it like this.

Lucia widens her eyes and is taken aback by being stroked for the first time in her life.

“Lucia.”

“N-Yes…”

“I am me. I have been like that since the past, and always will be.”

These were not words he said casually just to get out of the situation or to reassure Lucia.

No matter how much I borrowed Faust’s body and even though my words and actions were strongly influenced by Faust, I’ve always thought and acted with my own will.

Sowon also only responds to wishes. Except for that, I have never been unable to act according to my will.

“Eww…”

“If you know, let’s go now.”

Fortunately, Lucia seemed to understand well.

After stroking her hair once, Lucia, who had been trembling until just a moment ago, became amazingly calm as if she hadn’t always.

No, rather than calming down, is it fair to say that he’s feeling a sense of relief that he’s not entirely wrong?

I still can’t be sure enough, but in the worst case, it’s that kind of relief that I’ve chosen the lesser evil.

“…!! Faust-sama, me too—”

“Stop, it’s not just Lucia. I don’t know what everyone is thinking when they see me from yesterday, but I can say that I’m completely wrong. I’ve always been one.”

As my words resonated throughout the hall, everyone listened to me with solemn expressions and attitudes.

…I think this analogy is a little rude, but it’s the look on the faces of those who hear a will right before they die in a certain bed.

Wow… I didn’t know you caught that scene yesterday.

Faust, who was assisting with magic, must have noticed, but pretending not to know… Ugh, even if you have a bad personality, it’s too bad. It’s a demon, so it’s natural.

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