The day I shared a flat with my female boss

She just wants Gu Yang to run into her and take Daniel back to his apartment. If Gu Yang didn't scare him away, Lin Xi'er even plans to stay Daniel in Sicily manor for the night!

Of course, the purpose is to let Gu Yang know that she is dating Daniel, the purpose is to let Gu Yang die! But she is very clear, to let Gu Yang give up on her is a difficult thing!

She suffered from infertility, and was raped by Xiao Delong that night. She also faced strong family pressure, but she still didn't give up on Gu Yang!

I'm afraid she'll never give up on him!

So she knew that even if Gu Yang met with great resistance, he would not give up on her! So she wants to be more unfeeling, more unfeeling!

Her heart is not willing! She didn't know what she had done in her previous life. She had to face so many frustrations in this life! But fate is merciless, she knows she can only accept, only accept, no other way!

It doesn't matter if she doesn't give up. She must let Gu Yang give up!

She can bear the family pressure, but she is not innocent, and she can't give birth to a bunch of children for Gu Yang, who loves children. She is doomed to be unable to bear these two things!

Every time I see Gu Yang's painful eyes, her heart is more painful than Gu Yang! And she also had to smile in front of him, strong and indifferent!

Gu Yang will never know how she survived during the period when he was assigned to the warehouse in the southern suburbs! She sleeps in Gu Yang's bedroom every night, because only in this way can she still feel Gu Yang lying beside her! She still felt Gu YangZheng gently holding her waist, whispering in her ear!

Every night, she would sit on the balcony of the living room for a long time. She felt that Gu Yang was sitting beside her and enjoying the bright night scenery of Binhai city with her. She felt that she and Gu Yang were sitting on the deck chair of the balcony, pointing to the stars in the sky and telling their wishes for the future.

Every night, I lie on Gu Yang's bed and stick his picture on my chest. Every night, I have to listen to his voice recorded by her on my mobile phone. Only in this way can she sleep with a little peace of mind.

But as soon as she went to sleep, Gu Yang followed her into her dreams. Every night, she was having some terrible dreams. She dreamed that Gu Yang pushed her to the ground and turned away. She dreamed that Gu Yang was having a tryst with another girl, and she accidentally ran into her. She dreamed that Gu Yang yelled at her, "I'll never see you again, a heartless woman!"

Always wake up from these terrible dreams, always in the middle of the night can no longer sleep, that kind of loneliness and loneliness like countless insects crawling all over her body, gnawing at her heart with sharp teeth, gnawing at her flesh and blood!

But she is very clear, to let Gu Yang leave himself, choose a better partner who can give birth to a lot of children for him, she must be heartless! If she wants to make Gu Yang feel pain, Gu Yang will leave her. If she wants to make Gu Yang feel pain, she must bear more than 100 times of pain!

Every time I hear Gu Yang's voice recorded by her mobile phone, her tears can't stop flowing down. The scene of recording that song is vivid in my mind

It was in Gu Yang's hometown. Gu Yang took her to climb the mountain. On the mountain, Gu Yang sang a local folk song of their hometown, which Lin Xi'er recorded quietly!

Maybe Gu Yang didn't sing well enough, maybe he still had some notes to run away from, but for her, it was a better song than that sung by Zhang Xueyou. Now it has become the only prop for her and Gu Yang to have a close conversation!

She has found herself a little nervous! She didn't know if she would go completely crazy if she had been repressed like this!

Really! She doesn't know!

She sat alone in any corner of the room and cried for no reason, because she thought of Gu Yang and the wonderful time they had together. In every corner of the apartment, there were stories that they had happened and Gu Yang's shadow.

Listening to Gu Yang sing that song repeatedly every night, when she hears that she is sleepy, she will talk to Gu Yang

"that's great! Baby She said.

"Average, third in the world." He said.

"Tired? Husband. " She said.

"Yes. I'm a little tired. " He said.

"Then let's sleep." She said.

"Good." He said.

"You sleep with me in your arms. Don't let me go, I know?" She said.

"Yes. Never let go. " He said.

"Good night. My baby She said.

"Good night. Wife. " He said.

Yes! Every night she talks to "Gu Yang". She plays two roles at the same time, one is herself, the other is Gu Yang. One day, she suddenly comes up with a medical term, that is "schizophrenia"!

Lin Xi'er doesn't know whether she will become a mental patient. She doesn't know how long the pain will last, and she doesn't know. If she keeps repressing like this, she really doesn't know if she will be schizophrenic?

She can't stand it!

Gu Yang's pain, she can feel, but their own pain, who knows?

She knew from the beginning that Gu Yang was not the traitor who betrayed the company. When Xiao Delong framed the intelligence on the phone, Gu Yang provided it to him. Then she laughed!yes! She knew that Gu Yang would never betray her! In this world, in addition to her family, the only person she trusts is Gu Yang.

Between her father and sister and Gu Yang, she knows that she has more trust in Gu Yang!

But in order to get Gu Yang away from her, she had to use Xiao Delong's phone.

She knew that Gu Yang suffered a lot of grievances, but she was also very wronged in her heart. She didn't want to be such a heartless woman! She especially didn't want to become a heartless woman in Gu Yang's mind! However, she seems to have only this way. She can only mold herself into a heartless woman in the eyes of the man she loves most and the only one in her life!

This seems to be her destiny! She did!

When she went to the hospital for reexamination, she found out infertility. At first, she was not willing to accept this fact. Her heart began to struggle a long time ago!

After seeing the test sheet, her heart began to struggle!

Until I went to Guyang's hometown and saw Guyang's mother, she was such a kind woman! Like Gu Yang, they are all kind people! She wants her to be her daughter-in-law! I still wear Gu's mother's bracelet on my hand! In Gu's eyes, she is obviously her daughter-in-law to be!

But the more so, the more Lin Xi'er felt that she couldn't be sorry for taking care of her family! Gu Yang is the only child of Gu's family. If she can't have a child, then Gu's family can't continue the incense! Gu Yang likes children so much, and Gu's mother holds grandchildren so much! If she can't give birth to a child for him, he will feel that their marriage life is very regretful and imperfect, which is hard to make up for in any other form!

Even if Gu Yang doesn't dislike her, can't there be any regret in his heart?

Therefore, she learned from the bitter experience. After being insulted by Xiao Delong, she finally made the decision to leave Gu Yang! She can't be sorry for taking care of her family and the kind mother and son! The more they love her, the less she can hurt them!

Long pain is better than short pain! Let Gu Yang leave as soon as possible, so as to avoid Gu Yang's regret after marriage. At that time, she will ask for a divorce from Gu Yang, which will hurt him even more!

Once she has made up her mind, she has to be merciless to let Gu Yang retreat!

However, Gu Yang did not mean to retreat, which made her feel a little poor! For example, today, she almost broke down several times, and several times she felt that she was about to break down!

For a moment, she almost jumped on him, hugged him tightly, told him that all these performances were her performances, and told him that all these performances were just because of her deep love for him! Tell him how much she missed him. Tell him that after he went to the warehouse in the southern suburb, she almost went crazy thinking about him!

Thinking about it, Lin Xi'er was in tears again. She went to the wall, gently stroked the wall, and fell asleep on the other side of the wall. Her favorite and the only man she loved!

"I'm sorry, I love you!" she whispered to the wall

She whispered, "my baby. Good night

That night, I had a beautiful dream. I dreamed that Xi'er and I had a trip to Provence again. The purple lavender, which reposes my many beautiful feelings, ah! stretch as far as eye can see!

I dream of chasing and playing with Xi'er in the lavender field, rolling and fighting, the simplest happiness and the most real smile.

Everything in the dream has a rosy dream color.

When I woke up the next morning, it was half past six.

I opened my eyes and savored the beautiful dream of last night. I couldn't help but smile. But this smile soon disappeared, replaced by endless loss and sadness, the heart is still slightly tingling.

I got up from the bed, jumped out of bed, ran to the bedroom door, opened the door, went out, and came to Xi'er's bedroom door

At this time, Xi'er must not wake up. She usually gets up at seven o'clock, which is her routine.

I left Xi'er's bedroom door and went to the bathroom to wash. The fragrance of Xi'er's shower last night was still in the bathroom.

After washing, I went back to my bedroom, went to the balcony and smoked a cigarette, and then returned to Xi'er's bedroom door.

I approached the door, ready to listen to the room, thought Xi'er should get up, right?

I turned my head and put my ears on the door.

The door was suddenly opened from the inside at this time.

Xi'er, dressed in a white dress with suspenders, sleepily appears in the crack of the door

I was startled and my body jumped out instinctively

"What are you doing?" Xi'er frowned at me and said.

I quickly spread out my arms to expand my chest, looked at Xi'er and said with a smile, "I'm doing morning exercises! morning exercises! Ha ha ha... "

Xi'er said to me, "did you do morning exercises with your ears?"

I said with a smile, "really! I'm doing morning exercises! I've been exercising all this time! Ha ha ha... "

I pull out the lunge and press my legs