The day I shared a flat with my female boss

Ask the world what love is, teach people to live and die. I had to make that old tune again. Didn't I go through her heartache at the moment? No, I have experienced it personally. Liu Qing's departure has given me a deep taste of this kind of bitterness!

If Liu Qing has faded from my life, then the appearance of Xi'er makes my heart revive again, and makes my life ignite the desire for love again. But, in fact, I was hit by love once again! I don't know if I should believe in love? I don't know if I should doubt the truth of love and its existence? Is there such an unforgettable true love in this world as "asking what is love in the world, teaching people to live and die together"?

Lin Xi'er cried like a child in my arms. Her arrogance and arrogance were gone!

Yes! In front of love, it seems that everything can be changed for another person, and it seems that everything can remain unchanged for another person!

At 9 p.m. in a bar near the hotel. The dim light, like wine red, is full of ambiguous color, and the air is full of a love of beauty

I sit at a table in the corner of the bar, drinking the heavy French "Hennessy", staring at the red men and women around, and the cigarettes curling around my fingers in the dark

Yes! This is a bar famous for its beauty hunting!

There are some popular sayings about bar Hunting:

the men's version is like this: put a box of cigarettes on the table, draw out two of them to reveal the cigarette holder, and then put a lighter on the top of the cigarette case. Metaphor: is there a light for me tonight? If there is one, pull out one if you are interested, and then pull out the other one. If you are not interested, push two cigarettes back into the cigarette box and put the cigarette box up.

The women's version is like this: order a cup of hot coffee, then put the sugar bag next to the coffee and stir it back and forth with a coffee spoon. If someone comes over and is interested, tear open the sugar bag and pour the sugar in.

Finally, if you start drinking coffee, you accept it. If you are not interested, continue to stir the coffee.

In fact, whether in the east or in the west, every city is, in a way, a city of desire. City is people-centered, as long as people live, there will be endless desire, and people's desire is the desire of the city. When the night falls, the desire hidden in everyone's heart, its claw armour begins to emerge quietly from the black robe. Under the stimulation of strong smoke and liquor, my mood gets worse and worse!

"My heart is aching, sleepy and numb.

Stabbed into the senses, like drinking poison dove.

It's like just swallowing opium.

So he went down to Leicester... "

This is the first paragraph of Keats's poem "Ode to the Nightingale". Nothing can describe my inner pain better than these sentences!

But now I feel as much pain as Keats, but where is my Fanny? In the arms of other men, right?

When writing this poem, John. Keats has become anointed blind and is on the verge of death. I saw Keats's autobiographical film "bright love poems". At that time, he sat in the shade of the garden and wrote this 80 line poem in only three hours, while his girlfriend Fanny was watching her at the windowsill not far away.

All of a sudden, I feel that there seems to be a loophole somewhere in my life. I feel that I am standing alone in the boundless wilderness. The rough wind on the wilderness passes through my body full of holes, or my life is like a computer, and there is an irreparable major loophole

however, the human brain is not a computer, life is not a system program, and the computer is not a computer If there is a loophole, it can be repaired with the help of "Jinshan drug bully". What should I do to repair my heart, my life and my love?

A foreign song "Casablanca", which deepened my mood at the moment, I fell into the mood of my heart, unable to extricate myself, painful memories, helpless indignation, as well as the pain of being cheated and abandoned

these men and women in the bar, or elated, or deeply sad, or charming, or gaudy hypocrisy, are all playing on occasion. In fact, the whole life is just a play.

A charming woman is dancing on the dance floor. A group of men are watching. It's a kind of cathartic dance, with some enchanting, some indulgence and some despair

She was wearing a red suspender skirt. In the light of the light, her cheeks appeared and disappeared from time to time. In the hazy, her appearance turned into Xi'er's. Xi'er frowned and laughed. She was tender in front of me.

Before I came to the bar, I went to the red telephone booth on the street to make an international call. I dialed Xi'er's mobile phone, Xi'er answered the phone, her familiar voice through the network, from China to Paris.

At the moment when I heard Xi'er's familiar voice, my nose was very sour, my eyes were hot, and my vision became blurred.

I caught the phone, mouth moved, and moved, my Adam's apple kept squirming up and down, but I still can't say a word!Maybe I just want to hear an explanation from Xi'er when I make this international call. I just want her to tell me that the scene I saw in the Mediterranean commercial building that day is not true, or there is a reason for it. I just want her to tell me that there is nothing between her and ouyangze.

maybe I don't think what she said to me at all, I just want to hear her voice.

"Hello, who's calling, please?" Xi'er asked politely on the other end of the phone, but her voice was still so good.

However, then a man's voice came over the phone. When I heard that man's words, my heart began to ache again!

Although the ocean, although he said only a short sentence, but I still hear it is Ouyang Ze's voice! They're together! Ouyang Ze is beside her. His words are very short and friendly!

He said, "honey, it's your turn to wash."

What do you wash? Take a bath? What else can they do when they stay together so late?

The phone fell out of my hand, just like my heart fell into the abyss.

"Hello! Who is calling, please? Speak up, please

Xi'er's surprised voice on the phone.

I didn't make any sound from the beginning to the end. Maybe I was going to make a sound, but when I heard Ouyang Ze's words, I couldn't make any sound any more!

I went back to the hotel and went directly to Lin Xi'er's room.

Lin Xi'er saw my difference. She frowned at me and said, "what's the matter with you? You look so ugly

Before I came in, she would have been lying on the bed, dejected by herself, right? The smell of smoke and wine in the room, the French red wine on the bedside table, and the tall glass filled with liquor showed that she was taking care of herself, drinking to relieve her worries, smoking and liquor.

To drink away worries is to worry more. To drink, to pour out worries is to worry more.

"Nothing..." I pulled up the corner of my mouth, squeezed out a smiling face, "maybe a little tired?"

Lin Xi'er turned her lower lip and said, "it's useless! I only visited a few places today! So tired! White as a zombie

She raises her hand to smoke. Her fingers are long and her cigarette is long. Her posture is very elegant! Damn it! Why does she smoke?

"Maybe I'm really going to die!" I said in a low voice.

"Then let's die together!" Lin Xi'er looked at me, blinked and said that her expression was meticulous.

I said with a bitter smile, "what's the matter with us dying together? If I'm Romeo and you're Juliet, when we die together, people will say that we both died for love, and that our death may be the best of all time. But we are not lovers. We die in a foreign country, and no one has collected the corpse yet. How desolate we are

"I am Julie!" She got up from the bed, looked at me and said.

I said, "but I'm not Romeo! I'm John. Keats

"Well," Lin Xi'er said with a small mouth, "then don't die. Drink with me!"

I looked at her and said, "OK! It's OK to drink with you today! It's OK to drink to death! "

"Simply," Lin Xi'er looked at me with her chin in her hand, a ray of pain in her eyes, "let's go straight to the bar and have a drink, kill ourselves?"

"Yes! Drink it to death I agreed with a bitter smile.

I looked at her, raised my hand, touched my nose and said, "do you smoke all the time or for the first time?"

I recognized the narrow green cigarette case on the table. It was a French women's cigarette. Many people thought that Moore was a women's cigar. In fact, it was just a dark brown cigar paper roll of tobacco. It didn't have much power to smoke, but it had a similar smell.

It is said that it is the best choice for the lion beauties with good face. One is majestic with a "cigar", the other is full of the smell of smoke, dominating the world.

"It's up to you! I'd love to! " Lin Xi'er snatched a word from me.

I felt my nose and said with a wry smile, "ah! I can't even manage myself now. How can I manage you? "

I knew she was in the same bad mood as me, so I didn't say anything more. I just teased her and said, "in fact, the way you smoke is more charming than the way you wave a baseball bat at me!"

"Go to hell!" She scolded me.

"Yes! I'm dead With that, I shook my head and grinned bitterly, and walked out of her room.

When Lin Xi'er changed her clothes, we immediately set out for the bar.

I forced myself up and chatted with Lin Xi'er. After a long circle, I got to the topic of her sister Lin Xi'er.

I coughed on purpose, looked at her and said with a smile, "where has Alice been these days when we are abroad?"