Superstar

Hugo was a little flustered and wanted to find a lifebuoy, but there was nothing in the empty room for him to cling to. Hugo only felt that the oxygen in the chest cavity was beginning to change. Rare, he had to push the window abruptly, causing the wind on Lake Washington to hit his face like a'wave' of air, washing away all his expressions, even though it was biting. The strong wind made him almost unable to open his eyes, but he still stubbornly opened his eyes, letting his eyes bear the sting of the wind blade, as if in this way he could settle the chaotic thoughts of his brain. .

Unfortunately, Hugo failed.

Hugo’s mind kept playing back the grief of his lover’s eternal departure. Deep in his subconsciousness, he seemed to know that this was Sam’s emotion, but Hugo could not extricate himself. He could not control his emotions. After getting into the drama too deeply, He and Sam are so integrated that there is no way to distinguish the story from reality. Therefore, this huge grief surged and drowned Hugo.

The squally wind over Lake Washington continued to blow, which made Hugo's eyes become extremely dry, and then they were filled with moisture. Hugo closed his eyes in a panic, he turned and leaned against the wall, breathing heavily, although Sam in his body was crying sadly, but Hugo didn't want his emotions to be vented by tears. 'Exposing' his own weakness, these two emotions are like two completely different personalities fighting in Hugo's mind. The pain that seems to tear Hugo's spirit consciousness constantly consumes his physical strength. He had to gasp for breath, only in this way could he relieve the pain in his heart that would almost torture him to death.

Finally, the emotions settled slowly. Hugo saw the fixed phone on the'bed'side table. He unconsciously stretched out his hand and grabbed the receiver of the phone. He didn't know what the action was. Sam did it himself, but before he knew it, he had already held the receiver and dialed a series of phone numbers.

In a daze, Hugo seemed to see a figure walking into the room. He raised his eyes and looked vaguely, and murmured, "Maggie..." It was as if Sam kept dreaming of his wife when he dreamed back at midnight. Like Maggie, she saw the phantom, but in the next second, the figure in front of her changed again. Hugo was stunned, and all the words were stuck in her throat, because at this time, the person standing in front of him became Uma.

Hugo had to close his eyes, but Sam at the bottom of his heart kept roaring and "opening his eyes", which made Hugo have to tug of war between illusion and reality.

At this time, the other end of the phone was connected, and a voice came, "Hello, this is Uma Thurman." This familiar voice awakened Hugo from all his thoughts, and Hugo was all over. As if electrified, the chaos in his head gradually came to his senses.

The shadows of Sam and Maggie in his mind slowly disappeared, and the silhouettes of himself and Uma slowly appeared, which finally made Hugo's overheated brain gradually cool down. He actually dialed Uma’s phone number. Hugo rubbed his tingling temple. He didn’t expect such a thing to come, and he didn’t even know that he should be after the call was made. say something.

For a moment, Hugo wanted to hang up the phone, but before he took any action, he spoke first, "Give me a reason." Hugo didn't know if it was Sam talking or asking questions, but After the words were spoken, Hugo calmed down instead, because he really needed an answer. He just sat quietly next to the ‘bed’side table, holding the receiver, waiting for an answer to appear, or for a real end.

After Uma picked up the phone, there was no one talking for a long time. She thought it was a prank, especially when the receiver could only hear the other person's breathing, which became more and more weird in the middle of the night. But just before she was about to hang up, a voice came from the receiver, "Give me a reason." Although the other party didn't say the name, she knew who it was. How could she forget this voice.

In fact, this is the first contact in 33 days since Hugo asked Uma to leave. The two people were like complete strangers before, without any ‘intersection’.

The two people had no real sense of "exchange", neither side explained any details; the two people did not really say "break up", as if all the relationship was still maintained as before; the two people did not act like a couple. The reason for breaking up was quarreling, everything was buried quietly... everything was so peaceful until today.

Hugo wanted a reason.

Everything before was very normal, even perfect. Whether it was the first half of the New Year’s Eve or the three-week vacation of two people in Malibu, everything developed very smoothly. The details and happiness of the "lang" The time and the beautiful moments are just like the most beautiful flower, which can still be vividly remembered.

But suddenly everything changed, just because Uma participated in the audition for "Sugar Coated Trap"? Then why didn’t Uma fight? She could explain to Hugo that she was just for her career; then when Hugo asked Uma to leave, why did she leave without any hesitation or dodge, and then left without any nostalgia afterwards; So... Is everything that happened in the past false and non-existent?

Uma knew why Hugo wanted it, but she didn't want to give it to Hugo, nor could she give it to Hugo. Because she could not admit that when she first started approaching Hugo, she did use Hugo's mind. The premiere of "Yihai Xiongfeng" was the opportunity; because she could not admit that she was moved by Hugo's sincerity later, and her heart appeared. She was shaken, but when the opportunity came again, she still chose the opportunity instead of Hugo; because she could not admit that she was hurting Hugo, even if she knew the possible result, she still had no hesitation...

So Uma chose to be silent.

Both ends of the phone fell silent, and the surrounding silence made breathing sounds particularly clear. Hugo could hear the news being broadcast on the TV in Uma’s room, and Uma could also hear the staff shouting outside Hugo’s window. The voice of laughter, these trivial noises made the silence on the phone seem more secluded.

Hugo suddenly realized that, in fact, he asked why he was just useless. Uma has not contacted him for more than a month. This is Uma's answer. It is clear, but simple, and straightforward. Hugo's brain became clearer than ever.

The question is never "why" but "so". For Uma, regardless of whether it exists or not, she still chose to give up when faced with career opportunities. So what does it matter whether the process is struggling or not hesitating? For Hugo in this relationship, the trust he paid was not rewarded, and the feelings he paid did not get a response. It is as if he dialed the phone impulsively after he was too deep in the drama today, which shows his heart. Deep down still values ​​this relationship, but so what?

The details of the process are no longer necessary, and this is the result. It's like after the breakup, the ‘female’ asked the man why the vows of the alliance did not count, because the love was over, and all the vows naturally did not count. It couldn’t be simpler. Uma's silence, like the silence of the past 33 days, is the answer.

Hugo closed his eyes and let out a long sigh, as if he wanted to pour out all the toxins and turbidity in his heart. The depression of the past month finally broke out under the leadership of "Sam" today, and then it was just like this. Vented out. Afterwards, a smile was drawn from the corner of Hugo's mouth, with irony and at the same time a comforting smile.

Ironically, this so-called relationship ended in vain; the good news is that at least there was a happy moment.

Hugo decided to let go, not to let Uma go, but to let himself go. He didn't want to entangle the past stupidly. Only letting go of the past can we look to the future. Just like Sam, who has been indulging in the memory of his wife Maggie, he has no way to take a step forward. Even if he continues to live, his soul always stays in the past. Only when Sam really puts it down, he In order to start living again, Annie is his future. Hugo decided to do the same.

Hugo's brain, which looked like a volcanic eruption, finally calmed down. The wound deep in his heart was reopened, and the rotten flesh and pus were removed. Although he was still bleeding slowly, it was faint. The pain is no longer fatal, but can keep Hugo awake.

"Remember? I said I wanted to play the guitar for you..." Hugo finally broke the silence~www.readwn.com~ There seemed to be a century of silence between the two. , Just sat quietly on both ends of the phone, and then Hugo spoke up. However, Uma did not expect that Hugo’s second sentence would be this.

Uma's heart suddenly shrank because of Hugo's words. When did he say these words? There was only ‘chaotic’ and ‘chaotic’ thoughts in her mind. It was difficult to find a clear clue. After a long time, Uma remembered it. At the Sidney’s party on New Year’s Eve, when she danced with Hugo, Hugo stepped on her because she could not dance, and finally agreed to play the guitar as compensation. Unexpectedly, Hugo actually remembered it, but it took her a lot of time to remember it. It's just now, it seems like a lifetime.

Hugo held the receiver and waited for a while. There was still silence, only the music of the news on the TV. This time, Hugo did not wait any longer. He just shook the microphone for a while, and then hung up the phone. .

Uma listened to the busy tone of "toot toot" on the phone. She didn't know why she remembered the slow four steps of New Year's Eve. Hugo's jerky and clumsy dance steps made him remember to sweat, but for her own sake. , Still working tirelessly, Hugo's focused and sincere eyes suddenly appeared in front of her.

Hugo looked at the silent phone call in the night's ‘color’, and he told himself: This should be a full stop.