Say Yes To Making Bad Games, What the Hell is Titanfall?

  Chapter 186 In my memory, it's all about you

  Why did John go to the moon?

   Mencius didn’t know, Confucius didn’t know, and Lao Tzu didn’t know either!

  As a result, players had to go back to a longer timeline, or find out the purpose of the old man who wanted to go to the moon, or implant him with psychological hints of "going to the moon" when he was a child.

  So, in the timeline where John was old.

   The matter of "going to the moon" has become a matter of course.

  And for this, they need a "memory fragment", that is, a prop that brings back memories to realize the timeline regression.

   "A memory fragment? All I have is this..."

   While talking, Old John picked up an umbrella from the bench and handed it to the two of them.

   "This thing..."

  The anchor of the alliance area, Macha Chong, took the umbrella handed by Old John, a little skeptical:

   "Can this also be used as a memory fragment?"

   Talking.

  The horse fork bug presses the handle.

  嗡—

   With the vibration of the handle, he opened the umbrella in the game.

   Immediately afterwards, a white light flashed, and time went back.

  …

  【Two years ago, Xiaoxi just died of illness not long ago】

  After the picture returned to normal again, the umbrella returned to Old John.

   At this time, the time moved forward a little, and it was drizzling.

  Old John was standing by the lighthouse, holding an umbrella.

   To be more precise, it is holding an umbrella for the tombstone.

  The surface of his umbrella is tilted towards the tombstone, as if to avoid rainwater on the tombstone.

  Although most of his body was already wet, he didn't realize it and just muttered to himself.

  With the quiet and slightly sad sound of the piano, Old John's voice seemed a little hoarse:

   "It's all over... Creek."

   "Now, I can take care of her like you...she will never be alone again."

   "Perhaps... I will never understand, but I will always be true to your wish."

   "Anja will also be grateful to you..."

   "But when I leave too"

   "Who will take care of us..."

   Speaking of this, Old John, who was bowed and looked sad and haggard, sighed.

  The rain was pattering, hitting his umbrella, making a rhythmic ticking sound.

   Seeing this, the horse fork went up and came to Old John:

   "Is this... your lover?"

   "Who are you?" Due to time jumping forward, Old John at this time still didn't recognize him at all, let alone the matter of 'life reconstruction'.

   "My name is Lao Sao," said the horse forkworm, "I'm a passing doctor."

"oh…"

  Old John nodded, not because of it, but continued to look at the tombstone, feeling lost:

   "She shouldn't have died here, I mean she shouldn't have..."

   "...forget it...you won't understand..."

   "Because even I sometimes can't understand her..."

  Riddler-like questions linger in the hearts of all the viewers in the Machaworm and the live broadcast room—

  What the **** does Old John mean? What does 'she could have done otherwise' mean? What does 'doing this' mean?

   Moreover, before Lao Sao talked to him, who was the [Anya] that Old John muttered to himself?

  The layers of nested mysteries and the feeling of unraveling made everyone fully involved, and there was a heated discussion—

  ‘What does Old John mean? It shouldn't be buried here, does it mean that Xiaoxi shouldn't be buried here? '

  ‘Then where should it be buried? '

  ‘No, I think the old man meant that Xiaoxi shouldn’t have died’

   ‘Hiss—’

  'Damn it! '

  'Is that... related to 【An Ya】? '

  ‘【An Ya】Who is it? their child? '

  ‘The old couple has no children, didn’t you see the old John who was taken care of by the nanny at the end?’

  ‘According to what Old John said, they all know this [Anya], and he is someone Xiaoxi cares about very much’

  ‘Tsk, interesting, this game, Lao Sao has to clear the level today, otherwise I won’t be able to sleep all night’

'Seconded! '

  ‘+1+1+1…’

   Seeing the encouragement from the audience, Macha Chong also nodded again and again:

   "Okay, okay, let's clear it no matter what time it is today, or I won't be able to sleep without mentioning you..."

   While talking!

  The horse fork bug is looking for new clues nearby.

   And at the top of the lighthouse, he found a familiar object—

   Plush platypus doll.

  A white light flashed, and time went back again.

  …

  【A few years ago, when Xiaoxi was dying】

   This is the first time players see Xiaoxi, John's wife, who has orange-red hair.

  At this time, John has not moved into the house by the sea.

  He is still wholeheartedly guarding the dying creek.

   And the platypus was in the arms of Xiaoxi.

  The ground is still full of paper rabbits.

   "...is enough,"

   "Even if you paid the surgery fee, the remaining money is more than enough, don't worry..."

   While talking, John tucked the blanket for the creek.

"White lie."

  Xiaoxi inexplicably popped out a sentence:

   "...That's what I said."

"alright-"

  John seemed to show a comforting smile, telling Xiaoxi not to think about it:

   "The money must be enough..."

   "Okay." Xiaoxi interrupted him: "I don't like you lying, and I don't want to violate my beliefs."

   "But we need that money to treat your illness..."

  John's voice was low, and seemed to be filled with incomprehensible pain:

   "I understand Anya is important to you, but...but you've gone too far...she's not even..."

   "Do you know what makes me happy, John?"

  Suddenly, Xiaoxi turned his head and looked at John.

"…What?"

   "You know that?"

   "..."

  Seeing that John was silent for a while, Xiaoxi seemed to be depressed.

  “…I won’t agree to treatment, we just keep the money…”

   "But if you agree with my ideals, fix that house...and take good care of Anya for me."

   There was a moment of silence.

   "John?" Xiaoxi's voice sounded again.

"Um?"

   "I made this..."

   As he spoke, Xiaoxi pulled his frail hand out of the quilt.

  Hand John the paper bunny with the yellow belly.

   "Hey! Isn't this the one we found on the lighthouse before!"

  The horse fork bug's eyes lit up:

   "Oh—so these paper bunnies are all made by creeks?"

   So, what is the meaning?

   Lao Sao felt that he seemed to have found a clue, but it was not very clear, so he continued to read—

   "What is this?" Xiaoxi asked John holding up a yellow and blue paper rabbit.

  John scratched his head: "Uh... what is it?"

   "I want you to tell me what this is."

  Xiaoxi asked somewhat paranoidly, as if expecting something.

   "A... paper bunny, like any other bunny you fold."

  John doesn't know why.

"anything else?"

   "Uh... made of paper?"

"anything else?"

   "Its belly is yellow and the rest of it is blue."

   "Exactly! What else?!"

  Hearing this, Xiaoxi seemed to get excited and asked.

"Well…"

  However, John couldn't say anything anymore, scratching his head, puzzled, so he simply changed the topic:

   "By the way, I wrote you a piece of music, let me play it for you."

   "The name of this song is "ForRiver""

   "...What an old-fashioned name." Xiaoxi teased with a chuckle.

  As the soft piano music sounded, the bug frowned involuntarily.

   "I feel that Xiaoxi's words don't seem right?"

   Heard the words!

  The audience also agreed—

  ‘I’m not cursing, but I think there is something wrong with Xiaoxi’

   ‘Yeah, it feels like… a little Riddler’

   'I thought at first those paper bunnies were to stave off Alzheimer's (orz)'

  'She seems to want to express something through these things'

  ‘Yes, she seems to be unable to speak, but she has been guiding John to say’

  ‘But John doesn’t understand either, it’s… weird…’

   'Like my girlfriend...'

  ‘Aphasia? '

  ‘Isn’t aphasia directly dumb? '

  ‘Autism? '

  ‘Isn’t autism not directly not communicating with others? '

  'I don't quite understand, let's quickly push down the plot or...'

  Lao Sao didn't understand what was going on.

  So I started looking for memory fragments, and moved the timeline forward.

  …

   And at the same time.

  In the apartment.

   "Do you remember this passage? You and I talked about it for a long time."

   Shen Miaomiao and Gu Sheng, who were covered with a small blanket, were leg-to-leg, each occupying one side of the sofa and lying comfortably watching the live broadcast.

  Seeing this, Shen Miaomiao remembered that she was dazzled by this project during the production.

   "Is it difficult? Is it okay? This paragraph is to explain Xiaoxi's illness..."

good!

   As the players perceive.

  Xiaoxi did suffer from congenital heart disease.

  【Asperger Syndrome】

  This is an autistic spectrum disorder characterized by social difficulties, along with narrowed interests and repetitive specific behaviors, but relatively preserved language and cognitive development compared to other autistic spectrum disorders.

   To put it bluntly, it means being able to speak, being able to speak, but unable to correctly express what one thinks in one's mind, and unable to socialize normally.

  A person suffering from this disease is like a lonely boat on the ocean.

   They watched the other ships from afar, but could not understand the other ships.

  The same, other ships can only watch them from a distance.

  In the process of going back in time, John's friends will confirm this.

  In addition to this, there is another player's conjecture that will be confirmed—Xiaoxi really didn't deserve to die.

  At least, she shouldn't leave John alone.

  At that time, the beams of the house by the sea had just been erected, but unexpectedly Xiaoxi was found to be terminally ill.

  Thus, "building a house by the sea" and "continuing the life of the creek" became a multiple-choice question that tormented John.

  Actually, there is nothing to hesitate about. Facing Xiaoxi who is terminally ill, he naturally wants to stop working on the house and try his best to treat Xiaoxi and prolong his life.

   But the problem is, Xiaoxi insists on building a house.

   In the end, the result was obvious—Xiaoxi gave up treatment in exchange for a house by the sea.

  But why would Xiaoxi prefer to give up his life, but also paranoidly let John build the house?

   The players don't know.

  In addition to this, there is a bigger mystery that follows—

   Going back in time, John and Xiaoxi got married not long ago.

  One day by chance, under the instigation of his friend, John confessed something to Xiaoxi.

  He said that the reason why he pursued her at the beginning was simply because he felt that she was different, that she was withdrawn and cold, like a water lily blooming alone.

  Originally, this was just an innocuous little topic between husband and wife.

   After all, John's love for the stream must have been richer at this time.

But.

  Since that day, Xiaoxi has become paranoid, and started desperately origami rabbits, asking John over and over again:

   "See that rabbit? Tell me about it?"

   "See that rabbit? Tell me about it?"

   "See that rabbit? Tell me about it?"

   Take the trouble, as if wanting to remind John something.

   One day, two days, three days.

  One year, two years, three years.

   Ten years, decades.

  Even when she was terminally ill and dying, she kept reminding John.

  Full half of life.

  Shen Miaomiao still remembered that she was so shocked by this episode that she was speechless for a long time!

   That's half a lifetime!

  Xiaoxi has folded the paper rabbit for half his life, what exactly does he want to remind John?

  And in this half of his life, why did John answer countless times, but none of them were the correct answers, and they couldn't satisfy Xiaoxi?

  What exactly does that paper rabbit mean?

  What exactly is the answer that Xiaoxi wants?

   And amidst great doubts!

   With a flash of white light, time continues to move forward.

  …

   "Hey! It's lively enough!"

   Go back in time.

   This time, A Yin found that they had come to a grassland.

  Not far away is the sea, and the lighthouse also looks extraordinarily dreamy under the moonlight.

  The grass was full of voices and laughter.

  Various bouquets of colored lights surrounded the tables and chairs, and guests and friends chatted and laughed with champagne.

   "It's a... outdoor wedding?!"

   After looking at it for a moment, A Yin understood the time node they were in now.

   It looks like they're flashbacks to John and Brook's wedding day.

  The wedding at this moment has come to an end.

  Perhaps because of Xiaoxi's autism, the two wedding protagonists were not present at the moment.

  A Yin is the two people found under the lighthouse.

  “…does it feel different now?”

  The creek leans against the lighthouse and looks at John.

   "Of course we exchanged rings, didn't we?"

  John also looked at the stream, his tone full of tenderness.

  However, Xiaoxi shook his head:

   "No, I mean she..."

   As he spoke, Xiaoxi pointed to the lighthouse behind him:

   "What do you think of Anya?"

   As soon as this remark comes out!

  All the audience in the live broadcast room straightened up!

   all exclaimed—

  'Damn it! Anya! lighthouse? ! '

  ‘So this lighthouse is called Anya! '

  'Hiss—I seem to understand'

  ‘Xiaoxi knew that she was terminally ill, and the lighthouse was a witness of her love with John, so she gave up the treatment and let John continue to build houses here to guard the lighthouse? '

  ‘A bit far-fetched, right? Witnessing life for a love? '

  ‘Also...seems a bit illogical’

  ‘Tsk, this game is a bit awesome, other games are more advanced and the mystery is less, this game is more advanced’

  ‘The work of the old thief, it’s normal, how can he be willing if he doesn’t torture you? '

  ‘Go on and push forward then…’

  Following the barrage discussion, I heard John say:

   "Let's go dance on the top!"

  The creek looks a bit cramped:

   "Uh...but I won't..."

   "It's okay! I'll teach you!"

   While talking, John stood up and took Xiaoxi's hand.

  The two ran all the way to the top of the lighthouse, and the bright yellow lights lit up on the top of the lighthouse, like another round of bright moon in the night sky.

   In the distance, the waves are rippling.

  In the lighthouse, the light and shadow are warm.

  Seeing this, the players were a little moved.

  Although, Old John didn't know why Xiaoxi valued this lighthouse so much.

  But he still chose to take care of this lighthouse named "Anya" carefully for half his life.

  From the glory and brightness of the past to the abandoned and dilapidated after the passage of time.

  John never left an inch.

   Like his love for the brook.

  Because of your illness, I may not understand what you are talking about, but I am still willing to listen to you with my utmost patience.

  It was so, it is so now, and it will always be so.

because I love you.

  From the beginning to the present, it has never changed.

  Although my dying wish is to go to the moon, it is strange to say.

   In my memory.

   It's all you.

   Accompanied by the soft "ForRiver" piano.

  Among the lights, the two danced clumsily, and soft laughter wafted from the lighthouse.

  Like a boat full of love, shining with warm light in the sea of ​​stars.

  The mottled memories that have been sealed in the long river of time are reopened.

  The romance and beauty like a lingering stream infects every witness

  As time goes back scene by scene, the two people's journey from acquaintance to acquaintance, and then to love each other, every bit, bit by bit, has melted into the fragments of memories!

  Under the witness of the pastor, they interlocked their fingers and promised each other that they would always be loyal to each other regardless of life, old age, sickness or death.

  Among the noise of the breeze, they rode cheerful horses, galloping indulgently in the racecourse, leaving laughter all the way.

  In the crowded movie theater, they were a little shy, but they sat side by side.

  Yes, from youth, to middle age, to dying of illness.

  From meeting, to getting to know each other, to falling in love and saying goodbye.

  Life is so short, so short that I have no time to love you better, so I can only watch with this lighthouse.

  Life is so long, so long that I sit in front of your tombstone day and night, waiting for the difficult day and night.

   Backtracking again and again, time moves forward again and again.

   And the magic is that it is different from the previous backtracking.

  In the several backtrackings during the two people's love, the players used the same item——

   That ugly plush platypus doll!

Yes!

  And all the memories about the two of them were traced back with that ugly platypus doll!

   That platypus has been with Xiaoxi for a lifetime like this, never leaving her arms.

   Even, when John first worked up the courage to ask Xiaoxi to watch a movie.

  Beside her, there is also that ugly platypus doll.

However!

  When they still want to continue backtracking!

  The unexpected happened—

  As the backtracking white light gradually dimmed, I saw two doctors standing in a broken chaotic spot!

  Old John's memory came to an abrupt end?

  (end of this chapter)