Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

At that moment, he vaguely returned to "reality". He saw that within a few seconds, his body became the same as the soaking solution, and saw the figure of "Dr. Ruan Li" standing outside the container. The semi-permeable wall of the container has more information in just a few seconds than he meant. Too much he wanted to remember all, but the collapse came so quickly and so violently that there was no room for it.

He fell into the darkness again, a deep fear and despair pinched his heart, he had never experienced such emotions like this.

Do patients with advanced doomsday syndrome fall into the abyss with such feelings? Does every patient with syndrome have such a sober experience of all this? It must be, because this feeling is like a burst of instinct when life is alienated and withered. Even if the mind becomes a lunatic and enters the surplus, there is absolutely no way to escape this kind of feedback like the end of the world.

Fall, fall, no ladder, no place for hands, at the moment of falling the cliff, even the cliff itself disappeared, all you can realize is only a boundless darkness.

Turning into l, for the prostitute Gao Chuan, is almost a declaration of a broken dream. It seems that in this fall, countless Gaochuan's previous efforts, any plans he has made, the tasks he is performing, and his own way forward have been completely annihilated into meaningless blanks.

What a fear, despair, no one can save himself, and he can never save others.

The prosthetic body Gao Chuan couldn't make a sound, there was only such a thought in his mind-why? Why did it happen at this time? Although I was prepared for such a possibility, but when the facts happened. He still couldn't ignore the surging sadness, pain and sinking. He questioned everything, but found that there was nothing he could question at all, as if this were destiny, a cruel sense of destiny. Swallow him instantly.

No matter how much you do. Imagine how good and hard it is, but fate teases people at the moment of seeing the end. Everything is wiped out.

why? why? why? There are so many reasons, but there is only a pale answer——

Not why, it is so developed, like the script already doomed.

When the prosthetic body Gaochuan could make a sound, he had lost his sense of time. And when he heard his wailing, he couldn't believe it, he was still alive, or rather, his personality. It's not over yet. He couldn't recall any situation in which he fell in the dark. However, he knew very well that what he realized was that "Gao Chuan" became l in reality, not an illusion.

He almost forgot when he fell in the dark. That kind of emotion swarming, but that is not because those negative feelings have been eliminated, but because they are too much, almost blocking all emotional channels. He felt that he had become extremely dull, and the prosthetic body seemed to be rusty. He was at a loss as to what accumulated in his mind.

This is an experience never seen before.

Although he has always been mentally prepared, when Gaochuan re-logged into Doomsday Realm, the body of "Gaochuan" was on the verge of collapse, and the "hospital" had emphasized that any emergency measures after that could only fight luck. However, when the worst result came, he still felt too sudden, too unexpected, and too outdated.

The prosthetic body Gao Chuan raised his hand tremblingly. The fear and pain, I don't know when it has subsided, but there is only such a thought in his mind-what a joke!

"Gao Chuan" died in a physiological sense and became a patient with doomsday syndrome of l. In terms of physiology, it is no longer a human being. The so-called "alive" only refers to the theoretical "personality floating in l" Status only. There is no precedent that can be recovered from l. Basically, for "hospitals", patients with doomsday syndrome who become l are equivalent to giving up by default.

Have you become like this? Now that I am, like other people here, is it just a projection of my personality floating in the sea? Have you fully integrated into the illusion of doomsday and become a member of this world? The prosthetic body Gaochuan is somewhat at a loss, obviously the worst has happened in "reality", but it does not seem to have any impact on the way of existence in the illusion of doomsday.

The prosthetic body is still the prosthetic body, and there is nothing wrong with the brain hardware. The gears that make up our own existence are rotating as usual, biting, working, without any slack, no dullness. The feeling of weakness and dullness is like surging from the inner, deeper and more essential places.

Prostitute Gao Chuan wanted to concentrate, but a strong sense of emptiness seemed to penetrate the body and soul, making him feel light and flirty, without any real sense. He didn't shake his head hard until he realized that someone was shaking himself, trying to focus his vision.

Then he saw a gloomy scene-Sakuya, who was transformed into the Ashbringer, could not make a sound, and could only shake him hard; Gregia was paralyzed on the ground, and the ground was wet; Jinjiang barely supported the instrument on the side, using He looked at him with a strange look.

It was a dismal scene, he could not remember any process about this scene, but on the retina screen, the process had already begun to be played back, like dragging him and not letting him escape. This scene hasn't been finished yet. He's already affirmed, neither himself nor everyone else, all the pain he suffered was brought by "Jiang", and the "virus" lurking in Gaochuan's body was finally completed. A stage of change. The impact of this change is so strong that even his own body, the super lace and the seal laid by Super Dorothy cannot be completely isolated.

In a garbled retina screen, the prosthetic body Gaochuan saw his self-image after self-examination. The external outline and appearance did not change due to the impact of the soul, but only the left eye has completely become Crimson-how to describe this crimson? It is not transparent at all, nor warm, but rather turbid, making people feel extremely dirty. It makes people feel that the ingredients that make up this color are so complicated that they can't be distinguished. It's like going to the heavily polluted water channel and seeing the dark and gorgeous water colors, under the gorgeous, is fatal pollution.

Not only that, this piece is dark red. Whenever it turns. A flash of brilliance is often evoked, like a burning tail flame.

It is burning.

Flames like hell.

Prostitute Gao Chuan felt sick. For the first time, he had such a strong feeling that he wanted to dig out this eyeball. Toss far away. Because of it, I have lost too much, because of it, I seem to have completely lost all hope. For "Gaochuan", what is more desperate than becoming "l" in "reality"? The prostitute Gao Chuan couldn't think of it. What he knew was that being able to maintain shape in "reality" was the most basic condition for carrying out any plan.

He always had a sense of urgency because it was unclear. When will I lose this foundation. And now. Everything may be irreversible.

Even at this time, he still uses the vague descriptions of "probably", "seems", and "may", not that he thinks there is any chance. But only, this is the only way he can see the light in this extremely deep darkness. He could not express his mood at this time, he could experience the mood of any people who committed suicide because of despair. Even so, he still couldn't fall down because—

Misaki helped him up.

He, in the end, stood still with the help of the girl.

Because he can stand up, he ca n’t fall down-such a will has almost become the instinct of "Gaochuan". He has been asked like this in all the times that the prosthetic body Gaochuan can recall. They were asked, supported, and transformed. The most important people in Gaochuan's life are women, and only Gaochuan is a man. Therefore, as the only man in this group, he must have the hardest will and responsibility.

No one can expect to be rescued, "Gao Chuan" cannot.

No one can escape suffering, "Gao Chuan" cannot.

"Gao Chuan" must be someone who saves others, must overcome the pain, and must be able to rely on others.

In the unknown how many times of pain, torture, sorrow and failure, such a belief has been imprinted into his spinal cord.

Therefore, as long as you can still stand, no, even if there is still the power to climb, you must not fall down peacefully.

Can't escape! Can't escape! Can't escape!

The sound, in the depths of the most desperate silt, came out like a ghost.

"I must cheer up!" Such thoughts suddenly appeared, like electric currents, penetrating every nerve of him, and once again let his spine have a straight force. He looked around at everyone here—Saki Ye, Omi, Gregya—he raised his eyes as if he saw more people—Eight Scenery, Marceau, Color, Dorothy ... Everyone is the object he has been struggling to save.

Before myself ... The prostitute Gao Chuan thought, before himself, there have been more "Gao Chuan" who have paid a lot for this wish. If such a payment is interrupted by myself, what is the point? ? What is the meaning of your birth and existence?

Doesn't it make sense to make a desperate effort? This kind of question, the righteous body Gaochuan, has not had its own answer until now-sometimes, giving itself is a kind of meaning.

If the hero's wish is to give everything for himself, then no matter how miserable and desperate, the hero should not fall here!

absolute! No! People who are saved by themselves, see their despair and fall!

Prostitute Gao Chuan pushed away Sakuya, he knew how stiff his expression and movements were; he knew that there were too many questions to be answered by himself, but he could not answer; he knew that the future he saw How dark, but can not let others know this darkness. He must bear all this by himself.

"If this is the price to become a hero--" Yichuan Gaochuan suddenly said softly to himself, and the sound was so soft that even Sakuya, who was close by, did not hear clearly, "I am willing to bear."

"Achuan ..." Sakuya's Ashbringer quickly faded, as if he had been overwhelmed, and could no longer support the Ashbringer's transformation.

"I'm fine, how about you?" The prosthetic body Gao Chuan replied coldly. He inspected the expressions of Saya, Gregia, and Omi. The garbled state of the brain hardware had not returned to normal. However, his brain has started working again.

Misaki didn't think that the man in front of her really had nothing at all, but she couldn't open her mouth to ask the man, what happened? She is very clear. What kind of person is Gao Chuan. although. The current Gaochuan seems to be completely different from Gaochuan in the past, but the essence is still the same-Gaochuan. It is absolutely not open to complain and explain things that others cannot bear and cannot solve. Therefore, if Gao Chuan does not speak, then it must be something that these people have listened to, and can only do nothing at all-Sakuya is willing to believe that this is the truth.

I couldn't do more for Gao Chuan. This is something Sakuya has always been cherishing. But what is the solution? What cannot be done is not possible. If you ca n’t do it anyway, you can only believe the person who “perseveres that you can do it”.

Such she is so in love with such Gaochuan. She couldn't imagine that there was no day when Gao Chuan was around.

Miyaki stared into the eyes of the prostitute Gao Chuan. She naturally saw the abnormality in the man ’s left eye, but she did n’t say much, what she wanted to do, what she could do, she had already made it clear — I ’m by your side, no matter when Where to stay by your side and watch you, this is the only thing I can do.

"Hair, what happened?" Gregia finally recovered, she could barely concentrate on her wet pants, and murmured incredulously: "Gaochuan, in the end ... you in the end ..."

"Except for one problem, I have said before that a powerful conscious walker moved his foot in my consciousness, and was rejected by me on the other side." Yichuan Gaochuan repeated the old excuse, "You treat me as myself A wall was cast in my consciousness, and even I could n’t get past the other end of the wall, and the other party could n’t come over. But, just now, that guy, he made a big hole in the wall, and I was almost eroded. . "

"That's it?" When Gregea couldn't turn her mind, Jin Jiang, who was in better condition, pressed her chest and looked a little bad, but stared with interest at Gao Chuan. She was not eroded by fear at all, but the prostitute Gao Chuan felt that this should be the case. At first, he thought that it was possible for Jinjiang to be a kind of personality expression of "Jiang", but at this time, such an idea was slightly deviated.

If Jinjiang is really part of the "Jiang", then during the explosive impact just now, Jinjiang should be greatly affected, or it should have no impact. Let the righteous body Gao Chuan feel that his understanding of the strange existence in front of him is not completely correct.

"That's it." Takagawa's voice was softened a little bit. The previous coldness was just because of emotions, but he didn't want to make the current stiff enough atmosphere dry out, "It's okay, Greg Ya, do n’t worry, it ’s just a small mistake, you ’re just taken aback, and it ’s not a matter of life and death, is it? ”He said to Gregia, who was finally relieved.

Gregia took a few deep breaths, and suddenly felt that her crotch was wet. Then she realized what embarrassment and shame had happened to her. She stared at the wet clam, still dripping the crotch, just felt Her face was burning, and the flames seemed to turn her brain into steam.

She wanted to do something, but there was no tool at hand to recover or cover up this tragic situation. Such embarrassment and shame made her almost forget about her previous questioning. For a long while, she raised her head and said to Jin Jiang, who was still rational and indifferent, "Is there any changed clothes?"

"Follow up." Jin Jiang nodded and continued on without further ado. "Don't engage in such a mess again. Mr. Gao Chuan, a whisperer, it is not a gentleman's act to embarrass women."

"It was just an accident ~ www.readwn.com ~ The prosthetic body Gaochuan also gave Gregia an apologetic glance. The other party almost turned his eyes and immediately turned his eyes, and his face was constipated.

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I looked at the gray sky in the night of Valpus. I feel that some kind of change is happening, not only because of a very large negative emotion that swept toward me from a place that seemed far away and seemingly close, but because of this feeling of change , To make the "body" feeling more substantial-in this world of consciousness, I am tangible, but the real sense of the real body is not just looking tangible. I know very well that so far, I am still a ghost wandering in the ideological world, not even an independent personality, but only a tumor attached to another Gaochuan personality.

However, at this moment, this indescribable feeling seems to tell me that everything will change.

I feel that I am going out and returning to the normal world of materialization. Such changes must be brought about by "Jiang". Therefore, in any case, it cannot be a completely good thing.

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