Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Is the so-called "understanding" just an illusion? Is understanding and understanding of others just an illusion? Is the study of the nature of the world just a joke? I don't think so. How can I trust someone who doesn't understand myself? If we don't take a scientific approach to dissect the world, how can we make progress? To me, "understanding" may always be one-sided before a certain stage arrives, but that must not be an illusion. Update

I try to understand the reasons why things happen and change, and try to find explanations for these reasons. Perhaps these explanations will be simple and naive. It is funny, but without such a simple and naive starting point, a deeper understanding is even more. Nowhere to talk.

I hope that I can understand some things that surround me and the impact between these things. This is not because I lack trust, but only because I want to do better, and I want to change everything I care about. Better.

Therefore, even if it is only one-sided, childish, and "understanding" that seems like a joke, I hope to do it, and go deeper here, and then really dig the truth of things, so that I can protect myself in a better way The ones they love ...

——The question is, do you think a better way is needed for them?

"They are not gods, they will also have mistakes and omissions. If possible, I hope to make up for the evil consequences of all these mistakes and omissions."

-Sure enough, "Gaochuan" can never be persuaded. "Gaochuan" always has its own opinions and guidelines. Then ... the other me, just do what you think, because, you may not be right, but it is not necessarily wrong ... if you die, your ... thinking and experience will definitely ... become new The nutrients of Gaochuan ...

"Yes, just like me in the past, made me now, and now me. I will definitely make me in the future." I answered him this way, "I can't conclude that I am right, but like you said , I do n’t think that what I think and do is wrong. And this stubbornness and thinking. It is the foundation that can truly allow 'Gaochuan' to be passed on from generation to generation. "

Looking at the endless dark void, I feel more and more that a hunch of "failure" and "death" is eroding myself. Of course, I understand that I have been in an extremely cruel, fragile, and extremely contradictory environment, and I may have been too late to do everything I want to do and prove.

Everything that has happened is like an undercurrent that can't be seen clearly. It also surged forward at an unexpected rate.

If possible, I hope that all this will stop and let me see clearly. However, its progress is not driven by me, or that my participation is only a trivial factor.

Because, I am at this time. It is a truly complete Gao Chuan, but in the life of "Gao Chuan", it is just a fragment of memory loss.

I understand that I am not complete. And the reason why I want to become super Gaochuan and become the ultimate hero. Is it because you are not a hero? Now I am full of flaws, not just memories. Is there something deeper, perhaps belief? Maybe it's spirit? Perhaps it is power? It is also possible that what I insist on now is not wrong, and now I am not so bad, and there is no lack of qualifications to go to the end, but maybe it should be described as outdated?

There are no answers to these questions, because, compared to the difficulty of understanding others, I think understanding is the most difficult thing.

So I don't understand, what is wrong in the end, so I have a hunch of "failure" and "death". I tried so hard to move in the direction I expected. I was so strong that I wanted to be the last Gaochuan, but I always felt a little helpless.

There is even an idea that "even if the cause can be found, it can no longer be compensated."

Analysing yourself according to psychology can give you a simple answer: This is because you have understood deeply in the conversation with another "Gaochuan"-the reason for all this is probably because of the deep memory information before The fusion not only made Erzhou Makagawa become the current Gaochuan, but also made the current Gaochuan stereotyped.

No matter how much information comes afterwards, it is very likely that no further essential transformation of the present self will be allowed. Update

Even if you understand your shortcomings, it is difficult for a molded personality consciousness to change and make up. What's more, time is so urgent, maybe there is no time for a shaping personality consciousness to be further revised.

However, as another "Gao Chuan" put it, this answer is too crude, to the point that it is unacceptable to you.

What a joke! Obviously, it should become stronger in the process of receiving deep memory information. Obviously, it should be able to strengthen its confidence after inheriting the memories of the past, but the fusion so far has made itself vulnerable. If it is said that this is because the information being fused is a kind of weak and extreme information in the past, it is the result of today. If we can reverse this in the following information fusion, then the temporary vulnerability and defects can be tolerated.

The most ridiculous thing is that when my will and power fell to the freezing point in memory, even when I felt that I was not as good as the two-week Makagawa, I thought I was stereotyped-yes, the consciousness is so strange Something, but when you think you have reached the limit, you have reached the limit.

It turned out that ...

Is such an idea the source of hunches of "failure" and "death"?

Regardless of telling yourself how to be conscious, how to take responsibility, and how to make an oath, you cannot change these things not from “confidence” but from the essence of “unconfidence”.

This kind of "unconfidence" is a side effect inevitably caused by the initial fusion of deep memory information hidden deep in the body.

Perhaps, the changes I have made now. What I realized. It did not exceed the expectations of the Super Takagawa Project.

Perhaps it is precisely because I will make such a change, and will think like this at a certain moment, it will be called "initialization Gaochuan".

My birth is not without meaning, but this meaning is not the final result, but only means the beginning of "Super Gaochuan".

The display of the brain hardware once again appears in the field of vision:

——50% progress of loading information ...

——Passive loading will stop after 60%;

——Whether to enable active loading?

——Are you sure to take the initiative to load: yn are you ready? Gao Chuan

The cursor is blinking.

I did n’t confirm, but this time, I no longer felt guilty because I did n’t confirm, because I suddenly realized that I had the right to choose. The reason why it is called "Initialization of Gaochuan" is here.

"Gao Chuan, I always know myself."

—— "Gao Chuan" always knows himself.

The auditory hallucination repeats like this.

"Gao Chuan must always make his own choice. He is not forced to make a choice."

—— Gao Chuan must always make his own choice, not be forced to make a choice.

"No understanding, no courage to try other options, just confirmation made out of fear and lack of self-confidence, meaningless."

-No understanding, no courage to try other options, just confirmation made out of fear and lack of confidence, meaningless.

So, if one day I die suddenly. Well, I hope that today ’s words can be conveyed to the next Gaochuan. Even then, it may already be "Super Gaochuan" ...

And the voice from another "Gao Chuan", that sound like auditory hallucination, seems to be the echo of my words.

"I hope……"

--I hope……

"No matter what happens, 'Gaochuan' don't give up thinking."

——No matter what happens, Gao Gao should not give up thinking.

"Maybe, the result of thinking is ridiculous."

--Maybe. The result of thinking is ridiculous.

"But thinking is not a joke in itself."

——However, thinking itself is not a joke.

"The process of thinking may make people vulnerable."

——The process of thinking may make people vulnerable.

"But the result of thinking. It will make people stronger."

——But the result of thinking will make people stronger.

Such a voice echoed in my ear and heart. At this moment I seemed to be hammered by a scorching force. This heat, this kind of calcination, seems to be smelting something tougher and intangible into this reflection that was fragmented due to the stripping of Eruka-it must also be smelted into the body that will collapse, Fragile will.

I began to feel that new power was gradually breeding in this body in this dark void.

It seems that what was once stripped out is being filled with new, more powerful things, and this power comes from these new things.

I put my arms in the dark void, I imagined that I was on a hard and cold floor, and then with this support point, I stood up again.

I struggled so hard, no matter how embarrassing, I had to stand up.

The auditory hallucination still echoed in the ear, but the tone gradually became hollow and pale.

So, I know that another "Gaochuan" is going to disappear. Maybe, it is not really disappearing, but he has to return to the deep world of body and consciousness.

Because it is me who dominates the body now, it is "initialization of Gaochuan", not "a certain Gaochuan in the past".

——Whether it is an active factor or a sleeping factor, they are important components of the human body. It is only in countless years of natural selection that they have to be more active or have to sleep temporarily for the survival and needs of "human" . But it is still undeniable that their relationship and images must be closer and more cumbersome than imagined, even if it is the sleeping factor, once peeled from the human body, it will cause irreparable images to the human body. So, how can everything that reflects the doomsday illusion of factor warfare in patients with doomsday syndrome be explained purely symbolically? Perhaps it "looks" as you understand it, but the nature of these reflections is even more complicated.

-"Jiang" is not mitochondria. It is above the human genes. Whether it is the "virus" of the active factor or the sleeping factor, it is the inducement and dominance that causes the mitochondria and other sleeping factors to mutate and make them wake up again.

——The color and Dorothy itself are patients with doomsday syndrome. Under the power of sleeping factors such as viruses and mitochondria, they can become "super color" and "super Dorothy". How can they represent the will of normal human activity factors? What?

——But what does it mean? After all, all this is too complicated to understand.

"Maybe. This is a very complicated thing, so complicated that I can never understand it, but the act of trying to understand itself. It ’s not meaningless. You did n’t know it, so I let me go according to my own ideas. Do it? And, you expect that too. Because, as long as you think, try to understand, no matter what the result is, it ’s better than not thinking and not trying to understand. ”I said loudly,“ I understand, Why am I still Gaochuan, and why did you choose to pass on the power. Instead of replacing Gaochuan and I today. Because the four attributes of trust, thinking ability, understanding and action constitute the essence of Gaochuan's personality, Our difference is only the difference in the weight of these four attributes. "I answered the auditory hallucination," You have failed, so, it can also be seen as' if it is resurrected, it does not make any sense ", because you also It has been finalized, "the guy who is standing still is not enough to be the ultimate hero", you think so. then. You who think of yourself as a loser must also want to see that, unlike you, it is not completely different, although not excellent. But what exactly can a new guy without potential have to do? "

"Whether it was Gaochuan in the past or Gaochuan in the present. It is unacceptable defective products if taken out alone, but the degree and composition of the defects are different. However, different Gaochuan must be complementary! Together, it must be more perfect than the one alone! "

...

There seemed to be pleasant laughter, but I could not hear it at all.

Although aware of their limits, so that they have a certain limit. But, at least at this moment, I did not reach that limit. I can still think and fight, then, at the last moment, before the ultimate limit comes, let me think, let me fight!

Let me, now Gao Chuan, do as I think!

Not good enough to create limits, and I do n’t want to be like this myself.

But life is like that, and it makes no sense to be unfair to everyone.

Even so, I will continue to move forward until it is bright.

I bowed my head in silence but I was firm. I would step on the thorny thorn in front of you in different ways.

"I'm Gao Chuan! I'm Gao Chuan! I'm Gao Chuan!" I roared loudly, finally leaning on my knees, standing on this dark void with only one pair of legs.

I just stood so trembling, standing silently after roaring, maybe small, maybe smiling, but as long as I can stand up, I will never give in to my own fragility.

I have only one kind of roar. I want to let all "Gaochuan", whether in the past or in the future, know that no matter how rough my life is, I am proud to live.

The dark void world, which had been slowed down by the appearance of another "Gao Chuan", became vivid again and sharpened.

At the moment when everything returned to normal, the huge magic array formed by the eyeballs had been completely formed.

And this is a more magical array of "eye" shape. The dark void began to shake, as if a piece of transparent land was breaking.

Just when Super Dorothy's super cannon completely left the display screen, the dark void where the "eye" magic array was also completely "stripped". A huge spherical dark void, because the twist of the edge distinguishes it from the surrounding dark void. The spherical dark void and the magic array of "eyes" constitute a magnificent black eyeball with crimson pupils as magnificently as the super cannon.

Compared to the volume of giant guns and eyeballs like mountains, the distance between them is like a narrow canyon.

Compared to these two behemoths, I am so small, but I am still standing without escaping. I loosened my hands on my knees and straightened my spine, watching what was about to happen.

"Am I just standing here?"

"Who would be afraid of death?"

"Who would be afraid of failure?"

"This fragile will must be transformed."

I feel that a familiar and powerful will is emerging from the body, a scorching heat is igniting my body and mind.

"I have traveled a long way."

"Maybe, this is only a small step compared to the past."

"Maybe, I am still weak and immature."

"However, I will continue to move forward, and the present me will also become the past and then the foundation of my future.

"I don't know where I can go, but at least, in this place, at this moment ..."

"Let's join together for a while."

"who am I?"

——I am Gao Chuan! The hallucinations said so.

"I am Gao Chuan!" I said so in harmony.

"So, please give me strength, the past me, and the ones I know and don't know."

"Let's make our own voice and declare our existence."

"Don't you want to see, Super Gaochuan, no, just close to the power of Super Gaochuan, does it meet our expectations?"

"Don't you want them to know that what they are doing is not completely delusional?"

In the self-torture, in the dialogue with the "past", the body that has been refined into some new material is bursting out new power. Although this body still has not fully compensated for the incompleteness after being stripped, although this force is new and weak, it is still a temporary, tough and powerful force.

Naturally ~ www.readwn.com ~ I understand that this is the power of the will, the power of the soul, the Gaochuan in the past, the Gaochuan I knew and did not know, and the present me, when facing everything in front of me It may be the first and the last time in my life. With the help of extremely special circumstances, environment and resonance, I have obtained the power closest to "Super Takagawa".

It is because of incompleteness that I have gained something new; it is because of thinking that I can be recognized; it is because of the world that can use the power of will to interfere, so I can show this power of will.

——Information loading progress 60% ...

-Reaching the critical point

——Information overflow, error! error! error!

——Temporary synchronization rate 400%

——The Gaochuan annihilation gun is ready!

——The countdown begins ...

Around me, the dark void began to twist, and a obscure outline of a rectangular shape with no specific shape was taking shape. To be continued. .