Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

.378 Cold joke (2)

Dr. Ruan Li explained the difference between himself and Dr. Ande in a calm and objective tone. It seems that it is not for people to understand themselves, but simply tells people a story that is irrelevant to her. Then, she But with a dangerous and charming smile, he said: "However, whether human society is composed of ordinary people after all, no matter how different people try to prove that they are at the top, they cannot change this reality, that is, If they were abandoned by ordinary people, they would never have a foothold anymore.

"I understand, but why do you say such things to me?" I said.

"Because I think ..." She looked at me up and down with a playful expression and said, "Now you, although different from before, are still a better listener. Sure enough, regardless of memory and personality Change, in a person, after all, there are some things that will not change. Sure enough, I still prefer the personality theory based on genetics. And you, Gao Chuan, you will never return to your child. "

She seemed to be suggesting something, but I couldn't understand it, and she didn't intend to speak more clearly. We did not go to her office until most of the people who came to dinner left — yes, her office, to check my body, did not need to go to a more professional department, use the dazzling And expensive equipment. In this regard, she said this to me:

"Anyway, even if you use those instruments, you won't get more results. Doomsday syndrome is still a terminal illness for the existing technology, and its changes are so complicated and low-level. The instruments of that degree were a long time ago. I ’ve reached the technical limit and I ca n’t make more valuable observations anymore. So, I ’m just preparing for you the drugs that have a theoretical probability to take effect. Of course, these drugs are completely untested, because the same The medicines of different types will also produce different effects on different patients. The theoretical possibility is already the best we can do so far. "

Dr. Ruan Li said so and did the same. She treated me like a cold patient, which made people feel ridiculous. After that, she started to fill out the form. The numbers and text were like aliens, and she could n’t understand how it came out. I don't know what the data is about. After doing all this, she took the medicament and needle from the incubator against the wall and prepared to give me an injection.

This process is like hanging a needle, but when hanging a needle, I have to take other medicines: there are a lot of types, both liquid and solid, in the form of pills, capsules, and even some Inhibiting drugs often used in psychotherapy. Of course, I can only do so, even if I resist, it is useless and has no advantage.

In this way, while Dr. Ruan Li was busy working for me, I asked: "The opposite **** virus factor has been observed. Is this true? What does it look like?"

Dr. Ruan Li answered the seemingly confidential question very readily: "The data has been observed, it seems that it can supplement Dr. Ander ’s theory, but that kind of theory is also very crazy anyway, so It does n’t make any sense to me. If you want to know how it looks and how it differs from normal genetic cells ... ”She looked up at me and said,“ It ’s a pity that I ca n’t do this. . "

"why?"

"Because it is such a thing. Ishu." Dr. Ruan Li said: "Although it is called a" virus ", but at this stage it is only a thing that exists only in formulas, data and theory, like a superstring. 'That. Although I don't know what Dr. Ander thinks, it seems to me that it simply cannot be called a genetic virus.'

"So what is it?" I asked.

"I don't know, since I can't directly observe it, I can't explore it essentially." Dr. Ruan Li shrugged his shoulders and said with a joke: "It's probably the existence of eleven dimensions." She said so , But he couldn't help laughing out loud.

However, I was dumbfounded. Is she telling a researcher's sneer?

"In short, it's something that is completely incomprehensible." Dr. Ruan Li said: "If you don't use Doomsday Illusion as an observation environment, you won't be able to observe it ... It's really incomprehensible. If Doomsday Illusion is just a fantasy, The data that may be obtained by relying on illusions is just an illusion. "

"However, do viruses really exist?" I said: "Because of the presence of viruses, it causes the genes in the human body to be diseased. If there is no virus at all, how is this disease born?"

"The problem is here. In theory, viruses exist, but no matter what kind of equipment we use, we can't find them. We once suspected that it has died out under its own mechanism or immune system after it caused genetic disease in the body, It is also impossible to prove this.

Among all the infections so far, there is a very interesting phenomenon, that is, the uncertainty of infection.

If the normal person is placed in the patient, he still has a certain chance that he may not be infected, and even if they are far away from these patients, it does not mean that they are necessarily safe.

If this virus is not the kind of sci-fi that can travel through space, then it can only be assumed that today's atmosphere is already full of their kind.

The probability of infection is not judged by the human health factors known today.

Dr. Ande also questioned whether there is a virus in ordinary patients, but one thing he insisted on is that there must be a virus in your body. If the virus in the ordinary patient has died out, then this in your body This kind of virus is very special-heterosexual virus factor, which is the only virus factor that has been proved by data. In addition to it, even if it borrows doomsday illusion, it ca n’t find the existence of other viruses. So, at present, we can think that Only the heterosexual viral factor in your body is the only 'mother' that can be studied. "

"If the virus died after causing genetic mutations in the body, can't it be found in patients who have just been infected with the virus?"

"It's going to ask the other way around. If the patient hasn't developed disease and has a series of symptoms of doomsday syndrome, how do we know if he is infected with the virus?" Dr. Ruan Li said: "Before the patient shows the symptoms, you simply There is no way to tell whether he has been infected, even if you continue to monitor the patient, the only thing you can observe is the change in the gene itself. "

The conversation about the virus ended soon. My only impression is that there are too many unimaginable things in this world. For example, "virus" triggers doomsday syndrome-in fact, the logic described in this sentence is reversed, because before I woke up this time, "virus" itself could not be observed at all, just People have found patients with doomsday syndrome. Therefore, based on the concept of "the disease is caused by the presence of a virus", it is derived that there is a mysterious and unknown "virus". In a sense, "virus" itself is a This assumption is only.

What is going on in this place? The “viral” assumed in theory, the “superstring” assumed in theory, the virtual reality that can only be explained by the hypothesis theory, and the “heterotropic viral factor” that can only be observed by the virtual reality environment are completely based on the hypothetical theory and Conceptually executed "Human Completion Plan", these things form a mirage-like maze, and the people here are completely lost in this terrible maze.

I do n’t want to think about it anymore. It ’s like an invisible black hole. It does n’t seem to exist, but it does. Once you get close, it will catch you in. Never ever want to leave.

I once heard, “Trying to prove the theory that ca n’t be falsified, and wandering in the ocean of formulas and endless data, just like walking in the mist, you can always see the distant place in the moment when the mist spread Landscape, but you can never know whether it is a real thing or an illusion, maybe it is the fun of science. "

At the beginning, I couldn't understand such a romantic philosophy, but now I seem to be able to understand a little bit, but that kind of romantic philosophy is changing rapidly.

I'm pretty sure that if possible, I don't want to intersect this romantic philosophy in the future.

It is a pity that this wish has not seen the chance of reaching in the near future.

The office became quiet, only hearing the sound of dripping water, and the rustling of the paper turning. I feel a little bored and find it difficult to find the topic of communication with Dr. Ruan Li to break the silence of the moment. After watching me eat a lot of drugs, Dr. Ruan Li went back to the other side of the desk to read the information. She looks very serious, and the atmosphere in the office is not entertaining topics that can be inserted. Here, once the topic involves a professional nature, it is inevitable to return to the ongoing experiment here. But I don't want to talk about "viruses" and "dooms syndrome" any more. Now as soon as I hear related terms, my stomach acid will increase dramatically.

I really do n’t want to be a mad scientist. I, who defined myself like this, suddenly remembered Omi, who claimed to be a "mad scientist" in the illusion of doomsday. If you only look at the "madness" exuded from her, it is really suitable for this place. After all, she who studies the time machine is the kind of scientist full of romantic philosophy.

Looking back now, the familiarity that was generated when I first saw her was a bit of a concern. I thought it was the influence of the "world line", but once the concept of "reality" was clarified, I couldn't help thinking. Whose "personality consciousness" is she? In my memory, there are no female friends other than them. If only a certain personality consciousness encountered under the influence of the script in the illusion of doomsday, what role did she play in the illusion of doomsday in the last script?

If the “door of destiny stone” that Xie Se said will come from her hands, what is the relationship between her and Xie Se? Was it a friend that the tie color made before becoming a super tie color? Or did it become the personality consciousness of an l-state patient who happened to intersect because of the script because of the super color system?

There is "Jiang" in her name, which makes me always think of the "heteroviral factor" code-named "Jiang" in my body, but I really can't just do "She is 'Jiang'" in the end because of this The reflection in the illusion, so I feel familiar with this conclusion. I used to guess that, but when I experienced the oppressive and aggressive sense of existence of the "heterosexual viral factor" in the real body, in the spiral ladder of conscious dream, I was almost cut off Such a guess.

The difference between Jinjiang and heterosexual viral factors is too great. Jinjiang is full of "human" breath. Although it will be considered a weirdo, "Jiang" is definitely a monster. Will the reflection of the monster become "human"?

——It will become "human".

Suddenly, the hallucinations answered.

I have become accustomed to the frequent appearance of these hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. But even if it says so, I do n’t think so.

The reflection of the monster will only be a monster-I said so in my heart.

The auditory hallucination did not argue with me. I suddenly woke up from the trance, as if accidentally taking a nap. When I woke up, there was only a quarter of the brown liquid in the medicine bottle.

It ’s just a sentence ... No, maybe, when I tried to find a topic to break the dullness and boredom in the room, I fell asleep. I was in a state of light sleep, running my thoughts at a very slow speed, so although I just thought of Omi, and produced a hallucination of a sentence, it has already spent a lot of time.

Maybe the medicine has taken effect, the body and head are heavy, but there is a down-to-earth feeling, like being pulled by gravity. . The heavy and dull feeling of the brain effectively prevented the thinking from continuing to diverge, and rescued me from the suddenly emerged thoughts, the suddenly agitated emotions, the illusions that I suddenly heard and saw.

However, I also understand that such effects may not last until when. At least, I hope to stop dreaming this evening.

"How do you feel?" Dr. Ruan Li didn't look up, but he seemed to know that I just woke up and asked me when I looked up.

"It's like hanging a few kilograms of lead blocks." I answered.

Dr. Ruan Li naturally laughed.

"Drug addicts will feel the same after they are free of drugs."

"This is no analogy." I said bitterly.

"Actually, the genes in the body used to deceive you, but now the drugs are deceiving you." Dr. Ruan Li said: "These drugs are not useful for your condition, and they will soon It will fail. "She walked out of the desk and took a large amount of medicine from the cupboard into the bag. After releasing the hanging needle for me, she handed over the bag of medicine.

"If you feel abnormal, eat it." She seemed to be talking about snacks.

"How much is it?" I asked, opened the bag and glanced inside, and confirmed again: "This amount is really amazing."

There are at least dozens of drugs in it.

"Anyway, eat until you feel comfortable, or you don't want to eat anymore. Don't care about the quantity and drug combination." She really is like saying "snacks".

"Even if it's a snack, you can diarrhea if you eat it casually?" I stared at her suspiciously.

"It's okay, the side effects they may cause in your body that are so chaotic nowadays can't make waves at all." Dr. Ruan Li chuckled and said a little badly: "If you really have side effects, you should instead Pleased, after all, in a sense, it is 'effective'. You can press and hold the door and tell the door to find me, and I will rush to you to see what is going on. "

I don't think even protesting is meaningful, but will be met with harsher cynicism, so I just shut my mouth and said nothing.

"Okay, there's no more business for you here, let's go." She said like driving away unwelcome guests.

I don't want to stay in this office anymore. It's hard to find the right topic, chat with someone who specializes in myself, and those auditory listeners are more kind.

So, I brought a big bag of medicine back to my room. Throw the bag on the table and go to the bathroom faucet to drink. I previously asked Dr. Ruan Li why there was no drinking water in the room, and the other party's answer was disgusting: "Just drink it directly at the place where you wash your hands. The water here has been purified and temperature treated, and there is no problem at all." When she deliberately asked her if she did the same, she was indifferent at all and said, "How is it possible that I will not spend the night here."

"But, isn't it not allowed to enter and exit casually here?"

"Only with the permission of Dr. Ande." She said in disappointment: "It is a pity that although I am in conflict with his ideas, he seems to trust me like ... Ah, does this old man want the old cow to eat tender? What about grass? "

Attitude is really abominable. Even though my head is a bit heavy right now ~ www.readwn.com ~ but that kind of memory is so deep that it can be recalled without special memory and thinking.

When I remembered her face at that time, I couldn't help feeling anger. She likes to use sudden changes of attitude to deepen the impression of others on her. I think she must have done it on purpose. I apply cold water to my face and look at the mirror. Before, my abnormality in the mirror should be an illusion ... no! My eyes have not changed back, my left eye is red, and it seems to be darker than before.

The grotesque breath in the bathroom that had been swept away seemed to grow quietly with the gaze of this eye.

The left eye that moved freely after walking out of the room before, after glaring at me, began to glance around indifferently.

The field of vision seems to be split into the same.

I pressed the eyeball hard with my palm, hurriedly walked out of the bathroom, turned over the medicine in the bag, opened the bottle and poured it into my mouth without hesitation.

Just as I was chewing on the pill, the computer started to sound again:

"You have an email."