Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

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Dr. Gao Chuan learned the truth of the "doom syndrome" from Dr. Ande, a kind of infectious in vivo cell malignant multiplication and mitochondrial mutation, and the collision between the new personality and the original personality based on the two mutations 'S abnormal state. The treatment and research conducted by Dr. Ande is based on the human body research "Human Completion Plan" based on this condition. Gao Chuan and the girls are all experimental subjects of this research, and Zhenjiang is more likely to be the original carrier of the pathogen , And Gao Chuan is the closest to the successful experiment. In order to take the surviving girls away from the hospital and experiment, Gao Chuan, who saw the opportunity in a series of recent accidents, decided to continue to work with the hospital in order to launch further escape plans.

(It ’s not too long, so let ’s mention the foreword first. This content is not in the billing content. Although the update is intermittent due to various reasons, please forgive me for your life. Some readers think that this intermittent update is not as good as it is, but when I started writing this article, I was already determined to complete it. Please be patient for the bored readers.)

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I have someone I want to save.

"So, I have someone to save." I said looking at the figure in the mirror, and the boy in the mirror also opened and closed his mouth, as if talking to me. I know this is an illusion, is it not me who is in the mirror? However, sometimes I stare at the childish pale face in the mirror-the face that is not completely similar to myself in my inherent cognition-will produce a sense of strangeness.

This body is not mine, no, it is wrong to say so. It's just that the original owner of this body is not me now.

Soul is different, together with personality, even memory ...

And among the people I want to save, the original owner of this face is also one of them.

When is it a habit to say this to the mirror every day? I can't remember. To be precise, I didn't remember it subconsciously. This is probably due to some kind of psychological obstacle, and I even suspect that the "doom syndrome" disease I have suffered has worsened.

Three days have passed since I learned from Dr. Ande about the "doom syndrome" and "human completion plan." These three days and the past period are two different lives for me. Especially when I knew that the world I thought was "real" was just a treatment method for manipulating memory and dreams, the shock I had suffered could not be described in words at all.

And these three days of thinking make me suspicious and think that I am really based on things like mitochondria of this body, which are produced artificially. Although it did not show up in front of Dr. Ande at that time, as time passed, emotions and thoughts seemed to be fermenting, as if the original color was mixed with excess color and became chaotic.

Since when, I think the original owner of this body-another "Gaochuan"-will come to take away this body?

Only by constantly saying "I have someone to save" to the stranger in the mirror can we calm down the restlessness in my heart.

I feel that I can fulfill this promise, "but need patience." I continued to say to myself in the mirror, as if comforting an unjust soul.

What a ridiculous act.

I unscrewed the faucet and tapped my face with cold tap water to cool the burning flame that seemed to be in my body.

After the doomsday syndrome inexplicably broke out in the original dormitory, I could clearly feel that my condition was worsening.

It is impossible to think of yourself as a kind of unreasonable beast and then killed by someone without a little panic in your heart. Although, in the mouths of Dr. Ruan Li and Dr. Ande, I am already a special case of patients with doomsday syndrome, and it is likely that antibodies have been produced in the body-they said that this may have eaten my former girlfriend "Zhenjiang" Sake.

I want to believe their words, but a voice keeps me from believing that way.

Of the patients with Doomsday Syndrome I have seen, either died or mad, and none of them are normal people. This is the final outcome of the patients. Maybe I am just a little longer than them.

The three girls still living next door to me: Misaki, Bajing and Marceau, they are also patients, don't they also participate in the treatment of Dr. Ande? Now their appearance is enough to explain many problems. There are also tie colors and Dorothy, aren't they now visible?

The girls who are truly "Gao Chuan" companions are either dead, crazy or missing. Even "Gao Chuan" himself cannot be said to be alive.

"It's cruel."

On December 26, 1998, four days before 1999—the end of the world in my false memory—you can see the staff moving the debris and cleaning the courtyard from the window. Yesterday was Christmas, but frequent accidents in the hospital caused the holiday atmosphere to be in a kind of oppressive wind and rain. Both the patients and employees felt happy.

I have to say that life in false memories has a great influence on me, and that world seems to me as real. No, it is wrong to say that, in these three days of contact with Dr. Ande, according to his statement, I was born through the role of that world. In this way, the world is like a mother to me-when I think about it, my heart will settle down and I feel I have a place to stand.

Even if Dr. Ruan Li and Dr. Ande have persuaded me to distinguish between true and false, to live in reality, let me not care too much about the world. Dr. Ruan Li even told me that this false and real confusion is the reason why she does not agree with Dr. Ander ’s treatment-I do n’t know whether she knows that the treatment is just a "human completion plan" Completed the experiment.

However, for me, it is totally impossible to give up that world. Even if it is just a fake in the eyes of others, for me, it is my mother, my past, my future. If you deny its authenticity, you are denying your own authenticity.

False can never be born true.

I am not false, so it is impossible for my world to be false.

I must prove this.

Therefore, the closer to 1999, the stronger my hunch about the end of the world becomes. I can't even wait to see the end of the world appear before me.

I know, I know that this world is different from that world, but I ca n’t get rid of this idea anyway.

After washing, I took psychotropic drugs again, and now I take these drugs more and more frequently ~ www.readwn.com ~ I know this is bad, but I have to do it like a junkie. I think the treatment received by Dr. Ruan Li is the culprit causing the current situation. Dr. Ruan Li thinks so, but she did not hesitate at all. She said to me: "If it were not for these drugs, your condition would be worse. As in the past, your body will soon become resistant to these drugs, and you will quit then ... Maybe you will commit suicide again before the new drugs are developed. Of course, I do n’t want you to lose memory again once."

"Did I lose my memory many times?" I asked.

She digressed, and that attitude made me think the answer was clear.

Reminiscent of waking up in this world, if every memory loss means that a new "Gaochuan" is born, repeating the life of the previous "Gaochuan", it is really a sad and painful answer.

I certainly do n’t want to be a part of it.

"I will remember you, Dr. Ruan Li." I said to the female doctor.

"hope so."

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