Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

"The diseases of Zhenjiang, Xise, and Dorothy are new types that have never been seen, which is one of the reasons why Xise and Dorothy are responsible by others." Dr. Ruan said.

"They were quarantined?" I said.

"Yes." Dr. Ruan did not hide anymore.

"You said that they are suffering from terminal illness, that is, they are dead? Is it deceiving me to leave the hospital?" I stared at her closely.

"No, there is a record of how you are discharged from the hospital. You don't need to deceive you at this point ... maybe they have cured them." At this point, Dr. Ruan noticed the inconsistency of his words and changed his mouth: "Maybe The color is different from Dorothy ... I do n’t know the specifics. "

It sounds like these are all her own guesses. She behaved like an innocent, maybe, she really didn't know the situation of anyone other than me?

I dare not make a conclusion. However, this conversation is not without gains from Ranwen.com. Zhenjiang became terminally ill and was later killed by Gao Chuan. Xie Se and Dorothy had the same terminal illness, and now their whereabouts are unknown. This terminal illness is a new disease that has never been seen before. So, what should I think about this information? That's right, I think every ordinary person will reach the same conclusion as me. I think they are regarded as precious experimental subjects.

This is not an interesting conclusion. I do n’t even believe that the color is really discharged. At least, I believe what Dallas said, that the color is imprisoned in the tower to live a life of deep water. I can't imagine what kind of tragic situation she will encounter, is it better to die than to die?

There was once a "Gaochuan" child who tried to rescue her, but he failed and disappeared. Now the person named Gaochuan is me. Perhaps, I came to this world that I do not know whether it is illusion or reality, just to complete this legacy mission? If I complete this last wish, will I be able to return to the end world that is more real to me?

For these questions, I don't know the answer.

However, I feel that I must do that, whether it is a dream or a trap. Even as Dr. Ruan said, those bad suspicions are illusions. This hospital is really treating them with care, and the girls must confirm this themselves. Because the girl's name is "Face Color", in addition to her, there are "Doris", "Saki Ye", "Eight Scenery" and "Marceau", Gaochuan has always been their hero.

I feel that some kind of change is happening in my body, as if it is responding to my will.

Just when I felt the conversation was over, I didn't know if Dr. Ruan was intentional. She told me something that really surprised me.

"Another point, I think I should tell you, because you saw the crow." She said, "What do you think this crow is? Your pet? Friends?" She seemed to smile a little, the smile flashed too quickly, It seems to be an illusion, "The crow is a clever animal, a scavenger, a corpse-eating bird, a synonym for death, fear, and doom. It is an ominous sign. Do you think it is a lucky thing to see a crow?

I did n’t speak at Ranwen.com. She looked at me for a while and said gently:

"You killed Zhenjiang and then ate her."

My head went blank for a moment, as if I had auditory hallucinations. What did she just say?

"I ate Zhenjiang?" An unspeakable but irritating emotion struck my mind. "You said, eat?"

"Yes, the doctor's expression is getting more and more relaxed. It's like finding something good on my face. She wrote a word" eat "on the paper," a kind of eating activity. "

"Aren't you kidding me?" I don't want to be bluffed by her, although I have seen some files of "Gaochuan" with Dr. Ande-Gaochuan, 17 years old, arsonist, murderer, cannibal, lost Voluntary experiment of all civil rights. However, I never put the term cannibal in my mind, and thought it might be a symbolic meaning.

But now, this female doctor said in a majestic way in front of me, that "Gaochuan" had eaten "Zhenjiang"?

It's unbelievable and difficult to accept. Anyone with normal psychology and unreasonable morality will not do such a thing. For animals, eating corpses of their own kind is not uncommon. However, since human evolution, this instinct has been abandoned as a sin, and the behavior of cannibalism is neither recognized psychologically nor physiologically.

If you want to ask why, you can only say that this is the proof of human beings.

I always think of myself as a person, and I do n’t feel mentally ill, so I also think that eating cannibals is an unacceptable behavior. Of course, I knew clearly that the man-eater in Dr. Ruan's mouth was the boy named Gaochuan. But when I thought that I had replaced the "Gaochuan", in the eyes of the female doctor, I was not me, but the cannibal mental patient "Gaochuan", I could not help but feel uncomfortable.

Dr. Ruan's eyes were so naked, I understood in a flash, it was a kind of hunter who viewed prey, collectors who viewed treasure, and ambitious doctors who viewed the possession of precious patients. My body began to be hot, the joints of my body seemed to be uncomfortable like rust, the stomach was sour, like indigestion, which made the sentence echo in my ears: you eat Zhenjiang, you are a cannibal .

I understand, I understand, I try to separate myself from that "Gaochuan". However, the ghost of a boy named "Gao Chuan" seemed to stretch out countless tentacles to drag me into deep darkness.

"Why did he do this?" I said hard.

"I don't know, you should ask yourself this question." Dr. Ruan said briskly: "Maybe for no reason, this is a secret for everyone, no one knows what the person thinks. Of course, as a psychologist, you can Do some explanation from an academic point of view, but that is not the point. "

"Then what is the key?"

"The key is whether you want to change back to that Gao Chuan." Dr. Ruan's expression relaxed, "However, I think you are not willing, because you just said 'why did he do this', you used 'him', Not 'I'. At this point, I have to admit that Dr. Ander's treatment did have a good effect. "

"That is to say, you said this to me to confirm this?" I began to understand the reason why Dr. Ruan's attitude changed back and forth.

"This is largely the case. A little risk. After all, you see the crow, which is very disturbing." Dr. Ruan turned the pen between her fingers, and she stared at me and said, "The patient's condition is repeated. Very common thing. I want to confirm your true state, and I am afraid that this kind of temptation will explode hidden dangers. "

"I can understand." I laughed self-deprecatingly.

"Hey, boy, don't be so upset." Dr. Ruan leaned forward and said to me seriously: "I am your attending doctor, I must be responsible for you, and now the results are good, aren't I? You can keep it up, and soon, you can return to the world of normal people, and I will be promoted because of this treatment case and thesis, the best of both worlds. Isn't it? The best of both worlds. "

"So, I want to know, in your understanding, what crow do I see?" I asked.

I was a little confused before, but it has been rearranged now. Although, I still believe that the crow quark is not my illusion, it really saved my life in the night forest, and I am not the boy with the same name in her mouth. But I still want to know what the woman in front of me thinks. This has nothing to do with my future actions, just because it is the need to determine myself.

After all, the boy named "Gao Chuan" may, like me, be able to see a "crow" that belongs to him.

Now, I am more and more similar to him, the same name, similar characteristics. And recognizing the difference in meaning of "crows" to each other helps me continue to maintain my will.

"Okay, I think when it comes to this part, I really should make it clear to you. After all, you are now nominally responsible for me, not the dead old man." Dr. Ruan said with a smile: "I said earlier that the crow is A clever animal, a scavenger, a carcass-eating bird, synonymous with death, fear and doom, is an ominous sign. In the past that Gaochuan ... "she used the word" past "and the third person," he At the time of the incident, no, he had a mental breakdown earlier. In fact, in the second year after he entered the orphanage, he had been found to have psychological problems. After that, the hospital was also responsible for intermittent Treatment. At that time, no one knew that the situation would deteriorate to that point, so he just regarded Gao Chuan as a child suffering from a mild mental illness. You must know that an orphan like that age will have a little ... "Dr. Ruan opened his hand , I understand what she means, orphans will be psychologically traumatized, which is quite normal.

"Okay, now that you understand it, now go back to the crow." Dr. Ruan wrote down the characteristics and meaning of the crow on the paper, "For a child, no, for most normal people, killing It's all a terrible thing. That represents sin and death. Can you understand this explanation? "

I nodded, so she continued: "If you kill someone, you will feel fear and death. And the murdered person is his good friend, maybe he is a girlfriend, and the emotions of fear and death will be amplified endlessly. Whatever the reason, killing the person you love is a bad luck for the murderer, even for most mentally ill killers, they will also feel the martial king, the Holy King, and the Holy King will kill the night. The Throne of Gods and Gods Demon King Nine Heavens Strongest Abandoning the Young Clan Royals Will Kill the Night The strongest abandoning the Shaozhou Zhou royal family to create a **** will kill the **** God Seal Throne at night and begging for prosperity. The strongest abandoning the Shaozhou Zhou royal family to the pain, let alone eat her. Perhaps, for you in the past, This is a sinful act that cannot be forgiven, but has become an established fact. "

"And the crow is an illusion generated by this fact. The crow eats carrion and corpses, representing death, fear and doom, which is completely consistent with your psychological state at that time. Maybe you think of yourself as a crow, or, think of those crimes The executor is actually a crow. Well, this crow is representing your side as a murderer and a cannibal. "Dr. Ruan paused and continued:" In addition, I have a guess, of course, just a guess That's it. Maybe you didn't have the cause of the terminal illness of Ranwen.com, because you ate Zhenjiang's body. "

This is a really heavy topic, even if she is talking about another person. However, when it comes to thinking, such a terrible child can do such a terrible thing, whether it is active or forced, it is really terrible. I am always afraid of hearing such painful facts, even though it was born to strangers who have nothing to do with it, but now, it is the past of the child with the same name as me and replaced by me, which makes my heart seem to be almost Cracked in general, I feel like I will be breathless.

"Are you okay?" Dr. Ruan looked at me a few times, took a bottle of pills from the cabinet and placed them in front of me. "Sedative medicine. If you're uncomfortable, it's okay to take two tablets."

I looked at her for a while, and finally listened to her advice, took two pills and swallowed them. After a while, the medicine worked, and my emotions gradually calmed down.

"Maybe, it's a bit of a dare to say these things to you. But I hope you remember that seeing crows is not a good thing, but don't be too scared. Whether you think about the past or not, you must remember a little. Now, you are different from the past. "Dr. Ruan looked at me seriously and said.

"I understand that I never think of myself as a cannibal psychosis, I just ..." I waved my hand, "I'm not used to listening to such dark and cruel stories."

"Really? You are really a kind little guy. It's a pity, maybe Dr. Ander is right, you are in a better state now than in the past." Dr. Ruan shook his head and smiled.

"Thank you for telling me these things. I won't tell Dr. Ander." I said.

"No, I will forward these written reports to him." Dr. Ruan refused: "He is an expert, but I am also an expert, and you are now my patient, not his, at least for now. I have the right Treat as you want. "

"In any case, thank you." I was not going to talk about this topic again, so I asked instead: "Doctor Ruan, do you know hypnosis?"

Dr. Ruan paused and looked over with doubt: "Hypnotherapy ... hyrpy? Of course, what do you ask?"

"I said that I had some dreams recently, and those dreams seemed to be about my past ... I want to know what happened in the past. I heard that hypnotherapy can make people recover their memories." Half of the words are true, I really want to know, the successor of the interrupted dream. Although I do n’t think I am the boy of the same name, I have experienced many wonderful events, so this dream is not mine, but it may be true, it is due to some accident or necessity, through some kind of Enter my brain in a known way.

If it is said that this is not destiny or a sign of mission, then what is it?

Dr. Ruan shook his head with a smile.

"Hypnotherapy is a kind of psychotherapy that uses hypnosis to narrow the consciousness of the seeker extremely, and uses suggestive language to eliminate pathological psychology and physical disorders. But because of this, there will be side effects and let People think that the conclusions drawn after being hypnotized are true, even self-forged true because of the hints of others or self. Although many psychologists admire it, personally, I do n’t approve of it as a conventional treatment . This treatment is really not suitable for a mental patient. "

"I want to try it." I stubbornly looked at her, "I think that knowing your past is a necessary process. It is incomplete to have a person without a fictional past, or a false past, especially for a person. For mental patients, this is also a very important thing. I think that no matter how to hide the truth, if you can't face it, it is still a hidden danger. "

In fact, this is just an excuse, does it really think so? I don't know it myself. After all, I am not a true mental patient, nor an experienced psychologist. I just want Dr. Ruan to promise me psychotherapy to make up for the broken dream.

However, Dr. Ruan was surprised by what I said and immediately became excited, as if he had found a close friend.

"Really? Do you think so? I think so too. Make up a past, make people normal, is this really normal? Or looks normal, but bury the bomb deeper? This is me The biggest disagreement with Dr. Ande. "Dr. Ruan clapped his hands happily." So I will tell you these things. I hope to put a little pressure on your spirit that may be accumulated by the treatment of the dead old man. Release it. "

"I don't want to escape. If that is my past, I think I can accept it. I want to know why I killed Zhenjiang."

Dr. Ruan forced me to look at me for a while, and I did not retreat without burning the novel.

"Okay ~ www.readwn.com ~ If you insist on it," she said, "I hope I'm not doing stupid things."

"No, you are doing good things, doctor." I replied to her in this way.

Dr. Ruan's hypnosis method is very casual, and he doesn't even need to switch positions, sitting across the desk. She took the pen in her hand and told me to relax, the preparations before hypnosis were similar to those in books and movies.

"You wouldn't take the opportunity to ask me personal questions?" I interjected at this time: "If you encounter a question I don't want to answer ..."

"You can not answer." Dr. Ruan said indifferently: "Although I agree to hypnotherapy, I will not perform deep hypnosis, otherwise there will be big problems. You imagine there is a line in your heart, this line is what you can answer and The boundaries of unanswerable questions do not need to be well thought out. As long as you imagine this line, it will work on its own, and the human brain is wonderful. "

Although she was a little bit doubtful about her words, I did n’t have a good way to burn a novel, and I also proposed hypnotherapy.

When I entered what she said, the pen in her hand started to shake right and left in front of my eyes. . ...