Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Although the researcher who has been responsible for the psychological work of Gaochuan has been Dr. Ruan Li, since Gaochuan volunteered to cooperate with the hospital's research and highlighted its particularity, each of his injuries, growth, withdrawal, pain and despair Under the observation of most researchers. For many people in this hospital, Gaochuan is nothing new. His every move, and why such a move occurred, the spiritual changes behind these actions, as well as the pathological changes that existed behind all the observable physiological and spiritual changes, have attracted everyone's attention.

Even so, reviewing what Gao Gao recorded again, Dr. Ande still felt a strange feeling and could not say strangeness, but he was not as familiar as he thought. He read the writing on the paper through the deep red moonlight. From the line, he seemed to be able to see the face of "Gaochuan" and each of his pains. It seemed that he could feel something that had not been felt in the past.

It was painful, desperate, crazy, distressed, helpless, but constantly struggling ... When Dr. Ande realized that his eyes were a little blurred, he felt the cold tears left from the corners of his eyes. Of course, he did n’t think that the things left by Gaochuan were useful, but even if it did n’t work, he still could n’t help but resonate-this kind of resonance was not because he wanted to harden his heart without subjectively. Arrived.

Dr. Ande seems to be able to see himself from these contents, but compared with the "Gao Chuan" who wrote these contents, he doesn't think he will have similarities with them. In the depths of himself and this teenager-the depths that exclude the physical body-in addition to personality, there is also a deep commonality. This common sense makes him feel like he can be at a certain moment with what he knows. "Gaochuan" is integrated.

After, he suddenly woke up. This kind of feeling that people couldn't help but integrate, made him have some indescribable horror, and made him think of the end of the patients with doomsday syndrome.

Every patient with Doomsday Syndrome will turn into light yellow LCL in the hopeless collapse, and there is no observable material difference in the LCL fluid that every patient turns into. This made Dr. Ande wonder if his feeling of being integrated with Gaochuan at this time is the impulse of empathy also a sign of the nature of LCL? In the work of studying "viruses" and patients with doomsday syndrome, there are always many subtle clues. They are not independent, and people feel that on some level, they seem to necessarily be related to each other. This association always makes people unable to bear all kinds of associations.

Putting it in the past, researchers generally think that this subtle, subtle, seemingly accidental, inevitable connection is exactly a breakthrough in the research work, and is a reflection of the many possibilities that can be imagined. However, put it here At the moment, Dr. Ander only felt terrified. He couldn't help vomiting, and the thoughts in his mind that couldn't even be seen by him, were so messy and as if connected to the truth, as if connected to the truth, but it was so foggy The facts that make you feel terrified and unwilling to accept are like being hidden in these thoughts. It's not that I can't see clearly, but I dare not see it at all. No matter how much the subjective consciousness wants to delve deeper, there is a stronger kind of strength derived from oneself like subconscious or instinct, which prevents oneself from delving deeply.

There seems to be a voice whispering to himself, dissuading himself, and admonishing himself that once it goes deep into it, terrible things will happen. That terrible thing is not reflected in the external factors, but in the internal factors of the self. If we use psychological theory to describe it, then it is the collapse of self-concept, but for a vague answer that this sense of fear directly brought to Dr. Ander, it is more terrible than "self-collapse" thing.

——Yes, something has to come out of my mind.

Dr. Ande's hands were shaking, he couldn't even hold the paper, and he held his head desperately. The thing to be drilled is not a tangible substance, but another form of expression relative to materiality, which is intangible and parasitic on something in thinking, imagination and thought. At this moment, only Dr. Ande felt that it was precisely because he read the content recorded in Gaochuan that he awakened these things and made them active-they were already in their own thinking, imagination and In the thought, I was already infected.

"Ah, it's a virus, it's a virus, it's a virus ..." Dr. Ande heard himself muttering, and in the almost crazy feeling, he seemed to have another third person's perspective, observing this almost crazy Yourself.

Dr. Ender resisted the huge fear and the madness and despair that bit his heart, grabbed the cards, papers and notebooks, and stumbled towards the direction that he did not even realize clearly. The crimson moonlight, which seemed strange at first, seemed to become more tangible, and also gave him a more subtle thrill. He didn't want to stay in this exposed field, he wanted to escape into the room where the moonlight could not reach, and even wanted to dig into the ground, in the dark darkness. It seems that only by doing this can we avoid the inexplicable horror.

Dr. Ande ran like this, and when his reason returned, he found himself in front of a towering tower.

This tower is an iconic building in Gudao Hospital. No matter where it is on the island or even outside the port, at least its outline can be seen and used as positioning coordinates. However, the actual gush of this tower is certainly not as simple as a lighthouse that guides the direction. In the hospital, many people, including many researchers, feel that there are more secret and cruel experiments hidden in the tower, which is the place where the experimental products that violate human morality ultimately go. The things hidden inside should be dark, unreasonable, and full of negative human nature-in the content of "Gao Chuan" recorded on paper, he once believed that the secret of the disappearance of Dorothy was buried in this high tower .

However, as the top person in charge of the hospital, Dr. Ande is very clear that there is nothing in these dark imaginations. This tower is not used to store experimental materials, nor to imprison prisoners, nor is it a base for secret research. As far as he knows, there is nothing in the tower-yes, unlike other people ’s malicious guesses, this tower has not been opened many times, not because the secret is hidden inside, but it is really a building. How to use the building.

There is a lot of space in the tower, but even Dr. Ander does not know what the people who built it were thinking, the space inside seems to be superfluous-no, no, Dr. Ander produced Such a thought immediately produced a strong sense of disobedience. Do you really not know what is in it? In this hospital, is there really no need for redundant buildings? No, it seems that I know what is in it, it seems to be a very important thing, but suddenly I ca n’t remember it, or that the memory is a bit confusing.

"Is it the infection again?" Dr. Ande muttered to himself. When he stood firm and tried to look at the tower, the inexplicable feeling hit his heart again, and he still could not describe it in detail. However, compared to the fear and despair that made him crazy, the inexplicable feeling brought to him by this tower seemed to have some comforting effect.

Dr. Ande did not hesitate for too long. He felt that he had to push open the door to the tower. The strange opening and closing of the door he had done in the dormitory where the three girls, Miyake, Hachien and Masuo, and Some kind of strong hunch when opening the door of the room where the three girls are located is like being connected to the gate of the tower in front by some invisible lines-you want to open it, not for other reasons, but It was because he had done those actions in the dormitory where the three girls were, but also because he had dug out the hidden things of Gaochuan.

And this kind of consciousness is not all conjecture, but it seems that there is another one who is telling himself that he must do so.

Dr. Ande feels more than ever, that his every move, every thought, is not entirely a "self" that he can perceive.

The huge, crumbling red moon in the night sky seemed to be still far away from the sky, but also seemed to have been pressed onto the spire. The deep red light flowed down the tower body with a kind of fluid thick, and penetrated into the texture of the tower body, and gradually too complicated and inexplicable patterns emerged.

"This is an illusion, it must be an illusion ..." Dr. Ander witnessed this strange sight, a vicious cold of his hands and feet, seems to be penetrating his skin, deep into his internal organs, and deep into his heart, There was some kind of non-mechanical, but non-biological chewing sound-this malice was like chewing his own soul, he couldn't help thinking of it.

Dr. Ande was extremely convinced that even after seeing the hard evidence, there would be no such conviction: he did not come here by accident, but was driven here by the invisible malicious cover that covered the entire hospital island.

An irresistible sense of powerlessness controlled by fate made him feel like he was suffocating.

Dr. Ande seems to see something, it may be an illusion, but the violent response of the body makes it difficult to continue to think that it is only an illusion.

This evil, some kind of entity behind this power, is so unimaginable, so grand and ruthless, in contrast, the overall humanity on this planet is so small and powerless. Just like an ordinary person caught in a storm in the ocean, when facing the surging flood, when feeling the earth underfoot, when looking down at the planet from outer space, or looking at the infinite universe from the space station Feeling powerless and insignificant.

Can't help but yell, call, express with a hysterical emotion:

"KAEKESA! Wind evil, wind evil, KAEKESA!" And he didn't understand the meaning of these syllables he shouted. He just desperately wanted to escape into the tower, as if this was the only way to avoid the huge maliciousness foreshadowed behind these syllables he shouted.

This time, Dr. Ende was no longer in a trance, nor hesitated. He stumbled towards the tower and pushed open the gate that had been soaked with crimson light. However, he was not sure. Whether the gate is a material gate. Whether it is the touch of the skin or what I saw, this door seems to have lost its texture. The texture that was soaked in by the deep red moonlight is expanding in the field of vision. Dense and chaotic, it makes people dizzy with red light.

Dr. Ande held the relics of "Gao Chuan" tightly. Although he encountered such a horrible, so incomprehensible and frightening thing to think about, he could not discard these cards, papers and notes ~ www.readwn.com ~ He could not even explain whether his emotions were due to self-interest or some other ideas. He just shivered, and after feeling that he had "entered the tower", he dodged aside and leaned back, naturally leaning on the hard, cold object that should be the wall.

At this moment, his eyes were dark and he could not see anything.

Dr. Ende gasped in shock, wanting to say something to himself to adjust his near-collapsing psychology, but did not know what to do. The firm will that he used to pride himself was so fragile at this time. It is unbearable, and those who have considered themselves rich in theoretical knowledge and practical experience seem to be difficult to help calm themselves. The strange call he made in front of the tower made him feel that he had done something wrong, but he had done nothing wrong, but he was helpless, without having to feel guilty, as if he could not decide when the natural disaster would come. .

He really wanted to treat all of this as an illusion of scaring himself. However, to be honest, he couldn't do it-although he wanted to, he couldn't do it, and whether he could do it was completely independent of his will and his will. There is no more frustration, fear and despair than this.

Such an experience made him deeply aware that he was more vulnerable than he thought.

Even so, he still hoped that he could do something, at least not let himself die in this situation of frustration, fear, madness and despair.

But what can you do?

Dr. Ande's mind is bloating again, and then decided to look at the final legacy of "Takagawa". Do n’t know what else is written in that note? 89