Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

The cards were laid out on the table, turned, turned, moved, covered ... Dr. Ander looked at the weird lines on the cards in a strange and grotesque intuition, it was like a certain pattern, like It's certain words, like revealing a certain truth, and it's like a kind of existence in the world is talking to people by this way. He wanted to stop more than once, but his body didn't listen, and another vague will was playing with it, but he was not sure if there was his own subconscious. He feels that he can decipher the secrets, not now, but "too soon". However, this secret that is about to be decoded has always been stuck in the undisclosed. This feeling made him unable to recall the intention of the research team: the secret of the "virus" was hidden in these cards. If the secret could be interpreted, he could face the "virus" and complete the first step of serum production.

It seems that the future really exists in these cards, not in the three girls ... But, Dr. Ander believes in his judgment more, and the secret lies in the three girls than in the card. It was precisely because of this judgment that he was able to talk to the research team, and Dr. Ande was very clear that his condition had worsened, and staying in the research team would only become the object of the study. Those who had been publicized because of his professionalism The data will also be hidden again. Those people don't completely believe in themselves ... Dr. Ander has always felt this way, and this feeling can be explained logically and empirically.

Dr. Ande manages the Gudao Hospital and leads the research direction, which is no longer a day or two. Even in the most peaceful days, those who oppose him and those who intend to seize high-level status have always existed. Those researchers who were defeated by him politically not only did not leave the hospital, but also took root in the darkness of the hospital in a more secretive way. In China, an alliance is formed in secret to conduct research. He didn't know the details very well, but he knew that the rumors were definitely not windless, and the supporters behind those people were probably the forces that set up hospitals and provided resources.

There is nothing truly secret and self-contained in this world, especially in human society. Even chaotic events will become part of the order, which is how human society works. Dr. Ande knew very well that he did not have the power to break this terrible order that included the dark and chaotic side. He was very calm, and as long as he had achieved some success, he would not pursue the deeper side, but would instead His wisdom is placed on research as much as possible, and such he is recognized and beautiful by others, so once he sits in a certain position, he will always be very stable.

However, this time, the source of the disaster did not come from the metabolism and functioning of human society itself, but something else-a "virus" and a virus that is well known. This is a very obvious fact.

He must have his own judgment, and must insist on his own judgment. This is no longer the reason for "different ways do not seek common ground". He is well aware of the pathological changes of patients with doomsday syndrome. , Your own personality will collapse faster. Therefore, you must be different from others, and firmly believe that this difference can make yourself a "special". Of course, he is not sure that this can really save himself, but at least he can earn more time for himself.

Drinking doves to quench thirst is a knowing and helpless act.

Dr. Ande ’s choices and decisions are largely based on intuition, the thoughts that constantly grow in the brain when he is caught in pain, and memories that have become particularly clear. That's the experience that most people don't realize that they already have a lot of information, combined with an extraordinary logic, and summed up the rules of the patient's condition.

When Dr. Ande realized this, he was quite sure that he had undergone incredible changes from the inside to the outside. The present self is very different from the past self.

Under an inexplicable frantic impulse, he stared at the cards that were constantly moved by him, and at the same time had a more contradictory consciousness, wanting to break free from this gaze. There seemed to be an illusion that whispered to him that he would not succeed, and his stubbornness and paranoia that he spontaneously created made him believe that he would succeed.

He seems to feel that the inside of this body is not an internal organ, not a cell, not a gene, not the element that constitutes the human body, nor the composition of each element, but the "inside" on the level of consciousness, there are two distinct I am fighting for the dominance of "self". He felt like he was going crazy, no, he was already crazy.

"Stop, stop, don't think about it anymore ..." Dr. Ande muttered to himself, and suddenly vigorously broke up the stitched cards again. Afterwards, he slumped in his chair and gasped continually. The sense of frustration made the restless emotions in his mind return to peace.

——In this case, I have to find the missing card.

He was in a trance, having such thoughts flashed over his heart.

Do not go to the girls, because the girls can no longer be found, his instinct told him this. Although, he has not searched this room carefully. He finally understood why the people in the research group said, "The girls are gone." They probably have already experienced this inexplicable and full-feeling feeling-even if they haven't looked for it carefully, but stay here. This strong feeling: girls cannot be found. As for why? It seems that it is not very important in front of this conclusion, even in terms of logic and behavior, such a conclusion does not seem to be reliable.

Intuition, intuition, everything is intuition, it seems that intuition has transcended logic and revealed a deeper truth. When and why did intuition become so important? This actually conflicts with the qualities that researchers must possess. However, even Dr. Ande who knew this, could not do things in full accordance with his own reason.

——Don't go to the girl, look for the card, the part of the card hidden by "Gaochuan".

The principal of the research team once said to him, once again tumbling in the mind of Dr. Ande. Dr. Ander felt restless again.

Therefore, I can only find cards. This time, it was back on the research team's track. Dr. Ander felt an irony that embarrassed him.

"Eight scenes ... Sakuya ... Marceau ..." Dr. Ander intended to cheer himself up and shouted the names of the three girls. He felt that his hoarse voice was terrifying even to himself. The sound echoing in the empty house is like what a demon is tempting mankind, and he himself is that demon.

Dr. Ande wandered in the room for a while, feeling the night breeze blowing from the window that had not been closed, and greeted the ominous crimson moonlight, crawling out of the window sill without thinking. He sits on the window sill and is ten meters high from the ground. On weekdays, he will be afraid of this, and he will also feel that this behavior is full of weirdness. It is one of the weird behaviors of patients with doomsday syndrome. I did this. He knew what he was doing, but he didn't feel anything wrong.

Dr. Ande didn't quite understand why he did this, but when he looked at the night outside the building, he suddenly felt a sense of what he was looking for. His eyes couldn't help but cast in a certain direction. He suddenly felt a sense that he had to go in that direction. The information that was once hidden by "Gaochuan" was in that place-he couldn't tell the exact location, but this feeling Let him feel that he will know as soon as he goes.

Dr. Ande jumped off the window sill without thinking. He didn't think about anything. He just felt like he was half a dream, but when he jumped from such a high place, the acceleration of gravity seemed to pull his internal organs off. The feeling of "falling" was so Really, but did not give him the feeling of "I will fall to death". Of course, he was terrified, but this level of fear could not get him out of this half-dream half-wake feeling.

Then, his feet touched the ground, and he felt the reaction just seemed to jump from a height of one meter. It was really incredible. This sense of rational impact gave him a feeling of waking up suddenly. He turned around and confirmed that he had really reached the open space downstairs. He raised his head and still looked at the high windowsill with some disbelief-did he really jump from there? He didn't even suffer a little hurt and pain. It is completely illogical and unreasonable. What kind of power is it that allows me to do this kind of thing?

This is a superhuman experience that runs counter to common sense, but at the same time it surprises Dr. Ande, it is not so unacceptable. However, he could not understand it, and he could not accept it rationally and logically. He has never seen a similar report. Although there are many jumping-off behaviors among patients with doomsday syndrome, the reason for them to do so has not yet been identified, and can only be roughly classified as psychological and psychological trauma . Even the special subject "Gao Chuan" had the same behavior and broke his legs. However, it is because he knew that the patients who jumped from the building were more or less seriously injured or even killed. So, he doubted that his situation could really be explained simply by "doom syndrome"?

It seems that the fact that he has not been injured seems to have proved that the self who has become a patient with doomsday syndrome seems to be extremely special. And, this speciality is like what he needs—but rather, the situation today is like he wants to be special, so he becomes special.

Is terrible, incredible, incomprehensible ... and there is not much time. Dr. Ande did not hesitate this time. Although various thoughts, imaginations, and emotions continue to appear in his mind, he simply put aside these unanswerable questions and walked in the direction of his call. go with.

There was a gloom in the hospital. On this heavy and ominous night, the canopy seemed to be overwhelmed under the huge and strange red moon, and it seemed decadent. The night of the hospital is not completely silent. In the past, even if there was no human voice, there will be various natural movements. However, at this time, Dr. Ander only felt a twisted silence.

He could not even hear his breathing and footsteps, even if he deliberately kicked the stone, he did not make a noise. The more you go in the direction intuitionally implied, the stronger the feeling of what is about to happen is overshadowed.

Dr. Ende couldn't help but look back, looking at the dormitory building behind him, and saw that the rolling mist had flowed out of the cracks in the building, and the lights in the corridor had become faint in the mist, and the girls were The room, the window sill that I used to sit on, the window was not closed, as if it had never been opened, as if the behavior I jumped from above was just a false memory. He felt that the room was closed, the entire dormitory building was enveloped by a weird force, and he had no thought of going in again.

——Whether did I jump off the window sill ~ www.readwn.com ~ or did I walk out unconsciously, but felt that I jumped from the window sill?

Dr. Ande felt his head was faintly painful, and his mouth was filled with a sweet rust smell. He spit and saw that the spit had been stained with blood.

Must have a problem, and the problem is getting worse. Thinking about this, Dr. Ander accelerated his pace.

Finally, he stopped in an open space. There is not much of this open space, and not far away is another dormitory building, the one that once lived in Gaochuan. There are more research buildings around, but at this time, they all look dilapidated, and there are still some invisible figures that appear and disappear from time to time. Gaochuan replica.

When Dr. Ande stopped his feet, he intuitively told him to dig here and hide the hidden things of "Gaochuan" here. He did not think about this feeling in the past, but stomped his feet, feeling the solidity of the ground. There is indeed a place here that is not covered by cement, exposing loose soil, like someone once dug a hole here, but did not have time to cover it up completely. Even so, no one seems to realize that this small piece of mud is not right, and no one has ever tried to dig this place.

If "Gaochuan" really buried something here ... Dr. Ande thought so, and when he realized that he had squatted down and started to dig up the layer of mud by hand. Driven by a terrible impulse and fear, Dr. Ende digs involuntarily. The more fear is the impulse, the more impulsive, the faster the hand moves, even the pain from the fingers and wrists seems to have become Part of the motivation.