Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

The file thinks that I am a monster. Perhaps in her eyes, the so-called monster is my level. However, although I sometimes feel that I am like a monster, no matter the state of mind, way of thinking and form of existence are already normal. There are huge differences, but in terms of human nature and personal vulnerability and limitations, I am still human. What a real monster looks like has completely exceeded my imagination. Even with "virus" and "jiang" as a reference, it is because I am far from understanding how "virus" and "jiang" exist. The essence and operation, its wisdom and inhumanity, have only a vague impression. Therefore, I cannot sum up the answer of "what a monster is like" from both.

In the past, predecessors have summed up the three laws of monsters: first, monsters will not die; second, monsters are not understood by people; third, monsters are not humanoid in nature. These three laws are reflected in "Virus" and "Jiang", but I can still feel that the weirdness of "Virus" and "Jiang" is far from being covered by these three laws, even, Even though Jiang has a plausible performance on the third point, showing observable human form and humanity, it is precisely because of this performance that the three laws summarized by the predecessors appear to be incorrect.

It is not that "Jiang" shows human form and human nature, which means that "Jiang" is closer to human beings, perhaps the opposite. How other people understand it is not clear to me, but as a member of the "Jiang" who lifted the nearest distance, I fully accept this understanding.

Therefore, the file says that I am a monster, and I have no idea at all to refute it, because the real monster is not just like me. And now I dragged her into the depths of this ideology, showing that the power she was not adapted to was not my own power at all, but the power given by the real monster. I arrived here, I adapted to it, I have an advantage here, this is not a matter of joy and pride at all, but only reflects the huge gap between humans and real monsters.

The gap between me, who is called a monster, and the real monster "virus" is no longer visible, and it can be bridged by struggle, effort, and luck. Recognizing this point again will only make me more certain that Dorothy ’s plan is not perfect, or that the past Gao Chuan and the current Dorothy and tie-ups are aware of the “virus” and There is an essential error in the cruelty of the final battle. It ’s not that everyone underestimates the enemy, but that they are reluctant to think about the possibility of “if this enemy is beyond their imagination”, and wishful thinking to believe that their own high degree of cooperation with some strategies and tactics can achieve at least a trace of competitiveness. Height-Of course, I can understand this wishful thinking. Perhaps for them, just trying their best to imagine the strength of the enemy is enough to make them collapse, not to include the height of this incomprehensible enemy into their imagination. Inside, it will only fall into endless despair.

However, such thinking and imagination, this wishful attitude, may be able to maintain its own rationality not to collapse immediately, but also squeeze a trace of false hope from the boundless fear and despair to continue its own survival, but it does not It may really fulfill the initial desire to defeat the "virus" and obtain serum, so that everyone can get rid of the pain of the doomsday syndrome.

I do n’t mind them thinking and acting like this, because, I do n’t know what they can do. However, I ca n’t think and act like this, because, as Gao Chuan, I have to do something.

This doomsday illusion is closer to the “doom” than the doomsday illusion I have ever experienced. From what I have observed, I know from the acquaintances such as the file to me, from other strangers to me, from In the attitudes of all people and non-humans that I have lifted towards me, and from the frequent disappearance and appearance of "Jiang", I feel more and more that I have peeked at some key things, maybe these things are still not the truth, but the more It made me feel that I must carry out my plan with a firmer attitude-people cannot fight monsters, only monsters can fight monsters.

My thoughts swelled and spread constantly, even giving me the illusion that a part of me was no longer confined to the restraint of the human body, and the body was no longer the basis for supporting the inner. In the reality of the hospital, Gao Chuan's body has collapsed, the "Gao Chuan" self has already wandered in the LCL, and the self he felt in the doomsday illusion is generating another form from an unphysical angle. The change and collapse of the material state from the reality of the hospital to the illusion of doomsday is like a process in which the essence of existence changes. I cannot understand the details of this process, and the result of this process is beyond imagination.

I don't know what I will become, but I have a strong intuition that no matter what I become, it will definitely not be stronger than the "virus", and even my speed of change is not as good as the "virus" "The progress is that even if I completely become something I can't imagine, I can't speculate on the true face of the" virus "based on myself at that time.

The gap is too big.

"The gap is too big." I said.

My murmur seemed to be heard clearly by the file, but she didn't understand it, but instead gave me a sneering smile, saying: "I don't think it's too big to resist." Maybe she thought I was small Look at her.

Of course, I can't underestimate her, and I don't think she can't make up for the gap between her and her. The advantages I have in the depths of this ideology will be smoothed out by the file every time I pass away. I know that she talked to me only to delay time, and my state is indeed inefficient and full of flaws, but this is the weakness of my inevitable existence driven by the sensibility. This behavior will be completely driven by sensibility, which is completely expected, but I never thought of stopping here.

In order to complete the plan, I must have a strong enough paranoid single sensibility. All the behaviors driven by sensibility are to filter and polish the sensibility. All the injuries caused by the sensibility must become the food of the plan.

Human reason cannot understand monsters. However, it is because of this clear understanding that it changes the angle and tries to do something with emotion. Although, in fact, I am not too sure. Whether it is perceptual or rational, in theory, it is still within the length of time, and it can be completely informatized and parsed out, and it is not something beyond imagination.

I chose sensibility, not only because people in the past used rational resistance to fail, but also because of the existence of Jiang.

From this point of view, if you can really do something with sensitivity and complete a hopeful plan, then at this moment, probably only I can do it-I do n’t want that, because, this special Sex will only make me feel more desperate and sad.

"This is a desperate hell." I said to the file Shen Shen: "Are you ready? File."

"What are you ready for now, you still want to say that everything you do is to break despair and save all beings? Gao Chuan." The file's face can't see any thoughts. In these few words In a few moments when her thoughts turned, her image of existence had undergone a terrible and strange change. The most obvious thing was that her face had lost the outline of the five senses. It's not that the five senses have disappeared, but a vague feeling of infinitely approaching nothing. Her human form is also changing. Although the female sexual characteristics can still be recognized from the outline, the details of the individuality and personality of the person who is the "file" are disappearing.

The "file" disappeared in front of me, leaving a "female"-this feels very strong and pure.

In my understanding, it is from a deeper level that the information emanating from the collective subconsciousness of human beings interferes and twists the existence of the file. This is of course an abnormal and mysterious phenomenon, but, I am not sure that this happened naturally, or that the file itself was deliberately induced. But in any case, the female body in front of me is giving me a stronger and stronger sense of presence and oppression, which makes me more willing to believe that this is what the file finally chose to fight against me. She was even out of her life, so she didn't mind the distortion of her self-existence. She was more involved in this battle than me, just to defeat me.

From a rational point of view, this is certainly not a good change for me. However, from an emotional point of view, I sigh for it. I can deeply feel that in her reasons for making such choices and actions, there is a very strong sensibility that is becoming the core driving force. When I feel this sensibility, it seems that my own sensibility is also learning this. Nutrients and fuel.

The sensibility of the file is growing my sensibility.

"You are about to become not you, file." Out of sentiment, I warned her so.

"... Is it?" The file's voice is also losing its personality, making people think that it is no longer a human voice. Her voice is clearly low, but on the ground in this dark void, there is a roaring general. Echo: "Who do you think I am?"

Within the range I can perceive, everything is oscillating, and only the file with the female human profile suddenly opens his eyes. That is on the face that has almost disappeared from the facial features. Observation will focus on this eye, as if this eye represents everything for her. What kind of eye is that in my opinion, it does n’t appear on people at all—there is only one eye, located in the left eye, the scarlet scarlet outlines the eyeball, and the orbit is It is black as deep as this dark background. It gives people the feeling that they are similar to and different from the unusual eyes I have ever seen. It reminds me of the incredible existence of "Jiang" and "Virus".

Moreover, its pupil is spiral.

The terrible power is stirring everything around me, whether it's the solid ground or the endless darkness, it seems to start rotating under the drive of an inexplicable force.

In the hands of a female humanoid, the roaring and rotating power is converging, and a visible outline is formed in the blink of an eye, like a huge drill.

This is clearly not the form of power possessed by the file. The mysterious power is of unknown origin, and its mechanism cannot be understood. Only the phenomena it causes can be partially observed and actually experienced its effects. However, this uncertain possibility does not happen by accident. Seeing the changes in the file at this time, I have been very sure that the change in the file is definitely not her own, nor is it simply the result of her own driving mysterious power ~ www.readwn.com ~ Although it looks like some The eruption of man in counterattack, but its essence is fundamentally different. There are other things that are contributing to this change in the file, and the file itself has a channel to accept this promotion. My instinct is sending out a strong alarm, not because the file is showing up at this time, that is the great and delicate power, but for the factors that cause the file to change.

What the **** is that? I am not sure, but I have some ideas. The powerful and abnormal force will never come to someone from out of thin air, and a person's change due to mystery also absolutely needs to have its own corresponding factors, just as my strength is reflected in me being a magic tattoo messenger. , And a more powerful manifestation is because of the existence of "jiang" in my "inside".

What is on the file? The first thing I thought about was that she was also a Mageweaver. However, it is simply impossible for the Mageweave Messenger to suddenly produce such an amazing performance in the ideological world. Her behavior has surpassed many conscious walkers I know. So, did the file suddenly become a conscious walker? Starting from this question, another question will arise: what exactly makes the file into a conscious walker?

Taking myself as a reference, it is the power of "Jiang" that gives me the power to walk consciously. Well, what makes the file suddenly show such power in the depth of this ideological world is at least not worse than "Jiang". I thought of "viruses", but from past experience, "viruses" rarely produce such an abrupt presence in someone, and often do some activities through the giant doomsday doomsday and use them The final weapon is adjusted. It can be seen from this that the way in which the existence of the "virus" is manifested is more of a movement towards a macroscopic whole.