Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Father Edward occasionally wakes up. He feels that he has been inflated all the time, but he gradually can't remember what he looked like when he was humanoid. He can sometimes remember what "human" is, but sometimes he cannot regard the cognition of "human" as a kind of experience and feeling that he once had. The meaning of "human" is becoming a pure knowledge, but Unable to arouse any of his emotions, it is like something unrelated to himself, just as a group of trivial numbers often fails to attract people's interest, just as people cannot imagine themselves as a group of numbers.

He didn't think about what he became, but just felt that he was still himself. It is undoubted that oneself is changing, but no matter how one becomes one, of course, oneself, this kind of affirmation of oneself transcends oneself change, and no longer entangled in what one should be like, oneself originally It seems that what he once owned no longer seems important to himself today. In front of Father Edward, at a certain point in time, there was a huge gap between the past and the present. The two sides of the gap were completely different, unrelated things, and the weight of the past became insignificant.

Father Edward still can't describe what he looks like, just as people can't describe themselves exactly, nor can they describe their essence, just like people can't clarify their essence. The lack and emptiness of self-understanding is limited to superficial cognition. There is no difference between human and non-human.

Even so, there are still some profound and instinctive changes when you are occasionally awake compared to the last time you were awake, that is, your ability to move is being strengthened. Originally, the details of the control activities required a little effort, and sometimes I wanted to do it myself, but the body did it. If you want to move a part of the body, it is like processing every wire connecting this part. To be extremely precise, the movement of this part can meet your own requirements. However, every time you wake up, there will be some "silk thread" that no longer requires him to pay attention to control. A vague and huge idea is born, and all the factors that determine the activity of a certain part of the body will be spontaneously mobilized.

This reminds Edward of "people"-when people walk, they don't need to control every muscle and every nerve. Instinct will mechanically regulate these details in a general way. This is from the time when I just learned to walk. What has been recorded in the body. Now his familiarity with his body is becoming like this, which gives him a very strong "just born" feeling.

Those cognitions as "people" fade away like a tide, hidden in a deep and deep place, it is difficult to dig out again, not as "people", but as a new thing just born He began to open his eyes, move his body, to observe, to touch, to get used to, to look at everything around him from today's perspective.

Those alienated flesh and organs that seem to split in different areas are becoming more active, and they are connected into a whole in a way that is beyond the human perspective. For Father Edward, this is a whole as a matter of course, but for anyone who touches these flesh and blood organs, and the children who understand it from a human perspective, it becomes a little mysterious. The activity of these flesh and blood organs is so sudden in their eyes, full of a catastrophic hunch, which makes people feel terrified.

According to Father Sissen, there is a reason for this activity, but even if it can be guessed that these alienated flesh and blood organs are related to Father Edward, but they do not think that their activity is not based on Father Edward-of course, Edward The condition of the priest himself is a very important reason, but on top of this, the incentive for the change of priest Edward's own situation is more profound in another sense.

Father Edward will not use this kind of disguise that he can't control even for no reason, and will never produce such a change without warning after completing the change. Father Edward ’s changes have caused these abnormal flesh and tissue organs to change, but in the final analysis, it is still the horrible thing that forced Father Edward to make such changes.

Father thought so, while using the "wind" that had become as free as a limb, to connect the huge ceremonial circle with those abnormal **** organs. The living, increasingly active flesh is very sensitive, even if it is only gently blown by the "wind", it will also produce a fine creep, just like the leaves of the mimosa will rebound after being touched. . If possible, Father Sissen would of course want to communicate more deeply with Father Edward, but after he tried the imaginable methods, the actual results proved the difficulty of implementing this idea. From the appearance of contact, on the surface only, the overall structure of these flesh and tissue organs, which is visible to the naked eye, does not possess wisdom or humanity, and there is no channel for communication. It looks more like a plant, a single-cell life that depends entirely on instinct.

Father certainly thinks this is an illusion, because, since it is assumed that Father Edward is the body of these alienated flesh and blood, then these things that can be seen in front of them are by no means unwise. It can only be imagined that Father Edward is in a muddled state of consciousness, or that this weird disguised change has created a physical structure that hinders the communication between the two parties, and even fundamentally determines the perspective of Father Edward, letting He couldn't see or realize that his former disciples were trying to communicate with him.

You ca n’t see it, you ca n’t hear it, and you ca n’t recognize it even if you want to pay attention—Father Sissen believes that if this is the case, then Father Edward ’s way of thinking and personality must be quickly falling towards the inhuman abyss, and The idea of ​​wanting to join forces with him is no different from a fantasy. I am afraid that Father Edward has completely scratched the inequality sign with Father Edward in his own understanding at this time. Father Sisen couldn't help thinking.

Father Edward opened his eyes, or to say, there was a feeling of "opening eyes", but in fact, relative to the human "eyes", the facial features that Father Edwards used to observe things at this time did not have an exact entity, There is no limited function. Vision is equivalent to smell and hearing, which is equivalent to feeling. Receiving information in a comprehensive way is higher than the limit of information that human facial features can accept. It is precisely because there is a huge difference between human experience and habit of relying on eyes and facial features to distinguish things, so at the beginning, this difference brought great torture to Father Edward, but, gradually, in person When people's cognition, memory and experience sink into the deep seabed of self, what floats on the surface as the perception of this disguised gray mist demon in disguise becomes more and more natural.

Apart from the feeling of Father Edward, when he "opened his eyes", from the perspective of Father Sisen, it was from the piles of abnormal flesh and blood organs that a grain of eye grew. It is a gesture of "with eyes". It ’s just that Father Sissen is not sure, this is another insignificant appearance, whether it reflects a certain state change of Father Edward in the future, or is it that one of these nine-nine-nine disguises really has eyes Life forms.

These eyeballs have no eyelids and no eye pupils, and are generally very standard spherical shapes. If you do not call these things "eyeballs", you cannot find a better description. These eyeballs are rolling in the flesh and blood, because there are too many, so it makes people feel more creepy. Their rotation does not show a certain sense of order, but it is very messy in rhythm and direction, which makes people feel anxious and nausea. At the same time, it is like the patient who has just received eye treatment is trying to move the eyeballs, which initially brought Feeling sparse in life, but in a short time it is lubricated and sloppy; it is also like a person who just wakes up moving his eyes and trying to make himself more sober-it is precisely because of such associations that Father Sisen feels I probably knew what kind of state Father Edward was in.

Although this kind of association seems unreliable to others, it is extremely important for the mysterious expert. It can allow the mysterious expert to understand himself and the surrounding state more clearly in a perceptual state, and vice versa Say that a person who does not have sufficient ability to associate and feel can easily die in a situation that he cannot understand.

Human imagination is based on what has been recognized by oneself, but in most cases it exceeds the scope of self-cognition to describe what he cannot understand. In ancient times, those philosophers who wrote mysticism, I always think of imagination as a transcendental force that does not have a substance. Therefore, I often try to find the interference entity of this force, or try to let this force acquire the substance. However, at the same time, they also realized that when this kind of power acquires the entity and can interfere with the entity, it will be limited by itself, slipping from a "surpassing" state to a "normal" state, and it is difficult to reflect its transcendence. Sex.

Therefore, in the education received by Father Sissen, in the experience summed up by Father Edward himself, the imagination is not used to act on the entity, but to describe the situations that are difficult to understand, and to determine the original The change of unpredictable things is incorporated into one's own cognition with a hazy outline-maybe it is impossible to really clarify the essence of this elusive and incomprehensible thing, nor can it be changed, but at least it seems like An invisible bridge was built towards such things.

Father Shisen used imagination and association to judge the situation of Father Edward that could not be directly observed, to understand its plight, and to understand what it was to do. At the same time, he is also very clear that the result obtained by doing so is ambiguous and more likely to be wrong, but even if there is a small amount of correctness hidden in a lot of mistakes, he will put himself in a situation. Positive changes occurred at a critical moment.

Now, Father Sisen feels that these disorderly moving eyeballs are looking at a certain direction. With this feeling, he also cast his gaze there. Then, from the haze, the dense, sensational, but also the goose bumps, a vague outline emerged. For a while, it seemed to float, unable to determine whether it was approaching here, but a key point of perception came, and after that, when Father Sissen observed the figure, there was a clear feeling, that The figure was indeed approaching himself. No, this description is not entirely correct. Father Sisen stared at it, to feel it deeply, racked his brain to understand the current situation, and then he found a more accurate statement: that figure is not Walking on the coordinates of 3D physics, therefore, although there is indeed a direction, it cannot be described in common sense as the concept of "direction" used to describe the 3D physical coordinates.

The route that figure walks is definitely not the three-dimensional world seen by the eyes, but it is more on it. Www.readwn.com ~ must be explained from the concept of physical dimensions. Time and space form a kind of harmonious whole on this route, which is completely different from the straight line seen by the naked eye, so its movement looks erratic, like a ghost. Its movement speed does not seem to be fast, but in fact, the attack normally launched from a three-dimensional perspective, the phenomenon produced, certainly cannot have an effect on it-even if it has not been tried, Father Xisen thinks so.

The fog is so rich, under normal circumstances, so far away, it is certain that the outline of things of the same volume cannot be seen, so when you see it, it proves its unusual. Father Sisen thought this way, and the feeling of anxiety that had been waiting for the unknown fear thing gradually subsided.

Before Father Xisen planned to take action against that figure, the alienated flesh and blood organ suddenly rose. More than half of the volume of the material is turned into a building with a height of hundreds of meters, and the whole body is like a living tentacle. The mysterious power can stand firm. Even so, the rushing wind pressure still made him subconsciously block it with his arm.

At the same time, a huge, heavy, tentacle-like building hit the location of the figure—that was a position that could not be judged by the naked eye, and Father Sissen could only see that the outline of the building covered that Silhouette of the figure.

The roar of the world shaking——

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