Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

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The information collected from the last nightmare world is too complicated. After preliminary integration and analysis, even I have only grasped a general context. It is a very troublesome thing to explain to ordinary people like Marceau. (Reading network)

"Then briefly, I think I have the right to know." Marceau stared at me for a long while, and said, "I don't think you are like the one you said, but just a student traveling around the world."

I saw perseverance and determination in Marceau ’s eyes, and I did not intend to hide these things, even though I lied about my identity when I first met her. Marceau was right, she was involved in this incident, and is likely to play an important role. She does have the right to understand the ins and outs of all these things. I know deeply how painful it is to be forced to fight and flee in endless dangers and strangeness with a little knowledge.

But on the other hand, I have never been able to determine what kind of blow it would bring to her when I learned the truth. The shadow behind the scenes is too deep, the fate can not be changed, the sense of futile running is almost desperate.

I have been trying hard to save her, telling the part of the intelligence that can arouse her fighting spirit, leaving a powerful quark to protect her, and thinking and acting desperately in reality. However, as the clues became clearer, I felt an irreversible decline.

Marceau is a smart person. If I tell her everything, she will be able to analyze her situation very quickly, and may have some self-violent thoughts and actions. This is what I am most worried about.

If a person is trapped in a black iron prison, if there is still a ray of light, she will continue to struggle, fight, and accumulate strength in silence. Perhaps this force cannot let her out of doom, but it brings out "Possibility" of doom. However, if she knew that she would not get the light after getting out of this iron prison, but would enter a deeper and more horrible prison, would she persevere?

I have always known that I am not an extraordinary genius. I can save only those who want to be saved and act actively for it. And, I can only save one of these people. I chose Marceau and kept trying to keep the situation in my hands. However, I am not the kind of person who is good at playing with others in the palm of my hand. Working with ingenuity and clever tongue is not my character, and I hate that kind of person very much. Therefore, I cannot deprive Marceau of the right to know the truth and make choices just because of my own thoughts, such as "salvation".

For some people, survival is very important, but it is not the most important thing. Want to avoid pain, but not just choose to avoid pain. They prefer to suffer pain and death clearly, and do not want to survive ignorantly.

I have always felt that I am such a person, and I am proud of being such a person. And now, from Marsaw ’s eyes, I feel the martial arts, the holy king of heaven, the holy king, the night killer, the **** throne, the throne, and the strongest abandonment. Abandon the Shaozhou Zhou royal family martial Qiankun to kill the God God Seal Throne at night That kind of determination.

"I see." I nodded slowly, looked back at her with the most sincere heart, and said: "I will tell you everything I know, but please promise me, Marceau. Don't give up, even at the end Do n’t give up for a moment because I ’m working hard. "

Marceau seemed to have known for a long time that I would say that, and a smile burst into my mouth.

"I know, Crow, you have been working hard. You are my hero, I will not give up, believe me, I am not as vulnerable as you think."

I took her hand and sat down beside the bed. The beds are very soft, and this nightmare world truly reproduces the internal structure of the mental hospital. The owner of this bed has turned into a bug-like monster, but looking at the bed and the books on the shelf, I still seem to feel everything that the owner of the room experienced in this small room. He is here to study and treat, and may have suffered inhuman treatment. Every night, like me now, he sits by the bed and looks at the night.

The night when the fire broke out in the mental hospital was not elegant, and the scene was still deeply imprinted outside the window. Thunder and thunder, violent and oppressive, the gusty wind and heavy rain seemed to destroy everything that blocked them-whether it was a wall or a window, even if you went to the church, the face of the Virgin Mary seemed to be deeply saddened, and the world was like the end Advent in general.

Judging from the graffiti on the door, the room owner's mentality has become extremely distorted and contradictory. What kind of torture has he experienced, and under what kind of mentality has he suffered the fire?

I think of Jiang, she is also a mental patient. To be honest, I don't think I can fully understand the inner world of a mental patient. If she is here, can she understand what thought the owner of the room died at the time?

His hatred, pain, and confusion, with the help of the Tianmen Project, became a substance in this nightmare.

What caused this series of cruel events was a mysterious organization rooted in the local area. It is likely to be part of the wealthy Mar Jones family in this town hundreds of years ago, with a history and power that ordinary people do not understand.

As I sorted out the thoughts in my head, I told Marceau this horror story that began twenty years ago. Of course, although I try to be concise and concise, I still habitually add decoration and all my own guesses, but in general there is no deviation from the center of gravity of Fenwen.com. Marceau listened very carefully. I did n’t watch her on Ranwen.com, I just held my fist and put it on my chin, but I could feel the martial arts. The strongest abandoning the Shaozhou Zhou royal family will kill the gods and seals the throne at night God will kill God God Seal Throne in the night and beg the **** Ao Nine Heavy Heaven to abandon the royal family of Shao Da Zhou to her deep eyes. Looking back at these things that happened to me, the voices and smiles of the dead people floated in front of my eyes, and the emotions and ideas they had produced were vividly remembered, as if they had flowed through the invisible filter paper after precipitation. A clear spring water.

I reflect on the past, ruminating over the previous confusion, regret, confusion and pain, and the sweetness and joy occasionally mixed in it. In these complex emotions like spirals, it seems that there is a force gradually pouring into my atrium.

The future is not bright at all, there are many things that cannot be done and cannot be recovered, but in this darkness, I am not a lonely night walker. When I ended the story, I found that I didn't know when, but I had become so strong. Not only is it a spiritual tenacity, it has been able to calmly face the fate of being unable to control the palm of one's own hands.

What I have done may not be correct, but it must not be wrong. My actions and expectations may be in vain, but I have worked hard for this, burning my life as hard as I can. Even in this process, I have made unforgivable mistakes and false illusions, and I cannot be justified as being a stupid protein idiot, and I may not be able to avoid the same thing in the future, but I do n’t think I am loser.

How exactly is failure defined? Does it depend on the process or the result?

The end of life is death, no matter whether the process is splendid or whether the result is satisfactory, it can't escape this fate. Well, I think that it is only the parties' own will that determine the success or failure of the person.

What do you think of yourself?

Have you got what you want?

are you happy? Is it painful? Regret it?

Was there a moment when I felt satisfied even if I died?

Human values ​​do change because of the evaluation of others, but this change does not obscure the fact that values ​​still depend on themselves.

In this case, one who follows the self-values ​​and strives to achieve self-worth must not waste his life, which is enough.

I know that I will continue to stick to my own ideas in the future, even if it is regarded as an incompetent fool, even if it will die like a maggot at any time.

This is what I, Gao Chuan, the top student, have learned in this small town adventure.

In this world where the end is coming, the story of a boy's adventures and growth will be told bit by bit to Marceau. Although I planned to pick only the important ones at first, I didn't know how long it took when I got back to it. In the later part of this story, I was filled with many personal emotions, which made me feel a little ashamed.

Maybe, I am not a very good reporter, but Marceau is an excellent listener. It was not until I ended this gloomy and scary bedside story that I spoke for the first time. She didn't laugh at me at all, nor did she sigh because of the emotion of the narrator mixed in the story and the unpredictable and irreversible fate revealed from time to time. Instead, with a calm and steady smile, she gently covered her hand on my head. I do not know why, I did not dodge it.

"It's really hard, Crow." Marceau put my head on her chest. "You're doing well, don't worry, even if something irreversible happens, it's not your fault, because you have already Enough effort. "

I quietly feel the martial arts, the Holy King, the holy king, the night kill the god, the throne, the throne, the most powerful abandonment of the young and big week, the royal family will kill the god, the king, the night Martial Qiankun will kill the God of the Immortal Throne in the night to seek the Demon Ao Chongtian's strongest abandonment of the young Da Zhou dynasty. Listening to her heartbeat, the tension and irritability that she had just fled from the last nightmare world have disappeared without a trace at the end of the story.

"Can you tell me now? Crow, your true identity." She asked.

So I told her, my current identity-the deputy captain of the intelligence investigation unit of the Raccoon Town Branch of the Security Bureau. Crow is just a pseudonym, a homonym for the codename Crow, the real name is Gao Chuan.

Although the legends of wizards and the special nature of the profession have been handed down from a long time ago, the talents are taboo to tell others their real names, even if they are partners with the same team. However, I hope Marceau knows my real name.

"Gao Chuan ... this name is much better than Crow." Marceau said.

"I think so too." I said, Marceau smiled again.

"Okay, I already understand the situation. So, what I want to say is ..." Marceau stared at me and said very seriously: "Maybe I no longer exist in reality. But don't worry, Gao Chuan. If you say Of course, it ’s deceiving not to be sad, but I ’m not going to be knocked down so easily. See, I do n’t exist here? Is n’t it true that this me in front of you? ”

Marceau touched my cheek and pressed my hand tightly on her chest, making me feel the martial force, the king, the holy king, the sacred king, the night killing the god, the throne, the throne, the begging of the world Night kill **** god seal throne begging for the auspicious nineth heaven strongest abandoned the young Da Zhou royalty martial Qian Kun will night kill **** god seal throne beg for the strongest abandoning the young big week royal clan for the night to kill the **** god seal throne Moao Shijiuzhong's strongest abandoned the strong and powerful heartbeat of the young Zhou Dynasty.

"Look, it's alive."

I nodded silently.

"Your story allows me to see the ending. I believe you know what the ending is. Maybe it's rude to say that, but if things really become like that, maybe it's not an unacceptable result for me. Because , You see. ”Marceau stood up and showed his figure,“ Even if I am dead or on the verge of death, even if the end comes, the world is destroyed, I can continue to live in this world. I think This is the reason why the Mar Jones family struggled to carry out the Tianmen project. "

I still can only keep silent, knowing that Marceau is right, but too many people have died for the success of this project. Why should these deceased be the bargaining chip for others' right to survive? Moreover, the original intention of the Mar Jones family to carry out this research may have been selfishness. However, if you get the details of this plan, you have the possibility of saving more people when the end comes. In the final analysis, the victim is no longer willing to be forced to become a nutrient for others. I can understand it, but I can't agree with this kind of thing, but also, I can't justly say that this research is a mistake.

If it is not as successful as Ranwen Fiction Net, and the world does not have the end of Ranwen Fiction Net, it can naturally scold its evil. But the external conditions are not like that. Although the Tianmen Project caused great terror, it also has unlimited possibilities. This technology does not belong to the normal technological level of this world at all, it is more like that it exists in the world because of the end of the world. If the Tianmen project is a necessary condition for the end of the day, all things related to the end of the power are the promoters of the end of the day, then as the operators of the end of the power, how do we, the messengers of the security bureau, belong to us? ?

It is precisely because we always believe that the nature of power itself is neutral, so there is the birth of the Security Bureau, right?

Therefore, I can only be silent for the complex existence of the Tianmen Project.

"Sorry, Gao Chuan, in fact, I am a very selfish woman. If you know that the end is coming from the beginning, and the Tianmen Project is such a life-threatening thing, maybe you will join them or maybe." Marceau calmly and I Looking at each other, he said: "A selfish person like me will get used to it and live well no matter where it is. Also, your story and my current situation make me more certain. ——When I come to this place, I must have the task I must complete. ”

I am special-Marceau said this to me.

If I say that I am a three-pole magic pattern messenger and possess an angel, it is the particularity of being drawn into this nightmare space. So where does Marceau as an ordinary person show this particularity? Marceau was sacrificed by Engels to give Sauron the power to suppress Irene, so where does this power show?

"Actually, I found a diary before you came." Marceau took a small book out of his shirt pocket around his waist and used it as a short skirt, and handed it to me.

I was surprised to find that the style of this book is the same as the diary of Sauron obtained by the Security Bureau, but it is much smaller in size. I opened it, and the familiar handwriting immediately came into my eyes. This is also Sauron's diary, but the content is not the same as the one obtained by the Security Bureau. Sauron accurately recorded the results of his investigations into the secret experiments of the mental hospital ten years ago, the speculation on the Tianmen Project and the analysis of the ritual, enumerating the list of people who may be sacrificial and the process of destroying the ritual .

Although I just glanced at it in a hurry, I can already be sure that Sauron is indeed a prophet. The reason why such a weak child with mental depression is aware of the progress of the Tianmen Project and successfully parsed the structure of the sacrificial rite is because he received the help of the "Voice of God".

The emergence of the Tianmen Project, the battle between Sauron and planners, and the sway and retreat of some neutrals here gave me a sense of sight that was extremely familiar. Isn't all this the epitome of the rivalry between the three large-scale doomsday organizations?

Although it is biased in intelligence, the "god" or "demon" that may exist in the underworld does not completely favor one side. Even for the doomsday truth religion that tends to promote the end of the day, there is no situation where there is no rival at all. The neutral black nest, the hostile security bureau, all rely more or less on the prophet to get the help of "voice". This phenomenon clearly expresses a will, that is, "different ideas are necessary to exist", and through different ideas to exacerbate the birth of conflict The organization of power has only one idea. Even the doomsday truth doctrine will make the world more harmonious.

However, that voice does not allow such things to exist.

No matter in terms of time, influence, or participants, it has been shown that the Tianmen Project is a key part of the end of the day, which is beyond doubt. From this point of view, if the end of the world is inevitable, then the success of the Tianmen Project also has inevitable attributes, which also means that Sauron ’s actions are doomed to failure, just like I have always been It seems to prevent the end, but actually promotes the end to a certain extent. "Sauron's persistence and behavior may also be part of the success of the Tianmen plan.

This logic allows me to sniff out the conspiracy hidden in time. Why must Sauron be? The only difference between him and others is that he is a prophet.

I have to think about it. There is a roughly 80% chance that the Tianmen Project needs a prophet as a sacrifice. It's just that everyone didn't think that Sorren's destined sacrifice appeared as "enemy". Or, is the hostile prophet the key to the sacrifice?