Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Inside the London repeater, the undulating walls are like a layer of scales clinging to it, which has spread to the end of the line of sight. Whether it is overlooking from the height or looking up from the lower level, these walls can be seen. The top of the wall is a passageway, showing various appearances such as roads, stairs, pipes and bridges, all of which are accessible in people's common sense. These passageways spread all the way to the high and low places with the wall, one person To complete these paths, you can't do it all your life, even if you just keep going in one direction, you won't see the end until the end of life.

These walls and pathways are like endless labyrinths. There is no matching navigation system with relevant permissions. Based on instinct and vision alone, you will definitely be lost in these all-encompassing pathways after a long journey.

The magical girl Madoka thought she would never get used to such an alternative scenery, but when she could calm down and think about what to do in the future, she found that she had already integrated into the life of the repeater. Here, lacking many things that must be possessed in a normal society, Madoka feels that she is not very smart, because she has never been able to figure out what is missing, but can feel the difference between the two worlds. World-like differences.

Is it lucky or unfortunate to be able to enter the repeater? Is it lucky or unfortunate to be a magic girl? Was involved in the Third World War, not as a civilian, but as a standby soldier, is it lucky or unfortunate? A few months ago, such a problem did not exist in the heart of the high school girl-but, recently, she couldn't help but think of it naturally and then struggle with it.

As the original magical girl, and now the theoretical leader of the magical girl crusade, Madoka doesn't care much about his identity and status. If he uses other people's description, he is too ignorant. In many cases, she is used to seeing what is happening around her from the perspective of the high school girl. If you can survive only by yourself, relatives, friends and family you care about can have a safer situation than other ordinary people in this normal war, then it should be thankful. The magical girl Madoka was indeed pleased, but when she watched more people die, she was accompanied by deep pain and sorrow.

"Mystery" has already been revealed in this world. Undoubtedly, as a user of the mysterious power, the magic girl supports them behind a strange creature claiming to be "Chubby". Even, according to "Chubby" himself, it belongs The category that does not belong to "biology" remains to be considered. But there is no doubt that Chubby used his own mysterious powers to make many people become magical girls, and ultimately constituted a magical girl crusade, and hosted under the umbrella of a larger mysterious organization "Internet Ball". In a sense, it is the veritable core of the magic girls and the source of the mysterious power possessed by the magic girls.

The appearance of Chubby originated from the night of Walpus in London. From this perspective, it has a deep relationship with the repeater, but it is not the creation of the repeater, because it is before the repeater is completed. Already exists.

Netball built a repeater with Valpus Night, which is an extremely important organization for sheltering people all over the world during the war. Their abilities may be questioned. The mystery they possess is also incomprehensible. They are full of secret organization styles, but it is undeniable that they have rescued many people who have been hit by war and tried to resist those inhuman invasions. In addition, all the results made are just and necessary in the eyes of the people currently torn by war, and they are the vanguards of maintaining the correct order.

Following Qiubi's suggestion, Topi is under the netball and participates in actions that are just, correct, and necessary for most people to see. The magical girls, including Madoka, have no doubts and hesitations. The problem is that, although this war is not yet a year old, it makes people feel that it has been a tire to spend a century in the war. The threat posed by the terrible enemy has reduced the Magical Girl Crusader on several occasions. Therefore, for many Magical Girls to continue to participate in this war like a warrior, it is a very heavy pressure. After all, the magic girls are mostly ordinary people before they become magic girls: two-thirds of them are elementary school girls, junior high school girls, high school girls, and the other third are college girls, housewives, professional women, and even As there are some men who do n’t know what to say, almost everyone is involved in ordinary social activities in ordinary daily life, and has nothing to do with war.

The outbreak of the Third World War was so sudden. Under the temptation of mysterious forces, in the dark clouds of the war, these ordinary ordinary people chose to fight, and then realized in the battle that this war and his original intentions were full of enthusiasm and whim. , Or when full of revenge, the war you want to participate in is completely different.

Their enemies are not human beings, even if they have a human form, they have been completely distorted within. All who want to defeat these enemies, educate these enemies, let these enemies taste the pain of failure, or want to save them, all do not work. It is fundamentally unsuitable.

The only way to keep yourself safe, to make the world peaceful, and to save innocent people is to kill them and kill those monsters, whether they are humanoid or nonhumanoid, but they are so many in number and their ability is so outstanding that people are In battle, one can only feel despair and madness more and more deeply, wondering whether oneself and others can really defeat them, and when will the day of victory come?

The one who thinks that he is right and right is losing ground, even if the magical girls bet on their lives, they still seem insignificant in the enemy's frenzy. So, even if it is correct, what does it do? Madoka is very clear that such doubts are spreading in the magical girl crusade, and he is also confused.

Madoka does not regret becoming a magical girl, nor does she feel that she is doing a wrong thing. She just feels that she is not smart enough. Besides fighting and fighting, she can't find any other solution to the problem, and she At the same time, I feel that this kind of battle may be compelling, but it is definitely not a good way to solve the problem-she often feels happy to save several people after the battle, while feeling from the situation without reversal Something suffocating and annoying, she couldn't describe what it was, but there was such an intangible thing that was approaching herself and others, and it was so unknown, so powerful, that she could not describe it, And full of powerlessness.

Madoka tries to describe how she feels to the people around her, hoping that those smart people who look seem to be able to give a definite answer so that she can clearly know that the creepy, invisible, but facing herself in the dark What is waiting for someone to approach, what exactly is the enemy. However, the people around them could not give this answer, and they could not even feel what Madoka felt.

Madoka ’s closest friend was the first to join her in becoming the two other magical girls. Sister Xue and Xiaomei also felt incredible about her problem. They were willing to believe Madoka. Madoka was very grateful for this, but This kind of trust is not enough to let her get rid of the confusion in that thinking, and the instinctive feeling of unknown, and the fear that emerged in the face of the unknown that only she felt.

Madoka feels that if this continues, everyone, including himself, will die. She didn't want to die, but before that, she didn't want those comrades, friends and relatives who got along with them to die. If she can, she is willing to use her own death to exempt these people from death. However, no gods responded to her plea. While fighting, she felt deep helplessness. It was like watching the car that she and her companions were riding towards the cliff, but there was no sound to warn. No one can do anything that can change this result. Only when others are concerned about mentioning, bravely smile.

Madoka didn't collapse because she treated herself well and loved others deeply, but every time she thought, she could only be deeply troubled by herself.

She likes to stand on the wall, follow the path where there is no end, walk through the road paved by stairs and stones, avoid the pipes of the black holes, when she walks, she can see upwards, When the walls and passages are also spread out densely, there will be an idea of ​​"there must be a correct road among so many roads" to disperse the haze in her heart, making her feel that she feels at a loss because she lacks " "Navigation", unable to choose the correct one from these dense roads, and even attached too much to the wall itself and ignored the passage above the wall.

Recently, Madoka ran into a big man, the highest commander of the network ball, "Going Fire." In surprise and anxiety, Madoka tried to describe what he felt to him, but the fire escape did not give her a definite answer, but instead let her not think so much, this kind of thing should be troubled by adults like them. ——From those words, even the dull Madoka, you can feel that the other party still treats these magical girls as "children who don't understand the world", even if you and others have participated in so many life and death fighting.

Madoka doesn't feel that she is being humiliated, because she is very keenly aware that there is a huge gap between seeing her own standards and those of others. The standards of the two are different, and the angle of view of the problem is also different. Even if the fire gives an answer, it may not be the answer that Madoka tries to know-that is the correct fire, not the correct Madoka.

As a result, Madoka can only be lost, until now.

"Hmm ...? Are you still worrying about that kind of thing?" Suddenly the voice came from under her feet and startled Madoka. When she recovered, she felt a little thing jump on her shoulder. She didn't panic because it was Chubby, making her a strange life of magical girl.

Chubby is something like a cat and a rabbit. It doesn't seem to die, but he can't see any other ability besides turning people into magical girls. Compared with the enemy, compared with the magic girl, compared with some ordinary people, it looks particularly weak. However, is it hard inside? Madoka sometimes thinks so. She had no idea what Chubby was thinking behind the silence and smile, but in most conversations, it was indifferent to the tragic world and the people right now.

Even if she didn't want to, Madoka had to agree with some smart people among the magical girls: Qiubi is a monster, and those monsters killed by others like him, in fact, there is no substantive difference, but only on a temporary stand It's biased towards the internet ball-can't even say ~ www.readwn.com ~ It's biased towards the magic girl.

The magical girl produced by its mysterious power is nothing to him, no one can know at all. Everyone known to Madoka has a strong vigilance against such a Chubby. Madoka wants to believe in Chubby, but she doesn't know how to express this trust. She can only touch Chubby's furry, weak and seemingly fragile body like pets.

Qiubi is free, but more often, he will stay with Madoka and talk to Madoka, but he will never answer any doubt of Madoka directly.

"Qiubi, is there really no way to change the world back to its original state?" This question, Madoka has been asked countless times, every time Qiubi will look at him from the left and right, so Madoka is gradually not expecting it this time Will answer positively. Chubby is incredible, but in this world, with the mysterious expansion, there are more even more incredible things, such as the repeater where he is at this time, everyone says that this is the most incredible thing in the world .

However, even a repeater has no way to put an end to the immediate war and bring everyone back to normal life. The world outside the repeater is miserable, and people live in a lot more painful wars than in the past. In the past, the Nazis who only knew in history lessons appeared in this world in such a real attitude, and the tragedy brought to people was more tragic than described in the textbooks. Death and painful death are far from describing the fear they bring to normal people.

Compared with those who suffer outside the repeater, Madoka feels that she has the power of a magical girl, and still depends on the power of the organization to settle herself of her family and friends. She must help those people, no matter how troubled they must find the world. The way to get back on track, even if you will face the crisis of life and death in battle. (To be continued.)