Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Dr. Ruan Li has done a lot of research on the situation of "White Claudia", including the description of it in my diary. Of course, she is more inclined to see what she sees. Arrived, this is understandable. In this world of repeaters, if local people can perceive "the end of the world", then they will be more or less aware of the problem of "white Claudia", but when they have this kind of awareness What happens when cognition produces intersection? There is no answer to this question for me. The people around me, Dr. Ruan Li who is closest to this situation, completely regard us as "psychiatric patients" affected by "white Claudia".

Different from the reality of the hospital, and also from the illusion of the end of the world, in this world of repeaters, the existence of "white Claudia" is the most representative of the "end of the world". Just like in the illusion of doomsday, any "inexplicable situation" can be blamed on "fate and mystery"; in the reality of the hospital, any "strange occurrence" can be regarded as "the end of the syndrome caused by the virus. Illusion "; in this world of repeaters, any" unusual thing "can also be regarded as" an end-of-life phenomenon with white Claudia as the core ".

These three manifestations have a common characteristic of the source and core of anomalies, weirdness and contradictions, all of which have a certain degree of "difficult to understand" and "unsolvable". It can be regarded as "inadequate human science and technology and currently unsolvable ≯, w ■ ww.", Or conceptually "absolutely unsolvable", because there is no theory and no process in the process from the end to the end. Enough time to make it "solvable". Assume "if time is enough". Or it is meaningless to assume that "if human theory can be taken one step further", it makes people feel anxious and desperate.

I think that Dr. Ruan Li will make all the previous decisions, as well as changes in attitudes, contradictions and hesitations. It is she who is aware of this situation and feels this anxiety and despair. In order to maintain their own psychological balance, they have such performance. Perhaps, where I didn't notice it, in fact, her uneasy mentality also caused her to have an illusion, or a wrong judgment. However, her strong anti-stress ability allows her to maintain her mainstay image in front of everyone.

Such a doctor, Ruan Li, I think is very remarkable. Because I can personally feel how painful it is to try to fight against such a fate in the anxiety that “the end of the world cannot be stopped”. It's not a pain in the heart, but more importantly, it is mentally difficult to load.

It was in this situation that Dr. Ruan Li was pushed to the front desk. When I said that I was willing to help her. I can't look back. Even if she is in this world of repeaters. A member of the Doomsday Truth, and everything she does will be a factor in promoting the development of the Doomsday Truth.

Obviously the enemy of the Doomsday Truth, the mysterious expert who is least willing to see the "paradise" spread, but must participate in the research of "paradise" in person, and may need to assist Dr. Ruan Li to spread it in the future. It is indeed extremely ironic. Although Dr. Ruan Li ’s doomsday doctrine is not the same as what I had known in the past, and not all of them are negative. However, it also shows the characteristics of the cult that I know in many details. And it keeps sliding towards the abyss. I can almost be sure that in this world, the doomsday truth religion has inevitably embarked on the old road, and such a change is a macro, as if it should be in harmony with the "doomsday", and the hospital reality and the illusion of the end The situation has deep-rooted changes. I can feel the end of the process, or a destiny ending that is scripted.

Even so, I cannot object to the cooperation between Dr. Ruan Li and the seminar. Because, she is willing to cooperate with the seminar to carry out "paradise" research, the original intention and theory is based on her own professionalism, "White Claudia" after analyzing the decision before making a decision. If it is completely sensible, of course it is not true, but I still believe that if she can think of a better way, or if someone tells her a better way, she will definitely change. However, no one told her that she also Not found.

I think she was lonely before I promised her. She can't prove her right, but she also needs to go further and further on this unfalsifiable path. So, I can't leave her alone and go on like this. Among them, of course, it is not only rational thinking about her own plans, but also, she wants to be with her, witnessing her success or failure, survival or death.

In this way, I will not particularly oppose one of her proposals, or even make my own claims. To accompany her, to honor her, to watch her, I think this is what I really and only can do for her.

Dr. Ruan Li is lying, cheating people, and using some inhumane methods for some experiments with extremely low probability. These situations have been hidden in her body, showing signs. I can smell the coldness and cruelty hidden in her calm, dominant conversation, and the deeper maliciousness, which is a terrifying, rotten taste. Especially during this seminar, when I entered the villa and got my answer, the taste became more intense. I could n’t help but think of the crow, the black life, the unknown representative, the scavenger, but yet again Some of the religious meanings are as indispensable as theorems, and if they are missing, it will make the world function badly.

The horror of Dr. Ruan Li is deeply hidden in her mid-column attitude. I do n’t know that the people who have been in close contact with her, such as Mitsui Tsukazu, fitness coaches and fortune tellers, have felt it. And in my feelings, this kind of horror makes people feel scared, but it also makes people feel at ease and calm, as if to reflect what she once said: I used her image I felt to shape " River".

After she said something like this, maybe it was a psychological factor. In short, I see more and more similarities between her and "Jiang". More precisely, she is similar to all people's "Jiang", but it is also very great. It's enough to distinguish the difference, but it can't make people feel completely. There is nothing to do with each other, it is like, from "Jiang", from the characteristics of the humanoid Jiang, each cut a small piece, and then pieced together into Dr. Ruan Li.

however. This description actually reminds me of Zhenjiang when I think about it.

If in this world of repeaters, Dr. Ruan Li has such a close relationship with "Jiang", then in the reality of the hospital, she should also maintain some contact with "Jiang" in terms of identity and background, It is still not enough for researchers who only view her as a "virus". and. In the reality of the hospital, Dr. Ruan Li and "Zhen Jiang" are completely two people.

No, if you think about it this way. What does the "real river" in the hospital actually look like? I suddenly remembered that I created an impression of the "dead Zhenjiang" from the "illusion of suspected memory" and the description of "Zhenjiang" in the data. Moreover, what cannot be refuted is this kind of shaping. It must exist in the illusion of apocalypse, the impact on the mental patient Zhenjiang's impression. Even if it was kept in a hospital. The file about "Zhenjiang" is also very simple.

As a result, in my memory, the "most real", "dead", "deeply in love". What kind of appearance does Zhen Jiang "eaten by Gao Chuan" and "commit to Sakuya and others" look like? And how many ingredients are there in this look, is there really no doubt?

I was a little stunned. However, no one can answer the question of a dead person in any way. How to leave the most vivid and true gesture in the memory of a mental patient? How to confirm? In the reality of the hospital, the dead Zhenjiang, even the photos are old and blurry.

When I looked at Dr. Ruan Li, I couldn't help thinking. Did it even appear in my illusion when I was in the hospital? In my memory, the image of the dead Zhenjiang was also because I subconsciously used Dr. Ruan Li in the hospital. Make up for those obscure places?

In the reality of the hospital, there is no detailed record of the life of the orphanage in the memory of Gao Chuan and the tragedy that occurred after being infected with the "virus". It is an illusion and association after seeing the crude data. Complete the puzzle in your mind. In fact, it is impossible for the hospital to fully grasp the situation at that time, because it was specifically mentioned in the information that when their people arrived, the orphanage was completely burned down, and many people were burned to death, no, exactly Say, Saki Ye and I, they may be the last survivors. As for whether Gao Gao has eaten Zhenjiang, there is also no detailed record. It is just an attitude when people mention the events of the year. It seems a bit ambiguous consensus.

Even when Dr. Ruan Li expressed his position, he often did not specifically state that this kind of "eating Zhenjiang" was actually a kind of biological behavior or an insidious psychological behavior. When interpreting the existence of "Crow Quark", it focuses on the analysis of psychological mapping.

Yes, in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li, "Crow" is the most representative psychological image of me as a patient.

However, at this moment, in my opinion, it is Dr. Ruan Li who is in front of him, getting closer and closer to the image of "crow".

Dr. Ruan Li and Mr. Mitsui Tsukasa talked about the topic of "murderers". Although they had a rest, everyone still couldn't get rid of the mysterious events of the rest point, which brought about the spiritual shock and pressure on themselves. Some of them are Mitsui Tsukazu himself. He showed great excitement. In any case, even if it was dangerous, the chance was low, and he wanted to find out the idea of ​​the murderer.

However, the content and rhythm of the conversation have always been in the hands of Dr. Ruan Li. Her calm, pointed tone, like a crow standing on a telegraph pole, looked at every pedestrian passing under her, and her eyes seemed to be cast from another world, full of This mysterious attraction makes the atmosphere look unusual.

Dr. Ruan Li's voice has a strong hypnotic character. In particular, she is particularly good at this kind of hypnotic guidance, so that it seems to be imprinted in instinct. I have smelled the weird smell, but listening to her talk, Mitsui Tsukazu and others, feel the slightest feeling. In my opinion, it is a weird scene.

The topic inevitably leans on "White Claudia".

"In any case, the murderer always needs white Claudia." Dr. Ruan Li said: "Coincidentally, according to my investigation, white Claudia originated here in the proven history. We The mental hospital to be visited was a monastery a long time ago, and the white Claudia was in the process of the establishment and destruction of the monastery. It has a special meaning. I heard that in nearby places, some cultural relics are often found. Thing, the flower that is very similar to white Claudia was also depicted on it. "

"You mean, we just need to stand by and wait for the rabbit?" Mitsui Tsukazu seems to feel that he is talking about ideas. "In terms of psychology. White Claudia plays a central role in the murderer's success, so he must also There have been many investigations on the situation of White Claudia, and even some deep feelings will be produced. "

Dr. Ruan Li's statement weakened his relationship with the seminar, but strengthened the relationship between the so-called "killer" and the local. If you follow this line, you might find the secret of the seminar.

However, what exactly does she think of the "killer" problem? Is it really as she said. Is there really such a "killer" lurking in the journey? If so, who would it be? These problems are difficult to withstand scrutiny from the perspective of the illusion of doomsday. That mysterious event, in the information I got, was not created by a certain murderer, but the result of the interaction of several mysterious forces. However, in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li. The "mystery" factor does not exist. Well, it can be inferred. Compared with the explanation of "the interaction of several forces", of course, it is more like the intensification of differences within the Doomsday Truth Church, which in turn produces the "killer" situation, which is more "reasonable and reasonable."

No matter whether the "killer" exists or is a person, it will eventually be involved. Of course it is the doomsday truth itself. Because the doomsday truth is the most active part of the study of white Claudia.

Looking at the same thing from different angles, the differences can be so great that it is hard to imagine.

However, no matter what angle you look at this seminar. The doomsday truth religion must be one of the protagonists, and occupy a dominant position, it is already certain. From the perspective of doomsday illusions, it is also one of the sponsors of the seminar, and the expectations of the seminar itself are also quite "just". The extremes in the means should probably be just normal conditions. Then, the elements of the doomsday truth in the seminar will be more obscured by the background.

In this way, Dallas, which may not be exactly the same as the research in the seminar, has emerged more and more clearly, the color of the doomsday truth that I am familiar with. Reminiscent of his identity as a "hospital reality", it is a little surprising that he actually plays such a role here. I began to feel that this Mr. Dallas who was acting together in the "hospital reality" was not just a simple identity as a "journalist". His search for motives to tie colors and Dorothy, and the time to find me, were not as simple and accidental as they were at the time.

He was obviously connected with those who were against "hospitals" and those who were against Dr. Ander. The so-called "lurkers" put it bluntly, that is, some spies, what they will do is very easy to think of. Dallas has a relationship with these people, and now it seems that it is not "involved in ignorance." Perhaps he was already one of them, and he is still a veteran.

I remembered the clues I buried before the death of "Hospital Reality" and the disappearance of Dallas ... I will definitely see you again when I go back.

Regarding the situation of "White Claudia" and "Paradise", Dr. Ruan Li used the cover of words to hide the truth deeply, but because it still reveals the taste of truth, it can also make people fall into this. In the explanation.

"Do we still need to remove or burn all the white Claudia?" The fortune-teller sighed. "I really hope it doesn't grow much."

"No, if you want to find a lot of white Claudia, you must enter the mental hospital." Dr. Ruan Li said.

"If something like this happens in a mental hospital, isn't it worse? The fitness coach said.

"But in contrast, in order to protect the safety of mental hospitals, the best precautions are also taken." Mitsui Tsukazu said: "Ms. Ruan means waiting for the murderer to cast himself in the urn? But since the murderer also follows Coming here, it is very likely that I want to get the support of the seminar. I think that this kind of effect can already be seen, the seminar will not refuse. "

"What do you think is the purpose of the seminar here?" Dr. Ruan Li asked: "The seminar's research on white Claudia is the earliest and has always been the largest. No evil, just It ’s because I do n’t want to, not because I do n’t have the ability. The person who can use white Claudia as a raw material to make something is definitely not just the killer. Outside, maybe the ability of the murderer to show is amazing, By that time, he can only be considered a little fart boy in this seminar. Assuming that you catch this person, then the possibility of passing the final review will be greater. "

Dr. Ruan Li said this, but instead, the three of Mitsui Tsukazu appeared to me, and one of them said: "I remember that in Gao Chuan's diary, White Claudia is a cult called Doomsday Truth. Special products, then, is there any inevitable connection between the doomsday truth and this seminar? "

"Of course, but this is something you only need to know after you become a formal companion." Dr. Ruan Li received a cocktail from the passing waiter and said, "We must first focus on white Claudia Research on the body as much as possible to ensure that the information we have is not inferior to the murderer, as long as we are sure that we are not affected by white Claudia, we can ensure our safety when facing the psychedelic drugs of the enemy. "

As soon as the sounding words came out, everyone thought it was the truth. Since the enemy will definitely act around "White Claudia", it is still undecided whether the seminar on "White Claudia" is also being studied. At least, from the perspective of the researcher, of course, it is impossible to hope that other people are also peeping at what they are looking for.

Mitsui Tsukazu seemed to feel that he had cleared his head, and the expression on his face could not help but relax, as if he had completely accepted Dr. Ruan Li's statement.

"Is there any information about Claudia White?" The fitness coach asked.

Dr. Ruan Li put three disks in the palm of his hands like a magic trick: "This is the most detailed information I found. The seminar refused to release."

Takeo Mitsui took the disk and ate another bite of barbecue. He said goodbye to us: "I want to go back to my room to see the information."

No one stopped him. After Mr. Mitsui Tsukazu left, fitness coaches and fortune tellers also said goodbye. They seemed to be caught in curiosity and walked back to the villa with some excitement. But as far as I am concerned, I do not think that the white Claudia's material has such appeal.

"It's appropriate to inspire their attention to white Claudia without mentioning the end of the world. Is that appropriate?" I asked Dr. Ruan Li, "White Claudia will affect people, won't it?"

"What we need is an expert who will not be influenced by White Claudia, no, it should be said that he will not be affected by this level of relief." Dr. Ruan Li said: " So, letting them touch white Claudia is the best way to verify itself. "

"It's like verifying that arsenic will die, how much will it die, just need people to eat arsenic a little bit?" I said, "It's a primitive and cruel way."

"Because we don't have a better way." Dr. Ruan Li said: "Even if the situation of the end of the world is clearly stated, people who can't be separated from the influence of white Claudia will never believe it. Instead, they will focus on There are no boundaries with our research topics in other places, and there are even contradictions. There is not much time, and we cannot tolerate this happening. "

"So, when you talk about the mysterious events that night, how much of that explanation is serious? Mom." I asked.

"It must be related to Claudia White. This is certain." Dr. Ruan Li said calmly: "But, is the murderer one, or a few? What is the identity? What is the ins and outs of the incident? It's not an easy one Questions answered. However, I do n’t think it ’s the result of personal behavior. ”

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