Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Whether Marshall ’s anomaly is the role of the mysterious species, to find out this matter, we must find a second experimental body other than Zuo Chuan, and now we have two people in our hands who can complete this experiment-female Foreman and female teacher. ? Top? Point? Novel ww I originally hoped they could get rid of the erosion of the mysterious seeds, but at first I really had no clue, and secondly, I was not sure that I could find other mysterious seeds, so the two were selected It seems inevitable for the experimenter. I once again felt the existence of "script", just as I had many choices, but under the interaction of various factors, I still made this decision. The female foreman and the female teacher fell into my hands as if they were led by some kind of fate. I ca n’t say that all of this was in the calculation of Father Edward, but it was obvious that Father Edward ’s actions played a part in it. effect. But even so, it can be said that Father Edward's own thoughts and actions were not driven by a greater wave of fate? Has it done away from the "script"?

Of course not, because this is an illusion of doomsday, not paradise, so everything that Father Edward did for the doomsday truth is free to play within the scope of the "script." Even if he deliberately implanted mysterious seeds for Zuo Chuan, Marceau, the female foreman and the female teacher, deliberately let me find the connection and follow this clue action, it seems to guide the plot, but it is still Just playing his own role.

In fact, I do n’t have many choices. If I want to know Marshall ’s situation, I have to do something that fits the calculations of others and the planning of the “script”. I can observe everything that is happening in the "doom illusion" from the perspective of "hospital reality". However, unless I can treat everything that is happening in the "doom illusion" indifferently, my choice. It is always impossible to escape from your role. When I exist in the "doom illusion" and treat all this with whole-hearted emotions, I am still a person in this world. In a sense, even if I returned to "Hospital Reality", I never gave up my role in "Doom Realm".

I can observe and understand "doom illusion" from the perspective of "hospital reality", but. However, it cannot be completely at the angle of one side to observe the other side. Therefore, I can do nothing about the "script". Others cannot see the existence of the "script", but play their own role. I know that the "script" exists, but out of their own will, they have to play their own role in the "script." Therefore, there is no difference between me and others.

I am not kind at all, nor do I have the power of kindness. I want to save more people, just like female foremen and female teachers, so that they can live according to their own ideas, but they cannot stop the spiritual erosion of mysterious seeds on them. Perhaps, at the end of mental erosion, their completely transformed ideas can be implemented through action, then. They are "live and fight according to their own ideas" in the true sense, but at that time. I had to kill them. And before their future becomes like that, before they have a choice, I have to decide their choice, and this is just to observe another person who has nothing to do with them. Yes, even if the clues are found from the two. Defining Marceau ’s anomaly, indeed, or indeed not the role of the mysterious seed, still cannot solve this problem.

The experience of the female foreman and female teacher deeply saddened me. It was their lack of choice that made me see my choice. I decide their future, and who decides my future? But even if I felt the same about their encounters, even if I felt like a puppet, I couldn't let go of my heart, ignoring Marceau in this world.

I love all of them, whether it is in the past doomsday illusion, or in the present doomsday illusion, as well as the reality of the hospital and the world of this repeater. Even at the end, I will bury the world where they are, and even themselves, I still love them, and all I do is just try to save them from a higher angle-this reason is so sad In exchange for others, I must blame each other for mental illness.

Yes, when I decided to do this, I already had consciousness. This is like a joke. I am a clown who knows that this is a joke but wants to perform in tears. My heart is full of pain, but I still have to smile and tell others that if I hurt you, it is because I love you deeply. I can predict that when the world falls into the end, when the night, eight scenes, and Marceau of the world witness the end, endure the end, and know the world based on their own survival, to understand the source of the end, you may feel deceived Extremely painful. Perhaps, they are totally unable to understand the situation and reason that my "rescue" is based on, because, besides mental patients, who would believe that the world they live in is just some kind of mysterious "virus" "What about the unreal things created? After all, they themselves, the others who live here like them, are so real.

But I just gathered them with justified reasons such as "save the world", "protect people" and so on.

Just as they would not believe the story I wrote according to their own experience, they could only look at me from the perspective of a "mental patient" after all. If they are unable to understand and accept, they will feel pain because of their intimate relationship with me, and feel guilty for the pain of others because of me. Perhaps one day, they will decide to stop me and stand on the opposite side of me. I envisioned such a possibility, knowing that I must be suffering because of this development, but I still will not stop my pace, so this is consciousness.

I have the consciousness to carry all this.

Therefore, I can abandon the pity and kindness to anyone and carry out my plan. Just like, I can abandon the female foreman and female teacher just to understand Marshall's situation, and let them become the experimental body. I may be able to change the method, for example, to find Father Edward and listen to the explanation from his mouth. However, I do not trust Father Edward, nor can I trust the "facts" that he says from him.

"We can let one of them replant the mysterious seed." Zuo Chuan suggested that the tone was calm and decisive, and this even showed her coldness. Zuo Chuan was not a sentimental righteous person, she was a human weapon born for war, "Look at the people who have the mysterious species, and the people who have been taken out of the mysterious species. After becoming an electronic demon user, it will produce What kind of difference makes it more clear how strong the influence of the mysterious seed is. "

"Are you worried about the mysterious seeds in your body? Zuo Chuan." I couldn't help asking.

"Of course not." Zuo Chuan replied with a reasonable expression, but he was randomly lost in thought, "I don't know why I don't worry, but. I really don't have such emotions, nor do I feel my situation, and these two women Can be generalized. "

"Isn't it possible to prove that I am different from them, but just take it for granted that I am different from them?" I understood Zuo Chuan's situation.

"Yes, even if the same mysterious seed is implanted, even if they contact the electronic demon, it will produce a situation similar to me and that Marceau. I still feel that I am special." Zuo Chuan and I The eyes of Shi Shi were unshakable. "Believe your own feelings and believe that you are different. This is what I learned from my master."

"Of course you are special. Because, your mystery is different, it is not simply the result of the role of the mystery." Because, what really made the former Zuochuan into the current Zuochuan is the most decisive thing. It lies in the erosion of the "jiang". Like Jiangchuan, who has disappeared, she may have originated from Dorothy's adjustment of the "script". However, "Jiang" is more basic and lower-level than "Script". Whether it is Dorothy or the mysterious species, the impact on Zuo Chuan is absolutely impossible to exceed that of Jiang.

"Jiang" is so special, and Zuochuan eroded by it. Of course, it is special. In terms of particularity, Zuo Chuan is indeed closer to Marceau. From the experimental point of view, the most appropriate is the second Zuochuan experimental body, but Zuochuan's particularity. It is not so easy to copy, so you can only look forward to the female foreman and female teachers.

I took a mysterious seed from my pocket and decided to implant it in the female teacher's body. The religious belief of the female foreman should be regarded as that she has a higher degree of agreement with the mysterious seed, so even after the mysterious seed is taken out, the traces left by the mysterious seed are relatively clearer, so she can To better determine the changes in her life after exposure to the electronic demon. In this world of repeaters, since the belief in the truth of the end has always been circulating, there must be more people like the female foreman. These people are the seeds of Christians who are closer to the doomsday truth than ordinary people. Confirming the situation of the female foreman is equivalent to determining the situation of the doomsday truth in the future of this repeater world. I think that in the present mysterious diffusion, it is impossible for this group of people not to touch the electronic demon at all.

After the female teacher replants the mysterious seed, it is also representative. What she represents is the ordinary people who are implanted into the mysterious seed after the mysterious seed spreads. Whether they first contact the electronic demon summoning system or the mysterious species first, when they have the mystery brought by one of them, they will inevitably contact the other. Both of them exist on the same ordinary person at the same time. What will happen in the end can be seen in the female teacher.

Compared with the two, the aggressive nature of the mysterious seed is naturally more serious in the female foreman.

The materialized mysterious seed is not as mysterious as it was in ideology. The whole looks more like inorganic matter. I placed it on the forehead of the female teacher, and it turned into a pool of liquid and penetrated into the pores. After accepting the mysterious seed again, the female teacher did not show any abnormal state, but some tight brows gradually spread out, and the damage caused when the mysterious seed was taken out seemed to be repaired by re-implantation. Zuo Chuan looked at her with some strangeness.

"How is it different from mine?" She asked.

"It's no different." I replied, "It's just that during the whole process, you are more awake and you immediately gain mysterious power. However, this one is just an ordinary person."

"I haven't felt that there is any difference between my body and ordinary people." Zuo Chuan thought for a while and said, "Maybe, the physique is better, the knowledge is absorbed more quickly, and the senses are more sensitive, but, and normal people In comparison, there is no qualitative difference. "

"Although they are artificial, they are still humans, aren't they?" I answered.

"No, various experimental data prove that artificial life like ours has defects in personality." Zuo Chuan thought for a while, but when he talked about it. But it did n’t produce a little emotion, just like explaining an insignificant thing, “In the beginning, the perfect warrior plan was not based on human beings. However, it was because of a personality defect. It was not reflected in the essence of life. There is a huge difference from normal people, so it is regarded as a failure. "Even when she claimed to be a" failure ", her eyes were still so calm that she could not make people think whether she had hoped for herself. More like humans.

"Do you want to be the same as ordinary people?" I couldn't help asking.

"No. Not at all." Zuo Chuan said quietly: "It is an incredible thing to be born with a mission. I was not born to be an ordinary person, and I never thought of becoming an ordinary person. It ’s just that when the data proves that although I am stronger than ordinary people, but there is no essential change, maybe I am disappointed. "

"So. You are not resisting becoming a mercenary?" I asked back.

"Yes. I don't resist, I don't think there is anything wrong. I accept that kind of life. Then, now I have a life in line with the mission, which is actually a surprise." Zuo Chuan's eyes appeared Fluctuation, I think that may be joy, I am not sure. However, I feel that if today's changes are needed and desired by Zuo Chuan. Then I will certainly be pleased.

"Did you know? Actually, you don't mean something like this. You have paid for what you don't know." I think of the erosion of "Jiang", the words of Dorothy and the disappearance of Jiangchuan. Zuo Chuan's existence and development are not without cost. They were born with a certain mission, and they must also step into this established fate. There is a precedent for Jiangchuan, and I ca n’t even be sure when Zuochuan will disappear from me and become another trap for Jiang. When things become like that, what can they do other than disappear?

I saw many people's involuntarily, and saw their own involuntarily. I also saw my own struggle from the struggle of many people. Even so, in the expectation of many people, they have harvested their beliefs. When I got Zuochuan and Jiangchuan, I also saw myself in them. Therefore, no matter what unsatisfactory things happened, I have never blamed them, even if Jiang Chuan has proved by themselves that they cannot be completely on my side, and this is not determined by their own will. Their birth stems from Dorothy's will, and their destiny is also under the control of color. Because of this, it is possible to become a trap against Jiang.

and I? Wasn't it because of Jiang's will? I couldn't help but think of it, so now I stand on the opposite side of tie color and Dorothy. Although it is not satisfactory, it is also an inevitable cause and effect. The world is wonderful, and life is not always what we originally expected. I have already realized this with my own pain.

"It doesn't matter, since I don't know it, it can be regarded as, I never have it. Isn't it great to lose something I never had in exchange for the life I want?" Zuo Chuan didn't think Say it intentionally. I looked at her like this, as if I saw myself in the past. I used to think that, but something that I have never been aware of does not mean that I do n’t own it, because it does n’t work because I did n’t realize it. How can a person be considered complete? What you have lost unconsciously, those things you have never realized, may not be so cheap.

However, since it has been lost, ideas like Zuo Chuan are also good. At least, she won't feel pain for losing those things. The so-called "pain" is a spiritual product after all. Happy because of ignorance, suffering because of knowing, maybe someone would rather know in pain and praise this kind of will, but it does not mean that the former must be really bad.

Although the human beings are closely connected with each other, they are not completely connected. It is impossible for a person to find out everything about another person. Many people think this is not a good thing, but they cannot prove that it is really not a good thing. Without knowing all of others, it is impossible to make decisions for the spiritual world of others. The so-called "good" or "bad", when only aimed at the scope of individuals, only the parties themselves can understand.

Zuo Chuan is serving me, but she also has the same side that I do n’t know. Even, when she appears happy, no matter how I use psychology to observe, I don't think it is false. I can really be sure, is she really as happy as this? Therefore, she said that it is a great choice to exchange what she has paid for her current life. I couldn't tell if she really felt that way. I just hope that she really feels so.

"Make a report of today's affairs and send it to John Bull." I shifted this heavy topic and told her.

"Master, don't you stay tonight?" Zuo Chuan looked at me with longing eyes. Her words were full of sexual hints, but I read other desires from her eyes. Maybe. For her, the deep and close communication between men and women is not just physical pleasure, but also sensory enjoyment. I do n’t know, I do n’t know anything, but Zuo Chuan is so eager, so. I will not refuse. I got a lot from her. I also hope that she can get more from me. No matter what she wants. Because, I do n’t know what she wants or what she thinks deep inside. So, I just hope she can get it herself.

The night is deep, and people's feelings will also be infected by the night, becoming deeper than any time. I don't actually like this deep feeling. Embrace Zuo Chuan, feel her body, feel the tight curves and temperature, and after trying her best, you can't sleep without thinking. This is the best moment of the night.

I feel like I'm falling. This feeling is too familiar to be able to generate too much emotion. When it seems that there is an endless sense of falling, and an endless darkness, a sense of fear that surrounds my body strikes When I was too familiar, I didn't have more ideas. All the speculations have already been listed in my mind countless times, and it turns out that these speculations never seem to be proven, because, I can't get in touch with things that bring fear in a direct and essential way. I am just a mental patient of human beings, and the limitations of life forms make it impossible for me and it to understand what it is even when it is the closest.

The only thing I can be sure of is that, first of all, it is definitely not a human form, nor a human being. Fujiang and others are it, but it is not theirs. It can only be felt, it can also produce phenomena, but what is observed from the opposite of the phenomenon is not the real one. Perhaps, when stripping all senses, it can be known that it is in its own body, and only spirit and sensation can be the closest distance to human beings, but even so, by these idealistic, illusory ways, the outline is revealed And it's still not really it. That is free from all fog, the most essential thing is, where and how it exists. This question may not be answered by humans.

Said it is a "virus", but it is definitely not a "virus" in the normal sense.

Probably, all the concepts that humans describe themselves have no meaning to it.

So, in my eyes, is it unique? I do n’t know, I can only believe that this is the case, even if I ca n’t say a little reason.

As if ~ www.readwn.com ~ This darkness is also a representation of it, not originally thought, it is at the bottom of this dark abyss, but when I fell into this darkness, it was already In its arms. Endless darkness and incomprehensible circumstances bring endless reverie and fear, but it is warm again.

I think it is the most consistent with the description of "God" in occultism, and for patients with Doomsday Syndrome, for Doomsday Illusion, it is probably really a god.

Human beings cannot understand the gods. This is an absolute concept. If someone thinks they understand the gods, then look back at the first sentence. Conversely, a **** who can be understood is not a god. So, I can't understand it, I can't understand, why, I will become the special one, not others. However, this is definitely not a reason to question that one is special.

If, I do n’t even have this belief, then all I have done so far is just a joke. Therefore, no matter what others say, even if they say that I am wrong, I must believe that I am right, even if I am ashamed.

I fell and felt that I was embraced by it. In this endless darkness, silence and fall, my heart is at peace. (To be continued ...)