Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Dr. Ruan Li told me this amazing thing this evening: She did not see Fu Jiang. novel.

"Isn't everyone busy during dinner together?" I asked. Although I don't think Dr. Ruan Li is lying, but this matter must be strange. If she really didn't see Fu Jiang, what did the previous scene of talking and laughing mean? I know that I am a mental patient, but in the analysis of morbidity, there are some differences between me and Dr. Ruan Li's analysis. It is this difference that makes me not feel wrong. Because, if I am wrong, then my cognition of the whole world will completely collapse, and my own existence will be completely denied. My past constitutes my present, and denying my past is tantamount to denying myself. Such a result is no longer a "psychotic" problem, but involves the birth and death of a personality. However, if I am correct, then how can Dr. Ruan Li see Fu Jiang explain? I think it can only be explained by "mystery".

Since this world is just a manifestation of consciousness, the "mystery" of ideology is sufficient to explain any anomalies. However, I am also very clear that using unexplainable "mystery" to explain all things that I cannot understand is actually very absurd.

I stopped thinking here and there was a voice singing in my mind. I did n’t know what it was talking about, but I knew what it meant. If I continue to think along these issues, there will be dire consequences. Without mentioning what will happen to the Doomsday Illusion, my world, my cognition, my personality, I constructed it based on what I saw, heard, and thought. My observation and cognition of the world, and in this observation and cognition, the existence of the confirmed self will collapse.

I am not a person who does not recognize the real, but the problem is the contradiction implied by Dr. Ruan Li ’s abnormality. Does it really reflect reality? Especially when Dr. Ruan Li's form of existence is still to be discussed, which "truth" she observed, and the "truth" I have observed, should there be a conflict when there is a conflict? Some questions are unquestionable. I must believe in my own truth. If I want to find true truth, then I must also believe that true truth must include the truth I know. It's not just conflicts and contradictions. I always have this idea, based on my own reality, to find a greater reality, is the correct approach.

The impact of Dr. Ruan Li's words on me was huge, but it was not completely subversive, because, despite the world Dr. Ruan Li saw. It must be different from me, but. There is also no evidence to prove that what she sees is the truth, even if she speaks the truth, it may have a more rigorous logic, and it is sure that it is not disturbed by "mystery".

"I'm sure that everyone has spoken with Fu Jiang." I told Dr. Ruan Li that way.

"Okay. Let's take a look at the video." Dr. Ruan Li said: "You also know that I have installed many cameras in this house, and it will leave the most authentic images. I hope you are mentally prepared, Achuan. In the past I I have refused to show you too many images because you were young at the time. I think it will give you too much impact and have a bad effect on your treatment. And, at that time, your condition was not serious. So far-I have been wondering why, after showing signs of improvement, suddenly your condition is getting worse. What happened to you? What did you do in the week you disappeared? What's wrong? I'm upset, Achuan, I love you, you are my child, I will do my best to save you, I know you don't believe everything I say, you have your own thoughts and cognition, Try to prove my incorrectness in terms of thinking logic, world view and philosophy. But you must know that what you can prove is not correct, and it cannot prove that everything I told you is wrong. "She stared at me, calm Eye of Brighter than usual, "Yes, you know, even if it is consciously excluded, but the subconscious mind accepted this result-his thinking cannot fully prove that Dr. Ruan Li is wrong, that is, he cannot be falsified. You know, The difference between unprovable and unfalsifiable. "

As Dr. Ruan Li said, I know what "cannot be falsified". Although "not falsifiable" is a concept for a thing, what cannot be falsified means that it is theoretically possible Use it to speculate more answers, and these answers can't be determined to be wrong.

I turned my attention to the computer screen, and Dr. Ruan Li began to play the image of the dinner. This image could not be tampered with from the time, location or the image itself. Of course, the premise of "tampering" does not include "mystery". When this world is recognized as a world composed of repeaters, all the non-mysterious worlds can be judged by strict logic. Everything will have a reason to question in essence. I am unwilling to question everything in this attitude, because doing so means that I can question the authenticity and existence of Dr. Ruan Li, who has left, and all the inevitable existence that constitutes them. nature. In other words, when I question the whole world, what can be believed in this questioned world?

Dr. Ruan Li, Saki Ye and Bajing, these people close to me, the people I love, and my perception of them in the past are different. This difference can be explained by many reasons, but, Once they explain it by questioning the whole world, the differences they show become unacceptable.

I stopped thinking. I do n’t think I can think about it anymore. I know very well that when a person wants to “question the world” from time to time, that person will definitely become a complete lunatic. I am a mental patient. From what I have done, what I think, I do not deny that I am a madman, but being a madman who questions the world is still somewhat beyond my tolerance.

It is this kind of resistance that has relieved me, because this kind of psychology at least proves that I still know how I should live, who I want to be, and my knowledge of myself There is no boundless madness.

even. At the moment when the video began to show, I thought, maybe, I shouldn't be so excited to repel what is shown in the video, and what Dr. Ruan Li told me. There must be some kind of explanation that perfectly reconciles the current contradictions. Because the consciousness of the world, the universe and humans is so vast and vast, hiding more in the dark than exposed in the known. No one can prove that he is completely correct, and is never completely wrong. And it is precisely this that gives the seemingly conflicting cognition between the two people the possibility of reconciliation, to splice each other's correctness, and to filter out their respective errors, and thus gain mutual recognition.

When I think of the broadness of the world, the universe and human consciousness, I can't help but pop up the popular science films I saw as a child. That magnificent sight beyond ordinary people's thinking. Many questions are in the mouth of the popular science commentators. Unable to give an answer, and their voices reflect the doubts and reverie. There are too many "truths" in the vast and dark area that exceed the limits of human imagination to prove that people's own perceptions are incorrect.

And what is being shown now, Dr. Ruan Li tried to prove my wrong image. Isn't it similar to that truth?

People's cognition is still unable to spell out absolute truth in the face of self and foreign objects, so no matter what others see. The truths they understand are extremely precious, because the truths observed, recognized, and understood by individuals are not used to prove that the other party is incorrect, but to find more and more correct.

Because, when you must admit that your understanding and vision are limited, how can you prove that you are absolutely correct? How can one prove that another perspective and viewpoint that contradicts oneself is completely wrong?

When I thought of this place, the emotion that once boiled really calmed down. Dr. Ruan Li tried to prove that Fu Jiang did not exist. However, the incorrectness of this kind of proof did not need to be completed by questioning the world. Because even if Dr. Ruan Li is the most real existence in the end of the illusion, it does not mean that what she sees and the conclusions she draws are the only truth, because Dr. Ruan Li is only a person.

Dr. Ruan Li is just a "human psychologist". This is her limit. A "human psychologist" is impossible to be completely correct. However, it must also be admitted that what she said, what she saw, what she understood, and what she tried to prove must reflect a certain degree of authenticity.

Therefore, what I should do is not to resist what she said, to try to overturn her proof from a completely opposite angle, but from what she did, what she thought and what she presented In the evidence above, understand her, analyze her, and find out what part of her is true.

The video only played the scene on the dining table. Moreover, there was indeed no Fujiang in the video. Even the tableware she used did not exist, and her place was empty. Moreover, although the vacant seat can seat a person, it will appear crowded, and this crowded situation does not exist in my memory of dinner.

"In fact, if someone sits in that empty space, the people on both sides will definitely open some distance. Perhaps, in your delusion, the empty space between Zuo Chuan and Bajing is enlarged." Dr. Ruan Li freezes the image, Using the adjustment tool, pull the positions of Zuo Chuan and Ba Jing to the left and right, and then modify the positions of the other people beside them one by one. "Dr. Ruan Li said in a gentle tone:" You see, to make that vacant seat more than one person, the distance to be adjusted is only a little bit. And this small distance is very easy to form through imagination. "She made a gesture. On the table, everyone needs to adjust the distance to less than twenty centimeters. Even, just adjusting the angle of the chair is enough, and observe them in my direction, unless at the beginning. Observe carefully, otherwise, you will not be able to feel this change in the eating activity.

"Of course, in a realistic scenario, if a person can't sit in an empty seat, but must make room for her, then the movement of changing seats will be very large, and almost everyone will move around, which is easy to observe." Dr. Ruan Li said: "However, if it is just to satisfy the idea of" one more person participated in the meal ", rather than actually making a place, then it is easier to achieve-for Achuan, this kind of move Bit is a delusion that proves the meaning of 'that person exists'. "

With that said, she adjusted the image again. Point out that each person is involved in the meal activity, and each action is related to the vacancy: they are either picking food at that location, or they are talking to Zuochuan and Bajing. Then, the image turns to my point of view and replays these movements.

"Did you see it? You are only when they are bound to be in that position. It is delusional to come up with their communication with Fujiang." Dr. Ruan Li said, adjusting the angle of the image again, centering on herself in the image. From the perspective, you can be sure that I have never interacted with the vacancy from beginning to end. When I was talking, my eyes would definitely look at the interlocutor, but. From your position at that time, to infer my eyes, there is Possible misalignment. So, Achuan, you are only trying to prove the existence of Fu Jiang and deliberately interpret my movements and expressions. In fact, no one communicated with Fu Jiang at that time. "

I didn't speak because. Dr. Ruan Li ’s image shows no signs of forgery, and her interpretation of the image also possesses psychological logic. This image may still not be on all major premises that can be imagined. Prove that Dr. Ruan Li is completely correct. However, I have to admit one thing: even for Misaki and Bajing, Fujiang may indeed be "non-existent."

"I talked to Fu Jiang." I said, "If I'm talking to 'invisible friends', why don't others express doubts?"

"It's very simple." Dr. Ruan Li looked at me with pity and adjusted the image again: "You just think you are talking. Those conversations and interactions are all done in your mind. In reality, you have everything Not done. Your memory is very good, you should be able to record your interaction with Fujiang based on their conversation time with Misaki and Bajing? Then, you can take a look. At that time, you really have a dialogue with Fujiang Yet?"

The answer given by the video is: no.

There are many impressive moments in the dinner, but, based on those moments, the time I recorded in the impression, and the time when I communicated with Fu Jiang, was put in the video, but I am like a daze, like Thinking about what is going on.

"Achuan, Fujiang is an invisible friend." After a long silence, Dr. Ruan Li said to me again, "You told me that Fujiang lived with Zuochuan and had a formal lease renewal with the landlord. Contract. Do I need to go to the landlord and ask? "

I am silent.

"Remember? Although you said that Zuo Chuan and Fu Jiang had known each other a long time ago, in fact, Zuo Chuan came here first, and Fu Jiang was in your impression, but later moved into Zuo Jiang's rented house. Since Fu Jiang There is no such thing. Then, when Fujiang and Zuochuan are related, there must be an opportunity. Although it is a delusional interpersonal relationship, for you, this interpersonal relationship must still be to a certain extent. It is logical, and the situation where a person who appears inexplicably to a relationship with another person cannot appear in your delusion. So, I guess that when you think Fujiang moved into Zuochuan ’s rented house In the past, Zuo Chuan was actually in contact with another person, and that person was a woman, and that woman, in your impression, had a connection with Fu Jiang. It was because Fu Jiang was a non-existent person, while the previous one with Zuo Chuan The female left and became a non-existent person. There is no need to prove whether there is a connection between the two non-existent persons. Therefore, they may or may not be related, and in order to satisfy Fu Jiang . Existence, you will subconsciously think their relationship, to further the development, and the river has left the relationship, "Dr Nguyen Le paused and said:" I believe, can be found before the left Sichuan housemates. "

"Yes. Because, they are the people of the mysterious organization, they cooperate in some actions." I replied.

And Dr. Ruan Li's reaction was also expected, she looked at me with a sad eyes. For Dr. Ruan Li, all kinds of doomsdays and mysterious organizations do not exist. There is "something that science can't explain" in this world, but there is no "completely unexplainable mystery." This world is not a repeater world, but her cognitive basis for her own existence. It is a real world that is not illusory, nor ideological. And the "mysterious" stupidity I have to put forward can only be an abnormal and incorrect worldview constructed by mental illness.

In the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li, I used an "unrealistic reason" to prove an "non-existent thing", which is really a sad situation-only mental patients will do this. She did not further refute my absurdity, and I also know why she discontinued this topic because, in many cases, she continued to say "the reality is not like this" to mental patients, and then used logic and evidence to emphasize the other's " "Abnormal" and "incorrect", in most cases, will only make the other party's pathology worse, or even cause the other party's mental breakdown. And I also knew at this time why those mental patients collapsed in this situation, because their cognition of the self and the personality they created were based on those delusions that were true. Once this foundation is disintegrated, the impact will exceed the imagination of normal people, because normal people simply cannot imagine how they will become when everything that constitutes themselves is judged to be false. Maybe I had imagined to infer the consequences as much as possible, to understand the impact from the theory and the situation of the mental patient, but I did not experience it personally and could only describe it through language, and all the heavy things were being described by language After that, the weight that can be retained by the language is only a fraction of the original, or, a few tenths.

Everything presented by language will make people feel light. One cannot simply rely on assuming that one is in that situation to understand everything that one really has to face in that situation, because human cognition is limited.

Therefore, any conclusions that can only be felt by thinking, not relying on experience, "when everything that constitutes oneself is judged to be false" are far from real. But who would take the initiative to feel "whatever constitutes oneself is judged to be false"? Even, there is no such thing as an agreement that "everything that constitutes oneself is false".

Dr. Ruan Li's views on me and the abnormal explanations involving me are also in this position. She would not think that "everything that constitutes herself is false", then, the only thing that is false is me who is different from her perception.

I am a mental patient, so she is the real existence-so it seems to be ironic, ironic, but in fact, this is not such a light situation, but the reality I have to face.

If ~ www.readwn.com ~ I am correct and true, and Fu Jiang also has no doubt, then, from various ways, it proves that the other party "I am a mental patient, Fu Jiang does not exist", what is it? ?

All people and things in this world of repeaters are more philosophical than their conscious existence, and their philosophical existence.

I will not deny Dr. Ruan Li, nor will I go to find evidence to prove that Dr. Ruan Li is wrong. I accept Dr. Ruan Li ’s view of me, Fu Jiang ’s view, and what she observed from her own perspective. Everything, also accepted her sad and heavy eyes when looking at me. Because Dr. Ruan Li did nothing wrong, she just expressed her love for me based on her position and perspective. Perhaps this love is heavy, and the result of it is negating everything I have so far.

It doesn't matter, as long as there is love, it doesn't matter.

I thought so, and said to Dr. Ruan Li who looked at me sadly: "Don't be sad, mom, everything will be fine."

Yes, everything will be okay, because everything will have an end, and it is moving towards the end. Regardless of this end, it proves that who is wrong can not obliterate the love born in this error. (To be continued ...)