Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Dr. Ruan Li gave me another check after dinner. When we entered the study, we found a mess in the room, like someone was turning over. Dr. Ruan Li looked at me, but I had no relevant memory. I said to her, "I didn't do it." I thought to myself, maybe it was the ghost, or maybe another thief. After all, the gate was damaged by Fu Jiang It couldn't be closed at all—I was surprised. Dr. Ruan Li was not surprised by the destruction of the door lock. This room was also regarded as a cage for "dangerous mental patients". Dr. Ruan Li specially strengthened the door and the lock It can't be opened by violence.

Another possibility is that I have "sleepwalked". In that unusual nightmare, my body has not been lying on the bed all the time.

Dr. Ruan Li is not angry. As mentioned before, she has already passed the stage of being angry for "abnormal behavior of mental patients". Even if I said "I didn't do it", she wouldn't think I was quibbling and lying. I think that in her judgment, there are probably two situations: "I really did not do it" and "I did it but I don't know it". This kind of thing is too common in the case of mental patients. Investigating such things as "mental patients are lying" is simply asking for bitter food. It has no meaning.

In short, I do n’t think it ’s me who caused the mess in the study. However, Dr. Ruan Li soon discovered the medicine and syringe that had fallen to the ground. "You didn't take medicine?" She frowned slightly, and seemed to have confirmed the current situation. I know what she is thinking, but I can't reverse her thoughts.

"I don't remember." I hesitated. Originally, this answer should be very clear to me, but I don't know why. I only remember the events of Fu Jiang and them. In the earlier situation, there was only a vague impression. I should have told Dr. Ruan Li about the window damage, and she was asked to take medicine. After that, I entered the study room and opened the secret safe according to the instructions of Dr. Ruan Li. Take the medicine out ... and then? Saki Ye and they came, did I take the medicine before then? It seems to have eaten. It seems that I have n’t eaten. I prefer the former, but I ’m not sure, and. Judging from the medicine picked up by Dr. Ruan Li at this time, I should have not taken it.

This kind of feeling seems to be careless, forgetting a period of time-for example, when shopping, suddenly wondering whether there is a door before coming out. I went to the toilet at night, and when I returned to the bed, I couldn't help but wonder if I had a flush toilet.

When I was doing things, I was rarely absent-minded. I think this thing is really strange. There must be something wrong with his consciousness, so that there is trance. I am not sure whether this state is related to that ghost. Or maybe expand it a little bit, and it is related to the proliferation of "mystery" in the world of repeaters. Dr. Ruan Li weighed the medicine and looked at me again. Her eyes were calm, but I think she seemed to have something to say. But I didn't say it, but I knew it subconsciously. What she wanted to say, why she didn't say it. This feeling makes me a little uncomfortable.

The world in my eyes is not the same as the world in Dr. Ruan Li ’s eyes. This point is very clear to me and her, and we each look at what the other party does with our own world view, and the answers we get are naturally inconsistent. , Even contradictory. Because of this, Dr. Ruan Li stopped talking. In her mind, she may have always thought that I actually do n’t know what I did.

However, actually, I am not sure whether I did those things. When I tried to recall the memories at that time, I was a little trance.

Dr. Ruan Li liquidated the medicines that fell before my eyes, and after putting them back in the medicine box one by one, the quantity proved that I did not take medicine.

"It doesn't matter, Achuan, you know, you're not a normal person." Dr. Ruan Li said: "Mental patients don't know what they did, this is not such a rare thing. Don't be hit by this, I think you won't Because you have learned the relevant knowledge by my side and have seen those cases in the clinic, have n’t you? The treatment I designed for you will only stop after confirming that you are really back to normal. Your condition is good, but it does not mean that you can continue to be normal, because the recurrence of some mental illnesses is very subtle and frequent, and I often emphasize this point. "

"Yes, mother." I said. Dr. Ruan Li ’s calm and gentle voice calmed down the emotions in my heart. I know that Dr. Ruan Li actually did nothing wrong. I think she misunderstood me, but this misunderstanding was not wrong. My mood fluctuated. Just because I am not sure what I have done, the situation in the study room makes me have no excuses-in fact, there are, but these excuses are not recognized by normal people, let alone by Dr. Ruan Li Accepted by the psychologist. Perhaps, I hope she can see what I see and accept what I say, whether she only exists in this repeater world, and why it exists in this world.

Some people who can understand me are Saki Ye, Ba Jing, Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan, but maybe in my heart, I feel that only they are not enough, and it is because they understand me that it proves that they are not Normal people. The so-called "normal" and "abnormal" are the relative concepts born based on the concept of "most"-universal, recognized by most people, even if it is physically incorrect, it is still " normal. Just like the conclusion "Earth is the center of the solar system and the sun revolves around the earth", it has now been physically proved to be wrong. People with this idea are not normal, but in the past, it has not been proven Before the error, it was still wrong, but because it was accepted by most people and was a universal concept at the time, it was normal.

To put it another way, if what I see, what I know, and the world observed from my perspective can be recognized by most people, then my abnormality is proven because I recognize me They are not normal. They will become "normal"-even if normal does not mean correct.

of course. This idea was quickly thrown away by me because. If normal is separated from correctness, its meaning will be halved, and it will even become ridiculous because it becomes meaningless. The correct and normal things are truly valuable.

It was precisely because of this that I knew this, so I soon became annoyed by Dr. Ruan Li ’s attitude. The perspective of Dr. Ruan Li and me. Which one is correct is not mentioned for the time being, but in the end of the illusion and the reality of the hospital. Dr. Ruan Li is "normal". Isn't it for granted that she views and understands my "abnormal" from a "normal" perspective?

Recognizing that he is a mental patient, and is strictly regarded as a mental patient. The feelings produced are not exactly the same, and they do not even have commonality, but this is just a matter of sensibility. I know that Dr. Ruan Li must be clear about this, so what she said and done was all about treating me. When she repeatedly emphasized that I am a mental patient, I was actually trying to make me look at my mental illness from the perspective of normal people. Maybe. A person who knows that he is a mental patient and constantly tries to examine himself from a normal perspective is better than a mental patient who does not know that he is a mental patient. Is it easier to return to normal?

I do n’t know, but I think Dr. Ruan Li thinks so. Dr. Ruan Li has tailored the treatment for me, which I have never seen in other books and cases. I am the only clinical patient with this therapy. Although I do n’t think Dr. Ruan Li is completely correct, but at least. I don't think she is completely wrong. I don't think so. Her treatment can take me away from the end, and the world from the end, and let all the patients eroded by the "virus" return to normal.

No matter what I have encountered, whether it is true or illusory, there is no doubt that I am a mental patient.

And a stable spirit is always very important for an actual mental patient.

Dr. Ruan Li pressed the push handle of the syringe, and a water line splashed from the tip of the needle. I stared at the water line. I seemed to see something in my trance. I returned to a scene, and the smell of full sight was like a reptile. Slowly creeping on my nerves. I later thought that Dr. Ruan Li should have done the same thing in the hospital. Until the needle tip pierced into the vein, a slight pain came, and I woke up with a chill. However, at this time, the injection is over. Dr. Ruan Li pressed the pinhole with a cotton swab and handed it to me, letting me continue to press it.

"Within ten minutes, the effects of the medicine will come out, and you will feel sleepy, although you have just had a nap." Dr. Ruan Li packed up the medicine, recorded it on the form, and said: "But I suggest you take a few more vitamin tablets "Say, take a bottle of solid tablets from the drawer and put it on the table." You didn't sleep well last night and today. No need to answer. I know you didn't sleep well. Your mental state is like doing it. Nightmare. When a person is dreaming, the brain is not fully rested. However, the medicine just injected can help you enter deep sleep. This medicine is a type of sleeping pills, but it is much more dangerous than sleeping pills, whether it is medicinal ingredients or Dangerous, it is impossible to pass the review, and the difficulty of production makes it unsuitable for mass production. Therefore, it is of little value to modern medicine. Its only advantage is that it is used by specific people, compared with The drugs on the market are more effective and the risk will be reduced to an acceptable level-for example, Achuan, you do n’t need to worry about waking up when you sleep. "

"Just help sleep?" I asked. Although Dr. Ruan Li said that it was within a ten-minute range, I had already begun to feel the effect of the drug, and the constitution of the Mageweave Messenger could not be resisted.

"Yes, it only helps sleep." Dr. Ruan Li said: "But you should know how important sleep is to the human spirit. People who sleep well and sleep well will sleep during sleep, right The brain regulates. The function of the human body will spontaneously resist any malignant effects. By adjusting the internal details of the body to promote the psychological and psychological effects, it has been proven in many cases. As long as you can sleep well, If you sleep more, you can get twice the result with half the effort. Most people who are mentally and mentally traumatized, all they need is actually a good night ’s sleep. ”After all, she looked up and smiled at me.“ It ’s very simple. The thing, is n’t it? The difficulty is that patients usually ca n’t do it themselves, so they need the help of drugs. For different mental and mental diseases, the internal structure of the body is adjusted to alleviate the condition. Although it is also necessary to administer the right medicine, Among the various effective drugs, only the drugs that help sleep are the most popular. "

I couldn't hear what Dr. Ruan Li was talking about. The air seemed to be heavy. I suddenly remembered that I had a low fever and seven holes in my nightmare, but the idea of ​​continuing. Also gradually dissipated in a trance. The next moment, I fell into deep darkness. Unable to own.

There is no thinking, only feeling, but even feeling is incomplete. I don't know how long it has been. I noticed that I was floating in the dark, and after passing through many layers, a hard touch came from behind. I woke up at once and found myself in Las Vegas, a nightmare, lying on a bench on the street.

I'm dreaming again. Dr. Ruan Li's medicine seems useless. No, there is still the feeling of falling into the deep darkness on my body, it should be effective, just. In the face of "mystery", the drug effect also becomes slight. Whether it's falling into a dark trance or being clear in the dead city of Las Vegas. It can't be said that it is a dreamless deep sleep, but there is no doubt that the feeling of falling in the dark is easier than the feeling of coming to Las Vegas as soon as you dream.

It's not the first time to fall into darkness. It feels both fearful and familiar. It is surprisingly reassuring and full of contradictions.

I was walking in the nightmare Las Vegas city as always. The unusually quiet environment used to inflate emotions, however. In the remnants of the feeling of falling into darkness, this swelling has also disappeared, as if it was smoothed and suppressed by the darkness, and only the feeling of fear, familiarity, and peace of mind override all emotions. The only thing I can do here is to find more activities, whether human or non-human, if only me exists in the silence, then nothing will start.

I do n’t know where to look for, there is no clear destination, so even if you can run it, there is no need to run it. The long street crosses one section after another, crossing one intersection, the next intersection. Although there are many trails, the road is not complicated, but it feels like there is no end. The surrounding scenery is the same color tone. The atmosphere and scenery that were originally distinguished by the breath of life are all in the thick and cold gloomy colors, which makes people feel a kind of poverty, difficulty and monotony. Here, any purpose, idea, and interaction are in a state of stillness until something appears to cope with it.

Then, I saw that thing. I ca n’t tell what that is. In short, it ’s the first living thing I saw in this nightmare in Las Vegas. That thing does n’t feel like something that exists—I know, in It ’s weird to talk about material existence in a nightmare, but I do n’t have a better way to describe it-it ’s more like a shadow of invisible quality. It is hidden in a shadowy street corner beside the trash can. The chain judged that it could not observe its existence, and seeing it was like an accident. However, I know that this must not be accidental.

The shadow cannot completely hide its sense of existence. It is like it was born from the shadow and changed into another kind of thing. Although the appearance is like a shadow, it can already be directly distinguished by gazing. If not, I can't see it. It's weird, but it feels no danger, just like a newborn animal, instinctive and simple. However, its form of existence makes me subjectively believe that it is not as harmless as it is seen at this time. Perhaps, this is just the "protective color" formed to ensure survival when it was just born. When I walked up, it didn't seem to be able to perceive my existence, but just wriggled in a mire in place.

I looked closely at its existence. Although in the distance, I felt that this intangible and intangible thing should be translucent, but when I got close, I realized that I could not see through the body and see the things behind. It is indeed invisible and intangible, not even "fog", and the weird form makes people not want to touch it at all. Of course, if you are someone else, you will probably be contacted by curiosity. I took the dagger out of my pocket-I ’m not sure if the dagger existed, but when I thought about it and did it, I really pulled it out, and it looks exactly like the dagger I ’ve used in the past-then , Without any hesitation and compassion, inserted into this shadow.

It suddenly twisted and did not make a sound that can be heard by the ear, but it directly transmitted a feeling of screaming in my mind. It was not a sound, but it had a greater impact than the sound. I could feel my own Emotions are expanding, but they cannot break through the residual feelings of darkness, but can only roll in the depths of the mind. If you haven't gone through the darkness before, probably at this time, under the influence of this sudden and violent expansion of emotions, do something that you would not normally do. If it is an ordinary person, it should be "crazy". Mysterious experts, especially conscious walkers, should be able to tolerate and expel this influence. I am not sure. Because my sensibility is very strong and I am a mental patient, and I cannot make an accurate assessment of the sensibility and reason of other people, so unless there is really a mysterious expert who does the same thing in front of my eyes, otherwise , I still cannot be sure of my judgment.

However, this sudden emotional expansion proves that this weird existence is not as harmless as it initially felt. When an emotion is extremely strong, so strong that it can forcefully seize control of the body, then this emotion must be harmful. My feelings about "Jiang" and the strong fear that "Jiang" and "Virus" have caused me are naturally the same. This harmful manifestation is that you will always do something that violates common sense, is not recognized by common sense, and is not seen by others, and people living in an orderly society, if you do this kind of thing, you will be subject to the laws of social operation. The counterattack, the intensity of this counterattack can even kill people. The reason why I am still alive is simply because my specificity counteracted the conventional counterattack in some abnormal ways.

Even so, I am not alive, just not completely dead. I still get hurt, this hurt comes not only from the spirit, but also from the spirit. I just endured these pains and at the same time insisted on my feelings for "Jiang", and proceeded as if I were ascetic. This is something that most people can't do, so I also think that when someone like me kills such a fragile weirdness with a dagger, it will definitely hurt.

The expansion of emotions is such a weird counterattack. This method seems not as intense as direct harm, but how about direct harm in a dream? And the harm to the spirit and consciousness, making people behave like crazy, will certainly affect normal life.

From this point of view, these seemingly born out of the shadows, seemingly fragile and harmless, are really a very dangerous existence. Because, in this world, most people are just ordinary people, and under the trend of mysterious proliferation, this nightmare Las Vegas will also welcome a large number of ordinary people. If this nightmare is a manifestation of the capabilities of the Las Vegas repeater ~ www.readwn.com ~ is a part of the repeater trap, then the Nazi intentions are very intriguing-this nightmare can be mass-produced "crazy" "of.

Electronic demons, nightmares, emotionally insane ... These clues can't help but outline this image: a large group of madmen with electronic demons, they will of course have a huge impact on the current world of repeaters, just like A link in the doomsday process, but these lunatics should be controlled by the Nazis and serve the Nazi ideas.

Yes, this is based on the assumption that the "Electronic Demon Summoning Program" and "Nightmare" are both Nazi means. Contacting the ongoing World War III outside, I can't help but think, perhaps, the essence of the change in the Las Vegas repeater is that the Nazis are preparing to "recruit"? I have a little understanding of the fighting power that the Nazis have put into the world war. No matter how they look, the Nazi troops that came from the moon are surprisingly strong, but if they are alone, they still cannot win. It is true that Britain and the United States seem to be under tremendous pressure, but this does not mean that these two countries can be destroyed by virtue of those forces alone, and even these two countries cannot be destroyed. Naturally, there is no need to mention destroying the world.

In order to destroy the United Nations and various mysterious organizations with one's own strength, and then completely destroy the world, in theory, the Nazis did not have enough troops. As a result, the Nazis will continue to expand their forces through some means. To be continued