Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Although I have thought about it, when everyone meets on the same occasion sooner or later, Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan will definitely become members of the whisperer, and this mysterious organization that has just been established will become full. = Top = point = fiction === In the past illusion of doomsday, everyone stayed together with a network ball. I never thought about the feelings of the past, the possibility that everyone on the scene could not talk. Even if an extra Zuo Chuan was added, there was nothing wrong with it. However, when Fu Jiang, Zuo Chuan, and Miyake and Bajing of this repeater world had a direct intersection in my home, I noticed that it seemed that the situation was not as smooth as I always thought. Nor does it mean that there is a strong sense of repulsion between women, but the rigidity of the atmosphere can be felt by everyone, perhaps more because the timing and occasion of the intersection between the two parties are completely different from the past. In short, I have a feeling that I can't solve it even if I'm deaf.

I think we should clarify the relationship between each other as soon as possible, and then turn the topic back to the whisperer and the current mysterious diffusion phenomenon, but several times have been interrupted by both parties. Misaki and the color gaze have a strong sense of scrutiny, while Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan are blind to the current situation.

"So, Achuan, are you married?" Bajing finally broke his silence and asked, "Have you got a marriage certificate?" As my authentic girlfriend in this world of repeaters, she didn't show explosiveness about the sudden changes. Her emotions, her eyes and tone are very flat, but it makes me feel like sitting on a needle. To be honest, I also think that I have just confirmed my girlfriend relationship with Bajing, but after a week I got married with another "unfamiliar woman". No matter how I look, it is difficult for the person to accept ... No, I guess, in Bajing's eyes, I The situation must be very strange. If the eight scenes are associated with this incident. I'm afraid I don't think it's because of my "flower heart", but I am "entangled" by some kind of abnormality.

A world full of "mystery" that I showed them, as well as Dr. Ruan Li's "mental patient" statement, will further conceal the fact that "I and Fujiang truly love each other". I'm afraid that I can't get the trust from Sakuya, Bajing, and Dr. Ruan Li for nothing I say. In their eyes, Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan were full of doubts, and these doubts could not be explained by the person who was "controlled" by me. However, when I thought that my explanation was not enough to trust them, I suddenly felt a very strange feeling.

I suddenly thought that even if Miyake and Bajing thought that I had been controlled and could not get the trust, this view was definitely not unreasonable-at least. From my point of view, I have always been interfered by "Jiang", which is totally undeniable.

Although it is viewed from a different angle to understand my relationship with Fujiang and what happened to each other, in a sense, this kind of "Gaochuan is in an abnormal situation. It will suddenly and strangely The notion that women get married is not completely untrue. Maybe. It is precisely because after being exposed to "mystery" that Sakuya and Bajing can deeply understand what is called "abnormality", will there be such a calm and sharp attitude at present.

"Yes, Fujiang and I were husband and wife a long time ago." I can only explain daringly: "You all read my diary, didn't you?"

"Oh, Fujiang ... It turns out that. No wonder the name sounds familiar." Eight scenic spots nodded, "Isn't that really Achuan's delusion?"

"I have always said, that is what happened, don't you believe it?" I asked back, "This time. You have seen a lot of abnormal things. My situation is also abnormal, but not special."

"Unfortunately, Achuan, I always feel that even if there is mystery, your situation is the most special." Bajing asserted, but she did not explain why it was so asserted. I think maybe it was just because of the relationship between us that she had such an idea. Bajing is a person who is particularly stubborn in his opinions. I don't think I can persuade her to correct her thoughts. Moreover, I don't think her statement is wrong. I must be a special one, because otherwise, all salvation will be rootless, and there is no possibility of success.

"You don't need to be hostile to Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan, they are here to join the whisperers." I can only change the subject and persuade: "Mystery has begun to spread, maybe we should focus on the electronic demon and nightmare things."

"Has the wedding ceremony been held? Have you received the marriage certificate?" Sakuya repeated the question of the eight scenes before.

"No such thing is needed." Fu Jiang glanced at the two girls with a gaze, like a lion proclaiming his territory to the same class with his eyes and momentum. "My relationship with Achuan does not need any proof or need. Any approval. "

"Perhaps, you should openly announce what you did to him during the week Achuan disappeared." Ba Jing still ignored me, just staring at Fu Jiang opposite, saying word by word.

"I have done everything I should have done, and I have done what I shouldn't do." Fu Jiang tilted Erlang's legs and shook the canned beer, saying in a kind of sexually suggestive tone that showed off to the loser: "Little girl, He's all my body from inside to outside. Actually, you have already seen it, haven't you? No matter how you explain, Achuan doesn't have any testimonial significance for you. But, I I still have to tell you that everything Achuan did was voluntary, such as marrying me, even if this marriage relationship does not have the legal factors of a secular society. "

"Are you showing off?" Bajing's expression was a bit gloomy.

"No, I just want to remind you, Eight Scenes." Fu Jiang called the name "Eight Scenes" for the first time, or, for the first time in this world of repeaters, face the girl, "The world you see It ’s too narrow, it ’s impossible to really understand Achuan, and of course, I ca n’t understand me. So, even if you want to break your head, you ca n’t understand why Achuan will be with me. Even so, you still have to face this fact. : Achuan is mine! "

Miyaki kept her head down, without saying a word. I was a little worried about her. She was smiling in the chain judgment. This expression is a bit abnormal and a little scary.

"Ms. Fu Jiang, you neglected the fact." Ba Jing narrowed his eyes and stared at Fu Jiang step by step: "Achuan never said that I was not his girlfriend. Is that true? Achuan." Severe eyes never seen before approached. It made me feel as if I had been pricked all over my body.

But what can I say? Things have evolved to what they are now, all caused by my own carelessness. I might have thought at the beginning that members of the Las Vegas Special Combat Force will eventually enter this world of repeaters, and the relationship I have created in this world is bound to be associated with all intruders. However, recalling your choice at the time. Re-encountering the time of Misaki and the Eight Scenes. Compared with the past time in the doomsday illusion, the relationship in this world is very short and full of tangles and contradictions. Even so, it still makes me Feel happy.

Yes, the interaction with Misaki and Eight Scenes in this world is like making up for some regrets of the past. I don't think I should feel regretful now. I want to protect this city, protect them living in this city, not only their identity enlarged to the end of the illusion and the reality of the hospital, but also their desire to protect the world as much as possible-even from the beginning , I know that it is impossible for me to do it, because this repeater world is bound to usher in the end.

Maybe. I just want to fill in the shortcomings of my past from another angle during this short time together. From this perspective. How selfish I am. However, even for a short period of time, protect them and let them know how precious they are to me. That's what I want to do.

Therefore, even if it has a substantial relationship with Fu Jiang, spanning the relationship between reality, illusion, and will, I will not say something like "I have nothing to do with Bajing."

So, I said, "Yes. Bajing is my girlfriend. Fujiang, just like how deeply I love you, she is also one of my most important people. Not only Bajing, but Sakuya, and Marceau, Dorothy, and tie colors ... In my story, you are my wings. "I said so seriously, but the eight scenes with serious faces, weird smiles, and expressionless expressions Both Zuo Chuan and Fu Jiang, full of oppression, turned into a constipated expression.

"I can't take it, I can't take it anymore." Fu Jiang's sense of oppression suddenly disappeared. She squeezed the beer can flatly, threw it into the trash, and left the sofa. A strange expression of pain appeared on her face. "Do you know? Bajing, in the past A Chuan said many love words to me, but although I knew it was love, I never felt romantic, let alone numb, but full of sense of disobedience. Although I knew he said this The words are sincere, but I just want to say, please do n’t say such sincere words so sincerely. "

"At least I said 10,000 likes." Bajing said: "It's so bad to destroy the atmosphere, do you know? A Chuan. By saying this, it makes you look like a mental illness-oh, I forgot, in fact, you are a Mental illness. "

What can I say? I can't say anything! Therefore, I was silent and unable to describe my emotions at this moment.

"Good secondary two, Achuan." Miye also stood up, his face flushed, "The shame is too high, Achuan. It's shameful."

"Sure enough, this kind of plot is better left in the novel and the movie." Zuo Chuansha nodded in spite.

I really don't know what kind of expression should be used to face them who said this. So, just smile?

However, the aggressive dialogue and the tense atmosphere before the incident all vanished. This result, I celebrated a little psychologically, and I did not expect that if I said it seriously, I would have such an effect.

"Okay, Achuan is a mental patient, we should not ask him more." Bajing looked at Misaki and patted his forehead with a sigh, Misato nodded quickly, and it seemed that there was still a look in my eyes Feeling horrified. "

"That's it for now? Ms. Fu Jiang." Bajing looked at Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan again, "and this Ms. Zuo Chuan, you seem to have any thoughts about my A Chu."

"You are like an old hen who cares for the young. Miss Bajing." Zuo Chuan smiled slightly, but his words were extremely sharp. When I put it in peacetime, I always feel that Bajing will start fighting again, but at this time, Bajing has an indifferent expression.

"Whatever you say. Achuan is the man I like." Bajing said, "Although he is a mental patient."

"Uh huh." Miyake nodded desperately behind Bajing. Then, Fu Jiang and Zuo Chuan looked at me with a compassionate look. I don't have any special emotions. I'm just embarrassed to see it, but I don't know what is embarrassing. Although Fu Jiang and Ba Jing both said harsher words. However, I think none of the things they said were embarrassing. Perhaps, Fu Jiang really feels that my way of expressing love is not good enough, but this is not my fault. Moreover, I also think that this criticism is acceptable in a realistic manner. It is also true that Bajing said that I am a mental patient. I do have a very serious mental illness and I am a patient with doomsday syndrome on the verge of death.

Therefore, it is said that it actually exists and is accepted by itself. What's so embarrassing? I feel a little weird about my mood swings. The human heart is really a strange anomaly, it will suddenly make people feel that they do not understand themselves at all. And want to know more about yourself and others, so a discipline like psychology was born? Psychology is really broad and profound. Dr. Ruan Li, who can become a psychologist, is really admirable.

This is not a daily experience in daily life. Once again, I deeply realized how far I was from the "psychologist".

"In short, let's do it first, let's talk about the whisperer's things first." I quickly turned the subject away, "Yes. Have you eaten lunch?"

"I'm going to cook." Bajing said, standing up and entering the kitchen like he was at home. Zuo Chuan also stood up and said to her, "I'll help."

"So, everyone came over without eating?" I looked at Fu Jiang and Saki Ye. Fu Jiang's expression "don't care". Feel free to "umm". Saki Ye seemed a little embarrassed. She held back for a while before asking: "Achuan, did you say you had a nightmare before?"

"Well, nightmare. Nightmare in the true sense." I tried to eliminate the atmosphere of the atmosphere in the air, and said in the most serious tone.

Miyaki was a little puzzled, but Fu Jiang took it seriously. She and I have experienced many anomalies caused by "nightmares". The most impressive thing is, I am afraid that it will belong to the event of the Doomsday family against Mar Jones. At least, for me, that incident was particularly special.

I gave a detailed account of the nightmare city and the long and thin ghosts that appeared before. Of course, habitually, I used a lot of storytelling methods. Some nights were scared after watching the horror movie, but they wanted to continue to understand. In the following, Fu Jiang focused more on the details of the scene at that time, and kept asking him several times. Although the mysterious organization Whisperer was established, Sakuya in the world of repeaters is still an ordinary girl. Although she has been exposed to some anomalies, her awareness of "mystery" is still very shallow. Most of the time, understanding mysterious events is like listening to strange stories. Of course, she certainly doesn't want these strange things to happen to herself, and I saw worry on her face. I know that she is worried about me. The plot "Nightmare mapped into reality" has not rarely appeared in literary works, and it has never been a good ending.

"In other words, do you think more people will have this nightmare and then bring out similar monsters from that weird city?" Fu Jiang said, "Some things must happen, even more so, to happen. Many times, with a certain degree of influence, there are clues to explore the truth. The monster ’s existence and attack are very peculiar. If you want to stop it, you can only pray that it will not look for new prey before it kills you. And, since you have this nightmare in this city, then the nightmare will probably sweep the city soon. I think, even if it was not last night, there will be a larger nightmare phenomenon tonight, you want It is impossible to prevent monsters from coming out. However, as soon as these monsters start to spread, the users of electronic demons will naturally become more. "

"I don't think I can stop the spread of mystery in this city, but I can't let it spread in a vicious way." I said very seriously.

"It doesn't make sense to do this, you know, Achuan." Fu Jiang looked at me with meaningful eyes.

"But this is what I want to do. A Jiang." I replied this way, "I don't find it meaningless ... At least, it has a very important meaning to me. Even if the end is inevitable, I also Hopefully, this city will be destroyed in the end, and the people I love and those you love can live to the last moment. "

Saki Ye does n’t seem to understand what I ’m talking about, which is not surprising. If I can, I hope that they who sleep in the sealed iron house can stay asleep until the iron house is cut open, and do n’t face it. Terrible and desperate choice, until I cut the iron house ... or, die together.

"Don't be afraid." Miyaki suddenly hugged me and murmured, "Even if it is the end of the world, I can't separate us. I'm by your side at any time, Achuan. So don't be afraid."

Miyake said to me "Don't be afraid", but it made me more aware that I was always afraid, even though I had the courage to do many things and never gave up struggling. However, the kind of Fate, and the unpredictable unknown, are still full of fear, and they are also full of fear about the possibility that "there is no way to save the one you love". I really want to think about it, accepting Dr. Ruan Li's statement, turning this into a world set against despair even with a little hope, as a world delusional by my mental patient. However, I dare not put this choice on the balance of gambling. I cannot prove that it is the only truth, so I can only choose to continue to think and continue to struggle in this heavy pressure and fear.

"Don't be afraid ..." Sakuya hugged me tightly before I realized that I was shaking. I thought about many things, but at the end of these thoughts, I have never made it easy. Even if the idea of ​​"too much thinking" arises, it cannot stop you from thinking like this. When I think about myself in the past, compared with the present myself, I realize that I was so simple in the past, and I got a lot of happy fragments because of it. However, if you want to get the final happiness, it is impossible to find from the "past". I am a patient with doomsday syndrome. This kind of thinking is more frequent than ordinary people. It is also a feature of the condition. Many patients will go crazy in this kind of thinking.

Thinking brings despair and fear, instinct can also feel the oppression and anomalies caused by the "virus", and the personality is also split and mutated in the process, and whether it can resist this unself-sustaining, deepening thinking, personality, consciousness and emotional The deterioration may be the core difference between me and other patients with doomsday syndrome ~ www.readwn.com ~ I just feel that compared with the unparalleled fear of "Jiang" and "Virus" The current despair and fear are just incidental products, so it is so natural to bear it. However, taking it naturally and ignoring it does not mean that it does not exist. Perhaps, Misaki really saw through, in this sturdy body and will, the hidden weakness. Such Sakuya is really very sensitive. I hope that this sensitivity will not hurt her.

"Since Achuan wants to do it, do it." Fu Jiang drank another can of beer and said, "Anyway, we don't have a ready-made action plan, do we? No matter what we do, it will only respond to fate. That ’s it. ”In the past, such words were basically the views of most mysterious experts.“ No matter how you do it, even if it ’s an act of prophecy, it ’s just a link in the process of the end. ” In the doomsday illusion that was born, it has already become popular. Many new people, including me, are vaguely feeling this in the mysterious event of continuous attacks. Even with a momentary victory to refute, in that very real feeling, they are powerless, not to mention, the mysterious experts are originally a group of people who trust intuition very much.

However, from this time, Fu Jiang only made me feel the malice from "Jiang" and "Virus". (To be continued ...)