Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

Fu Jiang said that demons exist in this city. = Top = point = fiction === But in fact, the devil often has a relationship with the doomsday truth. In the past experience, there is really no single devil, not the doomsday truth. Therefore, Fu Jiang's words can actually be understood in this way: the erosion of the city by Doomsday Truth has reached the level of sacrifice to the devil.

Europe and the United States, especially Europe, have become very dangerous. The focus of Doomsday Religion and Nazi activities has always been in Europe. Although the actions of Doomsday Religion have shown signs of igniting the index in Asia, I am in the reign of Victoria Heavy Industry What the physicochemical zone should do is to be able to remove Asia from the earlier gunpowder barrels. "Mystery" appears in Asia, in the Central Principality and even in the city where I am located. However, in the early stage of the expansion of "mystery", there are differences in priorities in different regions. To stop the damage caused by "mystery", you must have "mystery", and at the beginning, most of "mystery" will not consciously stop "mystery". It is difficult for a person who has obtained the "mystery" to have the ambition and conviction like a netball in the first time.

Therefore, I feel that it is necessary to return to my own city, because I understand the "mystery" better than the pioneers who got the "mystery" in the early stage of the spread of the "mystery" in this world. Have a firm belief. If the world is finally destroyed, it is natural not to mention, but before that, I still have something to protect and need to protect. Moreover, as long as I succeed in capturing this Las Vegas before the destruction of this repeater world The words of the Sri Lankan repeater ... maybe more things can be done.

I ca n’t be everyone ’s hero, and I ca n’t stop this repeater world from going to the end in the conspiracy and game of all parties. "Jiang" also needs a spiritual integration device, and it is completely uncertain. After obtaining the spiritual integration device, what will happen here, and my behavior is also contributing to this unknown but full of negative tendencies. seem. In order to achieve the ultimate perfect ending, you must give up some good things in the process, and in order to be the ultimate guardian, you must face the results that cannot be guarded in the process-facing Dr. Ruan Li, Sakuya and the Eight Scenes of this world At the thought of Marceau who didn't know where he was, my inner contradiction was painful.

I had in-depth contact with Sakuya and Bajing and formed whispers with them. Think with them about what kind of trouble "mystery" will bring to your city and the whole world. The more I look forward to pushing these behaviors, the more I want to protect them, the more I can't help thinking about the future of the world and the plans I am carrying out. In their eyes, everything I do is probably full of heroes. Manly. However, I cannot accept their approval. because. I am protecting them, protecting the world in which they grow, while pushing the end of the world.

Sakuya and the eight sceneries of this world are just a part of the complete Sakuya and the eight sceneries-I told myself so, however, I am also very clear-even if only a part. It was also Misaki and Eight Scenery.

I know what I am doing, so I will be so sad and painful, even if I have already realized it. Awareness never makes one's grief go away, just. So that people can not escape this grief. I can't escape, I can only do my best to do everything I can. Perhaps this is hypocritical, this is a way of self-comforting compensation, but, in my mind, everything I do at this time is to finally usher in a better ending. I have never doubted this.

I have no retreat. The large-scale alienation of the normal world of Doomsday Illusion, Dorothy ’s movements, and my own situation all make me feel that the things accumulated in the Doomsday Illusion's continuous reincarnation may completely explode this time This leads to further changes in the "virus"-for patients with doomsday syndrome, as well as for other ordinary people, this change may have a good impact, but it is more likely to be bad, and it is more evil. of.

My plan, the plan of the "hospital", the plan of those lurking in the "hospital", the plan of Dorothy and the color, the actions of the "virus" and "jiang", but they are the same on these different levels. Factors that can affect the ending are intertwined, making people unsure that they are the final winners. It is also difficult for me to determine whether other factors are really insignificant in front of "Virus" and "Jiang". However, assuming that there must be a final word, I hope it is "Jiang".

Therefore, even in the planning process, it is necessary to face the contradiction between destruction and salvation today, which is not only to save the one you love, but also to guide the end of the world. I will never give up!

I ’m not smart, I do n’t have much power. The plan I can come up with is never the best. It ’s naive and extreme, and it ’s full of destructive power to “hope” itself. However, no one has ever told me the absolutely perfect plan, and no one, nor any non-person, has answered me. How I wish that someone could tell me with facts that everything I was doing was wrong and there was no possibility, and he or she could give me a de facto better plan.

But no.

Neither in the past nor in the present.

Even the "Gaochuan" in the past, the current Dorothy and the color scheme, the plans made are only theoretically feasible, and are also full of loopholes. The probability of success is almost as small as a delusion. What must be sacrificed to save something. So, what's the difference between this next plan and my plan?

In fact, I should have understood that for the "unknown" situation, I can never expect someone to do better than myself. Because in the face of a truly absolute "unknown", in front of a "monster" that completely twists known wisdom, there is no difference between a wise man and a fool. When the known knowledge and means cannot be relied upon, and everyone must explore in the dark in a way that he has never thought of, the factors that determine the ending are not the people themselves.

I can only think for myself, explore for myself, and bear for myself. Then, looking forward to the favor of luck.

I am suffering. Helpless, no one can help me, no one can give me advice, because no one knows what the true "rightness" is. And I am not sure if these "suggestions" are correct even if there are "suggestions".

The only thing I can do is to put aside all prejudices, endure all the pain, and execute my plan-even if no one is optimistic about the plan.

Therefore, it is necessary to leave Europe now, even if it smells like the Mal Jones family.

"There should be room for temporary data hedging here," Fu Jiang said. "Remember the time at Mar Jones?"

"Entrance in a specific direction? Or inward entry?" I know what she is talking about. In the last illusion of doomsday, the last mysterious event that I participated in before death was the “Sky Gate Project” of the Mar Jones family. The temporary data hedging space created by Tianmen Project is divided into two types of entry methods in stages.

The first is the temporary data hedging space that arrives in a town like a dream when it first arrived, but it is by no means merely a spiritual issue. Temporary data hedging space is a technology applied by the fog. The gray fog itself has the duality of spirit and material, which seems to be a problem in a mental state. However, it needs to be regarded as a change in the material level in many places. It is because of this mutual transformation of spirit and material, illusion and reality, it is difficult to sort out the temporary data hedging space and the state of himself in the temporary data hedging space. And this is the most dangerous place.

The second is to advance in a specific direction and trigger the entrance through "mystery". Cross the boundaries of the normal world and temporary data hedge space. This situation is relatively common, and it is also the most common entry type for temporary data hedging space, and the most frequently entered entry by ordinary people.

Although the different entry methods do not represent the danger and nature of temporary data hedging space, the former is undoubtedly more concealed. I believe in Fu Jiang's intuition. Since she believes that the city has been eroded by the Doomsday Truth, then this is the case, and given the apparent stability of the city, what kind of entrance is the temporary data hedging space of the Doomsday Truth? Their attitudes and trends in the development of this city. In contrast, if there is only a goat guild, it is a safer situation for this city.

The development methods of Doomsday Truth have been tried and tested, and there is no need to make targeted layouts at all-use psychedelic drugs "paradise" and goat guild to occupy the territory, erode normal social interpersonal relationships, and establish specific temporary data hedge space The core of the sacrifice ceremony is used to suppress or resist the local "mysterious" counterattack. The parallelism of these two methods has long been a secret, but it has always been effective. Therefore, if the doomsday truth has begun to develop in this world of repeaters, these methods that have never been unfavorable will also be used.

Doomsday Truth is mysterious, because its core has been hidden in the dark, but its power has expanded in the eyes of the insider, but there is not much to hide. If they have begun to expand their sphere of influence in this world of repeaters, then it is not too ugly. Although I ’m not as sensitive as Fu Jiang, as long as I make time to visit the bars where the city works at night and the dark areas in the city ’s interest structure, I can also find clues.

During this time, I have made many contacts with the Doomsday Truth Church. I am quite sure that the Doomsday Truth Church has a glimpse of the Las Vegas repeater and even the entire Nazi organization, and it is earlier than any mysterious organization. Action to pay. However, although they understand the purpose of the doomsday truth, it is difficult to find the ultimate goal from each of their actions. Every time they sacrifice, they seem to be independent, and every time they destroy their actions, it seems that they have completely destroyed their conspiracy, but they ca n’t drive away the depression in the deep heart. For example, no matter what you do, you will only make the Doomsday Truth move towards your goal, and the end of the world will be closer to the end.

That is a terrible sense of destiny.

Whether it is in the past doomsday illusion or the present doomsday illusion, this kind of powerlessness and despair that people do not know what else to do, what to do to recover, has always existed. For me, it is just because of habits and numbness, so it will not cause too much negative emotions. However, I think that for newcomers who have just entered the mysterious circle and are determined to be heroes, this feeling is a barrier to their survival and life path.

However, it is precisely because the fate of this repeater world is clearly seen early. So I just lost the sensitivity of the dark clouds. And people who live in this world of repeaters will feel the same as me and other mysterious experts when they are exposed to mystery, and then to this unchangeable end of the world.

This is a very wonderful thing-relative to "hospital reality", the end of the illusion is a world of illusion; and in the end of the illusion, relative to the outside world. The world of repeaters is also like an illusion. However, both "illusions" make people feel real, no, it should be said that in a targeted range, the world that looks like a illusion, and everything it shows, are real.

Therefore, Dr. Ruan Li, Miyake and Bajing in this world. It is also relatively real, even though the "world" in their eyes is only the world of repeaters in terms of concept and scope. This concept and scope is so narrow compared with the concept and scope of the entire Doomsday Illusion and even the "Hospital Reality". But people living here. All of their personalities, thoughts, emotions, cognition, etc. that make up their ideology at this time are real. The reality of this ideology has transcended their own form of existence.

I believe this is truly true, because, in essence. There is no difference between them and me.

Therefore, I also believe that when I walked into the "mysterious" world in the past, the feelings I produced will be felt by people here in the following days-this has been proved countless times. Unstoppable, like a rolling wheel of fate, means that even if Fu Jiang and I cleared the tentacles of the doomsday truth here, it would not really change anything. What can really change the destiny of this city is definitely not a passer-by like me.

I really want to be a hero, but I have to admit that I cannot be a hero in this city. Compared to this city, they are far more in need of me than Misaki in the Central Principality of Asia.

So, although I care about Fu Jiang's words, I still don't have the idea of ​​staying a little bit. What is happening to the doomsday truth and temporary data hedge space in this city is not too important.

At the corner of the road with few pedestrians and above the black-lighted buildings, I took Fujiang silently and hurried towards the airport.

"And pain? Achuan." Fu Jiang hugged me behind him. Although he said that, there was no feeling of empathy in his tone, full of optimism and self-confidence as always. "This is good, pain will bring growth, Achuan is more than in the past Manly. "

"I think I just become smooth." I retorted casually, but this idea is not untargeted. The past and the present me have made very different choices in some key places. This, every When I was thinking about it, I could clearly see it. On the bright side, you may feel that your current work is more practical and mature, but on the bad side, it is probably "smooth." And I have never felt that "smooth" is a commendatory term, although in many cases, it does bring a good side, but it also means compromise.

In normal social relations, compromise is necessary, but for dreams, it has no value at all. When I learned to prioritize and select the important and unimportant parts for myself, I no longer had the possibility of becoming a hero. Because the true ideal hero will never compromise on anything that is not a hero, nor will he divide things into multiple areas to choose the side that is beneficial to himself. Idealization, absoluteization, and dichotomy are the real posture of the hero. Any attempt to obscure and gray these extremes and stubbornness, and then oppose it, is just a self-struggle that only realizes that the loser who cannot be a true hero does.

The existence of a concept already has a clear and clear explanation at the beginning of its birth. Those that do not conform to this explanation must not be a product of this concept. Just like the concepts of "good guy" and "bad guy", the concepts of "magic king" and "god", any attempt to confuse each other, produce the states of "good guy on one hand, bad guy on the other", "both demon and god" The practice is just because I can't be a separate side, and I realize that I am just a "mediocre", so I just struggled and justified it.

It seems that as long as the concepts are confused, distributing "there are no simple good people and bad people in this world", "the devil is actually a good person", "the gods are actually sinners" and so on, can be "good people" and "bad people", " The concepts of "Devil King" and "Shen Ming" were originally filled with the idealized side to be eliminated.

But actually. As long as people still have dreams and still have a simple time, they will certainly produce these simple and ideal concepts, trying to obscure them through compromises, which is the proof of their failure but they cannot admit it.

and so. Knowing the compromise, knowing that the choice is beneficial to oneself, and can give reasons and make explanations, this smooth me no longer has the qualification to be an ideal hero. For me, recognizing this, I felt cruel.

I don't like my current self very much, but I can't decide my own choice now. Because, for the one you love, this undesirable self may be the best now? Maybe it's because I don't like it but I have to do it, which caused me to attach myself to my plan-in fact, this plan is really not very good. Although it is a good thing to aim at the happy ending of a happy reunion, but. The plan itself is like shit, isn't it?

But if I am not attached to this plan, what can I be attached to? Therefore, even if this plan is like a shit, the so-called success rate calculation. It's more out of sentiment than reason. Before anyone can come up with a better plan, I must stick to it.

"That's ... I'm so lucky, Achuan." Fu Jiang patted my shoulder hard and smiled happily. "But, I must say, I like Achuan the most. The struggling feeling, the self-contradictory excuse, the stupid but persistent behavior, it's great!"

"Can't you say something good? A Jiang." Although Fu Jiang's words didn't feel like ridicule at all, but I was really hit by the pain and was said to be in pain, even if she said "Gaochuan is awesome", Can't make me happy. Because, I actually don't want to be like this at all.

But what can I do other than complain? I know very well that I can no longer be that simple and idealized hero. Compared with the simple and ideal form, no matter what and how I do now, I will not be really satisfied unless the perfect ending comes.

However, it is because Fu Jiang listened to my ideas, so my pace can be as brisk as it is now. It is precisely because of the existence of Fu Jiang that I can gradually accept the existence of "Jiang", because she made me feel that there is indeed a companion in my life who fully understands herself and does not need to hide her deep heart. It is a thing worthy of being cherished in life in a life full of regrets and setbacks.

"I'm praising Achuan." Fu Jiang, who was carrying me behind my back, pressed his chest hard ~ www.readwn.com ~ Such Achuan is what I think Achuan should be. A Chuan does not need to be a hero for everyone. From the beginning, she shouldn't be that way--you only need to care about me, A Chuan. I will fulfill all your wishes for you. "She spoke directly and rightly.

Although this kind of remark is similar to her previous style, but the connection to "Jiang" makes me unable to make a reasonable association. Is Fujiang now speaking with a simple "Fujiang" personality, or with the concept of "Jiang"? I looked forward to it faintly, but subconsciously restrained myself from thinking deeply. Because, this question will not get an answer. What Fu Jiang is doing, what he said, may be really influenced by Jiang, and he will also get a lot of information from other personalities, so that there is no stranger to the current situation, but is Fu Jiang really standing in Jiang? Looking at the issue from the standpoint of whether it really recognizes the existence of "Jiang", it is still unknown.

Fu Jiang's combat effectiveness may be very strong, but, at the level of personality consciousness, it cannot reach the level of Zhen Jiang. Zhenjiang knows "Jiang" and can use the power of "Jiang" as if it is the closest personality to "Jiang". However, Fujiang has always been just "the ultimate weapon of rebellion 999" and "mysterious expert with amazing fighting power". Identity and performance.

"--Well." I abandoned those uncontrollable associations, and answered only as Fu Jiang's lover: "I believe you, A Jiang." (To be continued ...)