Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

I told Bajing that she would not go home immediately tonight, so she looked at me with questioning eyes, apparently not associating the deep meaning of this sentence to the ambiguous place. "I have felt something wrong recently, but I am not sure that it is a very bizarre change, but I can't show a definite clue." I did not conceal the situation where weirdness and mystery are recovering. For this world, weirdness is also Well, mysterious or not, they are all incredible. Things that exist only in fantasy can be said in a serious way. Eighty-nine out of 10 people will be treated as lunatics. If the target of the conversation is Dr. Ruan Li, she will definitely be regarded as a harbinger of her illness, and she will be taken care of. However, the eight scenes should be okay. Even though there are some differences between her and the one I knew, but I I feel that if there is anyone in this world who can be psychologically prepared to a certain extent, to face a situation that is generally regarded as a psychological and mental problem, it must be eight scenes.

Bajing is a very strange girl, even if you put it here, it is the same evaluation. She has her own views on things, not to mention whether the world view is mature, but in the face of extraordinary stimulation, her ability to bear is stronger than that of ordinary adults. And in the face of something different, it seems a little crazy, and it will not be rejected immediately because of the inherent ideas, and it will be opposed for no reason.

Therefore, even when weirdness and mystery are only illusions, I say this kind of thing, and I will not be treated as a lunatic by her. Perhaps, in view of her previous performance, I even felt that she might accept me as a lunatic for some reason. Her personality and perspective on things may make her more suitable for a world full of weirdness and mystery than me.

In any case, I told her the truth, although some modifications. But the actual content is similar. I spoke out the illusions I had seen before, the illusions I heard, and even the existence of Carmen, and this is why I needed the whisperer. I am the only one, and it is very difficult to monitor the whole city. However, the whisperer of Bajing has this ability. Perhaps the whisperer is still weak at this time, but given the performance of the eight scenes and whisperers in the illusion of doomsday, she and the whisperer in this world can be fully expected.

Although from a student's perspective, Bajing is a female high school student. It may seem incredible that an organization like Whisperer can be constructed, but it is impossible to deny this fact because it is incredible. The whisperers of the eight sceneries do have a way to become the ears and ears scattered in the city under certain conditions.

"Illusion?" Bajing really excited. Apparently he was a delicate black and straight beautiful girl, but when he was involved in this kind of stimulus that could not tell the truth, his eyes were immediately full of aggression and inquiry. The change in her expression let me know that she was very curious and did not deny what I felt. Maybe, even if everything is just my illusion, she treats me like this. Also very interested. "Carmen, doomsday agent? Really interesting, Achuan, you really gave me a big surprise. Although not sure yet-no! It's because it's not sure yet, so it's interesting, isn't it?"

"It's dangerous to involve too much, Eight Scenes." Seeing her excitement, I can't help but worry, although the strange and mysterious appearance may have been unable to stop, completely in the dark. It is a very dangerous situation to be unclear about the changes in the world, but Bajing is still just an ordinary girl, and she is actively involved in it. Is it more dangerous? I'm not sure, but I still feel that Bajing is different from others. It is better for her to be prepared than to be unprepared. Moreover, I am already a member of the whisperer.

If the world is the same as before, I wo n’t do such redundant things. However, the progress of the current situation has always exceeded my expectations. I can't protect all people and only trust myself when only I know the inside story, and only the girl in front of me can help me in this world.

"I need your help, Bajing." With apologies and requests, I said carefully to Bajing: "Please help me, if that is just my illusion, it would be better. And, before this, there is one thing You must know that I have always been regarded as a mental patient. For details, you can ask my mother, she is my mother, my doctor, and my guardian. "

Bajing seemed to be a little indigested by the sudden and huge information this evening, and her smile converged a little, but the kind of vigorous observation and inquiry still did not fade. She examined me several times and said to me: "I didn't expect that A Chuan was a mental patient, often confusing her fantasies with reality? Now she feels that those hallucinations are not her own hallucinations, the world will usher in Doomsday? However, this is indeed very interesting, even if it is just your illusion, no, your illusion is not interesting, what is interesting is that you will have this illusion. "She thought for a few seconds, and asked herself a few questions like" um " Sound, said to me: "Okay, I help you, whether it is those hallucinations, or you who have hallucinations, can be the targets of the whisperer. I really did not expect that there will be such people around me, This kind of thing is just like the plot in the novel. Because he made his first boyfriend, he immediately became the protagonist in the story? It's so interesting, it's so interesting. "

"This is not an interesting thing. Even if you read a novel, you should know that all stories involving psychological problems and mental hallucinations are full of unusual dangers and will die!" I warned seriously.

"I understand, Achuan. If your hallucinations will become true, then the danger is even higher. Such a development is no longer an ordinary murder case, but an unsolvable horror involving religion and occultism. "Eight scenes clearly haven't been shaken. She has made a full association from what I said. There are too many imaginary stories in human society that tell these topics. If you don't take it as a lie, you will see it as reality. What happened can naturally reach a certain degree of awareness of its danger level-except that this is not an action that ordinary people can do. The difference between a normal person and a mental patient is to strictly distinguish between fantasy and fact. The boundary between the two will not even be shaken by the appearance of certain unsolvable phenomena.

"Weird and mysterious. It is because it may have a reason, but it is not a reason that ordinary people can understand. It is beyond common sense, but it is in imagination." I looked at her with a heavy heart. "Things that are conceivable but incomprehensible are extremely terrifying. Because we can recognize its surface, we cannot recognize its internality, so we often make wrong choices."

"Achuan." Bajing stared at me with a strange expression. She said: "A mental patient who believes in hallucinations but realizes that he is producing hallucinations can even think about real mental patients through hallucinations. It's really weird. Don't you think your performance is full of contradictions? ? "

"No, I don't think so." I'm talking about how I feel. I know the contradiction in my performance, but I really don't think it is a strange thing. On the contrary, if you are not aware of the contradiction, you may not be yourself. Human thinking and self-understanding are always complicated and full of contradictions. Isn't it?

"No, normal people don't have this kind of contradiction, because normal people don't think about this kind of thing." Eight Scenes decisively denied, saying: "Only perverts and mental patients will think about these things."

"The philosopher will also think." I said.

"However, the thinking of philosophers always tries to sort out a clue from the contradiction, to sort out and explain the contradiction of self." Bajing looked at me with a more weird expression, "But, I think. Your thinking is often It ’s all chaotic, and because of the chaos, it ’s always full of contradictions, so you always behave silently. Achuan, do you still have schizophrenia? "

"... Yes." I didn't hide it or refute it. Gaochuan did have schizophrenic symptoms, and it wasn't just Gaochuan alone. Although I don't think my silence is due to the reasons mentioned by Ba Jing, but from her perspective, I am probably such a person. Although her judgment on me is not completely correct in my opinion, there is also a sharp spot. Sure enough, the eight sceneries of this world are different from those seen in the past. The development of our relationship, the difference in the world, and all the deviations have made her stand at another angle to see me who has not changed in nature, thus producing different interpretations of me.

In this world, Bajing's perception of me as a mental patient is stronger and clearer than in the past.

Even so, I still don't think that Bajing will despise me like this. What's more, I think she will pounce on her.

Sure enough, she replied this way: "Great, this is really a development beyond ordinary people's reality. My boyfriend is a pervert, or a serious mental patient." She said to herself, she seemed to realize that she was not I should say something like this in front of me, so I retorted and said, "Of course, if the mental patient ’s illusion becomes real and the thriller story becomes a horror story, it ’s too interesting. This world, unlike what I knew in the past In the same way, there is a turning point that ordinary people can never imagine in their lives. This is the most wonderful life. "

Eight scenes spoke to themselves quickly, her voice gradually became very low, very fast, I couldn't hear it at all, just thought it was a weird grunt, with her expression in the moonlight, and that beautiful posture Produce a huge sense of violation. When we walked side by side before, the natural and harmonious atmosphere we had was like dripping ink, and the black part was quickly dipped into the clear part. Suddenly, it was a hustle and bustle of the streets, which suddenly became strange. I just think that it seems that some switch has been activated. It was in my feelings. It was full of warm and normal places and was covered with a thick layer of cold shades.

I once again felt the illusion full of suggestiveness and danger. It had no shape and could not be seen with the naked eye, but it oozed out in the shadows and corners, between people and people ’s slits. Vocals, music, and car sounds became clear but monotonous at once, like pulling out a mess of tones, one by one, listed in his ears.

Then, there was a force pushing me. These weird things disappeared in a blink of an eye. I just felt like I was in a trance for a while. I only saw Bajing's hand on my shoulder.

"Achuan! Are you okay?" Bajing stared at my eyes with penetrating eyes, "Are you sick again? Seeing hallucinations?"

"Ah ..." I took a breath, and the world was back to normal again. "I think yes, I see hallucinations again. I hope that is just my hallucinations."

"Looking at you. It doesn't seem to be a small problem." Bajing said: "In such a situation, do you still want to wander around the street? I don't want to get up tomorrow morning and find that my boyfriend has become a perverted murderer. Newspaper headlines. "

"Not so bad." I said, "I'm used to it at this level."

Bajing didn't say anything to stop me like this, after thinking for a few seconds. Say to me with a very firm tone: "Where do you want to go? What to do? I will accompany you."

I was a little surprised, but Bajing did n’t seem to be joking, she said: “You ’re alone, I ’m not at ease, maybe you do n’t think you ’re in danger, but. But I think you are now the source of danger.”

"I'm not going to do dangerous things. Probably, maybe, it's dangerous to come to the door." I said uncertainly. However, I do n’t want Bajing to follow, because it ’s not good to be in danger. “And, if you go home too late, are n’t the family worried?”

"What about you? You are a mental patient supervised by your mother." Bajing raised his mouth. He asked: "Do you know if you can't go home from school at night?"

"There shouldn't be too many problems. I have the same record at home. When I was sick, I didn't go home in the middle of the night, not once or twice." I replied with certainty. Of course, that was the record "before" I arrived in this world. Moreover, the related memory was only "revived" when I met the diary kept in the computer. I am a mental patient, so. Will do some weird behaviors-for Dr. Ruan Li, this is the best explanation.

"Really? Then I have no problem." Bajing smiled profoundly and said, "My family treats me completely, even if I don't return all night."

"The problem of your family seems to be more serious than mine." If what Bajing said was true. Well, I can only think so. Although I'm far away from normal people in many ways, at home teaching, I absolutely don't recognize the attitude of completely grazing. In this regard, it is still the same as most people's perception.

"I like it very much." Bajing said: "So, there is no problem with you this evening. So, where are you going to go? Is this just going around? When will your hallucinations appear?"

I hesitated for a long while, and it seemed impossible to refuse. Although the attitude shown by Bajing was not very tough, if I let her go and acted on her own, she would keep up with it, but it would be more dangerous to sneak. So, I replied: "I'm going to see Misaki over there."

"Saki Ye?" Bajing frowned, and asked, "Who is that? The name is a bit familiar, and it seems to have been heard from somewhere." Her doubts were not disguised, and it seemed that she really didn't know Saki Ye-- In this world, the relationships that I am familiar with seem to remain in a broken state. If there is no weirdness and mystery, it will be impossible for me to have an intersection in the future for other reasons. Although, as far as I know, the potential relationship between Bajing and Sakuya is destined to be at a certain moment. Intersection. However, if the world is destined to enter the doomsday trajectory, then, between the Eight Scenes and Sakuya, because of the events of this evening, there is an intersection, and it is full of a "fate" flavor.

The situation became full of immediate vision. Me, Bajing and Sakuya, once again connected together because of weirdness and mystery.

"It's the girl in the next class." I answered the question of Bajing.

"Oh? How did you know her? Or, are you not only peeping at me, but also peeking at her?" Bajing's tone was full of playfulness.

"No, if it's possible, I won't even walk into your and her life. I don't think the current development is a good thing." I said in front of Bajing's eyes, although, this is for a girl who has just become a girlfriend Said, some hurt, "I am scared, Eight Scenes, I am afraid that everything I see will entrap you, even if this may be an invincible fate."

"You mean, those hallucinations? In your hallucinations, there is a situation about me and the girl named Saki Ye?" Bajing seems a little clear. It seems that she only thinks of many from my few words. Things, too, are very close to the truth.

"I always hope that you can live a peaceful life." Looking at the eight scenes that were gradually drawn into the vortex, I felt pain, whether or not it was due to fate. Or maybe I should n’t have asked the whisperer ’s help to choose to guard them in secret, maybe everything will be saved-there is a voice in my heart telling me that this is impossible, the choice now, although painful, But it is correct. Moreover, Bajing has the right to know these things.

"You look very painful, Achuan." Eight Kings faced me apologetically and painfully and said to me: "You did nothing wrong, don't be afraid. Tell me, your hallucinations, your world, me It is your girlfriend who has the right to know everything about you, even if it ’s just a delusion of a mental patient. "

I can't tell her, what should I say? Will you tell them about the reality in the hospital and the women in the doomsday illusion? What an abnormal and powerless thing that should be.

"Can't you say it ... it doesn't matter." Bajing showed a warm smile and stepped forward to hug me tightly: "As long as you remember, I'll be by your side." Her voice was soft, never before The softness, like the clear spring water, penetrated into my heart. The temperature and fragrance on her body made me gradually get rid of the pain of being lost in reality and illusion.

"Are you better? Achuan." Bajing let go of me and stared at my eyes, saying, "Go find her, the girl named Sakuya, if she is the one you think must be found."

I nodded and never refused to follow her, because I knew I was actually very fragile, and when the warmth was near, I didn't want to push it away. The Eight Scenery is beside me. This is a very important fact. Even with all kinds of concerns, I can no longer firmly refuse it.

I still remember where Misaki's home was and what the family was like, assuming these things are no different from the Doomsday Illusion. I did n’t hide these things from Bajing. She also told me clearly: “I have n’t actually studied Misaki ’s family, and it ’s very incredible to know the existence of these facts from a delusional illusion.”

"Does Dr. Ruan Li know this kind of thing? What did she say?" Ba Jing asked.

"She thinks that I deliberately forgot what I have done." I honestly replied: "Changing her here, I will probably feel that I used the power of the student union to secretly investigate Sakuya's affairs, so as to integrate into fantasy Among them, and then forgot to investigate her behavior. "

"It sounds very much like that. What do you think? Achuan." Ba Jingsha asked questioningly.

"... I don't know ~ www.readwn.com ~ Although, I have such records in my diary, just like I will deliberately record these things that will be forgotten before forgetting ... but, I still don't feel that way. "I replied hesitantly.

"Is it true that Achuan is more sensibility-oriented? Apparently it seems to be a very rational man." Bajing stopped using this sentence to describe the issue in depth, "Yes, all I have seen Most of the descriptions of metamorphosis are of the same type as Achuan, which suppresses sensibility through reason, but is crazy in sensibility. "

"Isn't it awkward to portray it so poetically?" I feel a little embarrassed when describing Ba Jing.

Bajing's answer was a smile. I think she deliberately. Leaving aside these topics about my condition, Bajing gradually became more interested in Miyake. This change seems to me to have a sense of "repeat the trajectory of fate". However, before determining the changes around Misaki, I think it is better to be cautious. The faster our intersection, the deeper it is, always giving me a sense of "change accelerating" in the midst. I don't like this feeling. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation. Please read it for mobile users.)