Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

At the same table I was talking, suddenly raised my eyes, over my shoulders, and looked behind me.

I felt a sign, and suddenly turned around, but saw nothing.

"What are you looking at?" I couldn't help but ask the person who was at the same table.

"Oh, a girl in the class next door, has been looking at you with a fixed eye just now." Having said that, the same desk once said in a ridiculous tone: "Actually, I always think that you have been crushed by her."

I made a joke, but I also wondered in my heart whether the girl at the same table was Sakuya. Just now, my intuition has become extremely sharp, and the scale of the truth in this incomparably real world has begun to tilt. When I think of Doomsday Illusion as "delusion", I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, as if I have taken away important things, and when Doomsday Illusion is really cut again, I have some fears and fear of this incomparable The real and ordinary world will once again fall into the end of the world filled with weirdness and mystery. "Jiang", which could not be felt just a few hours ago, once again showed signs of illusion, and my previous conversation with Bajing was like a key, letting this normal and real world, Towards the key to destroying fate.

Although there is no definitive evidence yet, my intuition is telling me that the "Jiang", which was once excluded from this world, is eroding. Everything I saw, heard and felt, including the wind and grass and the shadows under the night, gradually gave birth to a strange smell. I'm not afraid of weirdness, just. I do n’t want this world to fall. However, if I tell others about this worry. Presumably it will be regarded as a mental illness, although in my eyes, the world is becoming unknown, but the signs of weirdness, mystery, and the end of the world are not strong. In other words, probably It was just a coincidence in my conversation based on the eight sceneries. The illusion of spontaneous emergence ... I hope that this is the case. Everything I worry about is just my illusion.

If the doomsday illusion is just my unwilling ordinary "delusion", those adventures are nothing but brain-filling pictures, and I confuse them with the real truth, simply because I am too involved-if this is the truth. I am also willing to accept that because the feeling that "the world is moving towards a fate that only I know" is too sudden and strong, so I feel more and more how real and ordinary the world is before. Beautiful.

however. What I am worried about is that all this is not my delusion. The "doom of illusion" does exist, and this world will also follow in the footsteps of the illusion of doom. Such a result, even if it will let me escape the trap of the repeater. There is nothing to be happy about. Because, finally, I can see the eight sceneries and they can live peacefully in such a beautiful world. For me, such a scene is simply a dream that does not want to wake up.

I passed by the next class along the corridor, and Misaki was not inside. Was the girl who had been staring at me at the same table before the same as her? I cared a little bit, but when I turned around immediately, she was gone, and it also made me care. She walked so fast. I poked my head out of the handrail of the hallway and walked around the stairs to find the familiar figure. Misaki is here. She is a good student who has never been absent from studying late. Since she is not in the class or in the hallway, the biggest possibility is to go downstairs and go out.

However, until the evening self-study bell rang in the second half, I could not find that figure. I couldn't help worrying, where did Sakuya go? Did something happen? The abnormal feeling produced by the conversation with Bajing made me a little uneasy. With a somber mood, I went back to my seat and looked at the eight scenes, but it didn't seem to plan to continue the previous topic at this time. Her eyes were like nothing happened, passing my face , Again on the exercises.

Later in the evening self-study time, after I solved the problem as quickly as possible, I have been analyzing every detail I feel and perceive. This world should be used to normal in the eyes of others, but for me, when I have both the experience of this world and the doomsday illusion, when comparing the two, I feel that it is only one step away from "abnormality", but This kind of consideration can only be deeply buried in my heart. Even if the eight scenes of the whisperer are formed, I do n’t think my idea is normal.

The basic structure of this world is similar to the illusion of the end, but it is far from the reality of the hospital. If you look at the end-of-the-world illusion based on the reality of the hospital, the end-of-the-world illusion is a lower-level world. However, if we observe the reality of the hospital and the illusion of the end of the world based on this world, we will conclude that both are delusions in the brain.

This world is the ultimate reality. I used this world as a blueprint, delusionally created an illusion of doomsday in my mind, and filled the skeleton of the whole story with the reality of the hospital. This idea is also based on existence.

If you look at the reality of the hospital and the world from the perspective of the end of the illusion, you can feel that the end of the illusion is in a core position among the three.

I have never been able to confirm which one is the only real world, precisely because if one of the three is completely false, there will be a crack even with the existence of the other two.

Although the situation is becoming more and more complicated, but this is just the confusion of the world view, not my purpose has also produced confusion. I have always felt that it is necessary to confirm my relationship with the world through the people in my memory, and I have an urgent hunch that I must complete and confirm this before becoming "increasingly strange" The appearance of the world is to perfect a consolidated worldview. Whether it is a "doom illusion delusion" or a "trap trap" must be confirmed before the eerie changes I feel are completed, otherwise the situation may get worse.

After making the decision, I rushed out of the classroom just after the bell rang, and ambushed outside the school gate to wait for the appearance of Sakuya.

When Miyaki walked out of the school, I recognized her at a glance. Like the eight scenes, regardless of appearance. Still wearing a school uniform for girls, more than I saw in the hospital, the broken personality looks more familiar and nostalgic. I am not very familiar with Misaki ’s campus life. When I met her in the illusion of apocalypse, the anomalies brought by the apocalyptic religion had completely eroded her life in just a few days. The situation turned sharply. In the doomsday illusion, Sakuya mentioned that she had a very deep impression on me long ago, but the beginning of it was nothing more than a chance encounter that I ignored. However, this is similar to the illusion of the end. But there is no weird and mysterious world. Is there such an intersection between us? In my illusion of doomsday, can my knowledge of her be copied into this world? The answer to this question, before seeing the eight scenes. It has always been negative.

My deep relationship with these people in the Doomsday Illusion has exceeded my current time in this world. If my relationship and acquaintance with them have not changed, then maybe I can view the "Apocalypse Illusion" Making is a hunch of the future. This kind of hunch was originally a "mystery" category.

In other words. Only when I am "irrelevant" to them, when I take the initiative to approach them, there is no intersection like the end of the illusion, so that I can feel that the world is safe and the end will not start. So, I looked at Misaki Ye, but I expected in my heart, "The Doomsday Illusion" is just my delusion, and the woman she recognized in the Doomsday Illusion is nothing but my delusion. Although, the relationship between us, Great changes may occur, but if the acquaintance between us is based on a doomsday doom, then I would rather look at her from a distance.

I have always dreamed that the intersection between people must not be based on the start of a nightmare fate, that is the real beautiful world I want.

Misaki's look was very good, not at all like the panic and helplessness when I met her in the illusion of doomsday. Her friends are obviously more than when they are in a doomsday illusion. When they talk to friends, they always have a quiet smile without any cowardice, as I had imagined, if she did n’t encounter strange and mysterious girls. Look. When I saw her like this, my eyes were moistened. I do n’t think I need to meet her deliberately anymore. I do n’t know if I step into her life, what the future will look like, but now the world feels too ambiguous for me, and I am worried and saki The intersection of the night will be the same as when the eight scenes intersect, so that weirdness and mystery will appear in this world. Assuming that this world is a "trap of a repeater", then the change that happened before is probably that "Jiang" is eroding this world. This is not a bad thing, but the thought of it is happening, but it makes me think that it is not A good thing.

At least, I hope that this world, the women in this world, can continue this plain but real life, even if this may just be a consciousness based on me, it doesn't matter if I dreamed of being born to trap me.

Bajing is already pursuing more than happiness, and Misaki's appearance is enough to make me understand her happiness at this time. They don't need me, they can have their own happiness. To see them like this is also a kind of happiness for me.

I looked at them from afar, Saki Ye suddenly stopped and looked around, maybe for another reason, but I felt that she was looking for me, she sensed my existence-such a keen sense, to an ambiguous For the world, it ’s not a good thing-so I left, just like instinct, I walked into the shadow of the alley and walked quickly, although I had to avoid Sakuya, I probably had to alienate the eight sceneries, but, I At this time, the heart is full of happiness. If I can, I hope to see other people to confirm whether the lives of Zhenjiang, Marceau, Seise and Dorothy are as calm and happy as the eight sceneries and Misaki, if they are so, then, I I feel that there is nothing wrong with accepting that I am a patient with a secondary disease and seeing the doomsday illusions as my own delusions.

Because, in fact, I no longer know where is real, where is reality, where is fantasy. In my experience, the previous moment is still a real thing, and the next moment becomes an unreal change. It is too frequent. The only thing that runs through these real or unreal is only personality, spirit and consciousness. Therefore, I can't help thinking, maybe, what is real and what is illusion is actually not important, what is important is that in this reality or illusion, each person's own thoughts. This is also when reality and illusion no longer have that clear and distinct ravine. The inevitable result.

The real power of the "virus" may not lie in making people sick. Rather, it blurs the boundary between the patient's reality and illusion. People's lifestyles and inherent concepts have forced them to distinguish between illusion and reality. However, it can be used in a wonderful state throughout. For patients, the basis of their own existence has been completely changed, when the definition becomes ambiguous. When it is no longer possible to follow the previous definition to distinguish between illusion and reality, thinking becomes chaotic. Perhaps, this is the essential problem that patients need to face most.

This definition of ambiguity is rooted in the change of human will. The word "definition" has always been based on human cognition. The purpose is to divide the nature of things into a clear boundary for people to recognize more clearly. However, assuming that the definition of "true and unreal" is vague at this time, then this vagueness. But it must not be the reason that human beings deliberately confused the concept, but a practical transformation of existence. Just as stone is no longer a stone, the definition of "stone" no longer works.

In this case, it doesn't make sense to insist on whether the "stone" is a stone, just like now. This world may be a "real world" or a "repeater trap." According to the normal situation, of course, there is only one possibility, but if its essence is "it may be both the real world and the intermediate state of the repeater trap", then, on the premise that it must be one of them Recognizing it is not necessarily the right choice.

Perhaps, my thoughts are too arrogant, but, I began to feel that the important factor in determining whether it is to continue to be in the middle, or to be true or unreal, is on me. My cognition, my observation of this world, may be in my body, or it may be "Jiang" in my delusions, which will be integrated into a complex parameter that determines the nature of this world. In my partial knowledge of cutting-edge science, this situation is somewhat similar to the "observer effect" in quantum mechanics. Let me not mention whether the "observer effect" can cope with the current situation, whether it is right or wrong. I stand on the position of "observer" and have an impact on it, which is intuitively recognized.

Of course, in a world without weirdness and mystery, my arrogant idea is the most serious symbol of China's second disease. However, at this moment, when I met Bajing and Sakuya, I was expecting that I was indeed a deep secondary disease patient, because, as a result, the tragic fate was nothing more than that of a secondary disease patient. It is delusional. This is indeed a happy thing, isn't it?

I let go of my steps and walked toward my house with the joy of consciousness.

For the next few days, I have been fulfilling my duties as a top student. Although I have not been a high school student for many years in the illusion of doomsday, I came to this world to pick up textbooks and abide by the various rules of the school. System, to complete the tasks of the student union, but there is no feeling of unsmoothness, or nostalgia for years after the incident, just like this, it has never stopped in my life so far.

I did n’t go looking for Misaki again, passing by several times, and just confirming her safety and happiness with my eyes. In terms of the eight scenes, since the self-study class that night, there has been no mention of whisperers. It ’s like, when I made up my mind, everything returned to its original state, and the seemingly spooky and mysterious signs of recovery were once again in silence. . In the past few days, when I went to study at night, I passed by the secluded and deep alley many times, the corners of the school deviated, and the inner layers of the building enveloped by the shadows, I did not feel the instinctive tumult. The auditory hallucination has never appeared again.

The peaceful life made me almost forget the doomsday illusions and the realities of the hospital. I just saw some unnatural things in my dreams, but when I woke up, I recalled it, but I could n’t tell what kind of dream was that It's like a normal and confused nightmare-however, its existence reminds me of the end of the illusion and the reality of the hospital. I pretended that I did n’t remember my abnormality, but in fact, I still understood that I was extremely abnormal because I could n’t really think of myself as a secondary disease.

According to the saying that "mental patients never say they are mentally ill", I, who cannot treat myself as a patient with secondary disease, should be a real patient with secondary disease. However, the clarity and rationality of thinking always observes myself from the perspective of a third party-I am not determined that the "doom illusion" is true, but I cannot be determined that the "doom illusion" is just a delusion, my Attitude has always been swaying, just like, I regard this world as the intermediate state between real and illusory, but it is because of this that I feel that this world is constantly swaying between the two.

I told myself that as long as one of them is affirmed, everything will probably end. Now that this world is so beautiful, what they care about, they love, should have a happy result, then, admit that the end of the illusion is just a delusion of a secondary disease. However, there is always an excuse that prevents me from crossing before I make this decision-this excuse is sometimes the unseen Zhenjiang them, sometimes the passionate adventure in the illusion of doomsday, sometimes the reality in the hospital Gao Chuan's agreement sometimes seems to be the "Jiang" that has been deeply hidden in the deepest part of the body and soul and has not been felt for a long time.

In order to allow me to make a decision as soon as possible, I have been working hard to find Zhenjiang and her outside the class. However, when I met them in the doomsday illusion, compared with the two scenes of Bajing Saki Ye, they did not have enough hints. Bajing and Sakuya have always been by my side. If the doomsday illusions are regarded as delusions, then they can be regarded as their prototypes to outline them in the doomsday illusions, although their behavior in the doomsday illusions, Putting it in this world is like a prophecy, but as long as it is not in contact, it seems that such a change will not occur-of course, there may also be a change, and I ca n’t recognize it without deep contact with them. .

In contrast, my encounter with Zhenjiang, Marceau, Seise, and Dorothy is based entirely on the fate of the weird and mysterious show, simply based on their identity and place of appearance in the illusion of doomsday, then The possibility of these four people abroad is extremely high. However, as a high school student, how can I find four people who should not know me in the vast sea of ​​people overseas?

After more than a week, I got some clues in an accidental whimsy.

Although the real environment of the hospital is very different from the doomsday illusion, considering that the "hospital" is just an island environment, the possibility that the exterior and the doomsday illusion are similar also exists. However, starting from the real experience of the hospital, Going back to me and Zhenjiang before they were infected by the "virus" ~ www.readwn.com ~ I found a photo that looked full of immediate sights in the orphanage where I had stayed before-it was numerous on the Internet In the internal environment photography works of the Welfare Institute, I accidentally turned it out. However, when I saw the photos and produced the familiar and strange feeling, I felt that this kind of accident was like a fate.

In the photos of the orphanage, there are only the scenes inside the building, and there are no characters in it, and they have been put on the Internet for several years. There are many pictures just copied. It is not an easy task to sort out the clues step by step and find the photographer.

After working for more than a week, I found out the organizer of the photo contest at that time through the Internet and telephone contact-it was not a successful and famous competition, but it was only held on the Internet-after I trusted them, I found The photographer of this welfare home. Should this be unexpected, or should it be expected? The photographer has a name, gender and occupation that I am very familiar with.

"Dr. Ruan Li?" I began to feel that my actions, once again, made the world, and the end of the illusion and hospital reality, have a further connection. If I can, I really do n’t want to see this female psychologist again. Her presence always makes me feel a sign of doom. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation. Please read it for mobile users.)