You always wonder what you're doing as my Taoist partner

"I know." Jiang Li nodded,

Ling Wei whispered beside him, "Anyway, you won't change what I said."

"I've always been like this."

"You were not like this before." Ling Wei stopped suddenly and said to him seriously, "You were really not like this before."

"But people have to grow up, and growing up means changing."

"Why change?"

"Because of the pain of being dissatisfied with the status quo, you want to change."

"So, why do you feel pain?"

"Because I'm used to being poor, because no one loves me, because... I want to be loved."

Before falling in love with Ling Wei, Jiang Li never lied to her. Whenever he did something asshole, and felt ashamed, he always liked to chat with Ling Wei about it. It will feel much better, and he won't change anyway.

But Ling Wei has always regarded him as the most important person in her heart.

Ling Wei couldn't refute Jiang Li's words just now. Maybe she wanted to say something in her heart, but she knew that it was meaningless, so she chose to keep silent, but the two walked a few more steps, and she suddenly stopped. He stepped down and asked in a low voice, "Can the hot pot be returned?"

"Unfortunately, no."

"No, you ask me to call and ask, I don't believe you."

Jiang Li has nothing to do with her, "Then what do you want to eat?"

"Let's go eat barbecue." Ling Wei winked at him, "Go to the one we used to go to in junior high school."

"I... can do it."

Jiang Li was stunned for a moment, and he suddenly found that the world line in this memory had changed. In his previous life, he didn't talk about these things with Ling Wei, so the two naturally went to eat hot pot, and then went back to the hotel together, but Now the hot pot has become a barbecue.

"Ling Wei."

"Ok?"

"Can you give me a hug?"

"What are you doing?" The girl next to her took a light step to the side with a vigilant look on her face.

"Just... give me a hug."

Jiang Li looked into her eyes, probably because of the puppy-like pity in his eyes that people couldn't refuse, Ling Wei still walked up to him, stretched out her hand, and gently hugged him.

Very light, very light, but very real to the touch.

Jiang Li suddenly felt his nose a little sore.

Chapter 202 Chapter [-] Illusion

The barbecue restaurant opened in the alley next to Jiangli Junior High School.

Barbecue restaurants in such places are generally husband and wife restaurants. The owner is a taciturn man. His wife looks very gentle, but because of the perennial oily smoke, her face inevitably looks a little older than ordinary women.

The advantage of this barbecue restaurant is that it is very cheap. Both Jiang Li and Ling Wei went to private junior high schools, and the teaching conditions are not very good. Most of the people who graduated from this junior high school went to technical secondary schools, or After playing for a year or two, it becomes the fresh blood of various low-level labor industries.

But Jiang Li and Ling Wei are different, they are very clear about the purpose of learning, not for anyone, not for the praise of their parents, not for the envious eyes of others, purely, just for themselves.

They studied very hard in junior high school, and finally managed to pass the entrance examination to the high school in the city.

Looking at the familiar storefront in front of him, Jiang Li became a little dazed at the moment, he suddenly couldn't tell whether he was the Jiang Li who came back with Ling Wei during the summer vacation of his freshman year, or the one who had passed away to another world after death and was crossing his heart. Jiang Li, the devil's tribulation.

He turned to look at Ling Wei beside him, her smile was so familiar, what exactly was she?Is it an illusion constructed by his own memory?But the hug was so real, and those glasses were so touching, there was no difference from his memory.

Jiang Li sat with her in the shop, and ordered some starchy sausage, chicken wings, potato chips, baked bean curd, and an eggplant.I ordered some more mutton skewers. Ling Wei's appetite was small, and her figure was a little thin. Jiang Li looked at her hands seriously. Her knuckles were beautiful, but her skin was no longer so white and smooth.

Because Ling Wei used to do a lot of temporary jobs with him to earn some living expenses.

"What are you thinking about?" Ling Wei put her hands on her cheeks and looked into his eyes.

Jiang Li came back to his senses, "No."

The barbecue they wanted was quickly brought up. The proprietress on the other side smiled and said that she hadn't seen them coming for a long time, and asked them what they were doing recently. After a few simple greetings, the two started Head down to the BBQ.

Jiang Li really wanted to find something to talk about, but he didn't know what to say for a while. For Ling Wei, maybe this was a very common meeting in countless days, but for him, it was a It is the reunion of old friends in a dream.

But after a few seconds, Jiang Li laughed at himself again. Why did he talk to himself in the illusion with the virtual self that he knew was fake and did not exist?

Compared to the hot pot meal which was [-] yuan per person, two people ate [-] yuan for this barbecue meal. Slowly falling, they walked on the path home from school, as if they had returned to the past in a trance.

In the past they lived very close together, in the same alley, and the rent was very cheap, but there were endless cockroaches and mice in the house. Jiang Li still remembered that he was bitten by a mouse when he was sleeping at night in the third year of junior high school. There was a small mark left on his body, he raised his hand to look at his hand, the mark was still there.

If it was all a dream, how should he wake up?

Why did the illusion happen on such a day? Nothing special happened on this day. Jiang Li turned his head and looked at Ling Wei beside him. He didn't know what the meaning was. He saw Ling Wei's hair fluttering gently with the wind. Her steps were brisk, and when she noticed his eyes, she turned her head, stopped under the streetlight, and looked at him in confusion.

"Are you weird today?"

"Have it?"

"Yeah, it feels weird to me. Has something happened recently?"

"No way, you know I've always been heartless." Jiang Li then replied, and then asked, "Where are we going next?"

"Go back to the hotel, otherwise where else do you want to go?"

"I'm crazy...you lead the way."

All the memories in Jiang Li's head seemed to be familiar again. Ling Wei walked in front of him and led the way. He looked at all the familiar things in the past, followed Ling Wei closely, and finally arrived in front of the hotel. , The hotel was booked by Ling Wei, there happened to be a [-]% discount coupon, and there was still a twin room, a man and a woman, twin rooms, in fact, it was very subtle, but fortunately, neither of them felt any embarrassment.

For them, in this world, the only people they can really trust are each other, and many things seem to be indifferent. Ling Wei went back to the room, and then played a guessing game with him to see who would take a bath first. The loser was Jiang Li, so Ling Wei took out her nightgown from the suitcase, hummed softly and went to the bathroom. Her figure was faintly revealed through the frosted glass of the bathroom, while Jiang Li lay on the bed and turned on the TV.

Everything was familiar and strange, he felt as if he woke up in a dream, and he couldn't find any trace of falsehood in this illusion.

It seems that it takes a long time for girls to take a bath, so in the past Jiang Li was usually too lazy to wait, he would use various excuses to coax girls to take a bath together, anyway, as long as you never ask her if she wants to take a bath together, it will be fine if you feel a lot of things. It was a matter of course, half an hour later Ling Wei came out wearing a floral nightgown, the nightgown covered her figure and did not outline the traces of underwear, and Jiang Li didn't even look at it, went straight to take a shower, and then He casually changed into loose clothes, and then lay back on his bed.

The beds for the two of them were not big, and there was a table between them. There was an old movie on the TV. Ling Wei watched it seriously, but Jiang Li didn't have the heart to watch it. He couldn't calm down and face it. All of this, the sun outside the window had completely set, and after a while, the movie ended, Ling Wei yawned and asked him, "Are you still asleep?"

Jiang Li came back to his senses, and replied subconsciously, "I usually go to bed at two o'clock in the morning."

"You are going to die, Jiang Li."

"got used to."

"Go to bed early, staying up late is very bad for your health." Ling Wei's voice seemed a bit dissatisfied, and Jiang Li looked at her cute pouting face, "Then... shall we sleep together?"

Ling Wei pulled out a pillow from the table and threw it at him. Jiang Li smiled cheerfully, but was dumbfounded while hugging the pillow.

Ling Wei lay on her side, looking at him without blinking.

"What are you staring at me for?"

"It depends on when you plan to go to bed."

"I really can't sleep." Jiang Li smiled helplessly. Just as he was about to say something, his phone rang. He subconsciously picked it up and looked at it. The note was 172, Sister Yu, spicy food, tsundere , music department, rich woman.

Then he immediately recalled who it was, but he couldn't even remember the name. This illusion was too real. He seemed to remember such a phone call in his previous life. He picked up the phone and tried to connect. There was the sound of the tide.

"Guess where I am?"

"Beach?" Jiang Li asked tentatively.

"Hehe." The girl on the opposite side sneered, although Jiang Li guessed the correct answer, but the girl still wanted to kill him, because he gave Ling Wei away in order to attend Ling Wei's appointment.

Jiang Li subconsciously thought of a lot of words to coax the other party, but he didn't say it when he just reached his mouth. After a few seconds, the voice from the other side came, "Video."

"I'm inconvenient."

"reason?"

"If you type the video, you will definitely get angry, so it's better not to type."

"Then have you ever thought that I'm already blown up now?"

"I'm sorry." Jiang Li said suddenly.

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, and then Jiang Li heard her ask, "What do you mean?"

"It just means I'm sorry."

"Apologize for dove me?"

"Yes or no, there are still many things I want to apologize for."

"Like?"

"I lied to your feelings, to giving me gifts, and to your body. In fact, I never thought of being responsible. In my heart, you have the same status as other girls. I have never treated you like that." A sliver of real liking, everything said is a carefully constructed rhetoric, I'm a scum, bastard, a dirty sewer rat."

"and then?"

"There's no more... I'm done." Jiang Li was silent for a while, "I'm sorry, those gifts you gave me, I will find a way to return them to you in a certain amount of time."

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, maybe because he didn't know what to say, or maybe because he was angry, Jiang Li waited patiently until she asked almost hysterically, "What do you mean?"

Her voice trembled, mixed with the wind from the sea.

"It's just... nothing interesting, I want to apologize to you." Jiang Li sighed softly, then hung up the phone, his phone rang again soon, and then he chose to turn it off.

He also lay on his side on the bed, and he looked at Ling Wei, who was looking at him full of bewilderment and confusion. A few seconds later, Ling Wei asked in a low voice, "Well, did you quarrel?"

"It doesn't matter, I just think it's time to end, otherwise what if she really falls in love with me then?"

"Don't you want her to love you?"

"There is no real love in this world. It's all lies, deceit, exchange, greed, and desire. Everyone is an independent individual and never needs another person to share his life."

"You always have this kind of nonsense in your mouth."

"But don't you believe in the same truth as I do?" Jiang Li stared seriously into her eyes.

Ling Wei slightly turned her face away, "I'm different from you."

"Okay, okay, it's different."

After a while, Jiang Li turned on the phone again, but unexpectedly the call was still ringing. He blocked the call, then opened his friend interface, looked at the profile pictures of a dozen girls with notes in front of him, and smiled wryly. He rubbed his head, and then started calling one by one.

"sorry."

"sorry."

"..."