Loftly Temptation

She shakes her head. Yes, she hopes Xiang Lan can marry Ma Guangming with peace of mind and set up such a trap. And this picture directly makes Xiang Lan let go of me, so she can marry Ma Guangming. On the one hand, she can keep the company, on the other hand, it makes me wake up. Yes, I have played an obstacle role in the marriage between Xiang Lan and Ma Guangming, At the same time, it is also a kind of putting down for me, which is a kind of misplaced emotion

But I quickly responded, "sister." I ran after her quickly.

The elevator has been slowly straight down, I desperately press the elevator, but for a long time did not come, I took the stairs, I have forgotten how many floors this is, I desperately climb, with the fastest speed, also do not know how to climb down.

When I walked out of the apartment, I saw Xiang Lan was in the car. I quickly opened the car door. I wanted to pull her, but she closed the door. I kept knocking on the door. She didn't look at me inside. Finally, she drove the car gently and left. I ran after him and kept shouting, "sister, stop, stop!", She didn't stop. At last, I stopped and squatted on the ground. At the moment, I was on the ground like an abandoned child, shouting and shouting

Until the security guard came to help me up, I was still not indifferent. I had lost consciousness. At that time, it was like I had lost everything

I didn't know how long I stayed. I felt someone lift me up, and I smelled familiar perfume.

"Get up."

"Elder sister, is it you? Is it really you?" I know it is toward LAN, I know it is her, this familiar feeling will not change, I will always remember this perfume.

I slowly stood up and looked at Xiang Lan. I seriously looked at her for fear that she would leave again. At this moment, I hugged her tightly again. She didn't resist. I hugged her steadily for a long time.

"Go back." Her voice was quiet.

When we got on the bus and slowly started the car, I seemed to see her standing in the corner not far away from us. I felt her sad and I could see that she seemed to have something to say. But at that time, I no longer wanted to see her. I don't know why so many things happened tonight. My heart was so tired and my mind was in a mess. I just wanted to watch Xiang Lan quietly.

When I was in the car, I couldn't turn my eyes to Xiang Lan, but her expression was still cold, not the usual kind of enthusiasm, she would not say the same thing to me.

"Xiao Lin, how can you look at me? Is there something dirty on my face?"

I can no longer hear her flirting like this.

Instead, it was replaced by.

"Xiao Lin, I hope you can take good care of yourself in the future."

When I look at Xiang Lan, I can feel her attitude towards me has changed. She is no longer Xiang Lan who will talk to me at that night, and she is no longer Xiang Lan who has a lot of ambiguous relationship with me. Instead, she has become Xiang Lan at work. At night, she reminds me of this sentence. I know what she means. She wants to keep a distance from me at work. Suddenly, I feel sad, All of a sudden, I have some sadness.

Looking out of the window, the night is very beautiful, the scenery outside the window is still unchanged, but the feeling between us has changed, and the memories between us have been covered up by the scene that happened today.

Yes, I suddenly think of a truth, a piece of white cloth, only a little ink on it, will become a stain, will make us feel that it is no longer pure white cloth, how pure and white it used to be, we can never find this feeling again.

A bhikkhu was walking by the lotus pool in the forest. He smelled the fragrance of the lotus. He thought that if he could often smell the fragrance of the lotus, he would be greedy. The God of the lotus pond appeared and said to him, "why don't you meditate under the tree and come here to steal the fragrance of my flowers? If you are greedy for the fragrance, you will get upset and not feel at ease“ Then he disappeared.

Bhikkhu felt very ashamed and was about to go back to meditation. At this time, a man came to play in the lotus pool. He broke the lotus leaves with his hands and pulled them up. He made a mess of the lotus in the pool. After that, the man left.

Not only did the pool God not appear, he didn't even say a word.

Feeling very strange, bhikkhu asked the pool God, "that man has made a mess of your lotus. Why don't you care? I'm just walking by your pool. When I smell your flowers, you blame me. What's the reason“

The pool God replied: "the evil men in the world are covered with sin. Even if they get a little dirty on their heads, their dirty is the same, so I don't want to take care of them. But you are a meditator. I'm afraid that if you indulge in the fragrance of flowers, your practice will be destroyed. That's why I blame you. For example, there is a small stain on the white cloth, which everyone can see; Those villains, like black clothes, plus a few black spots, are invisible to themselves“

We are all quiet. This is the familiar music coming from the car music.

But everything has changed

Xiang Lan drove very fast. I didn't know where to go. I didn't ask, and she didn't say. Along the way, there was a distance between us. I knew Xiang Lan was very sad, and I also knew that I had done something wrong. I replaced everything we wanted to say with silence.

Until the car drove into the familiar Merrill Lynch villa, I knew Xiang Lan had brought me into her house. At that time, I was still a little excited. I thought Xiang Lan had forgiven me. When I got off the car, I asked Xiang Lan“ Elder sister, don't you get angry with me? "But Xiang Lan still doesn't have any expression, she seems to have changed a person. I just followed in silence, along the way we still do not have any topic, her arrogance makes me a bit strange and uneasy. Until entering Xiang Lan's room, she still went to the room quietly. I sat in the living room and felt deeply guilty and remorse. I smoked a cigarette and let the smoke ring permeate the whole living room. For a long time, Xiang Lan just walked out of the living room and saw that I was still there. Then he came over and simply said to me, "Xiao Lin, go back to the guest room and sleep. Don't smoke too much. It's bad for your health." I suddenly got up and hugged Xiang Lan. I didn't want to lose her. I blamed myself for a long time. I knew that Xiang Lan was a kind woman. She could be so calm when facing such a situation. However, I deeply hurt her. I did that with her and another woman on my back. The second I hugged Xiang Lan, Xiang Lan didn't react, But when she reacted, she struggled to open my hand, and then went back to her room after saying something that made me still repent for myself. I only remember that Xiang Lan said, "Xiao Lin, please don't do that in the future." But I still hold her tightly. I'm afraid that if I let her go, I'll lose her. It's like the loneliness of the cup, the feeling of being poured into boiling water and boiling hot. So the cup thinks that this is the feeling of love. When the water gets warm, the cup feels very comfortable. I think that this is the feeling of life. When the water gets cold, the cup is very afraid. Maybe this is the feeling of being afraid of losing, The water became cold again, and the cup felt very uncomfortable. I didn't want to feel tasteless, so I wanted to pour the water out. The water was finally poured out. Although the cup felt comfortable, it was also poured out on the ground at the same time, and fell into pieces. The cup found that there were traces of water on every fragment. It knew that it still loved water, It wants to love water once more completely, but it's impossible. Can we only know how to cherish it when we lose it? Only when everything has passed can we know that the happiness of the past has warned us that we should cherish what we have now. Don't wait until it's too late to regret when we lose it. Reality is always cruel, it will not give us so many opportunities, some things missed will not come again. But finally Xiang Lan gently pushed away from my body. It's hard to see her go back to the room. I continued to smoke a cigarette. At that time, my heart was very agitated. Finally, I didn't know how to sleep. The next day, when I woke up, I found that I was sleeping on the sofa with a blanket. After watching the clock, it was more than 10 o'clock. I felt dizzy. I went to wash my face and patted my head. I immediately ran to Xianglan's room, but the door was locked, No matter how I knocked, there was no response. Then I saw a note on the dining table, which was left by Xiang Lan. Xiaolin, I know what happened last night is not your original intention, but sometimes I can't forgive what I did wrong. If the protagonist is not in it, maybe I won't be so angry, but since it happened like this, I have to accept it. I hope you can go well in the future. And there's hot porridge in the kitchen. You can eat it yourself. Xiang Lan. Looking at a few lines written by Xiang Lan in a hurry, I suddenly have tears in my eyes. I don't know why. It seems to be my farewell letter to Xiang Lan. I think of the past that I can't go back to with Xiang Lan in the future. Suddenly, a lot of pictures appear in my mind. In fact, there are many things that will be understood only after we have experienced them. We will know how to protect ourselves only after we have experienced emotional pain. We will know how to insist and give up when we have been silly. We gradually know ourselves in the process of getting and losing. There are many things in the world that can be seen clearly only in the past. In fact, life does not need so many indifferent persistence, nothing can not give up. Learn to give up, life will be easier; Learn to give up, in tears before turning away, leaving a simple figure; Learn to give up and bury yesterday in my heart; Leave good memories; Learn to give up, so that each other can have a more relaxed start, bruised love is not necessarily unforgettable, a journey has been deep and shallow love is not easy, gently pull out the hand to say goodbye, do not have to let their hurt deeper, every gratitude is very beautiful, every accompany is very intoxicating. Do you feel regret if you can't have it? Do you feel nostalgia if you miss it? Love is a questionnaire with no answer. Hard pursuit can't make life more complete. Maybe a little bewilderment and a little sadness will make the answer more distant. Put away your mood and go. You will get rain if you miss flowers. Who says you must have something you like? Sometimes, Some people go to extremes by all means in order to get what they want. Maybe they get it, but in the process of chasing, what they lose is incalculable, and the price they pay is irreparable. Maybe those costs are heavy. Now, I broke, no longer let her have the shadow of fantasy, everything will be relieved.