I, holding a long sword in my hand, only know one move

[Remaining blood volume: 9/10]

The strength in his whole body was still surging, and he was alive and kicking. Only the pain that was cutting at his nerves radiated from the knife wound on his chest to his whole body.

I was digitized in the training ground. As long as my health does not return to zero...all my mobility will not disappear.

In other words...

This way you won't die at all, at least - you won't die if you just stab yourself.

Current equipment: [Novice Long Sword] (Attack Power: 1)

"Ahhhhhh!!!"

Tears and snot flowed down Cheng Rang's open mouth as he collapsed on the ground, mixed with howls and saliva, and dripped onto the transparent ground of the training ground before disappearing.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts!

He huddled on the ground in grievance, holding the hilt of the knife deeply embedded in his chest with trembling hands.

Is it so difficult to die even once?

Using all his strength, almost breaking his teeth, he clenched the handle of the knife and pulled it out from his chest.

Then, with the last bit of courage, he slashed his neck.

The sharp blade cut across the cervical spine and then penetrated.

【HP-1】

[Remaining blood volume: 8/10]

"Damn it, damn it! Damn it!!!"

Restraining the fear of pain throughout his body, it took Cheng Rang at least four hours to clear 10 points of his health with one blow for the first time.

"Ahhhh!!"

The roar of determination accompanies the blade that penetrates the bone, and the pain that still paralyzes him penetrates the spinal cord with a short delay along the wound that does not bleed.

【HP-1】

[Remaining blood volume: 0/10]

【Player death】

In Cheng Rang's relieved smile, the world in front of him suddenly turned dark, and his perception of the outside world and everything, including pain, disappeared.

it is finally over......

...

........

.........

But this state of being completely unaware of everything lasted only a short time, how many seconds? Ten seconds? One minute?

have no idea--

【Ding! 】

Cheng Rang dared to use everything he had to guarantee that so far, it was definitely the most terrifying sound he had ever heard in his life.

[The protection mechanism of the novice training ground is activated, and the player died due to accidental behavior. 】

【Resurrecting....】

[Resurrection is complete, please continue your guidance mission. Please don’t be discouraged, keep working hard. 】

"Hehe...hehehehahahahaha! Hahahahaha

! ! "

"Please don't get discouraged? I'll fuck you!"

That was also the beginning of all unwillingness and helplessness, the bud of darkness, and the seeds sown by despair.

.....

After this unforgettable death——

"Secret Slash, One Style!"

Bang...

Current novice goal completion level (**

**/10) Not completed.

The trembling blade turned away from the wrist and pressed against the chest.

laugh!

【HP-1】

[Remaining blood volume: 9/10]

.....

Collapse, destruction, collapse, destruction, collapse, destruction....

This is an almost endless reincarnation and cycle, like the endless purgatory at the end of this world.

And Cheng Rang was the only one in this world.

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"You just keep going like this until I show up~"

He opened his arms and seemed to be hugging Cheng Rang, who was sitting within the beam of light, helping him recall everything before.

"We quickly became friends and talked about everything. It was such a wonderful time~"

In the endless cycle of loneliness, pain, collapse, and death, Cheng Rang finally heard a second voice that was not controlled by his mind and recognized by his consciousness.

At that time, Cheng Rang even regarded him as his salvation.

"Don't cry, don't be sad, don't give up, leave it all to me." His tone was gentle and filled with endless compassion.

"Forget it, forget what you want to forget, and then give all the rest to me." He could understand his pain.

"I will bear it for you." He shared everything with himself without any complaint.

Cheng Rang knelt down on the ground, hugging his head and crying towards the unclear figure in front of him.

"--I want to go home!"

But he was obviously able to share all the pain with him and accompany him in loneliness, but he was silent about this request.

"I want to go home..."

He gently stroked Cheng Rang's head, enlightening and comforting him with a gentle tone.

"Don't cry, forget it...forget those memories that make you feel painful."

The picture began to fade and disappear in my mind, like a wet scroll that was slowly washed away and blurred by water.

My own home, my own friends, my favorite things, my relatives, the most important people, the girl I secretly like——

Everything about being a human being.

The most precious memory...

Everything was shining with beautiful light, disappearing like broken glass.

"Mother...."

The figure with slightly hunched shoulders and a thin body that supported this broken family began to disappear along with the tears streaked on Cheng Rang's cheek.

At that moment, the tears slid down the cheeks little by little, the memories disappeared little by little, and it was about to be completely shattered.

Cheng Rang pushed him away with all his strength——

Pushed away the figure.

"No!"

I don't want to be a person with nothing, that would be too empty...

The forgotten memories formed a hole and focused on his chest, making Cheng Rang feel trembling and cold.

It made him feel extremely frightened.

"I'm just an ordinary person."

"Are you scared?"

"..."

"I'm just scared."

He stared at himself, then sighed inaudibly.

"But if you don't forget it, you will always have pain, and it will only become more and more painful. You don't want that."

Cheng Rang lowered his head and looked at the long white knife that fell to his hand.

"I do not want."

"Then leave it all to me..."

Cheng Rang grasped the handle of the knife tightly again and lifted himself up from the ground.

"Feel sorry."

There was surprise in his eyes.

"....I regret."

Cheng Rang pushed away the figure blocking him.

"What I'm more afraid of than pain, loneliness, and all that... is forgetting who I am - and then living like a zombie without any goals, or dying. Just like that, Nothing at all....."

just like you.

Men remain young men until they die, and young men long for a glorious and passionate life and a death surrounded by everyone like a hero.

"So I have to carry everything next."

"But here, what is your goal? You have nothing, and your efforts are useless-"

The young man named Cheng Rang raised his lips and raised the long knife in his hand to point at the wooden stake that appeared in the middle of the training ground.

"Do you see this string of numbers?"

[Current novice goal completion degree (**

**/10) Not completed. 】

He stared at the young man's figure and nodded indiscernibly.

Then Cheng Rang's voice echoed in the empty training ground, and he said loudly:

"I just want to see how many times it takes to chop this thing that drives me crazy! How many times does it take to fill it up to the point where it can no longer get any closer!"

"Before I can make it crazy, broken, and a complete mess..."

"—I won't even stop."

"no way."

Chapter 58: Stepping on the shadows, walking against the light

A whole boundless

In the center of the dark world, Cheng Rang sat on a chair and stared calmly outside the beam of light, sometimes begging, sometimes persuading, and sometimes falling into madness, but he could not get close to his other self.

"Talk to me!"

The light wall was beaten loudly by him, and in the twisted expression, the pair of shining black and red eyes looked expectantly at the man sitting in it.

"I'm so lonely by myself... Please, please pay attention to me..."

"Come out, let's play the game of chopping wood together like before."