I Dumped Her Not Knowing That She Was My Favorite

051. cowardice

I look back at the text message I received yesterday.

[ah. brother. I have to go to school early tomorrow, so I’ll go first.

Monday morning.

After washing my hair, I wiped off the remaining water with a towel.

Obviously, the body that had been like a stone until yesterday seemed to be completely healed now.

After drying your hair with a hair dryer, stand in front of a mirror.

“Haa… I should have confessed that day…”

Somehow, thanks to Doa’s visit to my house, I was able to give her a gift, but I was in no condition to confess.

And even if you could do it, it would look ugly…

No matter how much I said I had no dating experience, I didn’t think I would want to be confessed to by a man wearing a loose T-shirt.

So how do you confess…

When I think about it again, there was no occasion or adari like a birthday.

me. can i do it well

The price of skipping a special day was that I artificially created a special atmosphere.

I finished worrying on the way and wanted to leave quickly, so I hurriedly put on my coat and went out the front door.

As November drew near, the colorful leaves began to fall on the streets.

If I had gone with Doa, I would have been talking about how beautiful this is.

Certainly, seeing that I felt sorry for these things, I could see that my feelings for Doa had solidified.

If it was the way it was, it was because I was walking while watching Luka clips with my hoodie on and earphones on.

I wanted to see Doa.

Shall we talk about having lunch together?

Arriving at the classroom, I eagerly rolled my eyes to find Doa.

Where the hell are you sitting?

I thought he would have arrived earlier than me because he said he had something to do at school, but I couldn’t find Doa.

“mind! Taemin Han!”

As I continued to look around, Yunje beckoned me to come and sit down.

“high.”

“Why don’t you sit down and then stand there?”

Putting down my bag, I openly asked Yoon-jae about his business.

“Doa. Didn’t you see?”

“Doah Kim? I guess you didn’t come?”

“…okay?”

It’s time for the lecture to start soon, so why aren’t you coming?

As I kept my eyes on the door as if I were a manger, Yoon-jae tapped my elbow.

“Look at this. mister.”

“why?”

“Are you really dating Kim Do-ah?”

Yunjae’s playful question.

“no.”

“Just looking at the reaction, it seems like we’re already a couple.”

I didn’t really deny it.

If I had only been in shape over the weekend, we could have actually been a couple.

When I didn’t answer, Yun-je stimulated me even more.

“hey. But Taemin. Did you like a girl like Doa? I’ve been looking at the girls you’ve been looking at and wondering how high these bastard eyes are.”

oh really.

Who will save the sentient beings who are mad at this woman?

I was conscious of the fact that the students from the same department were also sitting in front of me, so I said just one word.

“Albano.”

“Wow. Look at what this bastard is talking about.”

that’s what i want to say to you

In the end, I looked at the front door until just before the professor came in, but I couldn’t find Doa.

It was the moment I wanted to text him.

“Doah Kim.”

The professor who started calling attendance.

I thought Doa’s name would pass through…

“yes.”

At Doa’s unmistakable voice, I turned my head and looked behind me.

Wearing a gray hoodie and a ball cap, Doah was sitting at the end of the back row.

I don’t think it was there when I first came in, did you come in through the back door?

When I turned my head to the front again, Yoon-je smiled, as if the mischievousness had stirred up again.

“There it is. Doa.”

“I saw it too.”

After class, I decided to go and say hello to Doa, so I concentrated on the lecture.

It was right after the midterm exam, so the professor didn’t intend to make it long, so the class lasted about an hour and then I quickly packed my things.

“Do you want to eat lunch together?”

“no.”

After rejecting Yoonje’s offer like a knife, I immediately lifted my bag and turned around…

where did you go

It seemed like Doa had left before me, even though she had packed her bags before the words, ‘Let’s finish today’s class.’

But wondering if that was possible, I went there myself and asked the kid sitting next to Doa a question.

“I…”

As soon as I started talking to her, she was startled.

It was a friend whom I had seen on the way, but whose name I did not know.

“yes?”

“When did the kid sitting next to you leave?”

“You slipped out about five minutes before the end of class?”

why? Why did you leave with 5 minutes left?

“thank you.”

I bowed my head slightly and left the classroom.

It could be because of my mood, but for some reason, today’s Doa seemed a bit strange.

* * *

I was originally like this.

too scared I hate getting hurt too.

I didn’t have the confidence to face my brother at all, so I made an excuse and refused to meet him.

Even in the classroom, I was afraid to run into them, so I left class 5 minutes early pretending to go to the bathroom.

Upon returning home, I turned on the computer and accessed the voice code.

The only one who is online today is Han Bit, who is unemployed.

The rest of the older sisters looked like they were either going to school or working.

[sister.]

[yep]

A reply that comes straight like a knife.

[Can I talk to you right now?]

[why? Are you talking about that guy again?]

[yes. But I think it’s a bit messed up.]

[OMG. why ruin? Wasn’t the atmosphere nice?]

[That’s right, but…]

oh I wanted to explain this by hitting the chat for some years, but I just made a phone call.

[hello.]

[My sister…]

[Why are you crying again?]

Hearing the unnie’s voice laughing so hard made me feel more emotional.

[My brother knew everything.]

[…yes? What?]

[no! I knew that oppa or Luka!]

[OMG. How do you know?]

When I told her the story from going to my brother’s house the other day to checking the computer, my sister cleaned it up.

[So. Do you think he approached you knowing that you were Luca?]

[…maybe?]

Other than that, I thought there was no reason for my brother to pay attention to me.

[Hmm…]

Hanbit was silent for a while as if she was thinking about something.

[But it’s Luca.]

[…yes.]

[The reason he likes you is Luca, so it can’t be right?]

So if you think that oppa likes me because he’s a pingtukdan…

[…I don’t know.]

There was definitely a gap between Doa Kim and the character Luca, the virtual idol.

If Luca asked if I wasn’t me, that wasn’t the case, but I thought it would be unreasonable to substitute my brother’s liking for Luca as liking me.

[Actually, it doesn’t sound like the guy you’ve heard of is just playing with you, right?]

[…yes.]

The tip of her gaze is directed toward the lamp that her brother bought for her.

oh Seeing that it’s pink too, it’s kind of disrespectful.

[If he were really your fan, I think there would be something good about it, right?]

[When things went well, you whined about what if he didn’t like Vtuber.]

Certainly, it seemed that I had been consulted in that way last week.

[If you’re a fan of yours, there’s no need to explain that, isn’t it a piece of cake?]

[no. sister. But according to common sense, someone like an older brother is a virtuber. Is there any reason to see custom virtubers for hardcore fuckers?]

I didn’t quite imagine that.

no. His face is so handsome, does it make sense to stare at it all day?

[I don’t know. It’s me. That’s something for you to go and find out now.]

[…yes?]

Should I go and find out?

[Lukatan. Listen carefully.]

I swallowed my saliva at the somewhat subdued voice of Hanbit.

[What do you think is the reason couples usually fight the most?]

that’s it…

[Cheating? Or what… You didn’t keep your promise, didn’t you?]

[No no. There are such bold things, but usually there are more serious and common problems than that.]

[What?]

I was curious about the content.

[It’s when the two of you don’t communicate properly.]

[I’ve been in a relationship a few times, and I hear a lot about the people around me.]

[But most of the problems are caused by the two of them not talking properly.]

[There is such a thing. I did this because I did this, but why do you accept it this way?]

[Then do you know what the most popular answer is?]

[Why are you saying that now?]

[It’s just that they’re afraid to fight because they misunderstand each other over something that’s nothing.]

[If the two of you have talked enough, you’ll be angry, and the fire will spread because you didn’t say a few words to end it.]

Hanbit, who had been speaking passionately, let out a deep sigh.

[So Lucatan.]

[yes.]

[Go and ask honestly.]

[…it’s scary.]

Even after hearing the story, the fear did not dissipate.

[There is nothing that can be solved by sitting alone for 100 days, wondering.]

[And if you really want to do well with him, it was also a problem that you had to address in the end.]

stop hitting

Sister, stop hitting me with facts.

[ah. And this is a story that tells you not to be too scared, but…]

I thought it would be comforting to say the least, but that was my mistake.

[you. If he had a really bad heart, it would have already ended?]

I had no answer to my sister’s words.